An unexpected feeling
Chapter 11
"The conversations"
The next day, Patricia woke up in Terry's arms. She looked at the watch; it was 5 am in the morning. She left Terry's arms with regrets to go to her room.
- I don't like it when you abandon me in the morning, said Terry half asleep
- It's for Sean.
- He won't know.
- Terry… we've discussed it… children remember everything
Patricia left the room, she went to check on Sean and went back to her bedroom. She went to bed and thanked her grandmother for her biblical advice…
She kneeled to pray… and she asked for forgiveness for her slutty behaviour she had had since Alistair's death. Her grandmother wouldn't have been proud of her. She had to repent and put some order in her life… She followed her advice, last night with the biblical verse and it worked well… Maybe she should follow the bible? She was going to talk to Terry about it when she wakes up…
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A few hours later, she heard Sean's voice talking to his daddy.
- Mummy is still asleep?
- Yes, she's tired…
Patricia smelled the bacon and eggs and she woke up to brush her teeth and throw up, then she went to the dining groom in their suite and she found her two men at the table.
- Good morning mummy! Said Sean.
- Good morning honey, said Patty kissing him on the forehead.
- Good morning Patty, said Terry
- Good morning Terry, said Patricia
- You're not kissing her? Asked Sean
Patricia approached Terry and she kissed him on the forehead.
- Bacon and eggs! ! She said, I'm starving!
- I heard you regurgitating, said Terry
- That's normal when I brush my teeth.
They had to find a way to tell Sean that they were going to have a baby. They wanted to tell him after the wedding. So they were trying to speak in codes in front of him.
- Is everything all right?
- Everything is fine Terry.
- We're going to go see Rosemary today too? Asked Sean
- You want to see her again? Asked Terry
- Looks like it's love at first sight for Candy's daughter, said Patty
- Looks like it, indeed, said Terry smiling
He looked at Patricia. Sean took his tablet and went to play in the living room, leaving his parents alone.
- You have to talk to Candy, you know that right?
- I wanted to talk to her last night, but after hearing you two talking…
- Thanks for telling me what was going on.
- My grandmother always told me, don't let the sunset on your anger… it seems that's the secret of a long marriage.
- What happens when we sleep angry?
- The enemy is going to take advantage to harden our heart… and make the anger last longer
- It comes from the bible?
- Ephesian 4-26… she said citing the bible, I realised that my behaviour wasn't really good since Alistair's death… Until our incident…
- It made you change your ways
- If I hadn't gotten pregnant by you, I would've repented…Until… I don't know when. Thanks for saving me Terry.
- I'm not sure I've saved you, by making love to you…
- Instead of a Gang bang?
- I was afraid to disappointing you, but a sin is still a sin, gang bang or individual, it's fornication…
- When you say it like that. I feel so dirty…
- I'm going to make an honest woman out of you
- My grandmother will be so disappointed with my behaviour…
- Your grandmother loves you
- I love her too… I would like to do something so she's proud of me… she's going to learn sooner or later what's going on in my life…
- Like what? What would you want to do?
- Like abstinence until we get married
- Ok, said Terry looking at her surprise, that's not too drastic?
- Not more drastic than living your room before Sean wakes up every morning as sees us Can you do that for me?
- It's going to change something?
- Admit that our relationship started backwards, the gang bang wouldn't have stopped me… it's waking up in your bed that opened my eyes…
- I say, there's a reason for everything…
- Maybe I had to finish in your bed to wake up from the nightmare I was living since Alistairs's death. And this baby, had to put me back on track…
- I had a very liberal life, like all the stars and I was barely taking care of my son… you came and I got closer to Sean…
- Looks like we saw each just in time… and we chose to do what's best for Sean and for the baby… we could've continued with our lives of debauchery … thank you Terry, without you, I wouldn't have known who the father of my baby was… because I would've woken up after a gang bang and I would've continued my partying at night… Oh my God.
- I repeat, there's a reason for everything… you're welcome Patricia
- So, abstinence until the wedding?
- It's in a few days anyway…
- Even if it was next year…
- We would've negotiated
- No Terry, either we sin of we don't sin…
- I can do it for a few days… Thank God! Said Terry laughing.
Patricia smiled. Terry had trouble not making love to her? Like he read her mind, he stood up and kissed her on the lips.
- I love having you inmy bed, don't dought it.
Patricia smiled. Her cell phone rang, it was grandma Martha.
- Hello grandma?
- Patricia…what's that I'm hearing? You're going to have a baby with Terrence Grandchester?
- Oh grandma, I'm sorry, I should've called you…
- You should've… you know what it does to learn something like that on television? That's the kind of story that happens to others, to celebrities, not my granddaughter!
- I know grandma…
- Terrence Grandchester, isn't that Candy's former love?
- Yes…
- Oh Patricia… how could you? Isn't she your best friend?
- It's a long story… I will tell you when I see you
- You're going to get married?
- Yes…
- Good, he better take his responsibilities…
- And he has a son…
- You're going to have a son then?
- And you a grandson…
- When are you getting married
- In a few days…
- You're already living together?
- Only to escape the paparazzi… you're coming to my wedding right? I can't get married without you…
- Of course I'm going to come…
- Thank you grandma. I'm sorry again for the news… goodbye Grandma.
- Good bye honey. I love you.
- I love you too grandma.
- I'm going to come with your parents… the only positive thing was to see their reaction in front of their friends… It was priceless! They're probably going to call you…
- Finally?
Her parents never really took care of her. Her grandmother was the only one to care about her. She had everything she needed, except her parents' affection. She told herself she was going to make sure her baby know she loved him more than anything in the world.
- They love you in their own way, I suppose, said her grandmother, I'm going to bring them to your wedding kicking and screaming if I have to!
- I love you grandma, said Patricia laughing
She hung up and Terry was looking at her.
- Is your grandma all right?
- She's fine… and she's going to come to the wedding with my parents…
- Shouldn't I ask for your hand officially to your father?
- My parents don't care about me…
- I know how you feel, but I think they love you in their own way…
- Grandma told me the same thing.
- Mine too, I can say they don't care about me…
- You mother loves you…
- I was angry wither, because when I went to look for her, she rejected me… Candy was the one who convinced me to give her another chance… in Scotland…
- Oh…
- And my father… you know everything I did in college was to get his attention…
- No!? Really?! I never would've guessed! Said Patricia ironically
- And I neglected my own won… I didn't learn my lesson…
- You made up for it.
- Thanks to you… Thank you Patricia…
He approached her and he kissed her on the lips. She kissed him back. They had found each other in a time when they both needed someone, they needed each other…
They got ready and they went to the manor, because little Sean wanted to see Rosemary and Patricia had to speak to Candy… she was a little nervous in the car. Terry was trying to reassure her.
- Everything is going to be fine…
- You seem sure of yourself
- You know, I've learned to live with what life has given me… Whatever happens, I'm going to be there for you and our baby…
- And I'm going to be there for Sean and you
- Good luck with Candy.
- You're not afraid we end up in a cat fight?
- I trust you, you wouldn't put the life of our baby in danger…
- You are right…
They got in the manor and little Rosemary ran to greet them.
- Sean! Sean! She said, you came back!
- Yes, I came to see you before we leave…
- You're leaving?
- Yes, I'm going back to New York…
- That's where you live?
- Yes… You can come to see us… you can come to mummy and daddy's wedding…
- Really?
The little girl's eyes lit up of joy and she turned to her to see if her mommy was coming.
- Can I mommy? Can I go to New York to the wedding?
- We'll see Rosemary, said Candy, hello Terry, Patty and Sean
- Hello Candy, said Patty smiling
- Hello Candy, said Terry
- Hello auntie Candy, said Sean
- Come Sean, let's go play! Said Rosemary taking him by the hand.
Candy looked at them go smiling.
- The others are in the living room , said Candy
- I'm going to go there, said Terry looking at Patty
- Candy? Said Patricia
- Yes?
- Can I talk to you?
- Of course Patty…
They both walked to Albert's office, they got in and they closed the door. They looked at each other.
- How are you? Asked Candy
- I'm fine…
- Morning sickness?
- Only in the morning when I wake up
- I hated that, if I didn't throw up, I would feel bad during the whole day.
- Me too! Said Patty smiling.
There was a moment of silence. They went to sit on the couch which was in the little living room with Louis XIV style furniture.
- Candy, she said, I wanted to apologise if I hurt you…
- Patricia, I'm married…
- You know what I mean… I wanted to confined in you, you're my best frien, but I didn't know how to tell you…
- I can understand that…
- You have to know that I didn't go look for Terry…
- You're not Eliza, Patty…
- Ever since Alistair's death, I was out of control and I was doing nonsense, until I woke up in Terry's bed… So I understood the extent of what I was doing… I stopped it… Terry saved me. Without him I might have never known who the father of my baby was… I was literally a big fat whore. For once, Eliza was right.
- There were extenuating circumstances, Patty… I'm not going to lie to you. I didn't know you were with Terry and all of a sudden, I learn you're having his baby. I thought it was a bad joke… I couldn't imagine you with m… with Terry…
- Without the baby, I wouldn't have seen him again and I would've taken that secret to my tomb…
Candy looked at her friend. She realised how much she cared about her. Patricia was the first one to be her friend at St. Paul College, despite Eliza's schemings… They had lived so many things together. Patricia must've been tortured, thinking about her reaction. She was married to Anthony, her first love…
- Patricia, listen to me. I loved Terry, but destiny decided differently… I'm with Anthony now, my first love. I'm not saying that I don't love Terry, I will always love him, but he has to move on with his life and you too after Alistair. Don't worry about me, you're going to have Terry's baby, jealous or not, I can't change anything about the situation. But tell me, what are you feeling for Terry?
- He's a very good friend, said Patricia
- Just a friend?
- Euh yes…
She thought about the twinge of jealousy to Terry's reaction… She was falling in love with him…
- I don't want you to get hurt…
- Why? Because Terry only loves you?! She said suddenly
- That's not what I meant Patty, don't be so defensive…
- What are you insinuating then?
- I was just wondering if you were starting to love him a little…
- I love Alistair!
- We can love different ways, otherwise, I wouldn't be with Anthony you know…
- Well no. I love Alistair, I don't love Terry!
- All right, said Candy who didn't want to insist…
Terry wanted to see how the conversation was going, to make sure they were not having a catfight. So he heard Patricia's declaration. He couldn't help feel a twinge in his heart. She didn't love him? Wasn't she jealous of Candy yesterday? But she hadn't told him anything in fact, maybe he was the one assuming she was in love with him… They were only friends, right? Why did it bother him that much?
The two women continued talking.
- Excuse-me Candy, I didn't want to raise my voice, said Patricia
- No, I didn't want to make you upset…
- Terry is wonderful, he's a greal over… I don't need to tell you that.
- I'm not very comfortable talking about that with you, said Candy uneasy
- Still so prude? Said Patricia smiling
Being with Terry had showed her that her nightly partying were useless, and in the same time, he was Candy's ex…
- One day maybe Patty, said Candy, but not anytime soon. Good luck with the baby and congratulations on your engagement.
- You really mean that?
- I really mean it, said Candy.
Even if it was one of the most difficult things she's ever had to do, aside from leaving Terry to Susanna. But she had left Terry to Susanna, she could leave him to her best friend… But Terry wasn't hers anymore… She had to move on… it hurts. Terry and Patricia were going to be in her life and she will have to find a way to live with that.
- Let's go to the living room, said Candy
- Thanks Candy…
- You didn't need my permission Patty, it's your life…
- But you're my best friend and they often say that a friend's ex is a no-no…
- That's what they say… but we can always change the rules, right? Said Candy smiling.
They went to the living room and they found the others. Patricia looked for Terry with her eyes and he wasn't there. She got in and said hi to the others and carried her godson.