'God, you look good in the morning.' It didn't take much to make her look good but she looked beautiful in the bed next to me.
'Not that you would know since you just woke up and it's...ten past one.' She laughed when I pouted at her.
'Yeah well same thing. You look good next to me when I wake up.'
'You don't' she joked, I hope.
'Hey!'
She calmed me with small, sweet kisses.' I was kidding baby , you've never looked anything but amazing.'
'Aww, well isn't someone sweet , thanks babe.'
We just sat there staring at the ceiling as I moved my hand softly over her flat stomach.
'Remember the weekend Ali was away and you stayed with me because I missed her and I couldn't sleep.'
'...yeah , babe. Why?'
'I don't think I ever really loved her, I knew it that night but I only just realised. I loved you, I was envyed Alison and I guess I needed her as a friend, but I wasn't in love with her. I've been in love with you since that night.'
What was I supposed to say to that ? She has loved me for that long and I didn't notice 'Wow, ... Em that's a really long time.' I stopped the spirals my hand was making and just stared at the ceiling.
'Han?'
'Mmhmm'
'It's okay that you haven't loved me for as long.'
'No, Em , it's not that . I mean I guess I always liked you more than any of the others. The moment I saw that photo of you ... and Maya , I was glad but jealous and then I realised my feelings were because I loved you. I always have. The thing that I hate is that I never realised, I never felt good enough for anyboby, never mind you.'
'Never mind me?'
'Yeah, you're just amazing and beautiful and so many other things.'
'Hanna... You have always been beautiful , how could you let anyone tell you differently?'
Now she was tracing patterns up and down my arm and it was making me crazy, her touch was just...everything.
'Alison was pretty convincing.'
'Ali , never had anything on you , that's why she pushed you down so that you'd never be confident enough to over throw her from the stupid high school queen spot; because you always could have and she was scared.'
'I love you, babe.'
'I love you too.'