A Walk To Remember
Chapter 11 Ambitions and The Truth
Edward Pov.
The next morning, I got home. And saw my mother outside drinking coffee, reading a magazine.
"Hey" I said. Making her jumped she took off her glasses as I sat down.
"Edward you scared me" she giggled "Did you just get in?" she asked.
"Yeah" I replied.
"If I knew you were out I would've been worried" she said, I smiled at her.
"Sorry" I said, I looked around.
"Edward?" I turned towards her. "Were you with Isabella?" she asked. I didn't say anything. She sighed.
"Edward be careful, she the reverends daughter. Please" She pleaded.
"Mum" I said cutting her off, if she was going to say anything else, "Its different with her, ok?" I replied.
"It's different with her?" she asked.
"Yes" I replied.
"Lest hope so" she said. I thought that was my cue to leave, when I get up and started walking away. Mum stopped me.
"Hey" she said pulling out a slip of paper. " I was ding laundry yesterday. "And I uhhh… found this."
She started to read.
" Ambitions for the future." She looked up, the back down.
"Study a moon rock.
Go to collage
Get into medical school?" she read it slowly.
"Sweaty, these are pretty high ambitions your going to have to work really har-" I cut her off.
"I can do it." I stated simply. She nodded understandingly.
"Yeah" she replied. "You can"
"Because, Bella has faith in me" I continued "she makes me wanna be" I paused "different, better"
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It was Saturday night and I was on a date with Isabella, we were just walking back from dinner. When I noticed. Bella's been quiet all evening.
"Are you worried about you collage applications?" I asked. She didn't make eye contact. But shook her head.
"I'm not applying for collage" she said.
"I thought you said-" she cut me off.
"No, you must've heard wrong" she said.
"Are you taking a year off, peace working?" I asked. She didn't reply.
"Ok." I stopped "Hey" bella turned around "whatch ya going to do?" I asked. She looked down. Then up at me. Her eyes were filled with tears. Why was she crying?
"I'm sick" she said her voice cracking, as she said it.
"Do you want me to take you home? you'll be better tomorrow I prom-" she got frustrated and cut me off.
"No, Edward" she said, wiping tears away from her eyes. "I'm sick" she repeated. I still didn't get it.
She looked down again and let out a breath, then sniffled.
" I have leukaemia" it took a second to let it sink it. Then I shook my head.
"No" I refused "No, your 18 your beautifu-" she cut me off again.
"Edward, I found out two years ago and I stopped responding to treatments" she explained she shrugged. I could feel the anger build up inside me.
"So why didn't you tell me?" I asked louder then I expected. She took a deep breath.
"The doctors said I should, go on with my life and live life as normally and as best I could. I didn't want anyone to be weird around me!" she said.
"Including me?" my voice got louder every time I spoke.
"Especially you!" she whispered. "You know, I was getting alone with everything fine. I excepted it and then you happened!" she paused, and took another deep breath the try and clam herself down. "I do not need a reason to be angry with god!" she said. "I'm sorry" She let out a breath, turned on her heel, and ran away.
I put my face in my hands. After a while I just let my hands drop to my sides. I was angrier then before, I took out all my anger on the building next to me by punching it.
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I got in my car a drove like mad, until I saw the view I wanted to see. It was way past midnight when I pulled over and turned off the car. I stopped for a second just staring outside, at the house.
I'd sworn to myself that I would never speak to this man as long as I lived. But I was doing this for Bella.
I got out of my car, closing the door with a 'thump' and walked to the front door of the house. I rang the doorbell a few times and waited, nobody answered.
"Fuck" I cursed as I walked away from the door back to my car, I walked about 5 metres when the door opened. I turned quickly around to see my father walking out of his house, I walked towards him. And said the four words I thought I would never say to my father.
"I need you help" he was a bit taken back from this.
"What's wrong?" he asked worried. I sighed.
"It's my girlfriend" I said. Confusion crossed his face. "She's got leukaemia" I paused "and I need you to come see her right now!" I finished grabbing his arm dragging him to my car.
"Hold on Edward, calm down" he soothed. It pissed me off.
"Can you help me or not?" I asked.
"Edward" he paused searching for the right words "I don't know her case, I cant – " I cut him off.
"No" I said "forget it, I knew it."
"Edward Wait!" I ignored him and got in my car and drove off.
I was so pissed off, at everything!, I couldn't save her! She was the most important thing in my life and I couldn't save her! I pulled off the road and screamed! Bashing the steering wheel as I screamed tears rolled down my cheeks. My head landed on the top of the wheel, and pain flew through my body, but I didn't really care at that point. I don't know how long I sat there in that position, all I know is it must've been a long time. When I finally lifted my head off the steering wheel the sun was rise rising.
The sky was pink and orange. It was kinda beautiful. A good distraction.
When I finally reached the meadow it was about five am. The sun was fully up, but the sky was still a bit orange, I just stared at the meadow, like it was the only memory of Bella I had.
"Hey man" I turned around quickly to see Jasper and Emmet walking towards me.
"How'd you know I was here?" I asked. They stopped for a second.
"You mum said you would be here." Jasper said "she said, that we should talk to you." He continued
"About what?" I asked with no emotion.
"Anything man, You, Bella, life" Emmet said. I looked back to the meadow.
I shook my head "She has leukaemia" I managed to chock out.
Then I felt a hand on my back. In comfort.
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