Chapter eleven – This feels like falling in love
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A/N: So I would like to say a big thank you for 7 reviews on the last chapter, yeah I know that's like hardly anything but I enjoy reading them and I do take your criticism into mind so moving on I watched Grease the other day with my friend and it's inspired to me write a fic with a greaser Damon good girl Elena, however I'm only going to write that if it's what you want and it won't be a one shot I have already got a good story line in mind but still let me know because there is no point if no one wants it and you all know how I'm like with keeping up with more than 1 fic!
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Elena could feel her insides churning, how could Damon possibly know? She took a deep breath and watched Damon closely "I don't know what you're talking about" she said feigning to pretend to hide a smile.
"You're a liar Elena" Damon said smirking "I heard you and we both know that you have a beautiful voice, you're not leaving this room until you tell me about it."
Elena was picking her nails nervously and cursed herself for being so foolish as to sing on a tour with a load of musicians, how could he not hear it? "Damon, I can't" she said with a shaking voice.
Damon sighed "Elena why not? You have nothing to be nervous for, you have a beautiful voice and you can play the guitar easily I'm willing to bet that you can do even more than that."
Elena looked down at her trembling hands, she didn't know why her body was acting like this but at the same time she did. All of her insecurities came rushing to the service and having Damon call her out on it was way too overwhelming, she was angry at herself for getting caught but she was also angry at Damon for being so stubborn.
Damon seemed to notice her distress so he cupped her cheeks and made her make eye contact with him "Elena" he cooed gently as he pulled her into a hug "it's okay, I'm sorry" he said as he began to stroke her hair as a few stray tears rolled down her cheeks.
"No Damon, it's not your fault I just can't" she whimpered out as she clutched onto his t-shirt.
Damon was mindful of her stitches so he gently pried her hands from his shirt and massaged the back of her palms "Elena you need to tell me what makes you so insecure, you're not the little girl I remember."
Elena let out a small laugh "I guess that makes two of us because your home life wasn't exactly all peaches and cream like you always said it was."
Damon sighed but still smiled softly "I guess we both had demons that we didn't want to load onto each other."
Elena nodded "how about I tell you when you tell me" she said smugly knowing that Damon was so closed up.
"Look Elena, it doesn't work like that baby" he said as he looked into her chocolate pools.
She sat up straighter and rolled up the sleeves on her jumper revealing the scars from her past "nobody wants to reveal their past but sometimes they have to" she said sadly as she watched Damon's eyes fill with sorrow and pity.
"Why did you do this Elena?"
"I told you, you tell me and I'll tell you."
Damon stood from the bed angrily "this isn't a game Elena; this is some dark shit that we're talking about on both our behalves."
"Well then you must realise how hard it is for me to perform just a simple song to you Damon!" Elena shouted as she stood from the bed.
"Fine, I will tell you when the time is right" Damon said finally. Elena nodded once again and pulled the sleeves of her jumper down. "But you have to give me something Elena, you know bits and pieces give me something to think about at least" Damon asked.
Elena sighed but complied "I'm insecure, that is the core root of the problem and then there are just many other branches with little insecurities stuck on."
Damon walked over and pulled her into a hug again "we will sort through this soon one day Elena that I promise."
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Paris, France.
Klaus and Damon sat at a small silver round table in the airport surprisingly each sipping on a strawberry milkshake "so it turns out that Elena's childhood wasn't as great as she made it out to be" Damon said casually as he sipped on his milkshake.
Klaus eyed him curiously "I'm pretty sure most of her childhood was spent with you, I remember 85% of the time you would blow off football or whatever to go out and play with Elena" he said smirking.
Damon rolled his eyes "so not true, but say early teens then, you know when we started hanging out more?"
Klaus nodded as he bit down on his strawberry straw subconsciously "care to pray tell?"
His raven haired friend shook his head as he put down the milky pink beverage "I cant, it's too personal and she wouldn't forgive me but lets just say that it's not too far off from your old problems, but hey, she only told me a teensy pinch."
Klaus chuckled mindlessly as his grass green eyes finally landed on Damon's bright Lapis Lazuli ones "as long as you know that she's alright now then I wouldn't worry about it, if Elena felt confident enough to tell you then she feels ready to move on."
"But she was really hesitant, shaky and afraid" Damon quickly added concerned.
"Listen Damon, when I started out with the drugs and self harm it was because I couldn't take Michael's verbal abuse anymore. You and I both know that he never physically harmed me but he always put me down, he knew that I wasn't his real son and he punished me for it everyday even though it wasn't my fault. You helped me get through it and I didn't need no bull shit counselling, sure Michael is still around but I don't have to be where he is, he's a sick man both sarcastically and seriously I feel fine about talking about this within reason and the first step to getting over things like this is being able to tell other people, take it from me buddy, if Elena told you then she is self healing" the handsome curly haired British guy finished off.
Damon smiled as both he and Klaus stood from the table "you're right man, I just need to help her get through this like I did with you."
Klaus nodded then smirked "but be more gentle, women are more sensitive then us manly men."
Damon rolled his eyes "you are such a dick."
Klaus chuckled "well you know these soft moments aren't our thing."
Damon nodded "hey look, I think that's our limo" he said pointing a limo which had several people piling into it.
Both Klaus and Damon had the left the others after they had got off the plane so that they could get some 'bro time' which was really just a break from crazy sisters and falling-hard-in-love with childhood friends.
They both jogged over to the limo which had the rest of the gang in, they both climbed into the vehicle and were met by the faces of the others in the back.
"Did you enjoy your boyfriend bonding time?" Damon heard a familiar voice mock from behind him.
He turned to see another figure getting into the limo and gasped then chuckled as he saw who it was "now now Alaric don't get jealous, you know that you're the only one for me."
Rebekah stuck her tongue out in distaste as the rest of the band members just rolled their eyes and Elena cleared her throat "Alaric this is Elena Gilbert, Elena this is my dirty little secret and manager Alaric Saltzman."
Alaric chuckled and Elena just smirked "oh I already know, Alaric is dating my aunt, has been for about six months now?"
"Wait so you two already know each other?" Damon asked confused.
"Only recently but yes, and when little Jeremy called me and Jenna complaining about the big bad vampire looking brother to Stefan who wasn't looking after his sister properly Jenna forced me to come along and she said me being the manager was an easy way in."
Damon rolled his eyes but Elena was just laughing, everyone else had lost interest in the conversation to them it was just their manager on tour no big deal. "Wow Jeremy really must hate me right now" he said as he sat between Elena and Alaric.
"I think that he just wants me to spy on how things are going, I reckon that he's more jealous than concerned for Elena" Ric said rolling his eyes.
Elena smiled "well it's great to have an actual mature adult on this tour."
Damon and Ric both burst out laughing which attracted the rest of the gang "mature? Elena where did you get that hilarious joke from" Damon asked wiping tears from his eyes.
Elena shook her head feeling completely confused "Ric you seem really mature compared to the likes of Damon."
"Hey!" Damon said holding his hand above his heart in a fake wound gesture.
Alaric chuckled "are you calling me old, Elena?"
Elena held her hands up in a innocent gesture "no, not at all what I meant was that you act more mature."
"I was joking Elena, and besides I'm a business man I have to have some level of matureness else if I didn't then I wouldn't be a manager for these idiots, but hey when working hours is out I am completely different, Damon would surely have some tales to tell" Ric said smirking,
"Unfortunately Elena most of those are rated R, Ric can be a right horn dog" Damon said wiggling his eyebrows.
"I'm sorry am I missing something here? Were you two both like gay lovers or something." Elena questioned pointing at them both.
Damon looked at her seriously surprising Elena as she thought he would burst out laughing again, Ric's lips were also set in a serious straight line.
"Elena, Ric and I shared a summer romance together in the early nineties that's how we know each other, it didn't have a great ending and it was hard for us to become friends after but it's still a sensitive subject and not a joke."
Elena almost choked at Damon's words "gosh, I'm sorry-."
Damon cut her off before he burst out laughing along side Alaric "I'm joking Elena, do I look like the kind of person who would have a summer romance with Ric?"
Elena frowned then hit Damon's arm earning a 'ouch' from his soft lips "you're a dick, I hate you sometimes!"
"Well if it makes you feel any better I have kissed Alaric before" Damon said shuddering.
"Really?"
"Yeah but I was drunk so it doesn't count."
"Hey Damon, you really wanna tell her about that day?" Alaric cut in as the limo came to an abrupt stop.
"You know you're right" Damon said effectively ending the conversation, he looked out at the dark night sky of France and watched as everyone began piling out and walking up the impressive hotel with their bags.
"Come on, don't want to get jet lag, busy day tomorrow" Damon said winking as he dragged Elena out with him.
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Dear Diary;
So the tour has been going quite well, apart from the fact that I got lost and almost broke my leg it's been a blast. But honestly though it's been great, and Damon hasn't been the caveman I thought he would be, I mean yeah he's been acting like a dick but he's also been a little soft since we started talking about when we were kids again.
Damon caught me singing, I can honestly say that I am scared shitless – I had to tell Damon something, we've grown closer like we used to be. I told him about the self harm, it's all behind me now but still I don't like to talk about it. The thing is Damon has some past demons that I also never knew about, but I can't judge him because we both know that I have just as many.
I have to go now, Jeremy is calling – can't wait for the lecture, as always Elena.
Elena slid her diary beneath the pillow of her queen sized bed in 'The Region' which was the name of the super posh hotel that they were all staying in.
She picked up her Apple Iphone 5c and slid across the little green 'answer' button "hello, Jer?" She called out into the micro receiver.
"Hey sis, so I was just watching the news and they mentioned Damon's band on there" he said seeming some what excited "the people on the news were saying that just over 100,000 people attended the concert and it was this years record for the rooted American band!" Jeremy exclaimed over the phone seeming happy, "not only that but I saw in the paper that Caroline and Bonnie are rumoured to be in this years top 25 hottest women, I haven't told Bonnie yet in case it's not true but this all just so amazing!"
This wasn't exactly what Elena was expecting, maybe an explanation for why he so badly wanted Alaric to come or maybe even another lecture for her clumsiness but definitely not this.
"Wow Jer, that's really impressive I had no idea!" She called out into the phone, maybe that was also part of why Alaric was easily persuaded to come, he wanted to deliver the good news "did they say anything else about the band?"
"Not really, just that it's expected to one of the most successful tours in about thirty years." Elena could hear Jeremy shuffling about the other line "anyway I have to get going, I'm taking Bonnie on a date but I'll call you again real soon!"
"Bye Jer" Elena said as she hung up.
The next morning Elena bumped into Damon literally whilst in the hotel lobby "you should watch out" he said with a bag of ice in his hand.
"You did that on purpose!" She said accusingly "Why do you have a bag of ice?" She suddenly questioned.
"I like my bourbon cold" he said sensually, how could he make such a simple thing so sexy? Elena thought to herself.
Elena just rolled her eyes but Damon spoke on "well seeing as though you are here, I want to show you something."
Elena raised her eye brow cautiously "what?"
"Nothing that you wont enjoy."
"Damon, if this is another one of your attempts to get me to..-"
"Relax and get your head outta the gutter, just follow me."
Elena hesitated but finally followed Damon into a room which looked almost like some kind of 1800's parlour.
The walls were white but the carpet was brown with some kind of Victorian pattern printed in the middle, there was a coffee table in the middle with some flowers on and there were gigantic windows with netted curtains flowing down. There was a cabinet with many alcohols and several mirrors on the wall, it was then that Elena noticed the reflection of one of the mirrors was a piano.
"I'm going to play you a song."
"You played me one yesterday."
"Yeah but this is one I wrote regarding yesterday."
"Do you write a lot of songs about me Damon?"
Damon seemed to pause treading carefully on how he was going to answer "I wrote a couple little lines when we were teenagers and I suppose recently I've made a couple into songs."
"Did you have a crush on me Damon?" Elena once again questioned.
Damon sighed as he sat the piano stool "I don't know, maybe. Because of my father I don't truly know how I felt for you" he said honestly.
Elena nodded her head, feeling bad for bringing his dad up again "anyway, let's play."
I wanna take you somewhere so you know I care
But it's so cold and I don't know where
I brought you daffodils in a pretty string
But they won't flower like they did last spring
And I wanna kiss you, make you feel alright
I'm just so tired to share my nights
I wanna cry and I wanna love
But all my tears have been used up
On another love, another love
All my tears have been used up
On another love, another love
All my tears have been used up
On another love, another love
All my tears have been used up
And if somebody hurts you, I wanna fight
But my hands been broken, one too many times
So I'll use my voice, I'll be so fucking rude
Words they always win, but I know I'll lose
And I'd sing a song, that'd be just ours
But I sang 'em all to another heart
And I wanna cry I wanna learn to love
But all my tears have been used up
On another love, another love
All my tears have been used up
On another love, another love
All my tears have been used up
On another love, another love
All my tears have been used up
I wanna sing a song, that'd be just ours
But I sang 'em all to another heart
And I wanna cry, I wanna fall in love
But all my tears have been used up
On another love, another love
All my tears have been used up
On another love, another love
All my tears have been used up
On another love, another love
All my tears have been used up
Elena smiled "once again Damon, you truly do have a talent" she pauses before continuing "did you ever write songs like for this for anyone else?"
Damon nodded a little "I did for Rose, but never anyone else" he looked up at Elena "only for people who deserve it."
She seemed to hesitate before asking "can you show me a song you wrote for Rose?"
"I can show you a song I wrote after she died" Damon compromised.
Elena nodded as Damon began to tap the keys again
Dear darlin', please excuse my writing.
I can't stop my hands from shaking
'Cause I'm cold and alone tonight.
I miss you and nothing hurts like no you.
And no one understands what we went through.
It was short. It was sweet. We tried.
And if my words break through the wall
And meet you at your door,
All I can say is "Girl, I mean them all."
Dear darlin', please excuse my writing.
I can't stop my hands from shaking
'Cause I'm cold and alone tonight.
I miss you and nothing hurts like no you.
And no one understands what we went through.
It was short. It was sweet. We tried. We tried.
I understand where he's coming from.
Been thinking about the bar we drank in.
Feeling like the sofa was sinking.
I was warm in the hold of your eyes.
So if my words break through the wall
To meet you at your door,
All I can say is "Girl, I mean them all."
Dear darlin', please excuse my writing.
I can't stop my hands from shaking
'Cause I'm cold and alone tonight.
I miss you and nothing hurts like no you.
And no one understands what we went through.
It was short. It was sweet. We tried.
Oh I can't cope. These arms are yours to hold.
And I miss you and nothing hurts like no you.
And no one understands what we went through.
It was short. It was sweet. We tried.
We tried
Elena wiped the tear from he eye "don't cry Elena, believe me this is how I coped with the loss of Rose and it could have been a hell of a lot worse."
Elena was overwhelmed by Damon's courage and couldn't stop herself when she next spoke "yes Damon, I'll do it."
"Do what?"
"I'll sing for you."
A/N: Happy Holidays everybody! So I hope that this okay and don't forget to please review and also add a little comment about the greaser fic idea, I have my own laptop now so I should be able to post easier and yes I know this ending is similar to the last chapter but I just couldn't help myself! I also hope you all like Alaric being in the fic a little more, also just to clear up the thing about him and Damon kissing that is just a drunken mistake they weren't actually gay I just thought it would be funny to add in also I know the songs that Damon 'writes' for Elena if you read the lyrics seem a bit off point it's just all the lovey dovey songs are being saved for when and if they finally find each other! So I'm kind of writing in romantic but also kind of sad and angsty songs, once again I would recommended listening to the songs yourself to get a good idea.
Songs; Another Love by Tom Odell, Dear Darling by Olly Murs.
Next Time; Elena sings nervously for Damon, the gang tour it up in Paris then move to their next destination. Bonnie and Caroline get offered a music career deal, Damon confesses something to Elena but things don't go as planned.