A/N Hey all, here is another chapter. I'm not sure how much I like it, the dialogue may seem choppy and I apologize but dang this is pretty darn long. Did any of you see the new BTR episode. Well I did, and it was awesome and I just love their new song 'Til I forget about you.' Okay I am seriously confused because how does a rock/alternative music lover just love love love the pop music of BTR. I don't know but who cares I'm just strange like that. Anyway enjoy the new chapter.

Also is anyone else having problems with the fan fiction site. Please tell me I'm not going nuts. Okay any nuttier than I already am.

Okay I'll stop rambling…..wait one more thing;

Disclaimer: As sad and unfortunate as it is I do not own any part that is big time rush.

Chapter 10: Lily's Past-Cupid's Cord

Entering the room, Logan looked around and spots a broken picture frame. The glass was cracked, the frame was broken, so logically, it must be what was thrown, he thought. Taking a closer look at the picture, he saw two young, happy people. Two people he knew all too well. The duo that made up Cupid's Cord. The only musicians both his parents could agree on listening to. He was brought up on Cupid's Cord's music. When he was younger, he would sit with his parents and watch live concerts on TV. He also knew that the woman and man that made up the hit sensation, Cupid's Cord, were the parents of his best friend. Lily.

She told him when they were seven. When they first became friends. But after that her parents were never brought up.

Back to the reason why he was in Lily's room, he looks around to find her. And when he sees her, it nearly tears him in two.

She was in the corner, sitting with her knees bent up to her chest, her arms wrapped around her legs, and her head resting on her knees. She was slightly rocking back and forth, quietly crying.

This sight tore Logan up. But at the same time it also scared him. He wasn't one to deal with tears, he didn't even know how. Lily never cried before so he, nor any of the guys had to deal with it. She didn't cry when Carlos accidentally rammed her into the wall in hockey, making her fracture her wrist. She didn't shed a tear when Billy McGibber was beating her daily at practice, after finding out she was a girl. Even when nearly the entire hockey team was harassing her, she still held strong (Although the guys never knew about it until after she was excepted. And when they did they were furious and would have beat the entire team up, like they did to Billy McGibber).

She is always the strong one, the caring one, the heart (Believe it or not but she was the glue, she got all of them to meet. Whether she was directly involved or not). The other guys and himself all used her at one point as a rock. He leaned on her when his parents were getting a divorce. It was pretty bad, especially to an eight-year old. And even though she may have been in California for the most part, he could always count on her. He would call her daily, from Grandma Sandford's house, as well as occasionally using the web cam Mrs. Sandford had, after getting permission of course. And it was even better when she was there for the summer.

Carlos seeked her out for comfort when his mother passed away, and when Sparky, his dog, ran away.

Kendall looked to her when his father was in town, causing trouble for his family.

And James would always vent out his frustration to her about living up to his older sisters. His parents always seemed to compare his achievements to his sisters, who were 'perfect.' His teachers were always telling him that his sisters did better, he should be like his sisters. (One of the main reasons why James wants to be famous, to make a name for himself).

But now it was Lily who needed someone to lean on, and Logan knew it. As inexperienced as he was in comforting he would try his best. Plus out of the four guys, he was the closest to her.

Grabbing as much courage as he could muster, he went over to Lily (picture still in hand), and sat next to her. Once he sat he was a little uncertain about what to do next. Then he remembered one time, when Katie was crying due to a scraped knee (she was like five) he wrapped his arms around her, to comfort her. And that is what he did. He tentatively placed his arm around Lily, so she would know she's not alone, and has someone to lean on.

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Lily didn't notice when Logan entered her room. She didn't see him standing in front of her debating on what to do. She didn't know he sat down next to her. But she did feel an arm wrap around her. Lifting her head up from her knees she saw an uncertain Logan trying to comfort her. Her first reaction was to pull away, embarrassed. She has never cried in front of her boys, never. But even if you did, said a small voice in her head, it wouldn't change a thing, he still saw you. And another voice said, Everyone needs someone to lean on. And that is just what she did. Instead of pulling away like she planned on doing at first, she cuddled into Logan and cried on his shoulder. Letting out all the pain, anger, sadness, and grief she has been suppressing throughout the years.

It amazed Lily how much she held in. And that finally after about five-six years, she is crying for her parents death.

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After he put his arm around her, he saw her look up something in her face made him think he did something wrong. He thought she was going to pull away but then she didn't. Instead, taking him a little off guard, she snuggled into him and continued crying on his shoulder. When she did this he was a little shocked, he didn't know what to do next. He just kept his arms around her but it seemed that was all she needed. And for the next five minutes or so they sat there, Lily crying and Logan just sitting with her.

Once her tears were dry Logan, didn't know what to do next. Should he give her a little more time? Should he start asking questions? Should he wait and let her start? He then looked down at the picture that he placed beside him and inspiration on what to do next hit him. Lifting the picture so it was in view he stated the obvious "That's them, your parents."

"Yeah" Seeing that she wasn't willing to give more information he went ahead and asks "So, um, why don't you, um, tell me what's going through that, head of yours?" At first she was quiet, making him think that she wasn't going to answer. But then she says quietly "Just ….I don't know….a lot of stuff." Trying to get her to be more specific he goes and says "Well, what kind of stuff?"

"You know, stuff." Seeing as she wasn't willing to give more details, he goes head first in asking "Well, could any of this 'stuff' have anything to do with them?" Referring back to the picture. Looking back at the picture, then to Logan she states, barely above a whisper, "Yes." He almost missed her say it but he did catch it. After waiting a few seconds for her to elaborate, he realized that he was going to have to pry it out of her and goes and says "So, are they the reason you don't want to become famous?" Again she was debating on telling him or not. She was having a silent conversation with herself. One side was telling her to tell him, the other was holding her back. Finally she came to a decision.

"Well, yeah. I mean I don't want to end up like them." When she said this it confused Logan. He just thought she just didn't want to be in the shadows of her parents.

"End up like them, how?"

"D-D-De-ad"

"Dead?"

"Yeah….and changed." Now he was really confused. He tried to remember if she ever told him anything but couldn't find a single thing. And so he told her "I'm sorry but I'm having some trouble understanding, why don't you elaborate?"

When he asked her to elaborate, she knew there was no way around it. And in a way she was glad because she did want to tell him. And the others but just telling Logan would be enough for now.

"Well you see…" Only problem is when she tried to begin, she didn't know how. Should she begin with the truth of why she actually moved in with her grandmother? Or should she start with her childhood? Or should she start easy and begin with what happened with her friend?

And then looking at the picture she knew how to start.

"See the picture your holding?"

"Yeah."

"Well don't they look happy to you, carefree, relaxed?

"Yes, but how does…sorry continue."

"Their smiles are so genuine. They're glowing with happiness."

"…"

"I just wish they would have given those kind of smiles to me or anyone for that matter. This picture was taken before they became famous. Before I was born. Before they changed.

"The parents I grew up with never gave smiles like those. They would sometimes give smiles close to that one and if they did it was never towards me. I always got those fake, red carpet smiles. I sometimes wonder if I was just some publicity stunt, that I was only conceived as a way to get more publicity, for them to seem more relatable. They always made it clear that I wasn't important to them. Everything came before me. Their work, music, events, fans, tours…."

"I'm sure that's not true, I bet you were very important."

"Grandma says the same thing, but if that was true would they always blow off my comments about wanting to come with them on a tour or even a simple concert or just simply wanting to spend some quality time with them. I would constantly ask if we could do something as a family like go to the park but ever time they would blow me off. Half the time they didn't even try to understand what I was saying. One time when I was 8, we were eating breakfast. Me on one side of the table and them on the other. I over heard them discussing a tour and said 'I wanna go too.' and you know what my dad said. He said 'That's nice dear.' He didn't even hear me or bother trying to understand what I was saying. And neither did my mother."

"Well maybe they were trying to protect you. I mean touring isn't a place to raise a child."

"But why couldn't they take me to the park or set aside some time, other than our daily music lessons."

"…"

"You don't have an answer to that do you. Well understand that those music lessons were the only time I ever interacted with them. They taught me piano and gave me singing lessons, practically forcing the knowledge down my throat. That is unless they had other things to do. But even then, they distanced themselves. And most of the time I was stuck home with a nanny. At first I thought it that was because they didn't want to exploit me but now I think it was because they didn't want the focus to be off them. I didn't even have any friends because I wasn't allowed to get out. Well except for this one girl. My nanny had a niece who she would bring with her on occasion and we became friends. She was my only friend back in California. But you want to know what happened? She ditched me to become an actress and to become famous, all because she was casted in some stupid commercial."

Hearing her explain her past, Logan was able to piece together some of the pieces on why she dislikes the idea of fame so much. But he was still confused on how the death of her parents fit into this. Trying to keep her going he stated "I get it, some what."

"You do"

"Well, yeah, I mean from what you have said it seems that those you were close to were taken away, changed due the corruption of fame. You never got to know your parents before they became famous and your friend left you. And now your afraid that by us doing that record deal you'll lose us too."

"Not only that but I'm afraid to lose myself Logan. And I'm even more afraid that what happened to my parents will happen to you, the guys and myself."

Wanting her to go on, and thinking this has to do with the death of Cupid's Cord he asks "Are you afraid of us dying?"

"Yes.." And just as Logan was about to say something she goes and continues "And I know that at one point every one will die. I just…don't want to go the same way my parents did." As she was saying this she began to tear up again. "You know the summer before I made this my home permanently, I just told you I'm staying not giving any reason."

"Yes but you seemed all sad."

"I was sad, because I only got to stay because my parents died."

"And you blame fame?"

"Yes"

"But why?"

"Because they were murdered and they wouldn't have been if they weren't famous. If they weren't in the publics eye." By now tears were rolling down her cheek. She never really said it out loud. She knew they were dead but it never seemed to hit until she said it out loud. And as much as she did care for her parent, more than they cared about her, she didn't feel as much grief as she should have. Not even when it first happened. Its like the death of her parents doesn't bother her as much as the thought of her friends death. And just thinking about it made fresh new tears.

At hearing this Logan's eyes grew wide. He never knew. No wonder why she is dead-set against fame. But the guys were counting on him to change her mind or at least make a truce. So he began saying, after processing the information "But that could have been anyone. Are you sure that maybe they didn't just get caught in a cross-fire. You know wrong place, wrong time sort of thing."

In reply she says, with her voice laced with tears, "It doesn't matter because even if it was wrong place, wrong time thing, they wouldn't have been there in the first place if it wasn't for their stupid career. And I just can't live with the thought of that happening to us."

By now Logan had tears in his own eyes but he knew he had to get through to her somehow.

"Well what happens if I say that would never happen."

"How could you know Logan? You guys may change, I may change and then we get killed. How do you know that isn't going to happen?"

"I don't know when our time is to go but I do know nothing is going to change us."

"Again how do you know?"

"Because, we are five best friends and do you not know us. We're crazy. If anything we'll change that town not the other way around."

Hearing him say that Lily laughed. She didn't know why but she did. She also knew that what he said is true. If only a little. They were crazy, and it would be funny to see a town change for them and not the other way around. Through her laugh she states "That was good."

Seeing Lily laugh made Logan feel good. Seeing her smile was contagious and he smiled too. But than he became serious saying "But I'm serious, nothing will change us and if we do, which I am not saying we will, you can slap us on the head in whatever method you choose and ship us back to Minnesota."

"But its not that simple, I've seen it, they take good people and just turn them into something they're not. Plus what if we do this and we get killed."

"We won't get killed."

"But.."

"No more buts now say it with me, 'We will change the town, not the other way around.'"

"But.."

"Hmm (raises eyebrow)" Rolling her eyes she says "We will change the town, not the other way around."

"Good, now I'll go tell the boys that we are ready."

And just as he was going to stand up Lily pulls him back down. "I'm not sure if I want this though, I mean I made a promise to myself that I would never become like my parents."

"I told you, you…."

"Won't but I still feel uncertain."

"Fine, how about this, you think on it and meet us at Kendall's by 4:30 with your answer okay, and just remember if you were to stay here you would be physically losing your best friends and I don't think you want that because you know as well as I do that this is your choice, not fame this time. And as for the whole phobia of being killed, we have taken some big risks in the past that could have killed us, so just think of this as one more risk to add, with a bigger reward. So if you change your mind, Mr. Rocque and his assistant are coming to Kendall's at 5 to discuss details." And with that he left.

Blinking, Lily processed what was just said to her, and let out a scream of confusion. Saying out loud, 'Logan why do you have to be so logical.' And as much as she hated to admit it, Logan was right in both areas. They have taken some big risks before so why not this one. Besides if she didn't she would be losing her best friends not because of just fame, but because she was to stubborn to go. So what is a girl to do?

Yeah what is she going to do? Will she stay? Will she go? Is this the end? Well the only way to find out is to stay tuned….

Okay dokey, wow I think this is the longest chapter that I have written so far. And wow that was one emotional chapter. Okay so listen tell me what you think because I personally think I stink at writing emotionally stuff and that this came out horribly. So REVIEW REVIEW REVIEW REVIEW REVIEW.