This is the final chapter and it includes both Robin's and Beast Boys POV. I'm sorry it took this long!
~Robin
"Just talk to him." I scoffed at her.
"Don't fuck with me Mel," I said, taking a gulp of the vodka. "You know I can't do that."
"Its obvious you miss him." I looked over at Melissa, who was giving me an almost pitying look. I knew she was the only one I could trust to tell my feeling to, but I didn't want her sympathy. It was my own decision.
"Its obvious that I'm trying to protect him!" I shot. I growled under my breath, running my fingers through my hair. She didn't even blink at my outburst. Instead, she took my hand, giving it a small squeeze. I sighed, instantly calming down.
"Mel, you know why I had to do it. You know what would happen if he found out."
"Yeah," she said, giving me a solemn nod. "But does he know?"
"No." I sighed. "No, I couldn't bring myself to tell him. And even if I tried to to tell him now I wouldn't be able to, he hates me."
"He doesn't hate you, he just doesn't know. Go talk to him, make him understand."
Mel gave me one more squeeze before standing up, leaving me in the room to think.
~Beast Boy
There was a knock at my door. I stared at it not bothering to move. My body still ached from all the crying I had done. I was tempted to just let whoever was there stay there until they gave up, but the persistent banging made my head hurt.
Slowly I got out of my bed. Walking towards the door made my stomach churn; I didn't know who was on the other side. Sometimes I hope it would be Robin, but I knew it wasn't him. We hadn't talked for weeks, maybe months. I lost track of time.
"What do you want?" I ask, as I opened the door. It was Cyborg. It was always Cyborg. Starfire and raven stopped trying to coax me into talking awhile ago; now Cyborg was the only one who even tried. Ironic, right?
"Hey," he breathed, as if not knowing what else to say. I just blankly stared at him, waiting for him to say something else.
"I don't wanna talk about it, Cy." I said, seeing how he wasn't going to say anything. I began to close the door, only to have it stop by Cyborg's foot.
"No! I just- I wanted to know if you wanted to hang out today. Maybe go play some games or something...like old times." I pressed my lips together. "I just want my buddy back."
"I'm sorry. " I said, attempting to close the door again, only to have it blocked.
"Beast Boy please, I'm begging you. I can't lose another person...not you." I could hear how desperate he was. It made me want to come out and tell him that I was fine, that everything was ok. But it wasn't.
"You were right," I say with a small, sad smile. "I can't make everyone happy, so why try?"
This time when I closed the door, he did not stop me.
~Robin
"Alright Dick, it's been three months and all I ever see you do now is get drunk and sulk. Either get off your lazy ass and apologize to him or you need to let him go. I'm not going to sit here and watch you waste away!" Melissa said as she entered the room. Chap not far behind her.
"Yeah, and if you don't want him, can I have him?" Chap said. Hearing this I sat up and glared at Chap.
"You try anything and I swear to god-"
"Relax man," Chap said, taking a seat besides me. "I would never do that to Gar. He's special," I raised my eyebrow. Never have I once heard Chap call someone he was interested in 'special'. He was only into people to get in there pants.
"what makes him so special?" I ask out of curiosity.
"For starters, he went out with you. We've been trying to get you with someone for years and you never gave a
nyone a second glance." Melissa stood beside him, propping her elbow on Chaps shoulder.
"Yeah, and you always seemed so happy when you were with him. I mean, before he showed up I was afraid you'd have a mental breakdown, but he seemed to lighten the weight on you." She added.
"And anyone who willingly pretended to be your boyfriend even when he didn't have is worth fighting for." Chap finished.
"Wait, you guys knew? How?" I said in shock.
"That's not important right now. What is important is that you love Gar. You can't let your fears get in the way." Melissa said, leaving Chap to place her hand on his shoulder. "You guys made it this long without anything happening, why stop now?"
"And you know that if anything did happen, we would be right there to help." Chap said, placing his hand on my other shoulder.
I looked between the two of them. Both of their expre
Their expressions were sincere and urging. I looked down at my hands. They were right. I can't let him go.
"Ok." I said standing up. "I'm going to get Gar back."
~Beast Boy
How long had it been since I left my room? I couldn't remember.
As I stood on the rooftop, soaking in the light sunbeams and ocean breeze, I couldn't help but think how much I missed clean air. I missed being able to breathe again.
I finally accepted that Robin wasn't coming back. It had been three months; if he wanted to apologize he would've done it by now. I stopped crying over him, thinking about him. I tried to throw any memories I had with him away. He was finally out of my mind.
But I knew, deep down, I couldn't forget him.
I sighed, not wanting to think about it. I jumped off the edge of the roof, loving how the wind past against me. Just before I was about to hit rock bottom, I shifted into eagle, hovering just above the ground as I pulled up.
It's been a long time since I flew. Sure, I would still have to when we have battles, but I could never enjoy it. Now, as I flew through the sky, I didn't think about anything. No Robin, no secrets, no heartbreaks.
I was at peace.
~Robin
My hand was raised, prepared to knock on the door. His door. I felt my chest tighten and sweat frame my face. It had been so long since I've seen him.
I didn't know what I was going to say, what I was going to do. I just wanted to see him again, and tell him why I did what I've done. I knew it wouldn't be easy, he might not accept my apology. But it was worth a shot.
"Gar," I said tentatively, knocking softly. A few seconds past and there was no answer. I knocked again, this time a little harder. "I know you're in there, Garfield." I say. If he didn't answer soon, I would lose the little bit of confidence I had.
Seeing how he wasn't going to answer, I tried to type in his password. It was blocked. I cursed, he must've changed it. Having no other choice, I typed in the passcode that would override any door in the tower.
The door opened with a slight hissed. I gulped, stepping into the dark room.
"Gar," I called out. The room was eerily quiet. His bed was left unmade, which seemed to be the only thing out of place. "I-I'm sorry for breaking in. I just want to talk to you." I slowly looked around the room. It was all the same. The same posters on the wall, the same light green coloring on the wall, the same everything. But it felt different.
I walked torwards the bathroom, tapping on it lightly. Still no answer. I opened the door, turning on the light.
Nothing. He wasn't here.
I backed out of the bathroom, stumbling slightly. Running my fingers through my hair, I spun around the room. Where could he be? I tugged on my hair, growling under my breath.
"Gar!" I called out. I ran out the room and down the hallway. I had to find him. I had to make things right. I checked every room I thought he would be, and then some. He wasn't in any of them. I knew there was only one way I could find him... I was just hoping item update have had to come to this.
As I walked through the common room doors, I was met with confused stares. Cyborg appeared to have just been playing a video game, which he paused once I walked in. Raven had been meditating in the corner, but had stopped to direct her attention towards me. And Starfire was in the kitchen, more than likely to cook one of her foreign foods. She gasped when she say me.
"Where's Garfield?" I demanded, but on the inside I felt weak.
"You mean Beast Boy? You know he doesn't like to be called by his real name. Besides, what would you need with him." Cyborg questioned, throwing his remote to the side, standing up.
"I-I need to talk to him," I say. Raven shook her head.
"I don't think that's a good idea." Raven said, also standing.
"Please, I... I have to apologize to him," I begged.
"For what? What could you possibly want from him? It's not like you've talked these past two years." Raven scolded. "Or have you?"
"I-" Cyborg cut me off.
"So my suspicions were true. You are the mystery boyfriend that everyone's been talking about. Or were." He said. I knew I couldn't lie, not when it was my only way to find Beast Boy.
"Y-yes," I said, my shoulders sinking. Suddenly, Cyborg stormed towards me, his expression filled with rage, and Raven wasn't too far behind. Cyborg grabbed me by the collar of my shirt, and I felt myself be lifted off the ground.
"Do you know how long he's cried over you?" Cyborg yelled. "Do you know how much blamed himself, that he hasn't came out of his room in three months?" I tried to wiggle out, but his grip was like steel.
"Just what exactly did you do to him?" Raven growled, eyes glowing.
"I-It's a long story. I promise I will explain everything, just tell me where he is!" I begged, trying to shake lose.
"Why should I?" Cyborg asked. The room went silent as I stopped struggling. I had to think about this...why did I care so much for the brat? Why had I succumbed to his constant begging, why did I make up the stupid deal? At first, I thought it was so that I could get him off my back, but that obviously didn't work because I fell for him. I just didn't know how hard I actually had until now.
"Because..." I said. "Because I love him."
I was met with shocked stares, and I was shocked with my own answer. Then Cyborg shook his head, glaring at me. He threw me down with so much force that I couldn't catch myself, and I landed painfully on my back.
"I don't believe you." He growled. Then the yelling began. Raven and Cyborg both started yelling about what love really was or something. I wasn't paying attention. I propped myself on my elbow, they obviously weren't going to help me.
"Stop!" Starfire said, flying between the three of us. This was the first time I heard her say anything this whole time, and I almost forgot she was even here. She then turned towards me, offering me her hand. I accepted it, and she helped me to my feet.
"Are you sure that you love him?" She asked, looking strait into my eyes. Raven and Cyborg went quiet as they listened, though they were still glaring at me.
"I-I've never felt this way about anyone before," I admitted. "I know I love him." She nodded, accepting my answer.
"He said he was going to a coffee shop. He did not give me a name, but I hope it helps." The two behind us erupted and began yelling at Starfire for telling me. She ignored them and placed a hand on my shoulder. "Make things right between you and friend Beast Boy,"
Somehow, I knew exactly what she was talking about. I gave her a quiet thank you before running out the door.
It it didn't take long for me to get to the coffee shop. The small one he and I went to the first day we started the deal. I felt myself shutter as I peered through the window. If he wasn't here, then I didn't know where he would be.
I spotted him though. He sat at the exact same table we had sat, picking at his food. He had a vapid expression on his face, as if he didn't care what was happening in his surrounding. Swallowing any doubts I had, I walked through the door.
He hadn't looked up when the bell rang, which I was glad he didn't. Slowly, I made my way to his table. Once he felt my presence beside him, he looked up. If looks could kill, I would be dead right now.
At first, he seemed shocked that I was there, but that quickly turned to anger. Before I had the chance to say anything, he stood up, threw some money on the table, and began marching towards the exit.
"Gar, wait!" I yelled, following him out the restaurant. He ignored me, picking up the pace. The street was crowded and I had trouble not losing him in it. I pushed my way through the people, desperately trying to catch up to him. Just as I was about arms length away from him, he turned around. Seeing how close I was, he made a quick turn, sprinting into an alleyway.
I quickly followed him, calling his name. He didn't turn back, he just kept turning corners in hopes that I would lose him. But he wasn't getting away that easily. Finally, we came to a dead end, but I made sure to keep my distance. He could just as easily fly away, and there was no way I could follow him if he did that.
"Gar-"
"What do you want from me?" He asked, whirling around. His expression was a mix of anger, confusion, and exhaustion. It took every ounce of me not to back away and leave.
"I...I wanted to apologize." Beast Boy scoffed, folding his arms.
"Its a little late for sorry, Robin." For some reason, Beast Boy not saying my real name hurt more than it should've.
"I know, I don't expect you to forgive me-"
"Damn right I'm not going to forgive you! What you did to me was unforgivable!" He yelled.
"I know!" I yelled pinching my nose. "I don't expect you to forgive me! I just want you to listen."
"Nothing you say will make me change my mind." Beast Boy huffed, as he pushed pass me. I quickly grabbed his wrist. Stopping him in his track.
"Gar I'm trying to explain. I had a reason for-" I stopped when I felt a sharp pain in my nose. Stumbling back, I let go of Beast Boys hand and covered my face. I was sure my nose had been broken and currently gushing out blood.
Beast Boy stood in front of me, his hand still balled into a fist. His teeth were bared and his eyes were red. I've never seen that look on him before; as if he wanted to hurt me.
"I trusted you," he growled. "I told you things I thought I would never tell anyone! I poured my heart into you and what do you do? You used me!" He yelled, his voice echoing in the alley.
"No Garfield I-" I tried to argue, even though it hurt like hell. He interrupted me.
"Shut up! Just shut up! I don't want to hear anything you have to say to me!" He shook his head, pacing slightly. "I stayed up every night, wondering what exactly I did wrong. How did I manage to fuck up so bad, until I realize I didn't do anything wrong. All I wanted to do was help you."
I saw his body begin to shake, and he closed his eyes. I could see a few tears leak out, but he quickly wiped them away, as if not wanting me to see them. He took in a deep breath, before opening his eyes again and looking at me.
"What was I to you? Some...fuck buddy? Someone you can flaunt off to your friends? Was everything you told me a lie?" His voice was quiet now, and when he finished talking he avoided eye contact with me, crossing his arms.
I took a step towards him, but stopped as he took a step back. I let my hands drop from my face, ignoring the pain from exposing my nose.
"Nothing I told you was a lie. My past, my present, everything I told you was real." I took another step towards him, this time he did not step away. I placed my hand under his chin, directing his direction to me. "The way I felt about you was real. If you would just listen to me-"
"why should I?" He snapped. I dropped my hand.
"You said you loved me, remember?" I said as a last resort. His eyes went wide, and I heard a faint gasp. He took a step back, shaking his head grimly.
"People say stupid things," he said. With that, he turned on his heel and began walking in the other direction. I stood there, watching him in shock as he left. I shook my head, I couldn't give up now. I called after him but he kept walking.
My body shook and I felt myself go weak. There was only one way of stopping him, to make him listen. I just didn't know how I could go without breaking down. But as his figure grew smaller, I knew it was now or never.
"He raped me!" I yelled. I watched as Beast Boy's steps got slower until he came to a stop. He didn't turned around, but I could tell he was waiting for me to continue. "I lied two years ago when I said Batman called me for a secret mission in Gothem. The truth is I was kidnapped by Slade."
"Everyday he would come beat me or commit some form of torture. He said he was going to break me one way or another. When he saw that hurting me wasn't working he..." My body couldn't support itself anymore, and I collapsed to my knees. I couldn't stop the tears as all those horrible memories came flooding back to me.
"He raped me over and over again until I couldn't scream anymore. It went on for days, and everyday I wished for death. But then he let me go, said he got bored with me. But before he let me go he warned me not to get close to anyone, because I was his. He said if he ever found out he would be back and cause more pain to me than I could ever imagine."
"That's why I stopped being around you and everyone else. I was afraid that if he found out he would come back. So I locked myself out, not wanting me or anyone else to get hurt." My chest burned as I let everything flowed. I haven't told anyone about what happened, not even Bruce.
"But you wouldn't leave me alone. You wouldn't just let me rot away like everyone else. So I showed you my new life in hopes that you would hate me for what I had become, but you didn't. And somehow, I fell for you. That night, I wasn't thinking about Slade or the consequences. I wanted you. It was only afterwards that I realized I messed up, and I was afraid. I'm so sorry Gar. I never meant to put you through any of this."
At this point, I could no longer hold in the tears. I covered my face as I let myself cry. Not once had a cried about what happened, even when I was with Slade. But now, confessing everything that had happened, I couldn't control it.
Suddenly, I felt two arms wrap around me and pull me into their chest. I already knew who it was. Beast Boy ran his hand through my hair, kissing the top of it gently. He held me tightly, allowing me to to cry into his shoulder.
"It's ok," he whispered. "I'll protect you. I forgive you."
When Beast Boy and I walked into the tower hand and hand, we were met with surprised stares. It was Starfire who snapped out of her state first, and flew towards us, bringing us both in a bone crushing hug.
Then Raven and Cyborg snapped out of their stupor. I could tell they still didn't fully trust me, even when they congratulated us. I knew they only appeared happy for Beast Boy. I was fine with that, I didn't expect their trust to be given easily.
As promised, Beast Boy and I explained what had been happening between us. We told them about the deal, the club, and how we became a couple in the first place. Of course, we left out details that was only meant for us. Like Beast Boys uncle and what Slade had done to me. I knew, eventually we would have to tell them everything, but that could only come with time.
Beast Boy didn't exactly trust me either. He had only forgiven me, and agreed to be my shoulder to cry on. He said he wasn't ready to pick up where we left off. It was like we had to start all over again. He admitted that he still had feelings for me, but he wasn't willing to come back to me so easily.
So I waited. Everyday we were learning something new about each other, as if we hadn't been this whole time. We continued to go to the club, though we made it clear to everyone that we were taking a break.
Slowly but surely, I started to revert back into my old self. I started playing video games with Cyborg, cooking with Starfire, and meditating with Raven again. Eventually, it seemed like I never left in the first place.
I no longer worried about Slade or if he ever would return. Beast Boy and the rest of the team reassured me that if it ever did happen, they would be right there by my side. They wouldn't let anything happen to me.
It took awhile, but eventually me and Beast Boy got back together. It started off slow, with hand holds and little stolen kisses here and there. Then one day it was as if we both couldn't take it anymore and we were both making out in the hallway. Raven had caught us. Embarrassed, I stopped, trying to conceal my blush. Beast Boy just giggled, grabbed my hand and led me to god knows where.
"Don't stop," Beast Boy panted from beneathe me. The room was filled with lust and want. Beast Boy gripped into my shoulder, and I was sure he had left a few marks. We were both close, I could tell. I gave one final thrust, releasing myself into him. Not soon after, he came too.
I collapsed on the bed beside him, trying to catch my breath. Beast Boy rolled over, wrapping his arm around my chest. We laid like this for a few minutes, just enjoying each other's presence.
"Hey Dick," Beast Boy said, breaking the silence. He turned his head up to look into my unmasked eyes. I let out a soft 'hm' in reply. "I love you."
"I love you too," I said with a small smile. "brat."
I never thought that I would finish this story, but here I am. I'm kind of sad that it ended. Sorry it took so long to update, I didn't forget about it. Thanks to everyone who supported me! I honestly couldn't have done it without you guys!
Be sure to read the epilogue. It will contain important details for the sequel! I'm planning on naming it forget (heh, see what I did there?)
As always, R&R!