Here's the next chapter, I hope its okay. I am struggling a bit to write this so I think I'm going to wrap it up soon. Hope you enjoy :)

Sian threw her keys onto the kitchen counter hard before pacing the living room. Sophie rested against the closed front door, waiting for Sian to say something. Sian hadn't said a word since they had both found out that Sophie had slept with somebody else during their short separation but Sophie could tell that she was furious. Sian had always been a chatty person with a very bubbly personality and she was hardly ever quiet, Sophie knew that when she was, something was wrong.

And unfortunately, this time, Sophie knew that she would bear the brunt of Sian's temper.

"Four months Sophie!" Sophie flinched at the volume of Sian's voice when she finally spoke. "We were separated for four months and you already slept with somebody else."

"I don't…"

"Yeah I know." Sian's voice was still just as loud. "You don't remember anything."

"You can drop that accusing tone." Sophie shouted back. "It's not my fault I crashed. Not my fault I lost my memory. You should be grateful I did. Gave you another chance didn't it."

"Don't you dare turn this back around on me."

"Oh I'm sorry, do you not like being reminded that you're a liar and a manipulative one come to that." Sophie bit back.

"You're the one in the wrong here!" Sian shook her head in anger. "I may have lied but at least I didn't sleep with somebody else when we were married." Sian shouted before she started to laugh. "And to think you accused me of cheating on you. Don't you just love irony?"

"We were separated Sian…I didn't cheat on you."

"We were still married Sophie." Sian said. "The divorce wasn't finalised, so yeah, you cheated." Sian closed her eyes and turned her back on her wife. "Four goddamn months. What you missed sex that much you jumped into bed with the first person who looked at you?"

"I don't know Sian." Sophie shouted back. "I can't remember."

"I can't believe you."

"Oh yeah because I'm the villain in this story." Sophie said making Sian turn back around. "So I guess that makes you the good guy. We'll just forget about the lying, the betrayal and the fact that you didn't act like my wife when we were married." Sophie counted each thing on her fingers. "We'll let you be the martyr…the one who doesn't do anything wrong."

"That is not what I'm saying." Sian stated. "Sure I've done some bad things but I was always faithful to you."

"So if I had lied to you about getting a divorce, we wouldn't be having this conversation."

Sian narrowed her eyes at Sophie. "You seem to be forgetting that one of the reasons you filed for that aforementioned divorce was because you didn't trust me. Oh how the tables have turned."

"I can't remember." Sophie said.

"No," Sian said as she faced Sophie again. "You were probably drunk right." Sian opened her mouth in preparation for hurling another load of insults at Sophie before she thought of something and the thought of it made her sick to her stomach. "Wait a minute; I'm jumping the gun here. That slut never said when you slept together."

"So..." Sophie asked, although she knew full well what Sian was implying.

"So I'm just presuming you slept with her when we were separated. Did you sleep with her when we were married?"

Sophie's head snapped up and her heart ached as she saw how broken her wife looked. Her previous state of anger had been replaced with sadness and worry. "No!"

"What about when we were fighting?" Sian asked quietly. "We were in a rough patch for months. I mean like you said, I was never here. Was it then?"

Sophie wanted to be able to put an end to the thoughts that Sian would be having but she couldn't. "I can't remember." Sophie said honestly. "I wouldn't have cheated on you though."

Sian scoffed. "You thought I did." She said. "Maybe you wanted to even out the playing fields."

"Do you really think I'm that spiteful?"

"Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned." Sian said rubbing her eyes furiously. This was the second argument the pair had had today and Sian was becoming tired of it all. Love shouldn't be this hard. Love should be simple. It should be easy. But it's anything but.

"I can't believe you."

"Four months." Sian stated before she stood in front of Sophie, close enough to feel the other girl's breath on her face. "Why?" She shouted the question in Sophie's face and Sophie flinched at the ferocity in her wife's tone. "I'm going to assume it happened when we were separated because if it didn't, you are not the person I fell in love with. So I want to know why."

Sophie shook her head. "I've never seen that girl before today; I met her for the first time just like you. I found out that I slept with her for the first time just like you. I'm in the dark just as much as you." Sophie explained. "Do you know what it feels like to not remember anything for a large period of time? Every day I learn something new, we were separated and now apparently I've cheated."

"So you admit you cheated now."

"I didn't have a wife anymore Sian, I was free and single." Sophie admitted, resting against the kitchen counter although as soon as the words left her mouth she wanted to take them back.

"For the last time, we were still married Sophie!" Sian shouted before focusing on what Sophie had said. "And just so you know, I don't want you to be free and single. I want us to be together."

"I know that." Sophie said quietly.

"I don't want you to leave, even after finding out about that girl; I still want to work on us." Sian said. "I know I lied but you will always be it for me. It's up to you whether I'm it for you."

"I want you Sian." Sian nodded and a ghost of a smile filled her lips. "And I want us to be together but you have to understand, it's going to take time before I trust you again." And just like that, her smile disappeared.

"You don't trust me?" Sian asked. "Sophie, are you forgetting what we're arguing about? You're the one that had sex with somebody else."

"We weren't together." Sophie exclaimed.

"I just...I don't understand why you can't trust me when I'm the one that has been completely faithful to you. When we were separated, I didn't even look at another woman."

"Well bully for you for being faithful, shame you couldn't be honest."

"Fine I lied. We know that now; shout at me all you want." Sian said throwing her hands up in the air. "Because I lied to you and now I'm always going to be in the wrong and you're never going to let me forget it."

"No..."

"No, you're right. Not always because right now, you're in the wrong." Sian stated, her eyes regaining some of their earlier fury. "So I'll ask again, why did you sleep with her?"

"Sian you know I can't remember. Why do you keep asking?"

"Because I want an answer." Sian screamed the words and Sophie stepped back as Sian slammed her palms against the kitchen counter. Sian watched out of the corner of her eye as Sophie took two steps back. She didn't mean to frighten her. "I'm sorry." Sian placed her hand against her forehead. "I'm so sorry."

Sophie swallowed knowing that Sian wasn't just apologising for losing her temper. She walked over to her wife and wrapped her up in her arms, both of them sinking to the floor. "It's okay." Sophie kissed Sian's forehead as her wife started crying into her chest.

"This is all my fault, everything." Sian mumbled. "I was a horrible wife, I made you leave me, it was my fault you were in an accident and it was my fault you slept with somebody else. I pushed you away for months; I'm surprised it took you that long to stray. I shouldn't have lied. I should have been a better wife." Sian pulled back so she could see Sophie. "I should have been the wife you deserve and I am so sorry."

Sophie stroked Sian's hair as the latter continued to cry. The flat was plagued by an eerie silence, Sophie soothingly saying 'it'll be okay' the only noise to be heard. She always hated seeing her wife upset, Sian was usually such a happy person, it was just her personality but when she was sad, any signs of her former personality disappeared. She became a shadow of her former self.

"Why are you sitting here?" Sian said as she pulled away from Sophie's hug once more.

"What?"

Sian wiped her eyes before sniffing. "After everything I've done, I don't deserve you, why are you here? After finding out what I did why haven't you filed for divorce again?" Sian asked. "I would have."

Sophie cupped her wife's cheek. "If it was anybody else, so would I. But what you said earlier, you're right. You're it for me, you're my soul mate Sian; I'm not giving on you. I'm not giving up on us. Besides, I'm in the wrong too."

"You're one of a kind."

Sophie laughed before smiling shyly. "Yeah, well so are you."

"Probably a good job. We wouldn't want a bunch of people running about the place ruining their marriages."

"Marriages end all the time." Sophie said softly. "The jump between simply being in a relationship to being married is huge. Why do you think everybody told us to wait until we were older? Remember we wanted to get married..."

"When we were 18." Sian interrupted. "We were going to wait until I had finished college and then go to Gretna Green. We weren't going to tell anyone but then..."

"Rosie found out because she found the ring." It was Sophie's turn to interrupt. "She basically interrogated us until we told her everything. There was no chance of us skulking off to Gretna Green once she knew. Then when our parents found out, I think that was the final straw."

"You're too young to get married, what happens if you break up? A wedding isn't just a day, it's a lifetime." Sian imitated what Sally had said to them.

"They all told us to wait till we were older and they were right." Sophie said. "Waiting until we were older worked. We had the money to afford a bigger wedding, we could invite everybody we wanted and we got to get married after months of planning instead of a one day trip to Gretna Green."

"Still messed it up though didn't I."

Sophie shook her head. "I seem to have blamed you for the reasoning behind the divorce but I have to accept fault too. It takes two to make a marriage work. I gave up and I shouldn't have." Sophie said. "I should have stayed and tried to fix us. I should have tried counselling."

Sian chuckled before looking around the living room. "I've always wondered what would have happened if you didn't give me the letter."

"And..."

"If you'd never given me that letter, I would have told you about the doctor's appointment." Sian explained. "If you'd never filed for divorce, one of us could have been pregnant right now. We could have been starting a family." Sian looked at me, her eyes holding worry and panic. "We're going to get through this right."

"Everything's a little bit more complicated now." Sophie said. "It's not just your lies that we need to get over, we have to deal with my infidelity."

"I forgive you for sleeping with her."

"What? How can you just forgive me?" Sophie asked. "Only minutes ago you were screaming at me."

Sian shrugged her shoulders. "What's the point in being angry? It only makes things worse. I could stay angry at you for the rest of my life but what would that achieve? I forgive you Sophie because I love you."

"I can't imagine my life without you."

"I don't have to be out of your life. Sophie it's up to you." Sian's mouth curled upwards slightly. "It's Sophie's choice."

It had been several hours since their argument and both women had retired to separate rooms in their flat. They had agreed to let everything simmer down before speaking again, giving both of them a chance to think. As soon as she'd closed the bedroom door she had remembered the girl. It was almost as if arguments triggered her memory. She remembered filing for divorce after her massive argument with Sian and now after yet another argument, she'd remembered something else.

"I'm going to be at home a lot more now Sophie. This promotion means I can spend less time in the office." Sian pleaded. "Things are going to change. If you just give us a couple more months, everything will be different. I promise you. We don't need to go ahead with the divorce."

Sophie sighed heavily before placing her hand against her forehead. "Yes we do."

"Why?"

"Sian..."

"Is this still because of Kelly? Do you still not believe me?" Sian asked, her eyes narrowing.

Sophie shook her head. "This isn't to do with Kelly."

"When you gave me the letter you said it was."

"Okay it is to do with Kelly but that's just a part of it Sian. Everything's just gone downhill far too quickly; I don't see a way back for us."

Sian bit her lip. "There is always a way back Sophie."

"Not this time." Sophie said and Sian could hear the sadness in her voice. That sadness gave her hope, hope that Sophie still felt something for her.

"What do you want me to do?" Sian asked. "Whatever you want, I'll do it. As long I get you, I will do whatever you want."

"Sian..."

"Do you want me to quit my job?" Sian questioned. "Because I will, you just say the word and I will quit tomorrow."

"That's not what I want. You love your job."

"I love you more."Sian grabbed Sophie's hand.

"Don't." Sophie shook her head.

"Sophie I love you."

Sophie pulled her hand out of Sian's grasp. "I can't." Sophie grabbed her keys from her bag before placing them in Sian's open palm.

"So this is it? We're over." Sian stated as she closed her palm. "We've been married for six years, together for ten. Are you seriously just going to throw all that away?"

"Don't try and make me feel guilty!" Sophie shouted. "This isn't my fault."

"I'm not the one who filed for divorce."

"I am not having this argument with you again Sian." Sophie said before fastening her coat.

Sian closed her eyes. When Sophie first handed her the letter she thought that she would be able to convince Sophie that a divorce wasn't necessary. She thought it was just Sophie blowing hot air, a threat nothing more but now she knew that wasn't the case.

"I'm sorry but we're over."

After their argument Sophie had gone to a club to drown her sorrows and it was there she met Louise. It started off as simple flirting but part of Sophie always knew that it would go further than that. When Louise bought her yet another drink, Sophie knew what would happen but she didn't stop it. She was too drunk and too upset to think properly and because of that, she made the biggest mistake of her life.

She slept with somebody who wasn't Sian.

Sophie contemplated telling Sian about what she remembered but she didn't want to hurt Sian anymore than necessary. She just wanted to forget about Louise and focus on the problems she was having with Sian.

Her wife.

Sophie threw herself back onto the bed, Sian's earlier words going round and round in her head. Sophie's choice.

In the book the character, Sophie, had to decide between her son and daughter. One would live and the other would die.

Now that is an impossible choice.

Sophie knew that her choice wasn't even in the same league as that, choosing whether or not to stay with Sian, well that's simple in comparison. She knew that Sian had simply used a play on words. Sophie loved Sian, that much she knew and she wanted to be with her in spite of the lies Sian spent the last few months telling her. She had decided to give Sian another chance, that was why they were having a drink together. But now Sophie felt enormous guilt for sleeping with somebody else and it made her wonder whether staying together was the right thing to do.

Sian had said she forgave it but surely she couldn't completely mean it. Can you ever truly forgive an unfaithful spouse?

She grabbed ten pence from her pocket before rolling it over in her hand. If only the decision could be as easy as the flip of a coin.

Heads, she stays with Sian.

Tails, she leaves.

Sophie flicked the coin in the air before covering it with the palm of her hand once it had landed. She lifted her palm and glanced at the coin.

Tails.