Vice and Virtue
Bellatrix's Point of View
I wake up with a major headache this morning. Even though it's 10am I'm still exhausted.
"Finally" Andy says as she walks into the room. I swing my legs over the bed and I realize Rodolphus, Narcissa, and Lucius are all out of the room. "They went down to breakfast, figured you'd want to sleep in." I stand and a wave of nausea hits me. I sprint for the bathroom and vomit into the toilet. "Are you ok Bella?" Andy asks.
"Yep I'm fine" I shout back. I brush my teeth and pack up all of my toiletries. I come across an unopened box of tampons and light it on fire.
"Bella, what on Earth!" Lucius cries as he walks into the room and sees me.
"My mother goes through my stuff. If she sees these unopened." Lucius understands, I'm burning the evidence. "Andy are you packed?" I ask.
"Yes" she replies. "Bella hurry up we should be heading down soon." Andy walks out of the room clearly pissed at me, probably because I drank last night at the party.
"Lucius turn around" I yell "I'm going to get dressed." I take off my nightgown and step to the mirror. It seems as if my stomach is growing overnight. "Lucius," I ask "do you see any difference?" I ask.
"Yes" he says "but that is why you bought that robe." I shrug and put my robes on. I throw my stuff in to my trunk and bend down to pick it up.
"Ow!" I yell as I try to bend.
"Bella take it easy" Rodolphus says walking in. "I don't want you hurt." He kisses me on the forehead and grabs my trunk, and his. I get dressed and walk out to the common room, which is full of people getting ready for the train. I see Rabastan, Andy, and Cissy over in one corner. We walk over to them. Narcissa is lounging on the couch and Andy looks pissed at her as well.
"Andy what's your issue this morning?" I ask her.
"Nothing" she says "it's just you two lounge around and make us weigh on you hand and foot." I sigh at my sister's behavior.
"Andy" I whisper "your not pregnant you don't know what Cissy and I are going through." She walks away angry and Lucius comes down the hall carrying his trunk, and Narcissa's. Cissy's trunk is abnormally large and Lucius drops it in the middle of the hall.
"I think its just about time to go down." Rabastan says. We all grab our trunks and we walk up to the entrance hall. Many students are already gathered and Dumbledore is making his way up to the front.
"Attention" he shouts. "I hope you all have a good holiday. The train is in the station." I snicker like I'm going to have a good holiday. We walk down to the train and I see Lucius and Narcissa. Cissy appears upset about something.
"What's the matter?" I ask as we get away from Lucius.
"Last night well I was drunk, and Lucius wouldn't get in bed with me Bella. Why wouldn't he have sex with me?" She is on the verge of tears now. I didn't realize how much Lucius actually cares about Narcissa. I could see Lucius taking advantage of her when she's drunk, but not refusing it. He knew that she was pregnant and that if she did have sex she would be even more upset then she is now.
"It's because he cares about you Narcissa." She seems confused, but then understands what I'm talking about. "Tell Lucius to meet me in a compartment, I have to find Andy." I turn to leave and I walk back to Rodolphus and Rabastan. "I'll get a compartment, and I need you for the first fifteen minutes of the ride. I don't care what you do after that." Rabastan shrugs his shoulders and I turn to Rodolphus. "I have to go find Andy." He kisses me on the cheek.
"Whatever you say Bella" I turn and realize where nearly at the station. I see Andy talking with her partner from potions; she turns to look at me and gives me the finger.
"Get your arse over here now!" She leaves the boy and comes to stand beside me.
"I don't know what your issue is Andy, but I need you in my compartment for the first fifteen minutes of the ride, ok." She nods, and we enter the train. Upon finding a compartment we throw our trunks on the rake, and sit down. Andy plops on the seat and crosses her arms pouting like a little girl. "What is wrong with you" I ask again pressing her.
"Time of the month" she hisses back at me. Why am I not surprised. She gets really bitchy when she gets her period. Lucius sees us and throws both his and Narcissa's trunks in the compartment across from us. Finally Rodolphus and Rabastan enter the compartment putting their trunks on top of mine and Andy's.
"Ok now that everyone is here, umm Lucius shut the door." I take out my wand and point it at the ceiling muttering an incantation.
"What are you doing?" Cissy asks.
"Sound proofing the room so no one can hear our conversation." She nods. "The last thing we need is more gossip going out." At this everyone nods. "Ok I just wanted to clarify that I'm going to tell mum and dad on Christmas when everyone's parents are there. Therefore Lucius, Rabastan, and Rodolphus have to keep this a secret for a little while longer."
"Bella how are you going to keep it from your parents?" Rabastan looks at my stomach.
"I'm just going to take off the robe when we reach the station." Rodolphus' eyes grow wide with shock.
"Why would you do that?"
"Because they've already noticed I'm gaining weight. When they notice I eat so much they'll just have reason to believe that I'm fat." Rodolphus sighs.
"I guess that is logical." Andy is nearly asleep across from me.
"Andy wake up." She gives me the finger again and I give up wit her. "That's all I needed you for, you guys can stay here or move if you want." Lucius and Narcissa leave and head to their compartment across from ours. Rabastan moves next to Andy and across from Rodolphus. I lay my head on Rodolphus' stomach and curl up into a ball. I look over to Rabastan who seems to be in a lot of pain, I don't know how I know this but it's in his eyes I can just see it. I then turn to my stomach and can't help but ask myself what I'm going to do.
Andromeda's Point of View
Bella falls asleep in Rodolphus' lap and I decide to go apologize to Ted. I feel really bad about calling him that last night.
"Where are you going?" I don't know why Rodolphus asks as if he owns everybody.
"Fuck off." If it weren't for him I wouldn't have had to call Ted a mudblood. I hate being so bitchy though; unfortunately my body always seems pitted against me. We are about twenty minutes away from King's Cross station. I walk towards the engine and before I enter the dining care I see Ted. I motion for him to come in between the cars and he excuse himself and walks toward me. I step into the bathroom and I hear him walk out of the car.
"Dromeda come on, where are you?" I smile and open the door.
"Petrificus totalus." I fall back and hit my arm on the toilet opening a gash. "Dromeda oh my gosh, I'm so sorry I didn't see you." He unfreezes me and tries to help me up, but I protest.
"Thanks Ted now I'm bleeding how am I going to explain this. I'm just having such a bad day." I fall into his arms, and he shuts the door of the bathroom so no one can hear us.
"How 'bout I make it better Dromeda?" He kisses me on the lips in a long passionate way. He moves to my neck and I let out a shutter. He breathes and speaks softly. "I'm sorry about blowing up at you earlier; I should have understood that you couldn't say anything in front of Rodolphus." He goes back to kissing me and suddenly the train starts to slow.
"Shit, Ted I have to go back." He continues, and I look directly at him. "Come on Ted." He backs off and lets me to the door.
"I'll see you next week Dromeda." I wave give him a quick kiss goodbye and head back for Bella. I reach our compartment and Bella turns to me.
"Where have you been?" I sigh.
"Had to go to the bathroom." I grab my trunk and head for the nearest exit. As soon as I set foot off the train I see mum and dad and run over to them.
"Hello Andromeda have a good first term" dad asks.
"Yes." Narcissa comes off the train with Lucius and mum runs up to them.
"My baby" she shouts hugging Narcissa.
"Mum you're hurting me" she says with urgency. "Mum come on." Mum finally backs off and then Bella gets off the train. She has clearly taken her special cloak off because I can see her growing stomach. She kisses Rodolphus goodbye and walks over.
"My Bellatrix, how you've grown." He looks at her stomach clearly noticing the obvious bulge. I look and see Ted depart from the train. I follow him but then mum interrupts me.
"What are you staring at Andromeda?"
"Nothing mum."
"Well then let's get out of here." We follow dad to the chimney's that are available for us to use the floo network and I step in. I grab some floo powder, and drop it.
"Black Manor!" I land in our fireplace with my trunk, and walk in. Sometimes I wonder if this is home sweet home.
Narcissa's Point of View
Since we've arrived home Lucius has been over everyday. Andy has been busy doing homework, and Bella does whatever it is Bella does. Rodolphus hasn't visited her since we got on holiday. I don't know how she stands it, if Lucius wasn't here I might go crazy. Daddy was pissed that people knew about me being pregnant. He had to leave the room in order to calm down; it was actually kind of scary. Today we're going to Diagon Alley. Bella is sitting on the loveseat in our parlor, and Lucius is sitting across from me as we wait for mum and Andy to get ready. I think of the night I got into this mess.
We had just gotten back to school and we were having a party in the common room. Rabastan got the booze and let's just say I was ready. I wore my sluttiest dress, the black one with a very low v-neck. I got a little tipsy, but not completely drunk, just enough to draw Lucius in. He got my drift. I left my cup of whiskey on one of the tables and we went to my dorm. Lucius was so eager he tried to pull my dress off of me.
"Lucius my dress" I screamed as I heard some of the fabric rip.
"Oops" he said not to upset about it. He started kissing me everywhere. My hands became tangled in his hair, and I left that to undo his belt buckle. Clearly skilled he had succeeded in taking off my underwear with his teeth. I managed to remove his shirt and pants, and he was so tone everywhere. We moved to the bed and I laughed in delight as he carried me. He landed on top of me, and I let out a gasp of air.
"Are you ok?" his grey eyes had stared at me having trouble keeping focus on my face.
"I'm fine, and you can take it off." He practically ripped my bra off and started kissing my breasts. His lips met mine and we kissed passionately. He straddled me and I gasped as he entered me for the first time.
"I'll go easy on you" he had chuckled, and I couldn't help but smile. He was a little rough, and it did hurt a little but I was worth it. I felt his soft skin sliding above mine in a smooth gentle rhythm. I tried not to scream, but it was to much to contain, Lucius was very skilled. I exclaimed and he thrust once more and then slide beside me. My entire body felt electrocuted, like Lucius had set off some impulse that sent me reeling.
"Are you ok Narcissa?" He asked. I nodded. "I love you I'm going to go back out to the party." At that he got up, and dressed. He kissed me goodbye, and I lay on the bed feeling so empty because I now knew what if felt like to be filled.
Bellatrix's Point of View
Cissy, Lucius, and I are waiting for mum and Andy so that we can go to Diagon Alley. I look at Lucius who is staring at Narcissa. Cissy is thinking about something, but Lucius still stares at here with so much love. I can't remember Lucius ever looking at me like that. I do remember the last night we had a little fun.
We had just gotten back from holiday and we were having a big party in the common room. Both Rodolphus and Rabastan were passed out on the floor, and Andy had gone to bed. Lucius came out of the dormitories and I yelled to him.
"Come over here." He did and he looked so happy, I could've sworn he was drunk. "Here" I said handing him a drink. He looked like a blind man who had seen the sun for the first time; it was actually kind of disturbing. The music pumped louder and I pulled Lucius out onto the dance floor. I kept a close look out for Cissy to make sure she didn't get pissed that I was dancing with her boyfriend. I was pretty drunk myself. I remember dancing up against Lucius; we only stopped to get more to drink. Lucius was drunk out of his mind when he turned to me.
"Come on Bella." He dragged me down to his dormitory. "Bella" he said nearly ripping my clothes off. I got his pants off and we moved to the bed. He moved into me making me feel so much pleasure. I had been wit Lucius before, but this was magical. It was like he had a sexual epiphany. He was so gentle, n one is ever that gentle with me.
"Lucius, come on." I bit him, and he still didn't do anything. I turned him over so I was on top of him. "If you don't do anything I will." He flipped me back over and started kissing me all over. I returned those kisses and he bounced off the top of me. As he did this I began to feel pain from in between my legs.
"Ow Lucius stop." He continued to into what he was doing, and to drunk to actually listen to me. Suddenly the pain was immense. "Lucius please" I begged tears streaming into my eyes. By the time I had said that he was done anyway. He lay on the bed beside me and passed out. I studied him while he slept. He was beautiful, and that's when the guilt set in. I thought of Cissy, who was probably asleep in her own dormitory down the hall. This was her boyfriend not mine. I went to go to my dorm so Rodolphus wouldn't find out only to find myself in a pool of blood.
"Lucius I need you to perform a healing spell." He came out of his stupor, grabbed his wand and with the flick of his wrist the bleeding stopped. He never asked what was wrong and just passed out. As I sit here and stare at him I can't help, but feel jealous. Lucius is always there for Narcissa, no matter what. Rodolphus hasn't visited me since the holiday began. Lucius also gets along with my parents. Rodolphus on the other hand has gotten on my father's bad side a couple of times. Andy walks downstairs and following behind her is mother.
"Are we ready?" mum asks.
"Yes" we all chime together. We use the floo powder to travel to Diagon Alley. When we all assemble mother speaks.
"Let's go to Madame Malkin's first, Narcissa will be needing some new robes." Mum looks right at my growing center. "And Bellatrix could use some new ones too." As she turns I roll my eyes, I hate it when she notices the state of my middle. We walk to Madam Malkin's and enter the shop.
"Welcome how may I help you?" the attendant walks right up to mother with a fake smile plastered on her face. I hate sales people.
"We need some maternity robes." The attendant continues with the stupid smile on her face.
"Right over here." A flashing yellow light points from the tip of the attendants' wand to the maternity section. We walk and I turn to Andy.
"So today is going to be all about Narcissa." She nods; she's been acting all depressed since holiday began, and I can't figure out why. She's going to see her friend after Christmas so I hope that will cheer her up. We reach the maternity section, and mum starts pulling things off the rack and throwing them at Cissy.
"Try these on."
"Well your mother sure does know how to buy clothes" Lucius says from behind me.
"Yes I hate shopping with her." Cissy goes in to try on her clothes and comes out wearing a beautiful green robe. It is slightly big around the middle, but that will be for when she grows into it.
"They look beautiful honey" mum says tears brewing in her eyes. It's hard for her shopping for maternity clothes with her fourteen year old daughter. Narcissa tries on a couple more robes and the attendant comes over to us.
"I'd like to show you something." Narcissa changes back into her normal clothes, and the attendant leads us to another section, and as soon as I see the clothes I start to hyperventilate. The tiny robes hang on the racks unworn. The tiny little arm holes have special hangers just for them. I think about how I'm going to have two things that size in a couple of months.
"Bellatrix are you ok" I come back to reality and see that mum is staring at me wondering what is wrong. I run out of the sort not wanting to explain. I find a bench next to the store and I sit down. I start crying. How am I going to take care of two children, when I can't even get Rodolphus to come and visit me over holiday? W ill Rodolphus eve help me? I ponder these thoughts, and then Lucius walks out of the shop.
"Bella are you alright?" He takes a seat next to me, and grabs my hand trying to comfort me.
"I'm fine" I say wiping my eyes with my sleeves.
"Bella you can tell me what's wrong."
"Lucius, I don't know how I'm going to take care of tow babies" I say. He looks up thinking hard.
"Bella don't worry, you'll be surprised at how great a mother you're going to be." He laughs. "Plus I'll always be there to help you." I smile at the thought of Lucius changing a diaper. He gives me a hug and mum comes out of the store.
"Is everything alright." She looks back and forth between Lucius and I clearly suspicious.
"Yes" I mutter, but the truth is everything's terribly wrong.
Andromeda's Point of View
As Bella runs out the door I can't help but roll my eyes. I don't know why she just doesn't tell mum and dad. I turn away from the window and find Cissy carrying, about what I don't know. Lucius had run out behind Bella, so maybe that had something to do with it.
"Is this about Lucius?" Mum runs out the door and Cissy nods her head. I sigh and sit next to her. "Cissy, Lucius is just trying to comfort her. Right now Bella's mental state is hanging in the balance." Cissy continues to cry.
"But I don't understand how he went and slept with her Andy. I gave him my virtue" she sobs.
"Cissy listen to me, Lucius is a good person." She turns and looks at me. "Sure once he got drunk and had sex with Bella, I mean who hasn't, but at least you can actually love him in front of everyone." She looks up at me angry.
"I don't care about your sob story Andy, Lucius is everything to me-"
"And Ted is everything to me and I can't even show that in front of everyone." She recoils back.
"I guess your right." Bella, Lucius, and mum come back in. Mum goes over and grabs the robes Cissy has picked out and takes them to the counter.
"Is this it?" Mum nods yes and I look over to Bella, her eyes are read from crying.
"Let's go" mum says as she leads us out the door bag in hand. Lucius takes Narcissa's hand and they walk out, followed by Bellatrix and I.
"Are you ok?" I ask as we walk towards Flourish and Bott's.
"Yes I'm just nervous, about telling the." She walks ahead of me clearly caught up in her thoughts. We get to the store, and enter. It is filled with many Christmas shoppers making last minute purchases. I head upstairs and start to browse the shelves. I find a good novel to read and a nice copy of the Tales of Beetle the Bard. Ted still doesn't have a copy of the book. I continue to browse the shelves and one book title makes me stop and do a double-take. The title reads 1001 Ways to Lose Your Virtue-The Wizard Way. I can't resist this I have to buy it. I go back downstairs and buy the three books knowing I'll get good use out of one.
Narcissa's Point of View
After Diagon Alley a couple days ago I can't help but feel angry towards Bella and Lucius. Today Lucius and I are going to see his parents.
"Narcissa come on" Lucius yells from downstairs. I'm still in my room deciding which robe to wear.
"I'm coming" I yell back. After a couple more minutes Lucius apparates up to my room. "Jesus you scared me." He sighs.
"Would you please hurry up." This is it I've reached my breaking point.
"What gives you the right to burst in here when I have only a night gown on? You go fuck my sister; possibly get her pregnant, and then come crawling back to me."
"Come on Narcissa I don't have time for this."
"Was it that I wasn't good enough for you? I didn't perform well enough." Suddenly I feel something hot fly across my face and I realize it to be the back of Lucius' hand. I look up at him, and I don't think he believes what he just did.
"Narcissa I'm sorry."
"Don't." I turn away tears forming in my eyes.
"Narcissa, I lost my temper, it wasn't right of me to sleep with Bella I was drunk."
"Lucius leave so I can get ready." He walks away, and I can tell that he's sorry. I rub my cheek it still hurt s from Lucius' slap. I walk to the mirror. My face has a red imprint of where Lucius' hand was. He has never hit me before, ever since I found out I was pregnant he has trouble kissing me. Like I'm fragile, and the then goes and hits me. I put on my robe and walk downstairs. Lucius is waiting by mother at the chimney.
"Honey is there something wrong with your face." She must see the red spot that is still visible.
"It's nothing mum, come on Lucius." I step into the chimney.
"You two have a good time." Lucius climbs into the chimney with me. "Tell your parents Cygnus and I look forward to seeing them tomorrow." Lucius nods and before he grabs some floo powder I whisper to him.
"I forgive you." He gives me a confused look as he grabs the floo powder.
"Malfoy Manor."
The scene around me changes and suddenly Abraxas and Calpurnia Malfoy are in front of me. I have always liked Lucius' parents ever since Lucius started having play dates with Bella. Unlike other pureblood families Abraxas and Calpurnia were nice people and understanding as well.
"Welcome" Calpurnia shouts as we walk out of the fire place she comes over and hugs me. "Ahh I see were growing already." I laugh as she pulls away.
"Good to see you Narcissa" Abraxas says "how about we go into the parlor." Abraxas leads the way followed by Calpurnia then Lucius and I. There are some sandwiches laid out on the table in the parlor. Lucius and I sit on one sofa and Abraxas and Calpurnia sit on the other across form us.
"Well it's lovely to see you Narcissa when we found out you were dating Lucius last summer we were shocked." I swallow the sandwich I was eating and turn back to Calpurnia.
"About what?"
"Well" Abraxas says "we always imagined Lucius with Bellatrix." Ughh, please don't remind me is what I want to say. Mum and dad have been trying to get us married since day one; Lucius was Bella's first pick.
"When we found out you were pregnant we were again shocked, but we ill stand by you in whatever you decide to do with the baby." I turn to Lucius, and he takes my hand.
"Well we want to keep it and raise it, but I think I'm going to have to take a year off from school."
"Ok" Abraxas says.
"Narcissa would stay home and watch the baby during the day, and then I would come home at night and take care of it. That way Narcissa could get some schoolwork done." Calpurnia nods.
"A baby is a big responsibility and they ted to be attached. Lucius really didn't't let go of me until he met your sister." Lucius moans. Parents always love to tell embarrassing stories. "We're glad you've decided to keep the baby. Have you thought of any names yet?" I look at Lucius and he shrugs.
"Not really." I'm surprised by how much Lucius' parents are cooperating, even my mum and dad freaked out with me.
"Abraxas, Calpurnia I know this question may seem out of line, but why are you siding with us? My parents freaked out when they found out I was pregnant." Calpurnia sighs and looks at Abraxas. After a few moments they look at us.
"Believe it or not we can understand your situation." Lucius and I exchange glances.
"What do you mean?"
"Well" Calpurnia says "when I was sixteen I found out I was pregnant." Oh my god I can't believe it, Calpurnia was once in the same boat as me. Lucius looks between his parents shocked.
"So do I have a sibling somewhere?"
"No, no" Abraxas says. "We thought it was best to get rid of the pregnancy instead of going through and having the baby."
"I feared what my parents would say" Calpurnia added. "So Abraxas bought me a potion and I aborted the pregnancy." I nearly gasp, Calpurnia wouldn't hurt a fly but yet she got rid of her own child. "It was the biggest mistake of my life" Calpurnia says. "I would give anything to have another child. With Lucius I had some complications so I can no longer have children." I pause at the thought of more little Lucius' running around Malfoy Manor.
"Well you kids better get going" Abraxas says looking out the window "suns almost down." Lucius helps me up.
"I'll be back later mum and dad."
"We'll see you later Lucius, and we'll see you tomorrow Narcissa." Calpurnia gives me a little wink and I can't help but smile. As we leave for my house I feel so much better about our whole situation in general.
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