Wouldn't That Save You?

Chapter 11

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Caitlin's POV

"Do you think it's a boy or a girl?"

Barry asks me as we lie on the bed, it's been two weeks since we found out and we couldn't wait to start telling people. I worked out that I was now 10 weeks along and besides the morning sickness everything was going great. We had our first ultrasound this morning and we were both restless with excitement.

"I'm not sure, is that bad? Isn't the mother supposed to have some sort of inkling? What if this means I can't connect with the baby?"

"Stop it, you're going to be a great mother Cait" he says brushing his hand over my abdomen

"I just want everything to go okay with this baby, I don't want to be like my mother"

"You're nothing like her, you are kind and funny and warm and this baby is so lucky to have you, you're going to be an incredible mum" he says kissing my forehead

"And you're going to be an amazing dad" I say, nuzzling into his chest "What do you think the baby is going to be?"

"I don't know, sometimes I picture a little boy with your eyes and my hair who speeds around the house and then sometimes I picture a little mini you, auburn hair and freckles. As long as he or she is healthy I'll be happy"

I picture the children in my mind, Barry and I taking them out for ice-cream, having picnics in the park and days at the beach. I want it so badly.

Eventually we pull ourselves up, we have the doctor's appointment at 8, then straight to work and at lunch I'm meeting with Iris to discuss the wedding. I'd be around seven months pregnant by the time of the wedding and I knew I'd need to adjust a few things, like my dress.

We wait in the waiting room until the doctor calls out my name, she hands me a gown and quickly change into it and then get onto the bed.

"Hi, I'm Doctor Willis. I'll be looking after you today. I see from you're notes that you suspect you are around ten weeks. I'm just going to ask you a few questions about your cycles and then we'll take a look" she says with a warm smile, shaking our hands.

Once I've answered all the necessary questions she gets me to lie back and pulls up the bottom of my gown, my lower half draped in a blanket. I flinch when she applies the cold gel.

"Sorry, it can be quite cold" she says apologetically.

She presses the ultrasound wand into my lower stomach, moving it around while all three of us turn to look at the screen. Eventually a picture of a small bean shaped object pops onto the screen, my eyes water at the first glimpse of my unborn child.

"There's your baby, and that flickering thing there? That the heartbeat, I'll put it on for you to listen to" she says tapping on the keyboard. A fast paced whooshing sound fills the room; I look to Barry with a teary smile

"That's our baby" his smile is so bright it almost hurts to look and I'm positive there are tears gleaming in his eyes also.

"It's amazing, you're amazing" he says giving me a sweet kiss.

She gives us a few copies of the ultrasound and a video recording so we can listen to it at home, the whole way there we take turns looking at the photo again in awe of the life we created. Once we arrive at work I slide the photo back into my bag and get to work on the new serum I had created with Wells to try and take down Zoom if he was to ever come back.

I went over to grab the necessary chemicals but Barry flashed in front of me "Caitlin! What are you doing?" he asked blocking me off from the chemicals.

"I'm grabbing the things I need for this serum Barry; you know that we've been working on it" I say confused by his sudden reaction.

"You can't deal with those types of chemicals anymore Caitlin, it's not safe for the baby" he lowers his voice as he says baby.

At first my temper flares at him telling me that I can't do something, I was pregnant not dying! And then I thought about how much he cared for us and I felt touched, followed quickly by shame at the thought of doing something that could endanger my child. How could I have been so careless?

"I-I didn't think, I'm sorry I don't know how I didn't think of that. Maybe I'm getting pregnancy brain. Soon you'll have to tie my shoes for me and make me wear my keys around my neck" I say flushing with embarrassment

He takes me into his arms "Hey, hey it's okay. It's not your fault, the hormones are probably just messing around with you. And even if you do need me to tie your shoes, there's nowhere else I'd rather be"

I sigh and sink into his arms, this was going to be a long nine months.

….

Eventually Iris comes for our lunch date, we're going to discuss the wedding and then I'm going to casually invite her, Joe and Wally over for dinner. Barry and I wanted to tell them about the baby in a special way.

We head to this little café down the road from the lab and I order a salad with chicken and a water while she orders a seafood pasta and a coffee. I inwardly groan at the thought of the seafood pasta, along with eggs this pregnancy had also given me a strange aversion to yoghurt, anything deep fried and all seafood. Hopefully I could keep my breakfast down.

"So when do you want to look at dresses? Do you know what kind you want? Personally I think you would look great in something form fitting, that shows off your great figure" Iris suggested and I laughed inside.

My figure wouldn't look so great by the time this wedding came around.

"I have some idea; I was hoping we could go shopping on the weekend. And Barry wants everyone to come over tomorrow night, we want to talk to everyone about the wedding" I try to say smoothly.

Iris doesn't seem to be suspicious and agrees before pulling out the book we made of all the things I wanted for the wedding.

When lunch arrives the smell of fish wafts over and it takes everything I have to swallow down the bile and not run to the nearest bathroom. We eat lunch in peace, I take small breaths through my mouth to try and ease the nausea as I pick at my salad.

Once we're done and everything is paid for we head our separate ways, Iris to work and me to Star Labs. I'm still feeling queasy when I get back and Barry seems to notice.

"Babe you okay?" he asks coming over to me

I hold up a hand, stopping him "I'm okay…. Iris had seafood for lunch" I groan

He smiles sympathetically "I'll go get you those anti-nausea lollipops the doctor gave us" he says flashing off and immediately coming back with a red lollipop in hand.

"I love you" I sigh, taking the lollipop from him and shoving it into my mouth.

"I love you too, so… did everything go as planned?" he asks rubbing circles into my back

"Yeah, they're coming tomorrow night. What do you think of lasagne for dinner?"

"Lasagne sounds perfect. They're going to be thrilled Caitlin don't worry" he reassures me "Maybe we should hold off with the wedding until after the baby is born. It's too much stress for you"

"No! Look I know that I'll be 7 months by then and I'll look like a cow but I don't care. I want to marry you Barry as soon as I can, the only reason I haven't dragged you to the courthouse is because Iris would kill me" he laughs at that

"You'll look beautiful, like always"

"Is that the only thing you heard Barry? I want to marry you. I don't want to wait anymore"

He takes me into his arms "I can't wait to make you my wife Caitlin Snow"

"Soon to be Allen" I say with a smile

"You're going to change your name?" he asks shocked as if he thought I'd demand to remain a snow

"I only want to be called Snow at work, apart from that I will be an Allen. Snows are cold, uncaring and they ignore their children. I'd much rather be an Allen" he smiles again; he opens his mouth to say something but we are interrupted by Cisco coming in.

"Hey guys I thought you'd- Oh, am I interrupting something?" he says awkwardly "I can come back if you want just no sex in the lab please. We all have to work here"

I roll my eyes, pulling away from Barry slightly who keeps a hand around my waist "Nice Cisco, now what did you want to show us?"

"I thought of a way to improve Barry's suit, it could possibly make him lighter and therefore faster! I just need to- Is that a lollipop? I thought you didn't like eating junk food, always going on about how bad it was for you" he asks pointing to the red confectionary item in my hand.

"I don't, these are to help with nausea" I blurt out before I can stop myself. I freeze when I realise what I said and Cisco perks up.

"Nausea? Are you sick again? If you are then stay away from me, I've got things to do" He says taking a step back with his hands up.

I look to Barry, an apology in my eyes. He shrugs "We have to tell him sometime"

I smile and take his hand before turning back to Cisco "I'm not sick Cisco…. I'm pregnant. Barry and I are going to have a baby!"

His eyes widen as he looks between Barry and I before bringing us in for a group hug "This is great! Do you know how special this kid will be? I'm happy for you guys"

We talk about the baby, Cisco makes a joke about making a baby suit and it takes a while to convince us that he's joking. For once, everything on Team Flash is going perfectly.

…

I hurriedly wiped my hands on the apron I was wearing as I finished preparing the lasagne and shoved it into the oven. Iris, Joe and Wally were coming over tonight to discuss the wedding and Barry and I were going to tell them about the baby, it had to be perfect.

I was wearing a retro style navy blue dress, it had a high back and was sleeveless and the front had a little v neckline. It went to just over my knees and it had white stripes across it. I had paired it with some nice white heels and my hair was down and curled slightly.

Barry came in, in his black button up and black jeans holding up a bottle of wine "Do you want me to put this out there? I know you can't drink so I thought, I don't know"

I smile "It's fine, by the end of the night they'll know why I'm not drinking" I say waving it off

He puts the bottle down and comes over wrapping his arms around me from behind and putting his hands on my stomach "How's our baby doing?"

"The baby is fine, waking mum up early every morning to puke"

He turns me around "You do look a bit pale, maybe you should go lie down before they get here" he suggests.

The doorbell rings at that moment and I pull away "I'm fine, just tired. C'mon let's go get the door"

The dinner goes off without a hitch, we discuss the wedding, the date will be the 23rd of September and we were going to hold it outside in this forest we had found online with a company that specialises in outdoor weddings. Then we'd go and have the reception in this venue we'd found nearby.

We were discussing the guest list when Barry took my hand and when I looked at him I knew he wanted to tell them now. I gave him a small nod and he took this as his cue, clearing his throat.

"Guys, we haven't been completely honest with you. We didn't invite you over just to discuss the wedding, there was also something else we wanted to talk to you about" he looks to me and I take a deep breath.

"We called you here because we have some news…. Barry and I are expecting a baby!"

There's about five seconds of silence before they all jump up, shouting their congratulations and embracing us. Iris swears that we will find a gorgeous maternity dress for the wedding and Joe shouts that he'll be a grandpa before hugging Barry tightly again. I look to Barry, a giant smile on my face as our family showers us with love and I knew in that moment that no matter what happens, this baby would always have someone to love them.