Chapter Eleven: "You-Know-What"A few nights later, I told Terra that we would put her swimming to the test. I had been helping her learn so that she wouldn't be in that same dangerous situation again. Tonight, though, was different...I sort of had the idea that, well...seeing as no one would be looking out on the water at night...You'll see.
Terra was wearing a long coat. "Are you sure you want to do this?" She asked nervously.
"Only if you are." I replied. I was already in the water.
"Well...Okay. Don't look!" Terra told me. She took off the coat, and...I know she told me not to look, but it was hard not to stare. But I closed my eyes after a second or two. I heard a soft splash as she got into the water. I opened my eyes again.
"...You looked, didn't you." She said, glaring at me.
"No! Of course..." She gave me the look again. "Okay, but it was only for like, a second!"
Terra splashed me. "You're bad."
"I know, but you love me anyway." I smirked.
"Unfortunetly." She said, sighing.
"Listen," She began, "The Senior Prom is coming up, you know."
"Is it?" I asked. "You wouldn't be asking me, would you?"
"Oh, no, of course not! I was wondering if you thought Cyborg would want to go!"
I rolled my eyes. "You're bad, too."
"Of course I'm asking you, crazy." She swam over to me and gave me a quick kiss. "So--" She began, but I kind of cut her off by pulling her into another, longer, stronger kiss. I wrapped my arms around her neck, and felt hers on mine. She returned the kiss for a while, but then pulled away.
"What?" I asked as she looked away.
"I...I don't know if that's what you meant by all of this...but...I'm sort of...not ready for...that."
"That?" I asked, although I was pretty sure what she meant.
"You know...s...sex..." She told me, uncomfortably. Now, it sort of was on my mind a little bit...I didn't know if I was ready, either...but I had thought about it.
"Oh. That's okay. I don't know if I'm ready, either."
"But that's what you meant, wasn't it?"
"I...I don't know...Maybe..." I admitted.
She frowned. Quickly, I said, "But if you weren't ready, I'd never try something. Really."
She took my hand. "Promise?"
"Promise."
"Oh..." She said in frustration, "I'm acting like such a baby..."
"No you're not!" I told her, trying to convince her. I looked into her eyes and continued, "You're not a baby. You're Terra, a smart, pretty seventeen-year-old who's just not ready for it yet."
She looked back at me and said, "Maybe you're right..."
"I am right. Now, it's getting cold. Maybe we oughtta get out of here."
"You won't look?"
"I won't look." I let her get out first, eyes closed, and when she had the coat back on again, I got out and put on the coat that I had brought.
"You still love me even though you're not getting any tonight?" She said, smiling slightly.
"Always." I smiled back.
"I...don't want this to change anything, Beast Boy...so...Could we just pretend it never happened?..."
"Of course, Terra." I kissed her again, gentler than last time. We then proceeded back to the Tower.
Later that night, as I was walking down the hallway to my room, I bumped into Robin. It would have been better if I didn't have that stupid happy smile on my face, but hey; what can you do?
"Hey, Beast Boy." He said. "What are you doing up so late?"
"Late? What time is it?" I asked, curiously.
"Like, 10:30!" He replied.
"Oh!...Well...I'll just be going."
"Wait." He said as I was about to walk away. "There's something wrong here..." He squinted at me for a second, studied my facial expression, then put a disgusted look on his face. "Ew." He finished shortly.
"What?" I asked, cocking an eyebrow.
"You...Its too horrible to say, but...You just went skinnydipping. And furthermore--you went skinnydipping with someone else. I can only assume that it was Terra."
"...How do you know that!"
"Oh, god, I was right! I was hoping, nay, praying that I was wrong, but you were. God."
"How did you know?"
"Now I just need to know one thing, Beast Boy--did you go all the way?"
"How'd you--Wait. What?"
"Come on. What else am I supposed to think?"
"Well...We..."
"You did go all the way!" Robin said, shocked. "That's so weird! You're the youngest of the guys, how'd you lose your virginity first?"
"Robin--"
"No, you have to tell Cyborg, he won't believe it."
"Robin--"
"Now, if you don't I will!"
"ROBIN!"
"What?"
I glared at him. "We didn't go all the way." I admitted shortly.
"Oh..." He said. "So I was sort of rubbing it in..."
"Yeah. Now...back to my question. How did you know?"
"Oh, that's easy! You look exactly like I do after skinnydipping with Starfire--" He stopped, but didn't catch himself in time.
"...You have a whole different personality and life when you're with her, aren't you?"
"Pretty much..."
Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. That's what I was. Stupid. Completely and utterly stupid. Why did I say no? Why? I mean...I love him! I always thought...and hoped...that he'd be my first. So why didn't I say yes!
That's what I was thinking as I walked back to my room.
Really. I mean, plenty of people do it waaaay earlier than seventeen or eighteen. Its not that weird. We're in love. We're smart enough to know the risks and to use protection. So why'd I say no?
I said we should pretend it never happened...I really couldn't. I reached my bedroom and flopped down onto my bed and let out a sigh. What was I supposed to expect when he asked me to go skinnydipping? I mean really, it just screams "I WANNA DO IT!" Again, it was that stupid thing. Maybe things would have been better if I said yes. But then again...Maybe it was better that I said no. I mean, everyone's drilling it into our heads that we should wait 'til we're married to do anything...So...I still had no answer about whether it was a good or bad decision.
Whichever it was, I knew that I couldn't just 'pretend it never happened'. I had to talk to Beast Boy about it. So, I got dressed, then headed out my door. But when I opened it, Beast Boy was there (also fully dressed) in the knocking position. We didn't say anything for a second, both knowing what was on the other's mind. Then, we started talking at the same time.
"I'm sorry, Terra I just can't pretend--"
"I know I said to forget about it, but I can't--"
"You were right, its too soon--"
"I don't know, maybe we were ready--"
"I just want things to be normal again!" We said at the same time. We looked at each other for another second.
"Come in, Beast Boy." I said. In case you were thinking anything dirty, you're wrong, it wasn't like that. Instead, we talked all night about tons of different things; at first it was just about what happened that day, but you know how conversations go: you're on one topic, then it leads to something else, that leads to something else, etcetera etcetera etcetera. I don't know when our conversation ended; we must have fallen asleep. When we woke up, we found ourselves on my bed--yes, still fully clothed--with my head and right arm on Beast Boy's chest. We woke up at about the same time and looked at each other.
Beast Boy looked at me funny. "We...didn't do anything last night, did we?"
"No...I don't think so."
"Oh. Okay. I figured..."
"Beast Boy?"
"Yeah-huh?"
"Let's get some breakfast."
"Cool by me!"
To Be Continued...
Preparing For Prom-Well, as Ms. T said, it's Senior Prom Time once again. You know what that means: dress shopping, shoe shopping, hair doing, and squeezing Beast Boy into a tuxedo...
That whole chapter was completely spontanious. I had nooo idea they'd be going skinnydipping till, like, today. Enjoy!