Chapter 11: Love Me

The morning's rays were beaming into the room, causing my eyes to flicker open. Without really thinking, I got out of bed and headed towards the colossal bathroom, doing my standard morning habitual. I left my hair down, not feeling up to doing anything with it. I didn't bother to change out of my pajamas for Draco's parents were not home and he had seen me in them, hence what was really the point in changing. I could feel my stomach growl from a lack of dinner last night therefore I would have to make up for it.

When I entered the kitchen it was completely deserted. There wasn't a house elf in sight. I didn't feel like waking any of them up just to make me an undemanding meal, so I decided to make my own breakfast, after all how hard could it be.

I searched through the many cabinets and found ingredients but I had not idea what they were. Most them I hadn't even heard of before. I decided that it was hopeless to make myself breakfast in this household.

"There's some cookies in a container up there that I hide." Draco said.

"I cant eat cookies." I told him.

"Fine, there's some peanuts in a clear container with a green lid that I hide in that cabinet." I turned around to see Draco pointing at the cabinet in front of me.

I opened the cabinet doors and spotted the container, hid behind some other dishes. I tried reaching for it, even standing on my tippy toes but had no such luck in reaching it. Unexpectedly Draco came up behind me and grabbed the container easily, went back to the island that sat in the middle of the kitchen, sat in a stool and popped open the lid, grabbing a salty peanut.

"Thanks." I muttered as I walked over to the counter and grabbed a peanut, popping it into my mouth.

"You're welcome. I wanted to ask you something?" Draco acknowledged.

"What about?" I asked as I ate another peanut.

The peanut was saline with a jagged touch to it. I sucked the salt off of the nut and then proceeded to eat the nut.

"Why did you go out with Potter?" he unpredictably asked.

I almost choked when I heard the question.

"Why do you want to know?" I countered back.

"Just trying to make conversation, but if you don't want to talk about it, then we don't have to." he shrugged his broad shoulders.

"No, I don't mind at all. I guess because I knew him for a long time and I really did like him. He was nice to me but everything changed once we started going out. I don't know maybe I was afraid of commitment." I confessed.

I really hadn't given it much thought as to why I started going out with Harry.

"Ok, here's another one. What did you think about the kiss last night?" he questioned.

"It could have been better." I shrugged.

The truth was the kiss last night was amazing, intoxicating. It was something that I couldn't forget. It was the first thing that had come to my mind this morning.

"Bullshit...you enjoyed it as much as I did...why cant you just admit it?" he scoffed.

"I'm being honest." lying was something I was good at but Draco could always tell when I was, which was so unfair.

"No, you're not. Now own up what you really thought of it," he demanded.

I was about to leave the kitchen but Draco had stepped in front of me, blocking my way.

"I told you exactly what I thought of the kiss. It was ok. It wasn't great. I guess you're not as sexy as you claim to be." I said with anger.

"You know what, I'm tired of your attitude?" he yelled.

"Then why do you hang around me? Why don't you just leave me alone?" I pushed passed him.

"BECAUSE I LOVE YOU! DAMN IT!" he yelled as he grabbed my arm.

I froze within my steps. I could barely think straight, let alone hear clearly.

"Why can't you see that? Are you that blinded by the resentment and hate that you feel towards me?" Draco asked with hurt in his voice.

I didn't know anymore. I felt love towards Draco but he was so different then what I had wanted for a boyfriend. He was ignorant, sanctimonious, stubborn, stupid, handsome, intelligent and a good student. I thought that I knew what I wanted but Draco had changed that. He had changed my view on boys and was actually more on my mind then my education.

I was tired of always being so cautious about the decisions that I made. I wanted to do something for myself. I had gone to Hogwarts because my parents wanted me to go. I was a straight A student with an A attitude because that was what my parents had come to expect from me. For once, I was going to do something for myself.

I immediately turned around, not wanting to waste any time. I ripped my arm out of his grip, wrapped them around his neck and placed my lips onto his luscious, warm oral cavity. I could feel the shock run through his body but it didn't take any time for him to respond back.

He enclosed his bare muscular arms around my waist, pulling me into a near death grip. He ran his moist tongue across my bottom lip, begging to enter. I opened my mouth keenly. We didn't fight for dominance because I knew he liked to have some of the power, so I let him do what he wanted, to a point.

I could tell that he wanted more but the question was: was I willing to do anything for him?

Yes, in due time, maybe.

We broke from the steamy kiss that we were sharing, out of breath but still wanting more.

"Ana, do you love me?" he asked.

I took in his words. I was afraid of getting into a relationship, especially with Draco. I liked kissing him and our playful flirting along with our insult battles. But getting into a relationship was a big step, at least to me it was. I still had some baggage left over from my previous relationship and I still wasn't completely healed from it yet.

"Draco, I do but you've got to give me some time to sort some things out first, ok?" I told him.

He was disappointed. But I needed to make the right decision for myself, nobody else.

"Sure…I'll wait for you however long it takes." He said with a tender smile.