On Friday morning, Olivia and Casey were furiously looking for a wedding dress when Kathleen, Lizzie and Maureen joined them. They were at a wedding dress shop and were hoping to buy something right off the rack as is. Olivia was so filled with anxiety and nerves about the wedding she could barely focus.

"What about this one?" Casey asked. "It's your size."

Olivia barely glanced at it. "I don't know."

"Well what about this?" Maureen asked holding up another dress.

Olivia walked right past her. "Maybe…"

Kathleen looked at her sister and sighed before walking over to Olivia who was ripping through dresses on a different rack. "Olivia…are you okay?"

Olivia turned to look at her soon to be step daughter. "I'm fine."

"Like hell you are." Casey said laughing. "I've never seen you so antsy before…getting cold feet?"

Olivia sighed and turned towards Casey. "No. I just…I haven't had the time to really process this ya know? I want to marry Elliot and I want to do it tomorrow…but are we even ready?"

"Our priest, Father O'Conner agreed to be there tomorrow. You have the location, everyone is free to be there. Dad has a tux…we just need to find you a dress." Maureen said shrugging. "So…yeah you are ready. Or almost…"

Olivia sighed. "I know…I know."

Casey walked over to her. "Lets just take a deep breath and really look at these dresses…"

Olivia looked at the one in Casey's hands. It had lace cap leaves with a sweetheart neckline it hugged her sides but then poofed out just enough so it would conceal her baby bump.

"You said its my size?" Olivia asked reaching a hand out to feel the lace.

Casey smiled. "Yup."

Olivia smiled. "Well we have to start looking somewhere don't we?"

Casey started to walk towards the dressing room. "That we do my friend. That we do…"

Ten minutes later, Casey had helped Olivia into the dress and Kathleen and Maureen were sitting outside the dressing room waiting for the big reveal. Inside the dressing room, Olivia had her eyes closed waiting until the dress was all set before she would look.

Casey squeezed Olivia's shoulder. "You can look now…"

Olivia took a deep breath and opened her eyes slowly. "Oh my…"

Casey had tears in her eyes. "Liv you look gorgeous."

Olivia flattened her hands down the dress. "I never really pictured myself in a wedding dress…I never thought I'd get married."

"But you are getting married. And you make a beautiful bride Liv…" Casey said, the smile on her face was so big Olivia couldn't help but smile back. "Let's go show the girls."

Olivia nodded slowly and walked out of the dressing room and over to Maureen, Lizzie and Kathleen. "Olivia…its perfect…" Maureen said getting up to walk towards her.

"Dad is not going to know what hit him." Kathleen said following her sister.

"You have to get it!" Lizzie said admiring the dress.

Olivia turned towards the mirror in the room and looked at herself. "Isn't it not smart to pick the first dress you try on?"

Casey shrugged. "You have to feel comfortable in it. What do you think about it?"

Olivia smiled. "This is my dress…"

Casey hugged Olivia. "Its perfect!"

Olivia laughed and pulled away. "I'm getting married tomorrow…"

"Yeah…you're getting married tomorrow." Casey said laughing.

Later that day, Elliot was over at Finn's apartment as he tried on his tux for the last time. Dickie, Eli and Munch were also there. Eli was running circles around his Dad laughing and singing a song he had made up about marriage.

"Lookin good Dad." Dickie said walking up behind him. "But not as good as I'm gonna look in my suit…"

Elliot chuckled. "You're so much like me its scary."

Eli was running so fast he was just a blur. "How do you keep up with that?" Munch asked watching Eli run around and around.

Fin smirked. "Well he's going to have to chase around another one quite soon so he better be able to keep up."

Elliot sighed. "I'm not as young as I used to be. But…I still can't wait to see my new kid." Elliot said as he scooped up Eli and threw him over his shoulder.

"Dad will you forget about me when you have a new kid?" Eli asked staring at his father upside down.

Elliot flipped his son over and set him on his feet. "Eli…the day you were born and even before that I loved you just like I loved all my kids. Nothing will ever change that…no matter who else comes into our lives. I love all of you equally and I would do anything for any of you."

"What Dad means is that if after this kid he accidently knocks up Olivia again…don't worry about it because he has room for all of us in his new house." Dickie said cleaning his shoes for tomorrow.

"Dad what does knocked up mean?" Eli asked looking from Dickie to his Dad.

Munch and Fin were laughing and Elliot glared at his oldest son. "I'll tell you when you're older." Eli ran into the other room and Elliot smacked the back of Dickie's head. "What have I told you about watching your language in front of Eli?"

Dickie rubbed the back of his head. "Do you actually think I listen to half the stuff you tell me?"

Fin stood up and clapped a hand on Elliot's back. "Look at all the things you have to look forward to with your new kid…"

Elliot smirked. "You're not kidding…"

Munch stood up picked up the suit he was going to wear tomorrow. "You know I can't believe that Liv agree dot get married with such short notice. I thought she'd need more time to plan…"

"Liv never has been the fussy type." Fin said pulling at his own suit jacket. "She's more about simplicity…which is nice."

"That's true." Munch said before turning towards Elliot. "How come you decided to make it so quick anyway?"

Elliot shrugged. "I don't know…I just didn't want to wait. We agreed to get married before she had the baby anyway so it just seemed pointless to wait a few months. I know Olivia doesn't want a big wedding so we just need our friends and family there and we'll be happy."

Finn was quiet for a minute. "You know when you and Olivia first got together…I know I wasn't all for it but…you guys make a great couple."

"Are you guys going to kiss and make up now?" Munch teased.

"I know that's probably one of your fantasies but no." Fin said rolling his eyes. "I'm just saying…that I'm happy for you guys."

Elliot smiled. "Thank you Fin. That means a lot…"

Fin shrugged. "Yeah well…don't get used to the compliments. Lets just get through tomorrow without you screwing something up…"

Elliot laughed. "I'll try."

"You know I'm really excited for you and Olivia. But do I have to call her Mom?" Dickie asked.

Elliot shook his head. "No of course not. Olivia would never expect you to call her Mom. She respects your Mom."

Dickie nodded. "I know. So what I just call her Olivia?"

"What else would you call her?" Elliot asked. "Mrs. Stabler?"

Dickie smirked. "Well I don't know…this whole situation is new to me. I was just asking…"

Elliot turned towards Dickie. "You're okay with this right? I mean I know Olivia and I haven't been together that long…"

"You guys have been together for twelve years." Dickie said rolling his eyes. "We all know that…"

Fin laughed. "Ain't that the truth?"

Elliot was quiet for a moment before saying seriously. "Dickie you know I never cheated on your Mom right?"

Dickie smiled. "Yeah Dad I know…I know you loved Mom. You guys just weren't soul mates." He shrugged. "I used to me bad about it…but I'm okay with it now. I know you and Mom love us still and you guys were able to stay friends. I want you both to be happy…Mom's happy. Now its your turn to be happy. And besides…I like Liv. I've always liked Liv she's funny and smart and she cares about us. I trust her and I wouldn't want anyone else to be our step-mom."

Elliot smiled at his oldest son. "You're a good kid Dickie. And I'm sorry…I'm sorry that I wasn't always there for you when I should have been."

Dickie shook his head. "Dad you don't have to apologize. I'm proud to say my Dad is a NYPD Detective. You protect us and the rest of the city…that's pretty damn awesome."

Elliot put a hand on Dickie's shoulder. "Thanks kid…"

Dickie nodded back. "Sure thing. Now…what's this I hear about me and Lizzie having to share a room at your new place? Don't you think I'm a little old for that?"

"Would you rather sleep on the couch?" Elliot said. "I said I loved my kids...not that I could afford a mansion to let you all have your own rooms."

Dickie laughed. "What about the attic? I saw it when I went to the house last week. So…how about I turn it into a room?"

Elliot laughed. "Do whatever you want to do Dickie."

"Will you help me?" Dickie asked softly. "I thought maybe it would be something we could do together…"

Elliot started to smile. "That would be good…"

Dickie smiled. "Cool." He paused and looked back towards the mirror. "Hey so I know this whole thing is going to be pretty simple but is there at least going to be any good food afterwards?"

Elliot laughed. "Yep…you're definitely my son…"

The next morning Olivia was getting dressed at Casey's house. She lived near the park they were getting married at. It was a beautiful warm fall day, the sun was shining and there wasn't a cloud in the sky. Olivia was doing her own hair when she heard a knock on the bedroom door she was in.

"Come in." She said pinning back a piece of hair.

The door opened and Cragen walked in. "Hey Liv…just came to drop something off from Elliot."

Olivia smiled at him and stood up, she was already in her dress. "A gift?"

Cragen smiled. "Just a little something." He stared at her for a moment before handing her the box. "You look beautiful Olivia."

Olivia looked up at him. "Thank you Captain." She took the top of the box off and looked down and saw a beautiful diamond pendant necklace. "Oh my goodness…"

"It was his grandmothers. He figured you could use it as your something old." Cragen said shrugging.

Olivia smiled and took the necklace out of the box. "Could you put it on me?"

Cragen nodded and took the necklace as Olivia turned her back to him, he put it around her neck and clasped it. "You nervous?"

Olivia put a hand to the pendant and looked at it in the mirror, smiling just thinking about Elliot. "A little…"

Cragen smiled and put a hand on her shoulder. "Don't be. He loves you."

Olivia turned to stare at him. "Thank you for giving us the time off…I know it's very short notice. And we've been out of work a lot lately…"

Cragen smiled. "You two have enough sick days piled up that it really doesn't matter. Besides…I couldn't be happier for you both. I've watched this relationship grow for twelve years…I'm glad I finally get to see you two make it official."

Olivia looked down for a minute. "There's actually something I've been meaning to ask you…"

Cragen put his hands in his pockets. "Okay shoot…"

Olivia looked back up at him. "I know it's a small ceremony and everything…but I was wondering…" She paused and looked down again shrugging. "I never knew my Father…I never wanted to know him after what he did to my Mother. But…that doesn't mean I don't wish I had a father daughter relationship." She paused and looked up again. "So I was wondering…would you give me away?" She shrugged. "You're the closest thing I have to a Father…you've always been there for me. It would mean a lot…but if you don't want to do it…I understand."

Cragen was quiet for a moment before he cleared his throat and rubbed the back of his neck. "Olivia…I would be honored to give you away."

Olivia smiled at him. "Really?"

Cragen smiled at her. "I never had kids. I wanted them…but it wasn't in the cards. My love for alcohol made Marge think I wasn't responsible enough…she was probably right." He paused. "I care about all the Detectives that work under me…I want to make sure they are all safe. But you…" He laughed. "There was always something about you that was different…"

Olivia laughed. "Yes because I caused so much trouble for you…"

Cragen chuckled. "No it's because you were so strong. You were dedicated and honest, you were good at what you do. There was a passion in you…something I hadn't seen in a long time. You made me remember why I joined the force in the first place…" He shrugged. "What I'm trying to say is I look at you like a daughter and I am very proud of you…"

Olivia smiled and leaned into hug Cragen. "I love you Cap."

Cragen's eyes welled up with tears. "I love you too Olivia."

She pulled back and laughed, wiping away her tears. "Oh God…now my make up is probably all messed up."

Cragen shook his head. "Nope. You look perfect." He took a deep breath. "Are you ready? We should leave soon…"

Olivia turned back towards the mirror and smiled. "I'm ready…"

Thirty minutes later, Elliot, his kids, Munch, Casey, Fin and the priest were assembled at a spot at the park. They were surrounded by flowers and trees, the sun was shinning down at the spot where Elliot stood and Olivia would meet him. They had hired a friend of Maureen's to play the violin as Olivia walked towards them. When Olivia came out, they made Elliot close his eyes and she hid behind a tree with Cragen until they heard the music.

"Wait till you see her…" Dickei said walking away to stand with his sisters and Eli across from his Dad.

The violin started and Cragen turned to Olivia. "Ready?"

Olivia smiled. "Ready."

They took a step out from behind the trees and began to walk towards Elliot, the moment he saw her his breath caught in his throat. She was carrying a bouquet of red and white roses and had a white rose in her hair, the rest was pinned up around it. She had just the right amount of make up on, and her skin was glowing in the sun.

She had never looked more beautiful to him. "Wow…" He whispered as tears welled up in her eyes.

Cragen squeezed her hand when he felt her begin to shake a little. "Breathe…" He whispered to her.

Olivia smiled at him and then looked back at Elliot as they finally reached them. "Hey…" She whispered.

He smiled back. "Hey…"

Father O'Conner smiled. "We are gathered here today to celebrate the union of Elliot Stabler and Olivia Benson." He paused. "Who gives this woman to this man?"

Cragen cleared his throat. "I do." He leaned forward and kissed Olivia's cheek. "Congratulations Liv."

"Thank you…" Olivia smiled at him. "For everything…"

Cragen smiled and then turned to Elliot. "Treat her right…"

Elliot smiled. "I will Cap. Thank you…without you there would be no us."

Cragen smiled and walked away to take his place next to Fin. Father O'Conner smiled at Olivia and Elliot. "Elliot and Olivia have decided to write their own vows…and at this time they will share them with each other." He turned to Olivia. "Olivia…you may go first."

Olivia looked at Father O'Conner and then turned back to Elliot, she took a deep breath. "Okay…" Elliot smiled at her. "Um…I'm not good at this so just bare with me okay?" Elliot and everyone else laughed. "Before I met you…I never believed in the idea of marriage or even love for that matter. And then…I started at the precinct and you changed everything. At first…I didn't know if I despised you or loved you…"

Everyone laughed again. "Because you could read me like a book…you didn't let me get away with hiding anything and that scared me. You made me face my problems and let go of my past…and no matter what happened you were always there for me." She started to tear up, Elliot's smile grew wider, the love he had for her was very evident.

She continued. "And then…I left for awhile. It was the first time in a long time that I was on my own again. And I hated it…I missed you. That's when I realized…that you weren't just my friend. You were my soul mate. And I'll be honest…it scared me to death." Elliot chuckled. "And when I came back…and I saw you again I knew that you were the only person I would ever be able to spend the rest of my life with. I didn't know if that would ever happen…but now that it is…I don't ever want to lose you. And so I promise that no matter what happens…no matter what life throws at us I will always be honest with you, I will always be patient and trust you. I will never…ever…leave you. Because you are my best friend…you're the one person I can't live without and I don't ever want to live without. I love you…and I will always love you. Nothing will ever change that…thank you for saving me. Without you…I would still be a scared girl living on her own who was too afraid to open up to anyone…thank you." She finished her vows and wiped a tear off of her cheek.

Elliot leaned forward and wiped another tear away. "God I love you…"

Everyone had tears in their eyes when Father O'Conner turned to Elliot. "Elliot…now its your turn."

Elliot nodded and turned to Olivia. "Well I don't know how to top that…but I'll try." Olivia smiled at him, her cheeks blushing. "I thought I had my life figured out…I thought I was set for life. And then you showed up…" Olivia laughed. "You turned my world upside down Olivia…and in a good way."

He looked over at his kids who smiled encouragingly at him before he turned back to Olivia. "When we became partners I realized that there was something missing in my life…unconditional love." He shook his head. "No matter what I did…no matter how much I screwed up you always bad my back. You made me a better cop…you made a better father and friend…you made a better man."

Olivia bit her lip trying to hold in her tears making him smile. "You pushed me. You didn't put up with any attitude or my stubbornness. You made me see all the beauty life had to offer…something I thought I had already done. I thought I knew it all…but you made me realize there is always something new to learn. Your compassion and perseverance inspires me to be better and to do better with everything I do." He shook his head. "I have never in my life known someone as strong and determined as you…and sometimes I don't think I don't deserve you." He laughed and looked down. "Actually…I know I don't deserve you…"

He looked back up at her and then leaned into wipe another tear away. "But…by the grace of God you fell in love with me too. And I know I've made a few mistakes in the past…but I promise to be the best man I can be for you and for our family no matter what happens. I promise to listen to what you have to say and pass no judgments and to always protect you and love you…you are everything to me. You are the one thing in this crazy world that makes sense…and the one thing that I will never be able to live without. I love you Olivia Benson…and I will always love you."

Olivia and Elliot were locked in a staring contest, not wanting to turn away afraid that if they did the spell would be broken.

Father O'Conner smiled. "Olivia…do you take this man to be your lawfully wedded husband?"

Olivia's smile grew wider. "I do."

Father O'Conner turned to Elliot. "And do you Elliot take this woman to be your lawfully wedded wife?"

Elliot nodded his head. "I do."

"And now can we please have the rings?" Father O'Conner asked.

Dickie and Maureen stepped forward, Dickie handed the rings to his father and Maureen took Olivia's flowers.

"Elliot I want you to take this ring and repeat after me." Elliot took Olivia's hand. "I give you this ring as a symbol of my undying love for you…"

Elliot slipped the ring onto her finger. "I give you this ring as a symbol of my undying love for you…"

Olivia smiled at Elliot before turning to Father O'Conner who smiled at her. "And Olivia…please repeat after me…" Olivia took Elliot's hand and his ring and smiled as Father O'Conner said, "I give you this ring as a symbol of my undying love for you…"

Olivia slipped the ring onto his finger. "I give you this ring as a symbol of my undying love for you…"

Father O'Conner closed his bible and smiled. "Then by the power invested in me by the state of New York, I now pronounce you husband and wife." He turned to Elliot. "You may now kiss your bride…"

Elliot smiled and leaned forward to pull Olivia in for a passionate kiss as their friends and family clapped and cheered for them.

When they pulled away Olivia stared at him and started to laugh. "We're married…" She whispered.

Elliot laughed and kissed her again, he could only focus on her. "Took us long enough…"

Olivia giggled and wrapped her arms around his neck. "I love you."

Elliot smiled and kissed her even harder. "I love you more than you will ever know Olivia Stabler…"

She scrunched up her nose. "Olivia Stabler…I like the sound of that."

"For the first time I'd like to introduce you all to Mr. and Mrs. Elliot Stabler." Father O'Conner said.

Elliot and Olivia finally turned towards their friends who were still clapping, Elliot's kids ran up to them and hugged them both. Fin picked Olivia up spun her around making her laugh, Casey couldn't stop crying as she hugged Olivia. Munch was making jokes about how getting married meant they had given into the man. And Cragen was just smiling standing back watching the whole scene unfold, he had never been so proud or happy.

Elliot was holding Eli who was smiling at his father. "Is it time for cake now Daddy?"

Elliot laughed. "Its time for cake now buddy."

An hour later they were all gathered at Olivia and Elliot's new house. There were tables set up in the backyard, Munch and Fin had strung Christmas lights through the bushes and trees to add a more romantic feel. One of Kathleen's friends was DJing and Dickie's friends Mother had baked them a beautiful wedding cake.

Elliot and Olivia were sitting on the porch swing that they had bought watching their friends and family dance and enjoy the evening.

Olivia sighed and rested her head on Elliot's shoulder. "We did it…"

Elliot laughed. "You didn't think it could be done in just a few days."

She lifted her head and looked over at him. "Yeah well…it was a little crazy."

Elliot stared at her for a moment. "But you're happy right?"

Olivia leaned forward and kissed him gently. "Never been happier."

He kissed her back and wrapped his arm around her shoulders. "Your vows were beautiful…"

Olivia blushed. "Thank you. I meant every word of them…you saved me El. You really did…" She nuzzled the side of his face. "And your vows…" She shivered. "Made me fall in love with you all over again."

Elliot rubbed her shoulders. "You the know the first day that I met you…I remember thinking…I'm in trouble."

Olivia laughed. "What?"

He smirked. "I'm serious. You walked into the precinct with Cragen and I looked at you…and my heart dropped into my stomach. I had never ever been so attracted to someone so quickly. And then…I got to know you." He shook his head. "I don't know how I lasted so long without telling you how I felt…to kiss you…"

"It was a very long time…" She said laughing. "But the wait was worth it right?"

Elliot smiled. "Definitely."

She leaned forward and kissed him again. "So now that we are married…I don't have to try so hard to look pretty right?" She teased.

Elliot laughed. "You never have to try…you just are beautiful. Always."

Olivia patted his leg and teased. "If you were looking to get laid tonight you really have nothing to worry about…"

Elliot shook his head smirking. "You're unbelievable."

Olivia slipped her heels off and rested pulled her legs up onto the swing before resting her head on his shoulder again. "And now you are stuck with me for life…"

He rested his cheek against the top of her head. "Luckiest man alive…"

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Three hours later, Eli was fast asleep on the porch swing as Olivia and Elliot and their friends and family passed around the remainder of the wedding cake.

"So you're married now…then the baby will be born. How do you top this year?" Dickie asked.

Everyone laughed. "I figure we'll win the lottery and move to Paris or something…" Elliot teased.

"No if we're going to move anywhere it has to be tropical…" Olivia said feeding Elliot the last bite of cake on her plate. "Hawaii would be perfect."

"Speaking of Hawaii…" Casey said looking at Cragen.

Cragen smiled. "Oh yeah I almost forgot…" He turned to Fin. "Do you have the envelope?"

"Gave it to Munch…" Fin said turning to Munch.

Munch stood up and walked towards Elliot and Olivia. "Here is a little gift from everyone down at the precinct…"

Elliot took the envelope Munch was holding and then opened it moving to let Olivia see it. "We're going to Hawaii?" Olivia asked in shock.

Cragen shrugged. "We figured you didn't have time to set up a Honeymoon but you guys deserve one."

Casey nodded. "So we pooled all our money together and paid for a week long trip in Honolulu. All expenses paid…"

Elliot looked at his friends. "This is unbelievable. Thank you…but you shouldn't have! It's too expensive."

Fin shook his head. "Don't worry about it. But also don't expect to get any gifts for the next ten years…"

Munch laughed. "We figured that you should take a trip before the baby is born. Just the two of you…"

Olivia smiled. "Thank you. Not just for this…" She shook her head. "You guys are the best friends anyone could ask for…"

"Here comes the waterworks…" Dickie teased as Lizzie slapped him across the back of the head.

"She's pregnant you moron." Kathleen growled.

Everyone laughed and Olivia took Elliot's hands. "No he's right…the waterworks are coming." She sniffled.

Kathleen and Maureen laughed and stood up. "Well we will leave the adults to their talking…we'll take Eli to bed." Maureen said.

"Night Dad." Lizzie said kissing his cheek. "Night Liv." She said hugging her.

All the kids took turns saying goodnight before leaving to take Eli upstairs.

Olivia turned her attention back to her friends and Elliot. "I'm serious…I don't know what I would do without you guys. You're my the only people I've ever considered to be my family…"

Munch smiled. "Well we are a family. We have each others backs no matter what happens on the job…you know I'd take a bullet for any of you."

Fin nodded. "Damn straight."

Olivia smiled and looked at Elliot who was nodding his head. "We've been through a lot together…"

"You're the best group of Detectives I've had the pleasure of working with." Cragen said. "I don't care what IAB or anyone else has to say…you're the hardest workers I've had. And you actually care…that's rare to find."

"Awww…are you trying to tell us you love us Cap?" Munch asked.

Olivia smirked. "He already told me he love dme today."

"Well we all knew he loved you." Elliot said rolling his eyes. "You've always been his favorite."

"That's true." Olivia said smiling at Cragen. "And you can't deny it."

Cragen laughed. "I didn't. And I'm not going too. You're the only one that keeps me sane with the three stooges over here…"

"You're my favorite too." Casey said nodding as she took another sip of her champagne. "When you were gone…I wanted to kill them."

Olivia beamed. "Awww…today's the best day ever."

Casey smiled and stood up. "Well…we should let these two crazy kids celebrate alone." She winked at Olivia.

"Well at least she is already knocked up so they don't have to worry about that." Munch said standing up and stretching.

"Nice Munch…real nice." Elliot said chuckling.

Fin patted Elliot on the back. "Don't pretend you didn't think about it…"

Olivia and Elliot stood up and said their goodbyes to their friends. When they were gone, Elliot pulled Olivia to his side and kissed the side of her face.

"Did I tell you how beautiful you looked today?" He asked as he reached up to play with a loose strand of hair.

She smiled at him. "You may have mentioned it a few thousand times…"

Elliot chuckled. "Even that's not enough…"

She turned in his arms so she could rap them around his waist. "We are going to Hawaii." She said with a smile.

Elliot nodded. "Yeah. We are."

She leaned up and kissed him first. "Looks like we have a lot of packing to do tomorrow…"

He cupped her face in his hands. "I guess so. But what should we do now?"

"I think you should make love to your wife." She whispered, her lips just an inch away from his.

Elliot sighed softly. "I like the sound of that…my wife."

"Yep. I'm your wife." She said kissing him gently. "And you are my husband…"

Elliot smiled and scooped her up in his arms making her laugh. "Finally…"

Olivia giggled as he carried her from the backyard back into the house and up to their room. It may have taken them a long time to get to where they were, but the wait was worth it. Neither of them had ever been so happy…It didn't matter what obstacles they may face later down the road. All that mattered was that they were together now. Finally…

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