A/N: hides behind something solid Don't kill me! I know it's been awhile and I am truly and completely sorry!! I was kinda outta ideas and I didn't know where I wanted to take this. My email has been mean so I haven't been able to reply to any emails sent. I'd like to take a moment to thank my lovely reviewer. So thank you all. This is kinda a filler chapter, and I'm sorry for the delay.

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Rain's POV

"The end? The end of what exactly? The end of me?" I asked, trying to keep a tremble from my voice. Why couldn't they just let me die? It would've been easier... on them... and me.

"Rain, we realize that you just wanted to protect us. We realize that you think there's no other way. But that's what's holding us back. Our fear that we'll lose you. We have to find another way, and we won't stop until we do!" Yumi said firmly.

"I realize I have no choice but to succumb to your request. Think about it though; what am I but a grain of salt in the desert. There's a much bigger cause, a reason, one we don't know about. We can't play God!" I shook my head trying to clear the sorrow that filled it.

"You can't play God either! Whether you realize it or not, that's what you were doing. You can't kill yourself! If you were meant to die, you would!" Odd shouted, his tone filled with agony. "You're stronger then this Rae. Don't let him get to you like this."

I flinched. He was right, I realized. I bowed my head, "I"m sorry..." I stood from where I was sitting. "I guess I haven't been myself since XANA attacked me. I guess it just... made me realize how much of a threat to y'all I can be. I just don't want you all to be in danger... because of me."

"We realize that. This is what conclusions we've drawn. One: We will not let you kill yourself. Two: We will not abandon you. Three: We will find an alternate way to get rid of XANA. Four: Rain is not allowed weapons. Five: Rain is not allowed to try and be honorable and heroic in a stupid manner. Meaning, you cannot kill yourself. Do we have that part clear?" Odd smiled.

"Aww, no weapons? How on earth will I survive?" Rain feigned terror.

"There, that's a bit more like the Rae I know and love." Odd smiled, a look of relief crossed his face.

"I'm sorry I worried y'all like that. I promise I won't do anything stupid." I smiled slightly. "Or at least I won't do anything Odd wouldn't do."

"Hey, what's that supposed to mean?" Odd asked defensively. I just stuck my tongue out at him.

"Yep, she's back to normal Rain now. Let's hope she stays back though." Yumi muttered the last part.

I smiled, but I still had a feeling of dread that had followed me since early childhood. It was the reason I tended to look distant and sad... I guess I am kinda distant and sad though. Deep down I think I'll always be a bit distant and sad, and I can't explain why. I mean, I'm extremely happy with Odd... but there's always this part of me that has this small nagging feeling of sadness. And I curse that feeling.

"Why don't we get something to eat, I'm starving!" Odd exclaimed.

"Odd, you're always hungry!" We all replied laughing.

He gave an indignant half-glare, but we could tell he didn't mean it.

"I guess we can go get something to eat, if we have to." I rolled my eyes, as Odd jumped up saying "Yes!" quite loudly.

We all set out to find somewhere to eat.

"And so since Odd insisted on this, I say he should pay for us all." Yumi smirked.

"Hey! That's not right, you guys! I don't have that much money." He whined.

"Just kidding, Odd." Yumi laughed, the rest joined us. Except Odd... who didn't like the idea. I smiled at him, and he automatically smiled a genuine smile. He poked me and ran in front.

"HEY!" I shouted running after him. "Don't poke me!!"

"That wasn't very smart, Odd. She doesn't like to be poked. She will kill you." Yumi said amused.

"Hey, now. I'm too young to die." I tackled him to the ground.

"No poke the Rain. Got that?" I said slightly threatening. His face reflected shock. I stuck my tongue out at him. "I win."

Odd turned to the others, "Was she always this energetic? Or is this new?"

"She wasn't quite this energetic, but close... when she wasn't depressed... which made it a rare occurrence..." Yumi trailed off.

My smile faltered. Not many knew that I'd been depressed all the while. I guess it's something I got good at hiding. The others looked a little shocked to know that I'd been depressed for a while, but I tried to shrug it off. I didn't want anyone to worry. I stood up and off of Odd, realizing that I still had him pinned. I turned around one more time to poke my tongue out at him. They laughed at my childish antics, but I could tell they were worried about me.

"Come on, let's go eat." I smiled.

Odd's stomach growled. "About time!" He laughed.

"Let's eat ramen!" I suggested.

"What's ramen?" Ulrich asked.

"It's kinda like a noodle soup, but I could live off of it!!" I replied happily.

"Well, we might as well try it." Jeremie said.

I smiled as we walked to a food place, the name of which I can't remember. I could tell the others were keeping an eye on me, I guess I shouldn't be surprised after my suicide attempt. I'm glad they don't know that that wasn't my first try... ANYWAYS!

"Hey, Rain." Yumi's voice snapped me out of my thoughts.

"Hmm?"

"We're ready to go." She laughed at my absent-minded-ness.

"Oh..." was all I replied.

Yumi's POV

I looked a little worried I could tell. She seemed so out of it, and it made me wonder what would make her so spaced. She stood and paid for her portion. She flashed me a huge smile, but her eyes gave her away. They still held fear. The fear that she would hurt someone close to her.

"Come on Yumi, let's go!" she grabbed my wrist and led me out the door. The others were waiting outside. I could tell she'd never admit something was wrong. She was just too stubborn for that.

"So when's the next movie night?" Rain asked.

"Hmm... Saturday?" Ulrich said unsure. He looked to me.

"I'll ask my parents." I supplied.

"Yay!" Rain cheered.

The rest of the walk was mostly silent. It hadn't seemed like it, but the days were passing quickly. Rain walked beside me just as quietly. Even Odd was quiet. I guess it's the aftermath of Rain's attempt, and how quickly she seemed to bounce back. Is she repressing her feelings so that we don't worry? A soft sigh was hear beside me. I looked over to see Rain with her guard down for just a second, before she perked back up. A slight smile played on her lips, but her eyes were downcast. The others didn't really seem to notice. A soft sigh escaped my lips as well. Why couldn't Rain just except their help?

"You alright Yumi?" Rain asked.

"Yea, I'm just thinking, that's all. Are you alright thought?" I replied.

A sad smile twitched on her lips, her eyes adverted. Only I seemed to notice it though. She quickly replaced it with a wide grin and replied cheerily, "Perfectly fine."

"Liar." I muttered just loud enough for her to hear.

Odd's POV

I had watched Rain all throughout the time we were eating. She seemed so distracted. Something wasn't right, I could just tell. I couldn't identify what though. The walk back was long and silent as night began to fall. I glanced at her and saw her looking at the stars, a slight smile on her face, but her eyes were solemn. I couldn't help but wonder: Had we ever known the real Rain? Saturday won't come quick enough, when I could monitor her closer and try to figure out what's wrong.

I feel sorta bad for putting Rain under a microscope. Maybe we should just flat out ask her if everything's alright... Then again, she could be stubborn and lie. She always was a stubborn girl. If only she would open up...

"Rain, I'd like to talk to you. Over there. Odd, you come to." I turned towards Yumi and saw her pointing away from the group as she spoke.

"Alright." Rain said. I nodded and followed them away.

"Rain, you've been acting weird. I want the truth, what's wrong?" Yumi said gently.

"I've noticed it too." I said, laying a hand on Rain's shoulder. She looked away.

"I've got a lot on my mind." she said quietly.

"Would you like to tell us about it?" Yumi asked.

"Not particularly."

"Alright, we'll ask again on Saturday, at movie night, is that ok?" I proposed, wanting to give Rain the time she desired.

"I guess, since I can't get outta you guys asking me." she laughed softly. "Though you'd probably be better off not knowing.

Saturday-Yumi's House- Movie Night- Rain's POV

Saturday came all too quickly for me, and I was little prepared for their questions. I never

had been prepared to tell them...

We sat down and watched Finding Nemo. (a/n come on who doesn't love Finding Nemo?)

Our fun was cut short by Jeremie's laptop's beeping. In a way, I was relieved. A distraction was perfect to keep their questioning eyes from me, but XANA isn't exactly what I intended. We stood and abandoned Nemo to run to the factory. On our way, we ran into a bit of... trouble.

XANA had possessed Jim and he had found us.

"You guys head to the factory, I'll hold him off." Odd shouted.

"But Odd-" I started.

"Relax Rae, I've done this a million times." He laughed, "I'll keep the damage minimum so that we don't need a return."

"Alright, let's go." Ulrich said as he started running again.

We quickly made it to the factory.

"I'll stay on earth so that if Odd needs me I can go, but if you guys need me, I can go to Lyoko too."

"Alright." Jeremie replied. "Get down to the scanner room, you guys. We need to work with speed."

They raced to the scanner room and were quickly virtualized.

"I see the tower Jeremie!" Aelita exclaimed.

"Good." Jeremie replied. "XANA only sent 3 crabs, so that should be easy."

"She's in the tower Jer." Ulrich said not five minutes later.

"Tower Deactivated." Aelita said shortly after.

"Alright, get ready to come back." he said. And so... they came back.

"Let's go check on Odd." I said worriedly. They nodded and we quickly run to where we last saw him. It was there that we found him-and Jim-both unconscious. Odd was badly hurt and was bleeding slightly.

"He should be alright." Jeremie said.

Yumi glanced at me and muttered, "This can't be good."

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