Chapter 11

Kakashi looked Sasuke in the eyes. They were full of pain and pleading, pleading for someone to listen to him to just sit there and listen to what he had to say. What he needed to say. Kakashi knew that he normally wouldn't have agreed to keep something a secret without knowing what it was. Especially after what happened to Sasuke he needed all the information he could about Snider; however, part of Kakashi knew it wouldn't be about Snider.

"Sasuke whatever you tell me will stay between me and you only. I give you my word."

"Growing… growing up something… father he… he would make me… do things…"

Kakashi saw how difficult it was for Sasuke to tell him what happened. So Kakashi decided to go against his first thought of not asking questions.

"Okay when did he first start making you do things?"

Sasuke was a little relieved that Kakashi had asked him a question, there was so much pain he didn't know where to start.

"Every Uchiha goes and gets their IQ tested when they turn three. Itachi went and that's when they found out he was going to be a genius. So everyone was really excited to see what mine would be. When we all got there my father looked at me and told me to do my best. So I went in and took the test and thirty minutes later the man came out and called us into his office. That's when he told my parents that I was an Indigo child."

"I know your father was against people that had very high IQ's. That he didn't see the point; it was all about physical strength when it came to him."

"That night I went to bed and he came in a few minutes later. I told him that I didn't want to be a ninja that I wanted to go to school. After that that's when he… when he…"

Tears began to burn behind Sasuke's eyes once again. He fought them back he didn't want to cry, he cried too much in the last few days he didn't want Kakashi to see him like this anymore.

"He raped you."

Sasuke gave a nod and took a deep breathe trying to fight the tears back. If he was going to cry it would be when Kakashi was gone.

"I didn't know what he was doing. I knew I didn't like it that… that it hurt."

Kakashi reached his hand out to touch Sasuke, but quickly put it down remembering how he didn't want to be touched.

"How often did he rape you?"

"He would do it once a week but he would….he would beat me everyday. By the time I was four he was doing it everyday."

It was hard for Kakashi to be sitting there. Sasuke's words cut through him like knives. If that wasn't bad enough the look in Sasuke's eyes were heartbreaking. Kakashi could tell that he never told anyone what happened to him all those years.

"He…he told me that it was my punishment. That it was my fault that I was smart and weak. That he had to do what he did to make me strong. He told me every chance he got that I wasn't his son… that I was nothing. Over the years it got worse he began to lock me in my closet for days. He would…tie me up outside at night when there were storms."

Kakashi didn't know how much more he could take. He couldn't handle seeing Sasuke like this and hearing this. Kakashi knew that he couldn't get Sasuke to stop now; Sasuke needed him to be strong for him.

"Where was your mother and Itachi through all of this?"

Sasuke took a few shaky breathes.

"Mother stated to make me do all the housework and cooking. If I didn't do things quick enough she would throw things at me, or hit me with the frying pan. She was just like the rest of the Clan; she refused to go against my father and eventually joined in."

It hurt Kakashi to hear that Sasuke's own mother was hurting him as well. She always appeared to be so gentle and loving around people.

"And Itachi?"

"When he wasn't on missions he would bring me to the hospital once it got bad enough. Other then that he really didn't seem to care. Over the years he stopped talking to me and he stopped taking me to the hospital unless I begged him to. I never told anyone. Sometimes at night I can still feel my father's hands on me I can still hear his voice."

"What does he say?"

"That I'm nothing, worthless. That it was my entire fault for being smart… that no one could love someone as smart and worthless as me."

Sasuke could hold the tears back anymore. What started out as a single tear rolling down his cheek. By the time he was done that sentence he couldn't stop the tears. Kakashi could actually see Sasuke's heart completely break at that last sentence. He knew he shouldn't but he just couldn't help himself Sasuke was in so much pain. He got up and sat right beside Sasuke on the bed and wrapped his arms around him and hugged him. Sasuke curled up against Kakashi's chest despite the pain he was in.

"He's right. Everything father said was right."

"Sasuke no. Look at me please."

Sasuke looked up at Kakashi. Kakashi placed his hand on Sasuke's chin gently making sure Sasuke wouldn't look away as he spoke.

"It is not your fault. Your father and your family had problems of their own and they took it out on you. You are nothing that he said to you. Sasuke I love you like my own son and I love you because you are smart and caring. You are nothing like the rest of them. I don't want you thinking that what your father said was true because it's not."

Sasuke placed his head against Kakashi's chest and kept crying.

"No one has ever said that to me before."

"Said what?"

"That they love me."

"I mean every word of it Sasuke."

After a few minutes Sasuke's tears began to slow down and eventually stop. He was still curled up against Kakashi's chest he didn't want to pull away from the warmth.

"Thank you for listening to me."

"Anytime Sasuke you can tell me anything."

Kakashi placed a kiss on Sasuke's forehead.

"You need to get some sleep. Your body needs to heal."

Kakashi looked down only to see Sasuke fast asleep in his arms. Kakashi smiled and slowly moved to gently place Sasuke back down on the bed. Sasuke moaned and curled up into the pillow. Kakashi stroked Sasuke's hair a few times and then made his way back out to the living room.

Kakashi still couldn't believe everything that Sasuke had been through in his short little life. Kakashi always believed that Sasuke was a fighter now he believed nothing stronger then that. He sat down on the couch and pulled out his favorite book. Kakashi had a good feeling that Sasuke wouldn't be having any more nightmares for tonight.