Authors Note: WARNING: This chapter is quite violent so continue with caution!
"Don't make a sound, love." I heard the frightening voice of Tomas whisper in my ear. Tears instantly leaked from my eyes and I gasped as he pulled my hair and dragged me over to a small door. He pushed me inside then stepped in and locked it behind him.
"Muffliato" He said, waving his wand over the room before turning back to me.
"What's wrong beautiful? Scared?" He smirked at me as I sat against the wall, sobbing uncontrollably. He knelt down next to me and thumbed the tears off my cheeks while he looked at my appearance.
"Saw you leave the great hall in a huff, I just thought you needed some company." He said in a fake sweetness while he looked into my fear filled eyes. All I could see in his was lust and danger so I struggled to get passed him.
"Where do you think you're off to?" He grabbed my shoulders roughly and pushed me back against the wall.
"Please let me go." I begged but all he did was laugh in response.
"You must wonder why I look at you this way dear Ana. I've wanted this for so long." He moved his mouth close to mine and kissed me harshly. I tried to turn my head away but he raised both hands and held my face in place while he pressed his lips to mine. His tongue ran along my bottom lip before he bit down gently. I whimpered at the force which only seemed to encourage him, as he moved one hand down to cup my covered breast.
He let go of my face entirely and trailed kisses along my neck while he fumbled to undo the buttons of my shirt. Getting annoyed, he pulled down roughly and ripped the front of my shirt while buttons bounced off the ground. He pushed my top off, exposing my stomach and chest.
" I'm not wasting any time today, you got off easy last time. Don't want that happening again." He said huskily as he nipped against my collarbone.
"Tomas stop." I cried but he didn't listen. Instead he brought his hands down to his belt and began undoing it. Once it was off he tossed it aside and moved to his pants which were off in a matter of seconds.
"Relax baby." He breathed against my ear, his breath warm.
"I'll do whatever you want, just don't do this." I pleaded.
"Ana darling, this is the only thing I want from you." He smiled at her before his eyes found the necklace that hung around her neck.
"Shay gave this to you." He stated, rather than questioned.
"H-how do you know that?" I closed my eyes and thought about the beautiful piece of jewelry than was around my neck.
"Asked me if I thought it would look good on you." He smirked arrogantly and pushed my hair behind my shoulder and placed his lips where my neck and shoulder curved. "You smell heavenly."
I tried with all my might to push him away from me but it seemed no matter how hard I pushed he wasn't affected at all. He had taken off my pants and was beginning to pull down my panties when he pulled me up off the floor to a standing position. He pushed them down to my ankles and pulled his boxers down immediately after and I cringed as his hard cock brushed against my leg.
"How do you want your first time to go Ana?" He licked his lips as he inspected each inch of my exposed body.
I cried harder as he ran his hands between my legs and stroked lightly. I slapped him hard across the face and attempted to get away before he caught me and slammed me back against the cold wall.
"You filthy whore." He seethed with a venomous glare. He lifted his wand from the ground and pointed it at my wrists. A rope flew out of the tip and tied itself tightly around my wrists, holding them together. He dropped his wand once more and turned me around before slapping my arse powerfully. I screamed out at the sudden pain and began to hyperventilate as he pushed me back down on the ground.
He soon joined me and flipped me onto my stomach then climbed on top of me. I could feel his hardness on my backside as he leaned down, pressing his stomach to my back.
"Scream all you want darling, no ones going to hear you." He hissed in my ear before I felt him thrust into me forcefully.
I screamed at the top of my lungs and struggled beneath him, kicking and flailing my arms together, trying to break free but he was too strong. He laid on top of me, pinning me to the ground and I could hear his grunts in my ear.
"Tomas stop, you're hurting me." I cried, tears blurring my vision.
"I'm a little disappointed love. I was looking forward to taking you for the first time." He muttered against my shoulder. "Those rumors of you being a virgin were obviously a lie."
I cried out for help but it was useless, no one could hear me. His thrusts were harder with each movement and I could feel myself falling numb under him. My legs ached from kicking so forcefully and I could barely move my arms anymore.
It seemed to go on forever, my voice was hoarse from shouting so loudly and my neck was sore from his biting and sucking. He continued his pace, groaning my name loudly.
"That's a good girl." He purred against my ear.
"Please, stop." I breathed quietly. He moved his face to mine and kissed my cheek softly before lifting his body up off my back and sitting on the back of my thighs. Suddenly his pace picked up and he called out my name loudly and I felt the same sensation I had the night before with Sirius. His seed filled my pain tinged body before he pulled out harshly. I stayed on the floor, face down crying helplessly as he stood an dressed himself.
"That was really good Ana, I'd be up for it again sometime." He said and I could barely hold in the bile I could taste in my mouth at his calm tone. I could feel him kneeling down next to me and looked up to see his cruel eyes staring into mine once more.
"Don't you even think about telling your little friends about this. If they pull another prank in your honor, the next time I see you, you're going to wish this was the only thing done to you." He threatened and stood.
"You might want to dress yourself, you look pathetic laying there like that." He said waving his wand which removed the charm over the room and the ropes from my wrists, then he opened the door. "Oh and Ana, I was right about that necklace, it looks perfect on you."
With that he left the closet and shut the door behind himself, leaving me laying broken and bloody on the cold castle floor.
"Hey Evans, have you seen Ana?" Sirius asked as he dropped down beside Lily at one of the tables in the common room. He hadn't seen Hannah since dinner and he was looking to apologize for what he said. She didn't deserve that.
"No." She answered and turned back to her books.
Sirius sighed. It was bad enough that she was ignoring him after their encounter but now Lily was covering for her. He didn't know what to do. He wanted to talk to her, make sure she was alright but he didn't know how. It didn't help that he was still furious about her completely brushing him off.
"She isn't up in the girls dorm?" He pressed, hoping he would get something out of Lily.
"No Sirius she isn't, even if I knew where she was I wouldn't tell you. You were horrible to her at dinner." She huffed as she kept focus on her books.
"And I wanted to apologize to her for it." He said calmly.
"Whatever Black, if you don't mind I'm trying to study." She said in an irritated voice.
Sirius sighed and stood from the table and walked back to the couch in front of the fire. It was hard for him to control his frustration when it came to this. He had it planned that he wouldn't tell Ana how he felt until he was sure she felt something back and last night after they got together he couldn't stop thinking about how perfect it felt to finally have her laying in his arms as more than just a friend. He felt awful about her first time being a drunken one night stand sort of thing and when he told her he didn't intend it that way, she didn't believe him. The way she acted made him certain she had lied about everything. About being innocent and chaste. It drove him mad to know she disregarded him like that.
The more he thought about it the more he realized what a waste it would be to fight for Ana's affection. He could be out with dozens of other girls who were more than willing to allow him endearment, and holding out for Ana to finally come around was pointless. What worried him the most was their friendship. He wasn't lying when he told her he had always wanted to be with her. He loved her and living without her in his life would be the hardest thing he would have to do but he was much to proud to admit it.
After Tomas left I curled up in the fetal position and cried until my eyes ran dry. My body shook from both the cold and the force inflicted upon me. All I could think about was how stupid I was to roam the halls alone after his first threat. My worst nightmare had come true and I had no where to go. No one knew where I was and I could barely move.
I sobbed loudly as I heard a firm knock on the closet door and attempted to cover myself with my scattered clothes.
"Ana? I saw you on the map and... oh bloody hell." Remus' scared voice said as he looked at me laying on the ground.
"Ana what happened to you, Merlin. Are you okay? Can you stand?" He rambled but my whimpers were my only response. He stepped into the closet and leaned down next to me.
"I can take you to the hospital wing if you want." He said soothingly but I shook my head violently.
The last thing I wanted was for the whole school to know about my attack.
"The dorm then? You can get cleaned up." He suggested. I sobbed loudly as I thought about entering the Gryffindor common room looking like this. Everyone would know something happened.
"I have a better idea, I'll take you to the prefects bathroom. I know a shortcut." I nodded and attempted to push myself off the ground as the pain shot through my body. I winced as I continued to lift up and gathered my clothes to shield my naked body from Remus.
"Here, put this on." He said, handing me his cloak. I gladly took it from him and wrapped it around my shoulders. He turned his back so I could slip on my panties and I balled up the rest of my clothes and held my wand tightly in my hand as he helped me out of the closet.
I followed him to the end of the hallway and we stood in front of a large tapestry which swung out of the way when he quietly said some sort of password. My ears were still ringing from the sound of my own screams as he helped me descend a flight of stairs which lead to another tapestry, one I recognized hung in the prefects bathroom on the fifth floor. I sighed when we saw that no one was using it and Remus took my hand to lead me over to the side of the large tub.
He ran the water and turned the green tap that streamed healing potions into the water. I slid off Remus' cloak and slid out of my underwear and winced as I walked into the water. When it reached my center I bit my lip at the sting the water caused as it entered my cuts. I sat down and rubbed my inner thighs to remove the blood that had stained them and then washed the rest of my skin with the bubbly water.
I looked over to see Remus who had sat down on the edge of the tub and looked at me sadly. I felt awful for him, that couldn't have been a pleasant sight to walk in on.
"How'd you find me?" I whispered.
"I left dinner early to study in the library and I was looking for someone else on the marauders map when saw you in the broom closet. Then I looked at saw Tomas walking along the seventh floor and thought it was odd so I went to see if you were alright." He said sadly.
"Oh." Was all I managed to say.
"I'm so sorry I didn't find you in time Ana." Remus said, shaking his head. "I could've stopped him if I only looked sooner."
"It's not your fault Remus." I said quietly.
"You didn't deserve that." He said, sounding angry. "When Sirius find out-"
"Remus you can't tell Sirius, or James. I don't want them pulling another prank or something, it'll only make it worse." I interrupted, my breathing beginning to catch in my throat.
"I'll wait for you to tell them, it's not my place. But Ana you're going to have to tell them, especially Sirius. He'll be furious if you don't."
"Let him." I sighed, "It's not like he cares anyways. Didn't you see the way he acted at dinner?"
"He's just upset..." Remus tried.
"What could he possibly be upset about? He sleeps with tons of girls, it's not like it was his first time." I shoot back, angry that Remus would defend Sirius.
"It's a different situation with you." Remus said nervously.
"Oh please, don't tell me you believe him when he says he actually cares for me." I rolled my eyes.
"Actually I do, he's been telling us for over a year now." Remus said and I looked at him curiously.
He seemed to be telling the truth.
"Oh." I said again and turning away to look out one of the large windows. Never did I think he was actually serious when he said he had feelings for me. I sighed and looked down at my shaking hands. I felt so utterly stupid.
"Can you help me back to the common room?" I asked Remus and he nodded before standing and facing away to allow me some privacy.
Unlike this morning, the warmth of the bath hadn't healed my pain. If anything it made it worse. I struggled to get out of the tub and into my underwear so much that I didn't even bother attempting to put on the rest of my clothes. I wrapped Remus' cloak around me once more and grasped onto his arm as we made our way back up through the hidden passage behind the tapestry.
Never in my entire life had I felt so weak. Climbing the stairs to the seventh floor was almost impossible and I had to stop ever so often to catch my breath and balance while feeling as though I was about to pass out. Remus was extremely patient as he helped me up the stairs and through the corridors to the Fat Lady. I inhaled deeply and prayed silently that the room was not too crowded and when we entered I was blessed to have had my wish come true.
There were only ten or so students littering the room and none of them even looked up to see who had entered. We made our way further into the room before a voice stopped me dead in my tracks.
"What's that on your neck Ana?" Sirius voice sounded angry as he approached Remus and I.
"I'm assuming it's from dear Lupin since you're not wearing any clothing other than his cloak." He sneered, looking at my barely covered body before he looked up at my face. His expression softened for only a moment before the anger filled his eyes once more, reminding me slightly of Tomas.
"Sirius, please. Not now." I whispered and lowered my gaze to the floor.
"Make yourself useful Padfoot, and help me bring her upstairs." Remus ordered in a much firmer voice than usual. Sirius groaned and let me hold onto his other arm as they practically carried me up the steep steps to the dormitory.
Remus knocked and when he heard a voice call on the other side of the girls dorm door he opened it and peered in before turning back to me.
"Everyones in there, do you want to just come to ours instead?" He asked and I looked to Sirius who nodded in somewhat understanding at the situation and turned around to the boys dorm. He pushed open the door and it flung against the wall loudly as they helped me into the room.
"What happened?" James said and stood from his bed and looked at the three of us with concern.
Remus looked at me after he let me sit down on Sirius' bed, since his was covered with homework and pleaded with his eyes. I thought for a moment before nodding my head once and Remus turned to James, Sirius and Peter who were all looking extremely confused and worried.
"I found Ana in a broom closet so I took her to the prefects washroom to clean herself up." Remus said, not giving away too much. I think he was expecting me to tell the rest.
"Why were you in a broom closet, and why did you need to clean up?" Sirius asked slowly.
I didn't answer, instead I looked down at my shaking hands, wishing I could sink away where no one could look at me.
"Ana tell us." Peters soft voice came from the other side of the room.
"She was probably just shagging some guy who got to rough with her." Sirius voice was harsh as he plopped down on his bed. His words stung and the sudden movement on the bed made my body ache. I was so numb from crying I hadn't realized I even started again before I heard myself let out a loud sob. I buried my face in my hands, not wanting all the marauders to see my crying pathetically.
"I'm sorry Ana, I didn't mean that." Sirius said, sitting up now and rubbing my back gently. "I'm s-so s-sore." I said shakily.
"From last night?" Sirius whispered, now concerned.
"No." I cried.
How could he think that? How could he possibly think that?
"What happened to you?" James asked quietly, moving over and kneeling in front of me, looking at me with sad eyes.
"H-he ra-raped me-e." I stuttered quietly and I could feel Sirius tense beside me and could see James cover his mouth.
"Shit." Peter replied and Remus sat down next to me on my other side.
"Who was it Ana?" Sirius said firmly and I could tell he was trying not to show his anger.
"Tomas." I whispered and wiped the fresh tears that trickled out of my eyes away.
"I'm going to kill him." James said and stood.
"Calm down James." Remus warned.
"How can I calm down? That monster raped her Remus, he can't get away with it!" James exclaimed.
"I think our actions before is what caused this." Remus said sadly and looked at me.
"He told me, if-if you prank him again, it'll be worse n-next time." I managed to say through whimpers.
"This is all my fault." Sirius said quietly.
"No." I looked at him sadly.
"How is it not? If we hadn't have pranked him so publicly he wouldn't have been after you in the first place. And then tonight, if I hadn't acted like such a jerk you wouldn't have been off on your own like an open target." He said loudly.
"No one could have known Sirius." Remus said.
"I should've know, I should've been there to protect her!" Sirius exclaimed. The anger in his voice terrified me and a whole new wave of sobs started.
"I think you're scaring her." Peter said quietly and Sirius turned to look at me, all anger in his eyes disappearing. All that was left was sympathy and despair.
"Do you want to stay in here tonight Ana? I'll sleep on the floor." James said but before I could answer Sirius cut in.
"Don't be silly Prongs, she can take my bed." He said and wrapped his arms around me. The other boys stood, deciding it was time to give me space and they all left the dorm completely, leaving Sirius and I alone once again.
"I'm so sorry Ana." He whispered soothingly into my ear. "For everything, for treating you horribly all day, for not being there to protect you. I promise, I won't let him lay another finger on you."
"Sirius," I whispered as I leaned my shivering body against his strong, comforting chest.
"Yes?" He cooed as he ran his fingers through my hair.
"I just want you to know I don't regret last night." I said quietly and I could feel his embrace tighten around me.
"And I meant what I said this morning. You mean everything to me. I love you Ana." He whispered and touched my face gently. I looked up into his concern filled eyes. I knew he was telling the truth but I couldn't bring myself to respond. I still wasn't sure I felt the same way for him and the last thing I wanted was to hurt this perfect boy I cared so much about. In time I was sure I could say it back, but I just wasn't ready.
Sirius moved and helped me to lay down on his bed.
"I need to get out of these." I said, feeling disgusting while still wearing the same underwear.
"Will you be okay alone while I go get you something to change into?" He asked softly. I nodded and he looked at me for a long moment before standing and leaving the room. Once I was alone I pulled my knees against my chest and nuzzled my head into Sirius' pillow, inhaling it's sweet scent. I struggled to get the thought of Tomas on top of me out of my head but his fury filled eyes kept flooding my memory.
When Sirius came back he was followed by the other marauders who spoke quietly to one another but left me alone. I stood from the bed, my legs shaking, and weakly made my way to the washroom where I changed into new underwear and a long, soft t-shirt that Lily must've told Sirius I would like the most. He helped me back to his bed and tucked me under the blankets before sitting down beside me, playing with my hair until my eyes closed.
He must've thought I fell asleep, but I wasn't even close to sleep. I heard him sigh and felt the bed lighten as he stood.
"I want to hurt him, I want him to feel the pain she's feeling." I heard him say angrily.
"I know Sirius, we all feel the same but we can't make it worse." James said calmly.
"How am I supposed to just watch her cry and sob like that? How am I supposed to see her in pain and not do anything about it. He deserves to suffer, not her. She didn't do anything wrong." Sirius said, his voice getting louder.
"He stole her innocence Sirius, and I can only imagine what she's feeling right now but she needs someone to be there for her. She needs us to comfort her when she cries. All we can give her now is our attentiveness and we will find a way to bring him to justice later." Remus said solemnly.
"I want to help her, I want to take all the pain she's feeling away." Sirius said, sounding frustrated.
I didn't want to listen to them talking anymore, it was breaking my heart even more so I stretched and turned my head to look at them while I fluttered my eyes to make it look like I was sleeping.
"Sirius." I rasped.
"I'm here Ana." He said, coming to the bed quickly.
"I'm cold." I said, looking up at him.
"I can go get you more blankets if you want." He offered but I shook my head.
"Can you just hold me?" I whispered.
"Oh, of course." He said. He took off his shoes and crawled under the blankets behind me. I felt him press his stomach to my back and I flinched slightly, remembering Tomas' form on me merely hours ago.
"No not like that." I whimpered quickly.
"What? What's wrong Ana, please don't cry. Did I hurt you?" He quickly stopped touching me and looked down at me as I shook violently.
"It-it-it's j-just... that's h-how he..." I whimpered, not able to finish my sentence but I knew he understood. He got off the bed then walked around to the other side and laid down facing me.
He slid one arm under my side and wrapped the other around my waist and moved himself close to me. He laid on his back so I lifted my head and rested it on his chest while I listened to the thumping of his heart. He ran his hand gently along my side which relaxed me only slightly.
"Try and get some sleep." He whispered and placed a gentle kiss on the top of my head.
As I laid in Sirius' arms, my crying slowly coming to a stop, I realized that I had never felt safer in my entire life and I never wanted to be without this comforting touch.
A/N: This chapter was extremely hard for me to write, but I hope you enjoy it and continue with the feedback. Thank you for the reviews and adds!