AN: As it says at the end of Umika's AMV 'Heaven Exists…..Somewhere…..No doubt' I got to dig deep into my psyche and used some old demons, not to mention the demons my nephew has (Mine where when I was younger but he struggles with his every day) Always remember Kyle that God loves you no matter what and just believe Jesus can heal those demons. I know you don't think so now, neither did I at the time, but now I'm the aunt you know and love. Never give up and be strong like you have been for so many years. The Edward in me says never give up and use the strong legs God gave you and kick their ass.

Comfortably Miserable Chap.11

It was dark and he couldn't see anything sitting there, until a huge opening started to materialize in the ground with the smell of burning and rotting flesh. Then a huge other worldly being appeared in front of him he didn't know what it was but the thing was scary, more scarier than anything he'd ever faced in a fight as he stood to his feet.

"Hello Edward, I'm Lucifer and I've come to collect your soul boy." He smiled a huge scary smile walking towards Edward as he began to show Edward everything he had done in his life from his attitude on life to killing people.

Edward's head was forward, bangs in his face as his amber eyes looked upon the massive fallen angel. He swallowed hard and sighed 'Well I guess this is it then? No! Wait a minute I believe Jesus is Lord not this fool.' Mary appeared next to him "Call his name Edward. There is power in his name."

Choking on the smell of rotting flesh Edward looked up "JESUS!" and out of the dark sky a light began to form. Lucifer looked up "NOOOO! AFTER ALL YOU'VE DONE YOU THINK HE'LL SAVE YOU NOW!" he yelled and laughed aloud as he swiped his hand out to grab Edward but Edward did a back flip and began running towards the light with his hand in the air. The sheer terror on his face made Mary realize that this was a fight he was not prepared for. He continued running and grabbing for the light as Lucifer swiped his feet out from under him and he thought he was done for waiting to be grabbed by the feet and drug into hell at any moment as he lay face down 'Please God please help me I can't fight him without you.' But instead he felt a warm feeling on his back as he turned his head to look over his shoulder at the glorious light that surrounded the man standing at his feet it was too bright to even gaze upon. Then it dimmed a little and he saw the outline of the most beautiful man he'd ever seen. The man slightly smiled at him as he turned to the fallen angel "You cannot have this one because he is mine now." And with a swipe of his hand "BE GONE DEVIL!" The fallen angel shrunk down and crawled back into his hole and it closed.

As Edward sat up he dropped his head and covered his eyes not wanting to look at this man because of all the destructive bad things and killing he had done in his life. Jesus turned to face him knowing what Edward was thinking "I have forgiven all that you have done Edward Elric. I won't give you more than you can take, I might let you bend but I won't let you break and know that I will never let you go." Edward's hands slid from his face as he looked at him "Thank you Lord."

Mary walked up and bent down next to Edward "We have a problem Edward. It's your brother he's stuck in purgatory and he refuses to cross over."

Jesus looked at Edward "Your brother and you had a well laid out plan for your lives. But when tragedy happened and Lucifer stepped in that path was changed. You were both meant to do a great deed for this world but instead you contributed to the problem. But now I have decided to do something I've never done. " Jesus lifted his hand "I will turn back the hands of time and reset it so you Edward will follow that path you were supposed to till you get to your brother and tell him to cross over." He looked at Edward "That is the only way I can send him back to reset everything. I must warn you though there will be some of the same casualties there were this time." He turned to walk away "Some things must take place for you to become who you were supposed to be."

Edward was stunned to the point he could hardly talk "I-I-I don't understand." He said looking at Mary.

Jesus stopped and turned to face Edward "You Edward will save your brother and I will give you the life you were supposed to live because your turmoil and suffering has showed me that your spirit and soul are strong and this world needs your help for what's coming. But right now we must concentrate on your brother who has suffered for eight years in purgatory where he was never supposed to stay." As Jesus began to walk away two massive angels appeared "Michael and Gabriel will lead you through the life you were supposed to live because if not you could fall through the space time continuum and be lost forever. Mary will guide you along the way also, You were once in that purgatory your brother is in but you were pulled out and sent you back after you were attacked."

Edward couldn't believe that the Lord God was doing this for him. He remembered that day when he was younger and Al and he were in front of huge doors after they were attacked. Al had disappeared but he had been drug back through the door by long black arms. As Jesus walked by Michael and Gabriel he stopped briefly "When he is done and things are as they were supposed to be I want you to wipe his memory clear of the life he led before I don't want him remembering any of that but leave this memory and the memory of Mary. The girls Winry and Valoren leave their memories so they know something miraculous has happened and they too shall believe."

Both angles nodded "Yes Lord" Walking over to Edward they each took one of his arms "Are you ready boy to regain what you lost?" Edward nodded to them as they took off with him and he closed his eyes.

He felt himself go back in time as his body became younger and the angels told him this is where it begins and they were gone just out of his sight but not away from him as time began to move forward. He was being lifted into the sky lying on his back as he free floated. Then he found himself in a field of beautiful glowing flowers and he saw his mother, Alphonse and himself in the field and he smiled as he turned and walked off. He then saw Alphonse and him attempt Human transmutation and Al lose his body, he saw his leg be taken and then he gave his arm up to bond his brother's soul to a suit of armor. Then he was back in the field of flowers staring out into its vastness. Then soaring into the air again he saw his whole life, as he soared through the darkness weightless as pictures in time past by his face in the time line. He saw Izumi and his mother in the time line. The life he was supposed to have and it went by fast as he found himself next falling into a mine shaft in Baschool after fighting Kimblee. He was on the ground blood gushing from the wound in his side where a pipe had run through him and out the other side "I won't make her cry not over something as stupid as this." He said clapping his hands together and breaking the pipe. And as he lay there bleeding out he heard angels singing the most beautiful song he'd ever heard as Mary appeared next to him and he looked up and saw a glimpse of her before his eyes closed "This Edward was almost a fatal wound but once again you proved that your power and life force is strong."

It was like Edward saw every part of his life and he realized in this lifetime he didn't believe in killing and it was a welcoming feeling after the killing sprees and blood he had spilt in the last life. 'Wow I could have had this life if the devil wouldn't have stepped in and changed my future.' He could feel his love for Winry grow stronger as time went by and his heart filled with warmth that he had never felt before as he closed his eyes and let the pictures of time fill his mind. He saw the fights he fought and all the times knowing Mary was there but only seeing feathers. This was the life he wanted and hoped for soaring through the time lines he saw his fight with Greed only it was over Al this time. He saw Hughes' death and his funeral. He also saw their father and saw what he was doing although right know he didn't understand it. Watching Winry try to rearrange his brain cells with a wrench every time he broke his automail. Watching him and his brother travel the country and help people without killing them.

In this life he also realized he didn't kill Nina or the child that started the war and he felt relief and sorrow that they still had to die. He saw his self and another boy, a foreign boy with long black hair in a ponytail wading through ankle high blood trying desperately to find a way out of their situation. Then they were fighting a big green monster. His head was bandaged and his arm was broken and splinted as he stood in front of a transmutation circle with stones blocks around him. Talking to the green monster he saw that he looked upset and then he opened the portal and his spirit was suddenly sucked into that body in that time as he was being disassembled by the long black arms.

Suddenly he found himself in a place facing a door, a portal, his portal. Feeling a feeling he hadn't felt since losing his brother his eyes widened as he turned his head. Sitting behind him in front of a different portal was a boy, naked, with long gold hair 'Al?' The boy turned and looked at him and Edward knew it was his brother as he stood up and ran for him. Knowing he had to get to his brother he ran and ran as flashes of memories of them as children went through Edward's head as the boy stood up and stared at him 'Ed? Is it really you' Al thought his mind was playing tricks on him. Edward's portal opened and the long arms came rushing out as he struggled against them, fighting 'NO! NO!' They grabbed him and began to pull him back to the portal "ALPHONSE!" He yelled as the anguish and fear gripped him as they pulled him through the portal and it shut. Al realized that his brother was gone again and his face saddened till Edward's portal door came crashing open from his fist "ALPHONSE! LISTEN TO ME! YOU HAVE TO GO THROUGH YOUR PORTAL!" struggling the whole time with the long arms he pulled and strained to hold the door open, "TRUUUUST MEEEEE!" Being over powered by the long arms as he was pulled back through the gate, "IT'S THE ONLY WAY WE CAN BE TOGETHER AGAIN! PLEEEASE AL GOOOO!" Al stood and just looked at him and Edward thought he didn't get through to him as he was pulled back through and the doors slammed as his hand reached out for his brother and he saw him through the crack as the portal slammed shut. 'Please, please Al, go through. I have failed you if you don't and there's no reason for me to continue if you don't cross over.'

He found himself standing on a dirt road and up ahead he saw his mother, brother and himself walking back from town as they always did, talking and laughing. He stood there and looked down at himself and realized he was see through, a spirit and he thought he had failed, actually he knew he had failed. Looking to the three happy people walking in front of him his younger self turned to stare at him and he thought 'Can he see me?' Turning his younger self walked back and stood in front of him and stared up at him in awe. Edward figured this was another chance to stop the madness that had controlled his life. So looking at his younger self he slightly smiled then his head dropped forward and anguish took over his face as he told his younger self "Watch out for your brother and don't take unnecessary walks to town." His younger self stared at him as he said one last thing to the younger boy "Follow your gut instinct" Then he yelled "GO!" his younger self frightened by the older boys outburst turned and ran off to catch up with his mother and brother.

Never more do I sit and think 'What fresh hell has the devil for me today?'

My mind, soul and spirit have been saved.

No longer do I wait for that hellish weight around my feet to pull me down.

It's been taken off I'm no longer bound to a life of darkness and despair.

The wreckage of my past is that, the past.

My savior has forgiven me at last.

I look at life now as a blessing and I smile, and I have joy and peace for all the while.

I treasure the things I hold most dear, and that's my lord for with him there is nothing in life that I now fear.

G.E. (which are my initials in real life)

8-10-2013

(Aka: Edward Elric around my house)