I Must Be Crazy

I woke up the next morning, still in a confused haze. It seemed as though Edward knew Jacob, and there was another story. But how could that be? I was physically here, living and breathing. Jacob was here too. And Edward was nowhere to be seen—only heard. It was obvious who I was more likely to believe.

I brushed it off. I was confused and trying to figure it out was only giving me a headache. I got dressed and headed downstairs to eat some breakfast, and on the way past Charlie's room I still heard snores. I poured my cereal in silence, and its chewing crunches filled the room. I was struggling not to think about Edward. But it was hard. Right now, I was at the point of incredulity. If I couldn't figure it out, and there was no physical proof, how could I ever figure it out? Jacob was real. And that's what mattered,

Although, I had to ignore the small part in me who longed for Edward. He wasn't real—or at least he'd had shown no proof of being—so there was no point in being infatuated with him.

I was just being rational.

And it was just an infatuation.

Now seemed like a good time to call Jacob.

I left a note for Charlie, letting him know I'd be at Jacob's for the day. Jacob had been so excited to hang out with me. And as soon I got there and out of my car, he grabbed me in a hug. "You know, my friends at school don't believe I have a girlfriend."

I laughed, "And why is that?"

"I couldn't tell you. I mean, look at these big biceps. Do these look like the muscles of a gay guy?"

I looked towards the sky as in thought, then rolled my eyes. "Well…"

"Stop it." He said with a smirk, and planted a kiss straight on my lips. Then he took my hand and pulled me inside.

And that's when I thought of the best, but scariest thing, to end my problems.

But, no way. I couldn't do that. Well, could I?

How would Jacob react? Would he get upset? I had a feeling he would.

But I had to ask.

"Bella? Did you hear me?"

I broke out of my trance. "What?"

"Are you hungry?" He had a puzzled look on his face.

"Uh, yeah sure." I blinked several times, to get myself out of Bella-world, where I was obsessed with my own problems.

I looked toward the kitchen where he has already started our snack.

I just had to ask it. No thinking about it. Just do it.

"Hey Jake?" Stop it!, my brain was screaming.

"Yeah?"

I took a deep breath. "Do you know anyone named Edward?"