From the next chapter, there will be more action in the story. I need a villans name. I want you guys to create a Villan for me. name, race, features, if he has an accent. everything. But it has to be a man.

CHAPTER 11

I google Paroxetine as soon as Kira falls asleep. I read through the side effects.

"Loss of appetite, insomnia, lack of emotions, slower reflexes. No wonder." I read the side effects out loud. That explains how he got the hit in. And maybe the situation with Dimitri when he kissed me. These pills are turning me into a zombie. Soon I won't be able to express any emotion. I will just be neutral. I haven't heard the voice since the accident, that is a good sign. I look over at the wall clock. It's time to see Lissa.

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"Something seems different about you Rose." Lissa points out a few seconds into our conversation. I shrug my shoulders.

"I'm on the same meds you were. I cut myself Liss." Lissa's eyes widen. She looks shocked.

"I know you are not handling my death well, but that is seriously bad Rose." I tell her about everything that has happened after I saw her. My insecurities with Dimitri and Tasha. The kiss with Adrian. My fight with Dimitri. And the voice that sounds like her, telling me to cut myself. Lissa paces in front of me.

"I would never tell you that Rose. It doesn't help. Even when I did it, I knew it didn't help. We need to find out what is causing these emotions and the voice." I sit down on a big rock near me and cross my arms over my chest.

"Maybe it is the darkness. When I died, all the darkness must have gone to you. It is trying to kill you Rose. Go to Adrian and ask him to take a look at your aura." I nod my head at her. Dimitri is not going to like this, but it has to be done. I need to know what is going on with me.

"I have to go now Rose. I know you miss me, but these visits are going to have to stop someday. My place is with my family now. And in time, this will be your place to. I will see you Monday again. Try to figure out what is going on with you this weekend." Lissa disappears before I can say a word. She wants me to figure this out on my own, but I need her.

No.

I can do this. She wants me to get better, then that is exactly what I'm going to do. I start to make my way back to Kira's room. Rest is exactly what I need now.

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"Dr Olendzki, I need to talk to you." I stop the good doctor as I make my way into the infirmary.

"These pills, they affect me in bad ways. My reflexes are much slower, and I can't feel any emotion anymore."

"That will happen in the begin Rose. Just stick with it for a month and if you still think it's bad for you, I will get you other." I nod my head at her. Maybe she is right. If they still affect me after a month then I will make another plan. I will just have to. my reflexes are what keeps me alive.

"All settled?" Kira ask me as I walk to the exit of the infirmary. I nod at her and take my position in as her near guard. Training with Dimitri this morning felt weird. I normally got this excited feeling when I see him and when he touched me, the feeling is euphoric, but now. It just felt, normal. The way I felt around any other teacher. I hope these pills won't take away my feelings for Dimitri. No, that is impossible. Our love is stronger than a few pills.

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"You seemed very distracted today. Is everything okay?" the sudden sound of Adrian's voice gives me a fright. I'm waiting outside the room of the feeder Kira is seeing. Adrian must be here to feed.

"I need to ask you a favour. Meet me at the gym Sunday morning, please." Adrian nods his head. he still has a look od concern on his face. I place my hand on the shoulder.

"I'm fine Adrian. And I'm sorry about the kiss. I was intoxicated and feeling sad and everything that is not good, you are one of my best friends. I don't want to lose you." Adrian pats my and, on his shoulder, and winks at me.

"What kiss?" I smile at him and watch him walk to a feeder room. Kira comes out a few minutes after Adrian leaves me alone. We head to the cafeteria and grab a tray of food each.

"What is your element?" I ask Kira. She lifts her left palm and makes a ball of fire appear in her hand.

"I'm sure you heard of my biological parents and that I was raised by dhampirs. They are my real parents. They taught me how to fight and use my element to defend myself." I's speechless. Moroi learning to fight is unheard of. Well sort of, Tasha wants to change the law to give the moroi a chance to learn to fight if they want to. I support that law chance with all my heart.

"If you want, I can give you a few lessons." Kira's eyes stretch as wide as saucers. She nods vehemently.

"Okay every Saturday night. Then the gym is unused." Kira holds out her pinkie-finger. I wrap my finger tightly around hers.

"Hi, hello, sorry to interrupt, but I have good news. There is karaoke tonight for all the seniors in the gym." Mia sits down next to me. She looks at Kira as if she sees her for the first time.

"I'm Mia by the way. It's nice to meet you." She turns back to me.

"Are you going to come and sing?" I point to Kira.

"I go and do where and what she goes and does." Kira looks like she is deep in thought.

"Well I would love to go. And maybe sing, but you have to sing Rose." I don't have a problem with singing in front of people. I nod my head. a ping from my phone alerts me that I have a message. Dimitri send me a song. I put the volume down and put the speaker close to my ear. The song pulls on my heart, for the first time since I started to take the pills, I feel emotions.

I feel love.