Challenges of Living Together
Memory
I suppose this is what happens when I multitask on stories… I don't type them as they get written.
Characters: Prussia, Canada
Rating: K+
Challenges of Living Together
Memory
Sometimes, sometimes Gilbert did not feel as awesome as he always did. There were times when he felt completely and totally useless. It didn't happen all the time, but there were days, on occasions, he just felt depressed. Luckily for everyone involved, it only happened every couple of years and it never lasted quite long.
He would always start to feel this way when it would be raining outside. That was the first thing that could lead to him not feeling 110% awesome. The second thing that would play into effect would be when Matthew had to leave for a world conference. It wasn't the fact he wouldn't get to see his lover for a few days, (Ludwig had put a restraining order on him after he had "accidentally" blown out half of the building one year when he was bored,) but it was the fact it reminded him he no longer was a nation. He was only a shell representing something that once was great, but was no longer. Sure things weren't as great as they used to be in his prime, but at least he used to know he had some worth to the world.
When that would happen, he would go to the attic and retrieve some of his old diaries. He didn't have all of them here with him, since there were quite a lot of them. After all, he had been around for a very long time, but he had brought a fair amount from his "Most Awesome" collection. Those were the ones he re-read frequently and that always made him feel 100% awesome. (The extra ten percent he got from looking at his reflection in a mirror.)
What he liked about re-reading his diaries was it allowed for him to relive every moment of his life his brain hadn't bothered to remember. Sometimes, he would laugh at what he read, sometimes he would be surprised at what he or someone else had tried to do, and sometimes, he was slightly disturbed by the stupid things others had tried to do. (He never did any stupid things, well, maybe, but that was neither here nor there.)
Basically, he would grab a couple of his diaries, (he would vary; one from the early days, one from the middle, one from the recent years and two random ones), and then he would get comfortable on the couch with a warm blanket around him and he would start his reading.
It would take about half a diary on a good day to make him feel better, but on his utterly crap days, the early diaries would only reinforce the fact he was no longer the Awesome Prussia. He was just Gilbert. But sometimes, being just Gilbert was enough and it would be when he would get to a more recent diary he would realize he still had some worth to a few people. And sometimes, that was all that mattered.
He didn't realize it right away, but the more he would read, the more it dawned on him. It would start off with a simple little thing like "I racked the leaves in the yard while Matt was at work and he was really happy when he got home. Of course he was, I did an awesome job!" and it would progress to something like "Matt was stuck at work late and I knew the house needed to be cleaned so I did it. Gott, if I knew he'd be that happy because I cleaned the house I might have done it earlier!" and finally, there were far simpler things like "I was making snacks when Matt just came up behind me and hugged me. When I asked him what was up he said he was happy we were together and he appreciated the things I did for him." that would make him realize even though he might not have been a huge kingdom that kicked major ass like he used to, or a number one superpower like America currently was, he would always be number one to Matthew and that was a memory he would never, ever forget.
OWARI 11
TO BE CONTINUED
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Started writing: April 7th 2010, 11:50am
Finished writing: April 7th 2010, 10:26pm
Started typing: April 18th 2010, 7:09pm
Finished typing: April 18th 2010, 7:31pm