Alright everyone so I don't know who liked that last chapter but i like this one even better...thank you to everyone that reads this story and reviews. This one might be a little long but I have alot to cover in this one. There IS a Remus night. There will be another one in the next chapter in greater detail. There is also the Halloween Ball and a visit from someone we haven't seen yet. Also I know Karissa is a skank, but her, Lily, Alice and Rose were friends for a long time so they are still friends with her even though she is stuck up.

This story belongs to J.K. Rowling I own what you don't recognize.

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Ch. 11- Full Moons and Foul Play

After Remus told me Regulas was a death eater already I did my best to avoid him. I've tried my hardest in so many different ways but he keeps finding me. Of course I don't talk to him for more than like five minutes every time, but he never fails to bring up the fact that he knows I'm avoiding him. I always ask him why he thinks I would EVER avoid him so I think he knows I know. God I can't believe him! How could he do this to us? It's absolutely ridiculous. He was the sweetest kid I knew and now, who knows what he does to those poor muggleborns and muggles they send him after! I wonder what Narcissa thinks about this. I'm going to have to talk to her soon. Somewhere in the near future.

So that's why I am here after a long Transfiguration class of me staring at the insides of my eyelids (I didn't get much sleep last night wondering how I'm going to talk to Cissy about this) I decided to just walk up to her after lunch. So that's why I am walking down the corridor behind her as she talks to Clara, another six year slytherin who has a thing for torturing muggle men. I think she's psycho but her and Cissy have been friends for I can't even remember how long. Finally after what seems like forever Clara decides that she needs to go to class this time. As she leaves Cissy I walk up behind her and pull her with me. She screams a little at first but then she sees who I am and quiets down. That's when I know that Bellatrix, Rudolphus, and Lucius have shared with her who I am. I wonder who else they have told. I mean I already know they told Voldemort. That's to be expected, it's only a matter of time until he sends his lackies after me.

Not long after I was pulling her she starts walking on her own and comes up behind me.

"Where are we going Lina?" she asks. A little timidly but that's what you get with Cissy. Everyone thinks she's just a cold hearted, manipulative bitch, but she's just quiet and shy in general.

"You've heard of the Room of Requirement right?" She nods whispers a little 'of course' and waits for me to finish. "Well I want you to show me where it is. We need to talk privately and we don't need little idiots snooping about and listening to our conversation."

"Okay Lina follow me." She leads me up there with her graceful walk like a model almost but much to shy. Her and her sister are nothing alike really. Her sister is an overbearing, pompous bitch, where she is a kind, quiet, sweet girl. I finished my thoughts as we walked to the door that appeared when she walked by that expanse of wall three times. As we walked in it made me smile. She had made the room look like our old hideout that we used to go to and talk. Where the ones who didn't hate muggleborns in our little social circle would meet that only we knew about. Damn it brought back so many memories. I really missed this. She saw me smile and laughed a little. I looked at her.

"Really Cissy? This room? Wow, it's got a homey feel to it." I laugh and plop down in the chair that looks like mine did in that room. Hers was right next to mine obviously. So she walked over and sat facing me.

"So Lina what did you want to talk about? Sirius possibly?" she arched one of her natural bleach blonde eyebrows.

"No consequently, just wanted to catch up on everything I missed and I wasn't sure who I could do that with." So we got started. I learned that Bella and Rudolphus were set to be married as soon as they graduated. Same with her and Lucius (much to her disdain). Also that Regulas was heartbroken when his big brother ran away due to what he had already told me. Which means he was telling the truth about that.

"There is one more thing that I've heard that kills me Cissy. Is it true Regulas is a death eater?" She looked at me with pity in her eyes and just nodded slowly. I felt tears start down my face and wiped them away impatiently. "Well then he doesn't need my sadness does he if he went into that group. God, what happened to the Black brothers Cissy?"

"She looked at me with a certain sadness in her eyes and simply said, "Our group fell apart when you left. The ones that were hit the hardest were the ones that loved you the most."

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(the last night of september)

As I was studying in the common room I decided I was going to pay the marauders a visit tonight in the shrieking shack....they wouldn't know who it was but it's a good idea. So I waited until I saw them all walking down the stairs together and called out to them. "Remus! I need to speak with you."

"Oh God, really? Remus are we really gonna go talk to her?"

"Of course Sirius. HE is going to come talk to ME and there is no YOU in this conversation do you understand?" I bet that pissed him off.

"Sure Terry I will talk to you. Sirius shut up and just go ahead I will meet you all there." He looked at them and pointed at the portrait hole.

"So Remus I have a proposition for you." I started as I watched them all walk out of the portrait hole. "I've decided I want to accompany you on these nights. Now before you say anything, I am completely equipped for this "mission", I chuckled. "I don't know if you know but every goddess is an Animorph and I'm kind of one of the biggest ones there are. So there is absolutely no chance of you hurting me. I promise."

"Okay, but I'm only saying yes because I know there is no way you will take no for an answer. So follow us out there and once we are all changed, change outside of the tree and wait there okay? We will meet you there I promise."

"Well what if I beat you all there? And I wait there for you as yall change?"

"I would rather you not see me change it's not exactly a pretty sight." He grimaces and once again I feel absolutely horrible for him.

"Remus you have absolutely nothing to worry about. If I see you change it doesn't at ALL make me look down on you, you do understand that?" I needed him to know there is no reason for him to worry about that kind of thing.

"Okay but hurry. It should be soon."

"Already there!" I smirked at him as I spun on the spot and disappeared. Next thing I knew I was in the Shrieking Shack. I walked up the stairs to the unused bedroom, changed into my animorph, and sat there waiting.

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RL POV

Wow that girl. She's crazy. She's also perfect for Sirius in so many ways. I can see why they got along so well when they were kids. Loose cannons, both of them. As I met up with the guys we walked down to the whomping willow. I have no idea where I would be without these guys by my side. They are the best friends anyone could ask for. Peter changes and prods the knot on the tree and it goes still. I wonder how she got here. As we walk up the stairs we hear heavy footsteps on the ceiling. Whatever she changes into is HUGE!! The others hear her as well but they don't know who it is so they change and walk up ahead of me. As soon as they walk into the room I hear Sirius growl and lunge at her. I see a blur of white and next thing I know there is a larger than life sized snow white tiger standing next to me. I looked at the stag in front of me and he's looking at her calculating. As I look down at her I note that she is the most beautiful, majestic creature I have ever seen. She is snow white with soft, silky fur and Saralina's bright eyes. She is also the size of an almost full grown horse! She's massive. She looks up at me with those gorgeous eyes and winks. It makes me laugh. Then all I felt was excruciating pain as the change starts.

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SW POV

Man that night was so much fun! We just ran and played the whole night. Sirius was a little skeptical at first but he warmed up to me. Well it looks like he doesn't remember my favorite animal either jerk face. I can't wait for the next one...it's supposed to be on Halloween so they had the Ball two days before. That's what we were all doing last night. Lily went with a guy named Michael Jacobs from Ravenclaw, A really sweet girl named Alice that is in our dorm went with her boyfriend Frank Longbottom. Karissa went with Sirius (obviously.) I mean i know it shouldn't bother me seeing as I'm Terry and not Saralina but I can't help but be a little bothered.

Lily went as a devil, Alice, a pirate, Rose was an angel, and Karissa was a cute lion. I went as an old school gangster.{costumes on profile} I loved my costume so much! It was so much fun but I still didn't find Regulas anywhere...oh well I will try to talk to him tomorrow or the day after. So here I am, ready for bed, and as I'm laying here I realize I can not sleep! It sucks, all I see in my mind when I close my eyes are Sirius and Karissa trying to eat each other. It's disgusting. You know why it bother's me tonight of all nights though? Because it's the anniversery of the last time I ever saw him. We were sitting together on the balcony. He said he was going to go back, his parents had taken him out first year, for a week to go to one of his uncle's funerals. We cried of course, but he wouldn't even look at me. He used to say crying made you look weak. That it was wrong, for a man to cry because it made it look like he wasn't as strong as he should be. I told him that night only an idiot would think that. Crying isn't anything to be ashamed of. It shouldn't be kept secret. It's how you grieve, everyone is expected to do it at some point. He looked at me then, right into my eyes, told me he loved me and left. I haven't seen him since. Like I mentioned earlier we had written but he stopped some time in his second year. I guess that's what's really bothering me. I really need something to occupy my mind.

I mean, I can go down to the common room and read. Okay I guess I know what I'm doing. So I grabbed my comforter, the fluffiest pillow I have, and one of my most favorite books ever, well Macbeth is more like a play, but it's still super amazing, and made my way down the stairs to the comfiest chair by the fire. But as I walked up to it I realized their was somebody already sitting in it. Damn it....I just can't get away can I?

"Hello mr. Sunshine. How are you this wonderful evening?" Like I didn't know. I just hoped it was the same thing I was feeling for the same reasons.

"Shut up Gray, you wouldn't understand."

"Try me..." I looked beseachingly at him as he turned to me.

"You really want to know? I just feel like I'm going crazy. All the stress about what's been going on lately, you know my brother joining the death eaters, and you coming into the picture, and then just missing someone... it's all just hitting me tonight." He kept avoiding looking at my face. It was extremely irritating.

"I'm sorry Sirius, but who are you missing?" Please say me! Please say me!

"Just a girl that I love...it's hard being away from her even though I haven't seen her in a while. But it seems like lately I've been hearing her voice. And I hear the Slytherins talking alot about her and it's making me worry even more because I don't know how to protect her from them. I guess that's it." He kept trying to hide his tears from me, but he's never been very successful at that anyway.

"Sirius, can't you just look at me? I don't mind if you're crying" here goes nothing...maybe it will comfort him.."Crying really isn't something to be ashamed of. It's a way to show grief and pain. Everyone has it at some point, so don't worry, I won't judge you or tell anyone if you don't want me to..."

"Where the hell did you come from!?!? Did you ever know a girl named Saralina White?" He looked a little angry but most of all he just looked lost.

"No, but I've heard about her, read about her family..." God this guy is suffering so much, why does he do this to himself?

"Well that's her the one I love, I can't believe I'm telling you this Gray. She mean't the world to me. Still does actually." He looked down at his feet for a moment and then into my eyes. His were full of pain, and devastating sadness.

"Why if you love her so much and miss her so much, why do you sleep around? Or use girls for you own entertainment?" I looked a little skeptical, but before my eyes the look in his eyes changed from sadness and pain, to guilt and fury.

"You know absolutely NOTHING about me!! You hear things, sure, I told you who I love, But you don't know how it feels to be so broken you don't know if you can ever go back. You don't have any idea what it's like to know the person you love is out there, but you can never be with them, and you KNOW you will never love anyone else like you loved them. Now if you'll excuse me. I'm going to have a very busy night tomorrow so I need all the sleep I can get." He turned away from me and practically stormed the staircase. The he abruptly turned back to me. " Oh and when you feel like having another one of these amazing chats with me, don't." And with that he disappeared up the stairs.

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DUN DUN DUN!!!! The plot thickens...so why does everyone think he uses these girls? And I already have an idea for the next chapter...I was going to put it with this one, but I don't know how long a chapter you guys like and for me I think the ones I have been writing are pretty long myself. So the next one is going to be the most action filled yet! Stay tuned!!!! Oh and PLEASE review? :)