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Chapter 11 –Stare with me

JPOV

I was standing outside, leaning over the railing and staring into the night. The evening was not at all proceeding as I wanted to.

I had picked up Alice at her apartment and she had looked stunning. She had dressed simple but I liked that she wasn't overdressed.

Then we rode to the harbor but she was looking outside the car window and I didn't know how to start a conversation. So I just told her from time to time interesting spots we passed. And then she was hanging out with James as soon as we arrived. I had talked to some people but actually this party was damn boring. So I grabbed a bottle of beer and went outside. I wanted to be alone.

I got kind of depressed as I was standing there, all alone, because I was thinking again of my life. My parents had tried to talk to me after the wedding in their few severe moments but I could escape.

But I couldn't escape from my own thoughts. Was I really a loser just because I didn't have a well paying job and no girlfriend? I know, my parents would never call me a loser but I felt like one.

I sighed and stared into the stars. What should I do?

A soft-spoken "Hi." got me back to earth.

I slowly turned my head and there was Alice standing and she was smiling slightly.

"May I join you in, uhm, standing here?"

I nodded silently and she was leaning beside me against the railing and stared into the lights at the other side of the water.

What did she want? Wasn't she enjoying the party with James? But then I reminded myself that I actually didn't want her to be one single minute alone with James, especially not when he was intoxicated.

"So, you are enjoying the party?" I asked her.

"It´s ok. But I don't know the people. James introduced me to some but actually he is quite exertive and so I escaped." She chuckled.

I turned my head towards her. "James is exertive?"

She turned her head as well. "Yeah." She sighed. "He is not trying to be just a friend." Our gazes met and for a second it gave me the creeps. Her gaze was so intensive, so vulnerable and so helpless.

She continued in a whispery. "You know, all I need at the moment would be a good friend, here in Seattle." Did she have tears in her eyes? "Rose is so far away, Bella as well. I feel lonely." I so wanted to hug her, I so wanted to tell her that everything would be fine. But inside I felt the same. Since Edward had Bella I had talked to no one in honesty, without trying to be someone who fits perfectly in the society.

"I know how you feel." I said so quietly I was sure she wouldn't hear it.

But I guess she did because suddenly she looked up in surprise. "What…what do you mean?"

I don't know why I felt so comfortable with her but I couldn't stop myself from telling her everything, ok, almost everything.

"You know," I said a bit louder, "it's not that Edward isn't my friend anymore but since he got Bella, he is different and I feel alone. Every day I feel more like a loser at life." I sighed. "And my parents are always giving me the feeling that I didn't achieve all I could. They want me to be more successful, to get my PhD, but I love my job. I love to teach even if I don't earn enough money to buy a big house for a big family, with a white fence, laughing grand children running around and a golden retriever."

"Do you want this all?" She asked me softly and again our gazes met.

Slowly I shocked my head. "I think I just don't wanna be alone. I don't care about money, a big car, a nice house." Then I looked down, I felt stupid to tell her all these things.

All of a sudden I felt her hand on my cheek and I looked up. "I know that feeling." She took a breath."Jasper, I know, we don't know each other, but," She inhaled again. "Do you wanna be my friend? I mean, best friends who are telling everything to each other, who trust each other? Because I would need one here, someone who is not only listening on the phone like Bella or Rosalie do, someone who can also hug me and tell me everything will be fine when I am sad?" She slightly smiled a sad smile that made me nod.

"Yes, I could use one too." I whispered.

Her smile got bigger. "Thanks, Jasper. So now, as my new best friend, because you look so depressed, I need to give you some comfort." And suddenly she swung her arms around my neck and hugged me tight. The hug only took some seconds but I felt electrified. I wanted more!

"Felling better?" She asked me.

"Uhm, no." I answered and smiled mischievously.

Then she hugged me again, longer this time, and I hugged her back. I never wanted to get separated but I needed – I felt something growing in my pants and I assumed she shouldn't know. I quickly left the embrace.

"Ok, now it´s better."

"Great, so, my new best friend, wanna go inside and buy me a drink? I am thirsty!" She giggled.

"Sure, let´s go."

The night went well and I couldn't believe the good luck I had that Alice was sitting next to me, giggling and making jokes with me. It felt good to have her as a new best friend. And if she wanted me as that, I wouldn't mind. I could control myself. It would be hard but I needed her around me. As friends, I could at least take care of her. I decided to spend as much time with her as I could so maybe, just maybe, she would see who I am and maybe, just maybe, her feelings would grow.

Sorry that this chapter isn't so long but it is more the first step to the next level. Update will come soon.