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Jacob POV

How do the Cullens do this everyday? Just sitting around doing nothing, it's exhausting. I flicked to the millionth channel when finally I heard her footsteps coming down the stairs. Finally my Nessie's awake.

"Good morning," I looked at her and realized that she was still in her pajamas. If you asked me a second a go, if resister could get any harder than it already is, I might have answered 'yes'. But right now, seeing her in really short shorts and the tight sleeveless shirt she was wearing, resisting her just got harder.

"You look good today," I sat up and switched off the T.V., who needed T.V. anyway?

"Thanks," she smiled back. And every time I think her smile couldn't get any more beautiful, she proves me wrong.

"You're welcome," I then realized how early it was, "why are you up so early, it's only 9AM?"

"I couldn't sleep anymore," she smiled and came and sat next to me. I could smell her intoxicating scent, now that she's this close.

"Hey, where is everyone?" she looked confused.

I completely forgot that we were alone, in this big house, with no Cullens. Okay maybe I shouldn't think about it that way. Maybe I should think about it as….baby sitting.

Yeah, baby sitting a 17 year old, who is looking more and more beautiful everyday and who I love and can't wait to be with for the rest of my life, both physically and mentally.

Okay, maybe that was a bad idea too.

"They went hunting late last night, they were planning on getting here before you got up, but I guess they didn't know you were getting up this early," I laughed, trying to shake off what ever it is that's making life really hard for me right now.

I leaned in and kissed her forehead, it's totally normal to kiss someone's forehead, no harm done, "you want something to eat?" Any distraction right now would be welcome.

"It's okay, I just want a nice warm cup of B. I can get it myself," she got up, off the couch and all I could do was follow, I don't think I could bare sitting alone in the living room, knowing that she's awake and that I could be around her.

I saw her walk to the freezer then, without opening the door, she walked to the microwave, opened it, then closed it again and pushed the buttons to heat up her cut of blood.

Just looking at her move around. With her long red, brown, wavy hair cascading around her, and I loved the fact that it was really long, that it reached her waist. But at that moment, the fact that I was following her hair, I starting taking in the shape of her body, and the way her waist moved from side to side as she waited for the breakfast to heat. How beautiful and graceful her movements were.

Okay, I have to stop thinking about all this, it's not like I can do anything about my feelings; it's not like I can just grab and her and tell her I love her in a different way then she realized. I desperately needed a change of subject.

"So what you doing today?" I asked, anything would be better then the silence.

"Oh, I completely forgot to tell you," she took another sip of her drink and looked back at me, "I'm going out with my friends from school," what? Since when did Nessie like having a girl's night, she hated it when Alice and Rosalie treated her like a doll. Okay, I'm confused. So she continued, "You know, Tony, Johnny, Schuyler and Oliver. I told you about them."

Wait. What? She's going out with boys? 3 of them? When did this happen? Okay, I tried thinking about this at every angle, but everything I thought about was the same. Boys touching her, the way I want to. Boys telling her they are head over heals about her, the way I wanted to. Everything these boys could do, might take her away from me.

"Wait a minute," I held up my hand, trying to clarify what she said, "you're going out with 3 boys?" I said them slowly, playing around with the words.

"Well yeah, but Schuyler is there too, so it's not only three boys. It's three boys and a girl," she answered back sounding a bit unsure and confused, "are you okay Jacob?"

I just sat there, staring at her, staring at the one person I am supposed to be with. What the hell is going on, "Jacob, stop staring! What's wrong?"

Now I'm angry. I'm angry at those idiots who think they can just come into her life and just ruin everything. I've waited for SEVENTEEN YEARS! They've only had a week with her, not even a week, 5 days and now they think that can just take her from me.

"What do you mean, am I okay? Of course I'm not okay!" I stood up and started pacing, anything would be better than just sitting there and looking at her, "you're going out with people who you hardly know and you just forgot to tell me!" I looked at her, how could she forget to tell me, how could something like this like slip her mind, "where are you going anyway?"

"Jacob, stop yelling at me. I'm not a child!" she shouted back with almost as much force as I had.

"Not a child! Not a child! You're going out with three high school boys! Do you have any idea what high school boys think about most of the time?! Do you know what goes on in their thick heads EVERYDAY!" just the thought made me want to kill them. How can they think about her like that when I am not allowed to think about her like that and I'm the one who can't live without her? I'm the one she's supposed to be with. How dare they?

"No, and I don't care! What's your problem! I thought you would be happy for me! Everyone else seems to be fine with it!" Happy about it? What the hell, how can I be happy about it?

And did she say everyone knew about it?

"Everyone knows about this?" I asked, but I didn't wait for an answer because I already knew it. The more I think about it, the angrier and furious I get, "so your father and mother knew about this but neglected to tell me!"

How could they do this to me, I just saw them last night. How could they not tell me when they knew everything? When they knew that she was my life? Are they trying to punish me because I started to feel passion toward their daughter? But that's not fair! They knew this would happen some day!

"Stop pointing the finger at other people! I still don't understand your reaction!"

I stopped pacing, and looked down at her, and when I saw her face, the face of my love, I got even angrier, she was supposed to be mine "I don't trust your guy friends! Which part of that don't you understand?!"

"I don't understand why you don't trust them! You haven't even met them! I don't understand why you're acting like this!"

Why doesn't she just understand? I can't stand her being alone with 3 boys I don't know, with only one girl on her side.

"I don't have to meet them to know what and how they think! And you're not going, that's final," I shouted, not being able to hold back my anger.

"Why don't you trust me?! When will you stop treating me like a 5 year old and start realizing that I'm old enough to make my own decisions! When are you going to stop babying me??!!"

If she had any idea how much I would love to stop treating her like a child, but right now it's the only thing that is keeping from grabbing her and kissing her with all my might and telling her I love her. Picturing her as a child and me as just a baby sitter is keeping me sane. But either way, whether that was the case or not, I don't want her near guys when she still doesn't know how I feel. It might be called cowardness but I'm not going to risk some high school boy who thinks he loves her, taking her away from me.

"Nessie, I said you're not to go. Discussion's over." I could feel the anger vibrating my whole body.

And just like that, my heart cracked. As I watched the tear run down her face. I felt all shred of anger being replaced with regret and sadness. "I really expected more from you," and that's when I felt my heart shatter into a million pieces. I've disappointed Nessie. I've disappointed the reason I live, the reason I breathe.

"Nessie," was all I could say. There were no words in this world that could describe how sorry I was.

She slowly raised her hand, but didn't say anything. She placed it one my face. And showed me how much I broke her heart and how much I let her down and disappointed her. She showed me what she thought of me right this moment.

Then her hand fell from my face and she walked away.

And that's when I felt my own tears run down my face. Tears of sadness, of longing, tears of love for her and hate for me. Tears of the feeling I've had to bottle inside me for the past couple week. Tears of frustrations. But most of all, they were tears of loss.

Because that's how I felt, I felt like I lost Nessie, that I lost my heart. That I lost my soul.