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The Truth About Heaven

Lyrics by: Armor for Sleep; Song: "The Truth About Heaven"

Walk past my grave in the dark tonight,
Saw the stone and the note you left for me,
To answer your question: I just had to leave,
I just had to leave

Frozen dirt and gravel crunched under her feet in the dark. It was late at night, and the cemetery was deserted. She had hopped the locked gate, her body carrying her of its own will. She thought she may be masochistic, going to his grave when she knew all it would bring was hurt and tears and pain- but this was something she had, and wanted, to do. Twisting her way through the cold headstones, she searched each name with swift, sharp eyes. She didn't know his last name, or his first, just that she would know his tombstone when she saw it. In her hands she clutched a bouqet of red carnations and roses dyed black, and a small, folded piece of paper. Her breath was ragged now as she searched desperately through the sea of unmerciless granite and slate. She rounded a small bend, following the natural path, and fell to a stop. There it was. It was a nondescript, blank headstone-- blank except for the thousands, millions of tiny X's inscribed all over it.

She kneeled in front of it, setting down the flowers, and the piece of paper on the top of it, tracing the intricate lines of X's with her fingertips. "I miss you." she whispered. He had been her only friend in times of darkness, her secret friend the Titans couldn't know about. That was why he always managed to escape, why she could never really put her all into those fights. Because deep down, he knew her better than anyone else, even though they had only spoken a few words to each other. Then he had steadily became more than a friend, and she had liked it. Not that she would tell him something like that.

Now he was gone. She didn't know how, she didn't know why, she only knew that she had seen him die in her dreams, and hre dreams were never wrong. "Why did you have to go?" her voice was cracking now, and she felt weak and pathetic, but shoved the emotions down by reflex.

But that's not why I'm here,
I came out here to tell you it rains in heaven all day long,
I want to find you so bad, to let you know I'm miserable up here without you

He set his hand on her shoulder, but it passed right through her. Red X laughed bitterly. It figured he would be powerless when he fought so hard to come back down to see her... to have given up Heaven just to stay with her, and now he couldn't even touch her, she couldn't hear him... he felt his heart snap in two.

He followed her on her slow way back out of the cemetery. He had his opaque arm around her warm form, trying to comfort someone who couldn't even see him. He recognized the irony of this whole situation, and it was killing him all over again.

Found my way back in the dark tonight,
Couldn't wake up, not right next to you

He stood in her room as she changed and got into bed, lost in thoughts he couldn't decipher. He was falling asleep, but forced himself to leave her side, and took a nap on the couch. A part of him had wanted to get into bed with her, wake up with her next to him for old time's sake, but he knew he wasn't strong enough to handle that yet...

He got up from his nap what felt like moments later to him, and was in fact hours later to the rest of the world. So this is what it's going to be like, years going by when for me it's only hours...?

I traded forever to just hear you say the sound of my name

"Red X?"

He whirled around at the groggy, sleep-filled voice, eyes locking with wide violet ones. "Raven."

She rubbed her eyes sleepily, murmuring, "I"m sleeping, I'm dreaming, why can't you just leave me alone..."

"Rae." he whispered, walking over to her, "Rae. Rae." he could only choke out her name for a moment, then asked, "You can see me?"

"I'm... dreaming." she looked up at him. "Red X?"

He felt something tugging at him, pulling him back to Heaven-- he had had his time. He glanced out the window-- almost sunrise! No! He hadn't had nearly enough time-

"Raven, I have to go very soon. I love you. I could never say it before, but I do... Don't forget me, Rae, I'll wait for you.." he whispered hurriedly, taking her hand, "I love you."

Then he was just... gone. Floating up through the clouds, being called back... his eyes opened wide when her yell floated up to him.

"I love you too."

Don't believe that its better when you leave everything behind,
I came out here to tell you it rains in heaven all day long,

I want to find you so bad, to let you know I'm miserable up here without you.