Time had passed slowly since then, nights were usually spent crying. Some nights, it had become unbearable for her, and Colin could only do so much. Helen's due date was very soon, and this only made Jennifer hurt more. Colin reassured he wouldn't leave, and Jennifer believed him. But, the fact that Helen could have a child of his, and she could not, hurt more than she could have imagined. She'd become too full of that pain, and didn't want Colin to comfort her anymore. She couldn't bear to see the pain in his eyes when she gave into hers. They had already gone back to Vancouver for filming, but she wasn't needed on set today, so she'd stayed home, practically doing nothing until Colin came home.

Colin came home from filming late that day. It had been a long day. It hurt him that she was pushing him away and that she was basically ignoring him. He was starting to get angry and frustrated about it. He understood her pain, but he was trying to help. He was in a lot of pain too.

Jen's sitting on the couch, holding Ava like she's a baby. She's got her eyes closed, and is sitting back, like she's asleep, but she's not.

He sits next to her, but doesn't say anything in case she's sleeping. He kisses her forehead gently.

Her eyelids flutter as he does, and then he knows she's awake. Yet, she doesn't say anything, not a 'hello' or a kiss back.

Colin sighs and sits back, sinking into the couch. She was ignoring him again. "They may say ignorance is bliss, but it's anything but," he mumbles.

It hurt to hear the tone in his voice, she knows she's hurting him by avoiding his comfort, but she would hurt him even more if she let him see the pain. She gets up, letting go of Ava. These last few days, she'd been sleeping in the guest's room, so he could sleep soundly through the night. She didn't want to tell him what was going on, she knew he would beg to comfort her.

He was frustrated now, maybe even mad. But he wasn't one for yelling. "Fine, just get up and leave. Don't look at me, don't talk to me, pretend I don't exist! Of course I'm fine with that. I might as well just go rent an apartment or something you know."

Her heart ached at his words; the tears seem to be coming early today. "Colin," she says softly, putting her face in her hands. She sighs and turns around, facing him, "I love you." Closing her eyes, she continues, "But I can't do this..."

He shakes his head. "Excuse me please," he says, walking past her to make his way upstairs.

He hadn't said it back... She sighs once more and just heads to the guest's room. There, she climbs into bed and it doesn't take long before it hits.

Colin goes to the room and shuts the door behind him with a sigh. Why did it have to be like this? He wasn't able to understand. He decided maybe a shower would calm him down. After that, he comes out of the room and goes downstairs.

She usually takes a while to calm down enough to sleep. Tonight is no exception. She tries to muffle her cries, so there's no chance Colin will hear. But, she doesn't know that in the dead silence of the house, if he stood outside her door, just as he was now he would hear her.

The sounds of her cries, the picture of her in tears breaks his heart. He leans his forehead against the door for a few seconds before he slowly opens it, going to the side of her bed and sitting down.

She hadn't heard him come in, but was lost to her own pain. On nights like this, she'd just think about when Helen's baby would come, and it made her even madder that she could not have a child. She'd wonder what her pain would feel like then, at her first sight of seeing Colin hold his daughter. Yes, he had been told it would be a girl. That was when she began shutting him out, little by little, as her hurt increased. In her head, she would always see the little girl with the blonde hair and blue eyes that Colin and she were supposed to have had.

Colin hesitantly wraps his arm around her waist, pulling her towards him before letting go. "I'm sorry," he whispered. "I love you, I really do." He felt bad. He had been so inconsiderate about her pain, that all he could think of was himself. "I was thinking about me and not you. I'm sorry."

She shakes her head, "Don't apologize." She turns to look at him, her eyes red with tears, "I love you, too. Please go upstairs and sleep."

He wipes the remaining tears from her cheeks. "Let me sleep with you?" he asks. The absence of her in his arms didn't feel right.

"But you won't sleep if I'm crying all night," she whispers very softly.

His face falls as he heard her words.

"You won't cry. I'll make sure to help you feel better," he whispers.

She looks up into his eyes and finds the man she loves in just the same pain as her, her instincts are to comfort him. She reaches for his hand, hinting he lied down with her. "I'm sorry."

He lies down with his arms around her, pulling her towards him. "It's okay. It's been a rough while for both of us," he whispers.

Jen nods, "I shouldn't have pushed you away, I just didn't want you to get hurt," she whispers.

"Shh, it's okay. Just sleep, okay?" he requests before pressing a soft gentle kiss on her lips.

She nods a little; she did feel better in the warmth and comfort of his arms. "Thanks, I love you," she whispers once more and closes her eyes.

"I love you more." he kisses her forehead.

She smiles and comforts herself with the rhythm of his breathing until she falls asleep. He smiles when she falls asleep and kisses her lips softly once more before closing his eyes.

In the middle of the night, around 3 AM, Jennifer awakes to the sound of a phone ringing- Colin's. Colin is deeply asleep and hadn't heard it. She gets up and gets it from the bedside table. Helen reads the caller ID. She's not sure if she should answer, or attempt waking him up. But she didn't have time to do that, so she answers, "Uh, Helen?"

"Jennifer? Uh is Colin there?"

"He's sleeping, Helen are you okay?" Oh no.

"I uh... I just had the baby."

It takes her a couple seconds to reply. "Oh, gosh," she whispers into the phone. "Do you need Colin?" she asks, already waking him up.

"Yes please."

"Mhm? What is it?" Colin asks in sleepy voice, rubbing his eyes.

"Helen. Your baby," is all she says, her voice breaking.

He sits up. "Oh, crap…" He says quietly. "She on the phone?" he mouths.

Jen nods, hands the phone to him and sits on the edge of the bed, bringing her knees to her chest and wrapping her arms around them, watching him.

"Hello?"

Helen explains to Colin that she'd had the baby earlier, that she was healthy, but that he needed to come sign papers for the hospital. He didn't want to go now, but he had a job to do. So he hangs up and tells Jen he has to go. She doesn't say anything and watches as he gets ready to leave quickly. He hugs her goodbye and she actually whimpers when his arms leave her. His face is beautifully thorn, he doesn't want to leave her but he must.

He kisses her lips lightly after putting his jacket on. "I'll be back soon, okay? I love you."

She was going to offer to come with, but she didn't know if she really should or could. "Love you," she whispers back

He smiles slightly. He wanted her to come with him, but that would only make both of them feel worse about not being able to have a child. After a second he grabs his phone and gives her one last kiss before heading out.

She smiles politely, as always in pain. When he leaves, she goes to sit on the couch reluctantly, sighing as she lies down and tries not to think about it.

Colin doesn't take long to get to the hospital. He hopes he can meet the baby today. No matter what, she's still his daughter. Evan had been taken care of by a friend of Helen's these last few days, since Jen had not been able to. But, Colin was to pick him up here and take him so Helen could have a couple weeks of adjusting to the new baby. Once he gets to the hospital, he asks where he can find her at the desk in the maternity ward. They point in the direction of the room and he walks to it. Helen's inside with the baby, they'd told him.

He smiles a little when he enters and sees Helen and the baby. "Hey, how are you feeling?"

Helen smiles back politely, "Hey," she glances at the little crib next to her. "I'm okay, it went well."

Colin goes to the bed closer to her and the baby. "I'm glad it did."

"Her name is Madison," she says. "If she opens her eyes, you'll see they're like yours."

He smiles a little and goes over to her. He was so conflicted. He was really happy. After all, he had a daughter. But he was also heartbroken because he could never have this with Jen, whom he loved so dearly.

Colin went over to the baby and kissed her forehead. "Hey, Madison," he whispered.

Helen smiles from her bed, watching him. She didn't know about Jen not being able to conceive. No one but Jen's family knew.

He smiles a little when the baby opens her eyes.

"You can hold her if you want to," Helen says. "Sorry I called this late, just didn't know if I should have waited."

He smiles slightly and picks Madison up gently. "It's okay, don't worry about it."

Helen just nods and watches with a smile as he crosses the room with Madison in his arms. Not more than half an hour goes by when she reminds him to make sure to pick up Evan and says, "I don't want to keep you here so early in the morning. You must have to work tomorrow."

He nods. "I won't forget. Are you okay to be here alone with her?" he asks. "If there's anything you need, just call me, okay?"

"I'll be alright. She's not too much to handle," she says as Colin goes to put Madison in her arms. "If you'd like to visit tomorrow, we'll still be here."

He smiles slightly. "I'll drop by soon."

He leaves and makes sure to pick up Evan on the way back to Jen's house. When he gets there, she's sleeping on the couch. He puts Evan to bed and then kisses Jen's forehead before picking her up and taking her to her room and putting her in the bed. She's already in her pajamas so he covers her. Once again, he slips in beside her and sleeps with her wrapped in his arms. She felt so fragile, so unlike the woman he knew just a few months ago. He wishes he could just freeze that moment and keep her in his arms, He wished nothing would ever harm her and she wouldn't hurt again. He wished things were different and she could have a child-that they could have a child.

But they had each other, and for him that was enough. He would enjoy what he had with her, they didn't need anything else. These nights with her in his arms, their Starbucks dates, making dinner for her, car rides to work, all of these and more are what counted. It's the little things in their intertwined lives that mattered.

Why does that feel like an ending? Well it certainly is not. So I gave you two chapters tonight. I'll most likely update again next week. I always try and get these out as soon as I can. Anyway, you know the drill, review!