Sorry this has taken so long. Family birthdays, work and the only week of sun we're likely to have all year have kept me busy. That and it's actually taken a lot of re-writes to, I hope get this right. If it's not please do let me know.
Chapter 11
Jane and Maura lay by the fire, slowly exploring each other's bodies. Skin glowed in the firelight and eyes were a deeper hue, studying every curve and dip closely. Clothes were slowly removed Jane removing Maura's dress and ruined black satin underwear and Maura removing Jane's jeans t-shirt and purple lace underwear. Soft touches and caresses began to become more heated as light caresses became heavy presses and feather light kisses became pressured and insistent.
As Maura's hand ventured lower to Jane's hip she caught her wrist and brought her hand up to kiss her palm.
"Bed?"
Maura nodded. Jane stood and brought Maura up with her. She put her arms on Maura's lower back and instructed her to "hold on tight" as she lifted her. Feeling Jane's strong arms around her made Maura shiver, as the wetness that had been present since her last orgasm made contact with Jane's bare stomach. She wasn't going to be able to hold on much longer and Jane knew. But she didn't mind. They had all night. And she intended to spend every minute of it making love to the woman she loved.
As they walked up the stairs Maura's hips moved up and down against Jane's stomach and she could hardly breath by the time they got to the top.
"Jane sweetheart I need you, quickly, please"
Jane didn't hesitate. She knew they could play all night. Right now she needed to relieve the pressure Maura was feeling. She was all too familiar with it. It was one she'd felt in her lower abdomen for as long as she could remember now. What she'd once thought was just adrenaline and stress from work she'd now realised was more a mix of arousal and longing.
She pushed Maura against the nearest wall when they reached the top of the stairs, holding her up with one hand and her body as she slipped her second hand between them finding Maura wetter than she had been five minutes earlier. She didn't think that was possible and she groaned as she felt it.
"Jane please" Maura had a tear in her eye.
"It's ok Maur, I've got you"
Jane slipped her fingers forward and along Maura's folds circling her clit with her thumb. She moved lower to enter her but Maura shook her head against her shoulder.
"Ok baby ok" She got the message that Maura just needed her to relieve the pressure.
"I've got you baby, when you're ready let go, I'll always catch you"
Maura moved frantically against Jane's fingers begging for release. Jane changed the movement of her thumb and instead of circling she stroked from underneath Maura's clit onto the tender surface to bring some of Maura's wetness with her. Making her clit less sensitive with the wetness was just the push Maura needed. She fell apart in Jane's arms and breathed heavily into her shoulder as she came. When Jane felt a few more tears on her neck she gently moved both her hands so they were back under Maura's ass and looked into her eyes.
"Maur baby, if you cry every time we do this I'm going to have a bit of a problem believing you enjoy it"
Maura gave a very weak smile. "I'm sorry Jane. It just all feels a bit surreal, although I'm aware that is not an actual state but rather a psychological trick. I never believed we'd be here. I never thought the one person who finally made me feel like I fit in would be the one person who made me feel so alive and so desired"
Jane moved Maura away from the wall and continued to look at her as she walked them to the King size bed.
She lay Maura's naked form down on the bed and moved to lie beside her so they were almost one as Maura tangled her legs around hers and curled her body into hers resting an arm behind her neck and another on her stomach.
Jane turned to look at her. "Maura, I don't do emotions, you know me long enough to know that. I don't express what I feel. I keep it inside. The cop in me tells me it's weak to cry"
She saw Maura look hurt and try to wipe away her tears. She held her tighter.
"No not you Maur, not you, me. I'm the big sister. The badass cop. Remember all those things you said?"
Maura nodded.
"I am all those things; big bad Detective Jane Rizzoli. But behind it all there was a little part of me I kept for you. A smile, a joke, a story. I know you know them; you've seen them. And I can't be sure but I think you have them for me too". Maura smiled and Jane said, "Yes that there exactly. And those smiles, those stories, I kept them all secret, just for you. And maybe in keeping them secret I started to keep other things secret, things I should have told you a long time ago. Things like how much I absolutely love and adore you. How scared I have been that this would happen and more than that that this would never happen"
"Jane, your thoughts and words are meandering. I'm trying to follow but I'm getting lost"
"Sorry. Ok basically, I love you, I think I've always loved you. But I've been scared witless to admit it. When Ma got shot, the thought that she was human– well it made me realise that everyone in my life was like that – they could all be taken in a heartbeat. And the thought of you not being there", she held Maura's body tightly as she kissed her on her forehead "I couldn't even go there"
"Go where?"
Jane laughed quietly in Maura's hair but stopped short of letting her realise she was laughing in case she got insulted. This was one of the things she loved most about Maura, her complete inability of understand a turn of phrase and her ability to turn everything into something literal.
"I couldn't imagine my life without you. I tried and I couldn't. When you walked into my apartment that night and found me, that's what I was doing, taking people out of the equation one by one to see who I could do without. Turns out I couldn't do without any of you, even Bass" – as Maura opened her mouth Jane said, "Yes Maura I know Bass is not a person. But you, my heart almost broke when I thought about my life without you"
"I'm yours Jane, I'll always be yours if you let me?"
"I want nothing more in the world than for you to be mine so long as I can be yours. Man I just heard that back in my head? Did I really just say that out loud?"
Maura moved so that she was straddling Jane's waist and leaned in, smiling into a kiss.
"Yes you did and I love you so much for it. I know how difficult it is for big bad Detective Rizzoli to be honest about her emotions. And the fact that you feel you can trust me with them makes me feel like the luckiest woman alive, well apart from Sophia Loren"
She leaned in and kissed Jane again, licking her bottom lip so she could play with her tongue and deepen the kiss, the butterflies in her tummy stirring up another wave. "Now can I show you why I'm the luckiest woman alive?"
Jane smiled a shy smile as she looked down and nodded "Please"
Maura resumed the kiss as she lowered her hands to Jane's breasts taking one in each hand. She palmed every inch, pinching nipples causing Jane's hips to move off the bed. Jane hadn't realised how turned on until her sex collided with Maura's. Maura slowed her ministrations and lowered her head to take a nipple into her mouth. Maura began to grind herself against Jane's sex, wetness mingling and breathing hitching as Jane grabbed her hips and encouraged her to move faster.
Maura moved to kiss down Jane's abs, shifting position so contact was lost. Jane whined and Maura smiled against her stomach. She continued to kiss down along Jane's toned stomach flicking her tongue in and out of her belly button causing the detective to grab her hair and let out a long low guttural moan.
"Something wrong detective?"
"Maur you're gona have to fuck me soon or I'm going to die"
"You know that's not physically possible. I mean…"
Jane growled, "I swear Maur"
Maura laughed as she worked her way lower, laying her head against Jane's upper thigh. She blew a warm breath against Jane's core causing her to shiver.
She watched Jane lift her head off the pillows to look down at her
"Please Maur"
Maura held Jane gaze as a look of sheer lust washed over her "mine, always"
Immediately Jane felt a tongue flat against her folds, moving up to circle her clit and back down to gather more wetness. The taste of Jane was amazing. She couldn't get enough. She curled her tongue and inserted the tip gently into Jane starting to flick her clit with her thumb.
Jane's whole body was covered in a sheen of sweat. Every nerve ending was on edge and as she felt Maura's tongue inch further inside slipping in and out Jane's grasp on her Maura's hair tightened.
"Maur, ah, there Maur, yes, yes, yes"
Jane came hard, the pent up desire that had been building for so long gushing from her, her breath ragged, chest heaving as she tried to get air back into her lungs.
Maura stayed still for minutes, hands stroking up and down Jane's sides, head resting on her hip after she cleaned up all of Jane's wetness, in turn causing more, making her smile. She felt Jane's breathing slow as she kissed up along her side, along the edge of her left breast onto her shoulder and eventually in and onto her lips.
"Jane open you eyes for me sweetie"
Jane was only coming back to her senses as she heard Maura's voice. The orgasm had been intense and quick; necessary to relieve all of Jane's pent up frustration.
"What the hell did you just do"
"Cunn…"
"Eew Maura no, no. Not literally. Jesus" Jane threw an arm across her eyes which Maura promptly pushed away"
Maura looked at her quizzically "What?"
Jane just shook her head. "That was, wow"
"That is not a sentence Jane"
"No I'm finding …. kinda difficult … words … right now"
Maura curled against Jane's side and kissed her cheek.
"I'll forgive you. I have that effect on women"
Jane turned abruptly to looks at her and Maura gave her a wink
"You… what… when" Jane managed, still out of breath.
"Jane you really are going to have to start speaking correctly" Maura nudged her hip as she threw her leg over Jane's bare stomach rubbing herself along Jane's side.
"Don't even try and distract me with sex Doctor. Women - plural?"
"Two Jane; two women and they were nothing special. One was a college fling and the other was a kind of arrangement for a few months when we were bored.
Jane's mouth was agape
"What? Jane you knew I'd slept with other people?"
"Yes people, men. But women?"
"Jane my darling they were just convenient. India and I were lonely in college. We became friends and a mutual attraction developed. But she returned to Britain after summer term and I never heard from her again. And Denise was just a casual acquaintance"
She looked at the curly haired detective who was still staring at her incredulous.
"And I never told you about either of them because they don't matter. They never did. They were just sex. This…" She took her hand and ran her thumb over Jane's cheekbone "This is love. This is all I've ever wanted in my life. I have never felt so special as I do right now. No one has ever wanted me so much, been so tender with me, loved me or kissed me the way you do. No one sends a tingle down my spine with just a look. You are my mine, now and I hope always". She leaned in to claim the detective's lips possessively.
Jane was apprehensive about her next move but she knew this was their time, the only time her and Maura may get together for a while. So she took an executive decision, one that made her head spin and her tummy flip.
"Maur, I…" Jane looked away
"Jane, darling, look at me" Jane turned her face to look back at Maura "Are you jealous?"
"Jealous?" Jane thought back "No, well, no, I'm more… Maur I want to make sure you know you're mine"
Maura raised an eyebrow "Detective?"
"Close your eyes"
Maura was hesitant but she saw how nervous Jane was and she knew she'd do anything to make that look go away. She closed her eyes and felt Jane's weight move off the bed.
It felt like forever before Jane returned to the foot of the bed.
"Open your eyes baby"
Jane's naked form was highlighted by lamp she had switched on in the corner. Maura could make out the appendage Jane was wearing, leather straps adhering to her slight hips, purple dildo attached. Maura gasped and a smile subsequently appeared. "Jane… I…"
Words tumbled out of Jane's mouth as her breathing quickened
"If it's too much I can take it off. I went shopping today and well I just. But I can take it off Maura, I just don't know. It seemed…"
As Jane continued to ramble Maura pushed herself down the bed on her elbows so her legs were hanging over the end. Jane caught sight of Maura's hips tilted towards her, eyes begging.
"What are you waiting for Detective"
Jane groaned "Maur"
Maura sat up and grabbed Jane's hips guiding her down. Jane's confidence had disappeared. She had talked herself into this, convincing herself she could do it. She thought maybe Maura would enjoy it. That's all she'd really thought about, making sure Maura had a good time. She wanted to give Maura everything she needed and desired.
She felt Maura pulling her in, her heels digging into Jane's back as she lay back on the bed still looking at the detective.
"Fuck Me Jane"
That was all Jane needed. She leaned into Maura's grabbing her hips as she slipped herself gently into the copious moisture present.
Maura let out a long moan as Jane filled her. She stilled for a moment making sure Maura could feel all of her. Then she resumed moving her hips thrusting the strap-on slowly in and out of Maura's soft tender opening the area around which was now engorged thanks to their earlier lovemaking.
"Ah Jane, yes, oh God you're so big. Faster, yes, yes…"
Jane set a rhythm that she could maintain with her hips and placed the tip of her finger on Maura's clit circling gently. She watched as the doctor's face contorted in pleasure. Her breathing was quick and her eyes were shut squeezed tightly.
Maura went quiet as the first throws of orgasm grabbed her. Then Jane's name suddenly echoed around the whole room as Maura's heels dug into her back hard enough to leave bruises. Jane felt the strap-on being held in place tightly as Maura's muscles clenched and relaxed repeatedly. Yoga really did work wonders for every muscle in the human body.
Jane slowed her movements as Maura's muscles finally relaxed and her grip on Jane loosened. After a few moments she removed the strap-on and slipped the harness off.
She climbed onto the bed beside Maura and slowly coaxed her limp body up along the bed with her, laying her head on the first pillow they hit at the bed head.
"Maur?"
"Hmm"
Jane chuckled "Maura Dorothea Isles, open your eyes please"
Heavy lids opened and hazel eyes set Jane's pulse racing again.
"Are you ok?" Jane asked, genuinely concerned she had done something wrong.
Maura pulled Jane close with the one arm she could lift and kissed her lazily
"I am amazingly alright"
Jane laughed "Thank God for that. I thought I'd killed you"
"Once again Detective not possible, but should wear that thing all the time. I could get used to it"
Jane looked a little disconcerted "If it's a man you want…"
"Jane, oh Jane, no. I want you. It's just an interesting addition. However your fingers are just as talented and far more flexible. Everything that just came out of my mouth was endorphin fuelled. I don't think straight for at least ten minutes post orgasm. I can say almost anything"
"So if I'm looking for an straight forward answer from you about cause of death all I have to do is wear a strap-on. Hmm interesting"
Maura slapped her playfully on the arm.
Jane's eyes clouded over again as she thought about what they were doing. Maura had never seen Jane so lacking in confidence so often in such a short space of time. And she needed to reassure her that all of this could work. She broke the silence;
"Jane do you remember what you said to me the day of the Boston Marathon? It's something that has stuck with me ever since"
They mouthed it at the same time "We don't give in to fear"
"Let's not Jane. Let's give this a go. We can work. This can work. I love you so very much and if you let me I'll tell you every day"
Jane smiled that goofy smile she reserved solely for Maura as she ducked her head in onto her neck nodding.
Maura heard a muffled "I love you too" on her shoulder as she pulled a cotton sheet over their naked forms.
She yawned as she felt Jane snuggle in tighter. She threw her leg over Jane's sleeping form, getting as close as she could to the beautiful woman she loved so much. Sleep was what they both needed right now.
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Jane woke up at 4 a.m. and felt Maura's weight on top of her. Much as she needed to get up and use the toilet, she didn't want to disturb the beautiful woman sleeping half on her. Eventually though she had to so she tried to gently slip out from under the sleeping form.
Unfortunately the sleeping form arose and groaned as she moved.
"Sshhh Maur go back to sleep, I'll be back in two minutes"
"Jane where are you going?"
"Bathroom"
"Oh ok"
Maura tried to role of Jane but needed her girlfriends help to move. Her muscles ached. It had been a while since she'd been so vigorous with a lover in bed.
When Jane lowered her down the last bit she saw Maura wince
"Baby are you ok?"
"I'm fine, I just…" Maura tried to turn onto her hip to look at Jane but it protested.
Jane lay back down "Maur are you ok?"
"Fine, just cramp in my hip" Maura tried to straighten her leg but the muscle in her hip was still in spasm and her face screwed up in pain.
Jane lowered her hand to massage the area but Maura shook her head "Too sore, please don't"
"Oh crap Maura did I do this?"
"Em technically. Not so much you but our sexual activity which you participated in"
Jane shook her head "Right I'll be back in two minutes"
Maura lay her head down and kept her right side elevated to keep the pressure off the cramping. Jane placed a gentle kiss on her head and left.
After a few minutes Maura could smell camomile coming from the bathroom. She tried to get up but couldn't.
The door opened and Jane walked out scooping Maura into her arms, supporting her under he knees and upper back, and without stopping walked her into the steam filled bathroom.
Jane walked over to the bath with a still dozing Maura in her arms. Very awkwardly and carefully she lowered them into the tub.
Maura's eyes opened fully as she felt the warm water envelop her. She felt Jane's strong body behind her, her hand on her right hip massaging slowly with her fingers gently.
"That ok?"
"Mmmhmmm"
Maura relaxed back into Jane allowing her to knead the pain in her hip, the water making it far less tender.
Maura shifted to turn her head and kiss Jane softly. The water sloshed around the bath and Jane realised how sensitive her whole body was.
"Thank You. You always know what I need"
"Huh" Jane was lost in a rush of heat, pooling between her legs where the pressure of Maura and the warm water were doing nothing to calm down her racing hormones.
"This the bath, you always know what I need. And now I can see what you need. You're turned on"
"What" Jane said it loudly in protest, which enforced Maura's thinking. Jane only yelled like that when she followed it ten seconds later with a concession that Maura was right.
"You are". Maura tried to turn fully but her hip, though much better, continued to protest. She bit her lip and made another effort but it was too hard.
"Maur stop trying to move. Yes I am, but it's ok. I don't want you hurting yourself"
"I'm sorry Jane. I want to pleasure you but I can't move"
Jane kissed the side of her head as she laughed
"Maur stop please, stop. Come on we're going back to bed"
Jane stepped out of the tub and took a towel off the heated radiator wrapping Maura in it supporting her as she climbed out of the tub.
"But Jane…"
Maura continued to protest as Jane carried her back to bed drying herself off against the towel wrapped around Maura as they went.
As she laid them down Maura looked at her with wide eyes "I want to touch you, please"
"Maura if you keep talking like that I'm going to let you and then I'll never forgive myself if you get hurt"
"It was a spasm, it's fine now. Your talented fingers worked it out"
"Turn on your side – your good side" Jane clarified. She knew she wasn't going to get any peace until Maura fulfilled her need to 'pleasure her'.
Maura's eyes widened as she watched Jane's hips arch up to meet her own hand. She stared transfixed as Jane's fingers glided smoothly through her folds and into her slit.
"Jane…"
"Hmm?"
"Oh God Jane, you're so, oh God"
Jane smiled "You told me sex was a good way to relieve stress. After that I got quite good at this. In fact sometimes…
Jane bit her lip as she quickened the pace of her fingers,
"sometimes I used to imagine it was you. And I used to cum so hard thinking about you kissing me and touching me and making love to me… ah… Maur…"
"I know, I'm watching honey, you're so beautiful, cum for me"
Maura slid against Jane's body and managed to kiss her temple as she felt her shake, orgasm taking her over a few moments later.
Jane slowly slipped her fingers out of herself and Maura grabbed her wrist bringing it up and touching the fingers to her lips as she licked them clean "I'm never going to get enough of that taste"
Jane held her gaze as she watched Maura suck each of her fingers into her mouth. She almost came again just watching it.
"Woman are you trying to kill me? Cause you will you know?"
Maura finished cleaning Jane's thumb and leaned in to kiss her so she could taste herself
"Well you'd die happy at least" Maura laughed at her own joke and Jane joined her.
"True"
"Honey I need to sleep a while longer. I'm still kind of sore. Can you hold me?"
Jane slid her arms around Maura and intertwined their legs as Maura had done earlier.
"Always. This ok?"
"Perfect. I love you"
"I love you too baby"
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8 a.m. brought a waft of coffee into the bedroom.
Jane rolled over in bed and realised Maura wasn't there.
She got up and wandered down the stairs into the kitchen.
Maura had a pair of silk baby blue boy shorts and a baby blue camisole on. The gap between the two left pale skin on show that Jane's fingers were drawn straight too.
As she walked up behind Maura and started to tickle the skin the doctor sighed and relaxed into her arms as she moved her hands around to her stomach and started to massage it. Jane kissed her neck and then turned her in her arms to give her a long lazy kiss on the lips.
"Good morning beautiful"
"Good morning Jane"
"You smell better than the coffee"
"Jane I smell like sex and syrup that I spilled making pancakes"
"Like I said better than coffee" Jane leaned in and began to kiss down Maura's neck and over her collar bone bringing her hands higher to cup Maura's breasts through the silk. Maura arched into her touch but moaned in frustration and pulled away.
"Breakfast will burn"
She turned to the cooker and began to remove the various pots and pans and the grill. Maura had made French toast, pancakes, bacon and mushrooms. Jane was almost salivating at the sight of it when Maura placed their plates on the massive old oak table that could seat ten.
Jane had other ideas for breakfast however. Instructing Maura to fill glasses of juice and mugs with coffee she made her way towards the back porch. They hadn't been out there the night before. But there was a seating area and a view over a small lake, which glistened in the early morning sun.
She sat the breakfasts down as Maura appeared with the drinks. As Maura went to sit in a chair Jane opened her arms and indicated for her to come and sit in her lap.
Maura smiled and snuggled into Jane as they sat watching the water glistening and a duck and her ducklings toddling by on the way for their morning dip.
Maura sighed in contentment. "Perfect"
"Yes you are" Jane said, nose nuzzled into Maura's neck.
Maura laughed. "You know what I mean detective. But yes you are too"
"Hmm perfect and me. Don't think those two words have been used together in a sentence unless there was a 'not' in there somewhere"
"Something like 'not to mention she's perfect'"
Jane went to correct Maura but saw the glint in her eye "Hey you're getting good at this joke thing"
"I learned from the best" Maura winked at her and gave her that smile that Jane loved, dimples and all.
"God this is so perfect. I wish we could stay here forever"
"Well my parents have a cabin similar to this in Slovenia, near Lake Bled. It's fabulous in the summer months. Maybe we could take a break there next year?"
"You mean when the murderers in Boston decide to take a break?"
Maura leaned further back into Jane's arms resting her head on her shoulder "Something like that yes"
Jane chuckled "Okay it's a deal. What a weird name for a Lake"
Maura was about to speak and explain its origins when Jane kissed her slowly, tongues playing at the tip for minutes, causing her to completely lose her train of thought. She sighed and began to pick at breakfast, which was rapidly getting cold. Jane decided to do the same. It was a tricky task with Maura on her lap but she managed it. She wouldn't have had it any other way.
As they finished Maura inquired as to what time they needed to be back. Having heard about Jane's discussion with Frankie she admonished her for being so mean to her brother while silently thankful they had a few more hours before returning to reality.
They agreed to take a walk by the lake, throwing on the closest clothes they could find. Maura took one of Jane's t-shirts, which even though it was too long on her smelled of her Jane. She had the real thing beside her but she wanted to be surrounded by her completely. As they left the cabin to go for a walk Jane picked Maura up and she instinctively wrapped her legs around her hips, and arms around her neck, kissing her gently.
As Maura pulled back she looked into the beautiful eyes staring so intently at her.
"You know my hip is much better know. Maybe before we leave I could sort out that problem we had last night"
Jane groaned, "You tell me this after we're dressed and ready to go for a walk"
"Oh Jane I told you before about teasing and psychological torture. Have a taught you nothing?"
"Yeah you've taught me you're gona be a serious pain in my ass. A beautiful, sexy, intelligent, gorgeous, amazing pain in my ass" Jane smiled as she stuck her tongue out at Maura.
Maura laughed as she slipped down off Jane's waist and intertwined their fingers as they made their way down the front steps.
"I'll make it up to you I promise" Maura gave a still frustrated looking Jane a quick peck on the lips as they left for what was sure to be the most sexually frustrated walk in history. If Jane wasn't done for indecency in a public place it would be a miracle.
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A/N Thanks for all the lovely reviews and follows guys. I've one more chapter left of this one and then I've to back to the drawing board with another R&I one I started a last year but never really got off the ground.