Chapter 10: Where had I gone wrong?
There is a song bit in it. When you get to it, I would recommend you listen to Lullaby for a Princess while you read it. I feel it would make it come alive. You can find it on youtube.
Tadashi gets up from his bed despite his family and servants telling him to get some sleep. But he hasn't been able to really sleep for the past week. Not since his sister has left.
" Tadashi. You should get some sleep." Honey said to him tiredly.
He doesn't say anything as he gets up from the bed and walks out of his room. Leaving his fiance behind.
The grand hallways have always look so grand with it's high ceilings and amazing craftsmanship. But during the night, it just seems cold and empty.
Tadashi looks around in the hallway in the middle of the night. He really shouldn't be out and get some sleep. He wants her back. He just wants her back. That's all he could think about it. He should not have driven her away.
All of his life. He was always loved by many people. When he lost his parents, they always gave him comfort by sending him letters telling him to hold on and that he will make his parents proud when his time comes.
But the same due wasn't given to his little sister who was three at the time. No one besides Aunt Cass wanted to comfort her. He even remembered the palace nanny yelling at the poor girl at how everything was her fault before she stomped away and resigned the very same day.
At first when he was told that they died, he wasn't mad at his sister. But when he figured out how his parents died, he felt the same rage for his sister. He never wanted anything to do with her. Everyone else seemed to hated her, so why shouldn't he do the same.
But then it all change when she was six years old and he was twelve.
Hana may not have remembered that day, but Tadashi remembered like it was yesterday.
Tadashi came out of the palace library with a new book in hand. He has been waiting for weeks for it to come out and now it's here. It was about the new laws of robotics. He couldn't wait to get back his room to start reading it.
He started reading the pages as he walked by his sister's room door like it was apart of the walls and never existed.
It was then that he heard a little girl's screaming.
" Help me! Someone! Please!" She screamed.
Tadashi didn't know what finally came over him. But his sister's scream changed something about him.
He drops his book like it was nothing and ran into his sister's room.
A big bookcase was top of her. It must have fell on her somehow. It was much bigger than the small girl and there was no way she could lift it off of herself.
" Hana!" Tadashi screamed as he ran over to the scene.
" Dashi!" She screamed hysterically.
Tadashi gets his hands under the bookcase. With all of his might, he manages to lift the bookcase off of the little girl.
He pushes the bookcase back against the wall and looks down at the girl. She was still sniveling and looks at him with her big brown eyes in a shock impression.
" You came for me." She said in surprise.
" It wasn't like you were dying." He shrugged.
" No one has ever come for me except Aunt Cass. But she had to go to an event today. I was under there for a whole hour." She said.
" A whole hour!?" Tadashi said in outrage. He couldn't believe it. " And no one came to help you?!"
" mmh-hmm." She nods as she shrugs like it was nothing new that had happened. " Everyone hates me. I'm used to it."
Tadashi looks at his sister sadly and now understood something. Whether how their parents died wasn't her fault. She was just a little kid and still is one now. No one could have predicted such a tragedy and no one should go around blaming her for it. He should not be going around blaming her for it.
" Hey. So I want to say that I'm sorry." He said.
" For what? " she asked confused.
" For ignoring you this whole time and for hating you when I shouldn't have. Maybe we can start over?" He offered hopefully.
" Ok." She smiles.
" I have a new book. You want to see it?" He asked.
" Sure."
After he goes to get the book, he shows it to her. He thought she wouldn't really be interested in it , but she said, " Hey! I'm reading that one. Love chapter four."
" No you haven't. It came out last week."
" It's on my bed." She points to a copy of the same exact book that is lying on her bed.
" How did you manage to get it? He asked.
" Aunt Cass got it for me. I literally had to beg her for it until she finally said ok. Although that means I have to ask permission from her before I try anything from it." She said.
Tadashi smiles at her and she giggles. Who knew that they had the same interests?
" Who knew?" The now grown King thought.
Tadashi walks down the hall and notices that very same door he ran into that one day. The door to his sister's room. He slowly puts his hand on the door knob and turns it. The door falls open slowly.
He walks into her empty bedroom. It was neat and clean. Not at all what a teenager's bedroom should be. Her fancy canopy bed looked like it was never laid in. The bookcases are practically empty. Her ornate desk looked spotless with a calligraphy brush and ink well on one side and a neat stack of blank paper on the other.
He looks around once more realizing something odd about it. There was nothing personal about this room at all. It looks as though it was never lived in.
He looks at the bed and has another flashback. The first time he met Hana.
The six year old boy paces back and forth in anticipation to meet his brother or sister. He never had a sibling before and doesn't even know what to do.
His father comes into his room and immediately goes over to the boy and scoops him up in his arms. He bellows loudly in happiness.
" Daddy! What did mom have?!" He asked excitedly.
" It's a girl!" He announces.
" A girl!" Tadashi smiles.
" Yes and she looks as beautiful as your mother. " he cries happily as he continued to hold the boy in his arms.
" I have a sister." Tadashi said as happy tears formed in his eyes.
A few hours later Tadashi was taken to a room that was where his sister is going to live. The room was decorated to be such a beautiful nursery.
The first thing he notices is a beautifully handcrafted cradle. It was made out of redwood with carvings of cherry blossom trees on the sides of it. It was passed down for many generations according to what his dad had told him and that he was sleeping in it at one point.
The little prince walks over to it and peers into it to see a little baby girl.
She has dark wild hair that stuck up in every direction. No amount of water can tame it, but Tadashi doesn't want it to ever be tame. It looks like a lion's mane and he loves lions.
The pearl embroidered silver baby blanket that was wrapped around her made her look like an angel that came from heaven. This was his sister.
" She's beautiful isn't she?" His dad said.
" Yeah. She is." Tadashi admitted.
" Well she'll need a great big brother like you to guide her through every obstacle. Can you do that for me?"
" I will. I promise to look after her."
The blanket falls off of the baby and she starts to cry.
" Hey it's okay. I got it." Tadashi said as he picks the blanket off the floor and places it back on the baby.
She calms down and looks at him with her wide brown eyes. Tadashi smiles at her while she looks at him curiously.
" Alright Tadashi. I think the new princess needs her nap." His dad said.
Tadashi turns around to leave when he hears her cry again. This time more loudly. He turns back around to see his baby sister hold her little arms out towards him. She doesn't want him to go.
" I didn't want to go either." Tadashi said to himself at that memory.
He goes over to her desk and looks around to see anything that may have a clue to what was going on with her. He looks through her desk drawers and found a lot of long sewing pins and needles. Which was strange to Tadashi. Since when did his sister sew?
He looks carefully at one of them and sees something upsetting. Blood on the pins.
" She didn't?" He whispered horrified. But it couldn't be any other way. She was harming herself with them.
" But why? Why would she do something like this?" He asked himself. His memory flashed back to when she was talking to him before his coronation. He swore that he saw a little bit of a twitching on her white face. Like something has stung her. She must have been even harming herself in front of him and he didn't even pick up on it.
He grabs the pins and needles and throws them in the garbage. He won't have his baby sister harming herself anymore. She's going to get the help and attention she needs.
He looked out the window and keep seeing his sister running towards the moonlight. As though she is still running to this day.
How could had he been so blind to let this happen. This wasn't suppose to happen. He was suppose rule with his sister. But he didn't come for her in her time of need. And because of it, She's now gone.
He opened his mouth and sung his feeling to himself.
Fate has been cruel and order unkind
How could I have drive you away?
The blame was my own; the punishment, yours
The harmony's silent today
But into the stillness I'll bring you a song
And I will your company keep
Till your tired eyes and my lullabies
Have carried you softly to sleep
Once did a King who shone like the sun
Look out on his kingdom and sigh
He smiled and said, "Surely, there is no one
So great and so well beloved as I"
So great was his reign and so brilliant his glory
That long was the shadow he cast
Which fell dark upon the young sister he loved
And grew only darker as days and nights passed
Lullay dear princess, goodnight sister mine
And rest now in moonlight's embrace
Bear up my lullaby, winds of the earth
Through cloud, and through sky, and through space
Carry the peace and the coolness of night
And carry my sorrow in kind
Hana, you're loved so much more than you know
Forgive me for being so blind
Soon did that King take notice that others
Did not give his sister her due
And neither had he loved her as she deserved
He watched as his sister's unhappiness grew
But such is the way of the limelight, it sweetly
Takes hold of the mind of its host
And that foolish King did nothing to stop
The destruction of one who had needed him most
Lullay dear princess, goodnight sister mine
And rest now in moonlight's embrace
Bear up my lullaby, winds of the earth
Through cloud, and through sky, and through space
Carry the peace and the coolness of night
And carry my sorrow in kind
Hana, you're loved so much more than you know
May troubles be far from your mind
And forgive me for being so blind
The years now before us
Fearful and unknown
I never imagined
I'd face them on my own
May these thousand winters
Swiftly pass, I pray
I love you; I miss you
All these miles away
May all your dreams be sweet tonight
Safe upon your bed of moonlight
And know not of sadness, pain, or care
And when I dream, I'll run away and meet you there
Sleep…
He sung that last "Sleep" as he broke down crying. He heard the door creaked open as his aunt and fiance came in and comfort him.
I thought that this was a good way to sum up Tadashi's feelings. Of course I give the credit of the song to Lullaby for a Princess. It's actually the only thing good that came out of that My Little Pony crap. I honestly just don't find the show interesting. But this fan made song is the only thing that made me feel something and I thought that it would be a great idea to do that.
Next Chapter will be back to our runaway princess. I hope you guys like it.
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