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Bellas Perspective

I turned slowly around, battling within myself. What should i do?

Part of me wanted nothing more than to kick his ass and teach him never to mess with me ever again. And now, i can really teach him a lesson that he would never forget.

But could i really do that? I loved him, despite all that he has done to me. No matter how much i hated him, i still love him. How screwed up am i?

Another part of me wanted nothing more than him to take me in his arms and tell, me that he loved me and that this was all just a bad dream. But i knew that that would never happen. If he loved me, then he would have never left me alone and broken.

Neither of us moved and he continued to grip my wrist, neither of us breathing. I didn't know if the others were there or not. I seemed to be going back to before, weak, vulnerable and naive.

I heard him sigh quietly, and whisper my name again. I must have imagined the pained edge to his voice, i mean, why would he be pained? I just couldn't understand why they all were acting so.........bizarely.

"Bella, please look at me" He pleaded with me, no more than a whisper, though i heard him perfectly.

I didn't trust myself to turn around. I didn't know if i could surpress the urge to kick him in his balls. It was that, or beg for him to take me back. He sighed, obviously getting tired and frustrated with my lack of co-operation. He turned me around himself, trying to be gentle, but i stood my ground. I was stronger than he was, even before the change, there was no way he could have made me budge. But then i thought of something

(okay, this is like the situation with a devil on one shoulder, and an angel on the other. Bella isn't arguing with her grandma :))

Do i want him to know about me? Does he even have a right to know? Of course he doesn't! he left you, he doesn't have a right to anything anymore!

But...........

I know his secret, it is only fair that he knows mine.

But it isn't your secret to tell is it? What about gran?

That stopped me, i couldn't tell them anything. I couldn't risk it. Gran had kept this secret for all of her life. I don't know how old she actually is, she refuses to tell me, i mean, if you freeze at about 23, how can you look so old? Personally, i think it's a spell or something. But regardless, i wasn't going to just tell a coven of vampires a secret that wasn't just mine to tell, because i felt bad.

I gave in to his strength. I mean, wouldn't it look kind of suspisious when he couldn't move me? Me, a weak liitle human? He can't find out, none of them can. But by them just being here, it's putting me and gran at risk. They killed my race, what is to stop them from doing the same to me and gran? They could kill us!

With that thought at the front of my mind, i turned and looked Edward in the eye. I noted vaguely, that it didn't hurt when i thought his name.

I used to think that by the mere sight of him, i would do anything. I used to be incoherant around him. Every time i saw him, my heart beat quickened, and my head spun of the high that he produced.

Now, all i see is a monster. A killer. Like i said, i loved and hated him. And at the moment, the hate part is surfacing.

I glared at him, trembling with anger once again. Only, this time there were no witnesses to remind me to keep in control, and there were no friends to guide me away and calm me down.

He was very wise to move his hand away from me. He backed up slightly, a worried look in his eyes. I then noticed the others there, all looking at me with thier golden eyes. They stood in a semi circle around me, so i was free to leave if i wanted, if they would let me.

"WHAT?!" I couldn't help screaming at him. The anger was getting to me, and i was finding it very hard to control it. My chest heaved and hands balled up into fists at my side.

All of their eyes widened as i screamed at them. They had never seen me angry before, not this angry anyway. They all had the same emotions in their faces- sadness, guilt and ..... sympathy. Sympathy? They are giving me sympathy! Ugh!

They stayed silent, still shocked at my outburst.

Of course they are, back in Forks you were the weak little Bella who always saw the good in everything I reminded myself.

"Well?" I shouted. I managed not to scream, of which i am proud.

"B....Bella, please, just listen to us, please?" Alice stepped forward towards me, and i took another, bigger step back. Her eyes were pleading with me.

"WHY?! GO ON, TELL ME! WHY THE HELL SHOULD I STAND HERE AND LISTEN TO MORE OF YOUR LIES?!" Yep, i'm back to screaming at them. Do they honestly believe that i will listen to anymore of their lies? Ha! I think they will be surprised at how much i have changed.

Despite my screaming, they all just stood there, calm and collected. Well, maybe not calm. At my outburst, Alice started to dry sob, and turned into Jaspers chest. If anything, that just made me even madder. They all had each other, a family. They were all happy and had nice lives, and they had ruined mine and made me miserable.

the only sound being Alices sobbing, everyone else was silently staring at me. Even jasper, who was rubbing Alices' back comfortingly was staring at me with pity in his eyes. PITY!

If i stayed here any longer, i knew it as a fact, i would lose control. I didn't particularly want something to just burst into flames, like my curtains had done when i got frustrated during practice when i had difficulty. I was pretty sure that if something just suddenly caught fire, it would be a little suspicious. With that in mind, i turned around.

I hadn't even taken a step when i felt the cold hand return to my wrist. I felt my anger flare, as i spun around. I wrenched my hand from Edwards grip and kneed him in the-----sensitive area. I had wondered a few times if that would still hurt a vampire, what with them being made of stone and all. Guess it did. Edward doubled over, his eyes tightly shut with pain. The others just looked astounded with me, and shocked.

I just glared at them all, and turned to walk away again, but, once again, i was held back. It wasn't Edward holding me back this time, he was busy being held up by Jasper. It was Emmett who had grabbed me.

"Bella, you need to listen to us, we have to ex---" I span around again and elbowed him in the stomach. He, like edward, doubled over clutching his stomach. I wondered if that would leave a bruise or not.

"Why you---" Rosalie stopped mid sentance as Edward managed to staighten out again, wincing as he did, and glared at her. He was still holding Jaspers shoulder for support. I noticed that Alice had moved away from Jasper, in fact, the semi circle had totally disappeared. Emmett was now kneeling a little to my left, Rosalie just a little in front of him, glaring at me. Jasper and Edward were further away, a little to my left, and Alice, well, Alice was staright ahead of me, staring at me.

"Bell-" She started but cut her off.

"No. I don't want to hear it. Just leave me alone" I said surprisingly calm, shaking my head slightly.

I turned again, and actually made it a few steps.

"No. We can't stay away from you, not anymore. I can't" Said Edward in a quiet voice that i'm sure i wasn't supposed to hear. I froze as he said it, and my anger got impossibly worse.

"WHY? DID YOU HAVE TOO MUCH FUN TOYING WITH ME THAT YOU WANT TO COME BACK FOR SOME MORE?!"I didn't bother turning, but i knew they could hear me since i was screaming. I kept my eyes on the grass, trying to clam myself down. My i pod headphones still in my ears, blaring out music, but i couldn't hear it anymore.

"Bella, please, just let us explain" Said Jasper. That kind of surprised me. Jasper was the most distant of them all, despite peoples assurances that it was just about the blood, i suspected that he didn't like me near his family. Does anything make sense anymore?

"No" I said simply. Taking a deep breath, and trying, unsucessfully stop my hands from trembling. I wanted so desperately to walk away, to run as far away form them as i could, but i couldn't. My anger was getting the better of me. Have you ever been so angry that you couldn't move? Well, that was what was happening to me.

I heard footsteps approaching me, slow and deliberate ones. I tried to get my legs to work, just to move away from them, but my body was completely unresponsive. I knew who it was, everyone else would have the sense to stay away from me. I mean, when someone has just attacked you and your brother, you tend to stay away from them, right? Well, someone should tell that to Edward.

I could smell him now, behind me. Yes, i can smell scents like vampires, only my sense of smell is so much better. Not to brag or anything. His scent was captivating me, enticing me to love and believe him, but i couldn't. I felt a shiver of----something rush through my body. It was cold, like ice as it shot through my viens, making my entire body tingle. Of course, i didn't have long to think about what the hell it could have been, because edward was being an idiot again.

He put his hand, not around my wrist, but on my shoulder. It felt too personal, to caring, too-- like it used to. With his hand on my shoulder, his chest became vulnerable. Big mistake.

I spun, faster that humanly possible, and puched him squarely in the chest, making him soar in the air and land about 15 feet away. I felt a surge of smuggness as i realised that i ws beating up a vampire. If that was a human, my fist would have gone straight through his chest and killed them instantly. But, anger soon took it's place. Maybe i should consider anger management?

"Don't- ever- touch- me- again" My words were seperate, they punctuated the shocked silence that had decended on us. I stood glaring at Edward who was currently sprawled out on the floor. They had been forced to part into two pairs, made to move because if they didn't, Edward would have hit them as well. To my left was Jasper and Rosalie, and to my right Alice and Emmett.

None of them were looking at Edward though, all of them were staring, wide eyed at me. My hands refused to stop shaking, which was really starting to irritate me. Seeing Edward there on the floor, vulnerable, and weak, made me even angrier.

Jesus, is there any limit to how angry i can get?

I stalked forward, now consumed with rage, and i wanted, so desperately that it scared me, to hurt him. I wanted him to feel the pain he had put me through, although he would never feel that much pain emotionally, he could feel it physically. Unfortunately, Emmett and Jasper must have sussed my intentions, and moved to block my path. God, they were annoying!

I stopped, and we stood still, silent, waiting for the other to do something. I just stood glaring into Emmett eyes, wanting, so much, for him to turn to dust. No! If i carried on thinking like that, i will loose control. Fire is one of the only things that can kill a vampire, and despite all my hate and disgust, i couldn't kill them. Hurt them- yes. But kill them-no. I wouldn't become a monster like them, i would never.

I could feel the magic burning beneath the surface, waiting for my anger to spill over and be released. I had to get out of here, now. But before i could even turn, i was stopped again. God, i am trying to save them, and they won't have it!

"Bella, please, just listen to what we have to say. You are my best friend, and i love you, we all do, you're part of our family and-" Alice came to stand infront of me, looking me in the eyes pleadingly.

She was about to carry on, but that plea sent me over the edge that i had procariously perched on all day.

"WHY SHOULD I LISTEN TO ANYMORE OF YOUR LIES? YOU DON'T HAVE TO LIE AND ACT ANYMORE ALICE, SO JUST DROP IT." I saw a spark of fire on the grass just at the side of me, but carried on regardless. "BESIDES, IF YOU WERE MY BEST FRIEND YOU WOULD HAVE NEVER LEFT!" The fire began to spread, burning and desicating the ground. "HOW CAN YOU LOVE ME WHEN YOU HURT ME? HOW CAN BE PART OF YOUR FAMILY WHEN YOU USED ME THEN THREW ME AWAY?" The flames grew in size as i screamed at them. Alice retreated to Jasper, sobbing again.

Everyone, stared at the fire now crackling and emmitting billows of smoke as it spread. Oh no.

Great, i swear that i won't tell them anything, then i attack them, and set the school field on fire! Yeah, they will totally believe you are still human! I thought sarcastically.

I snapped out of my angry rage and cursed under my breath as i turned to the fire. Even witches who haven't changed yet, can use a limited amount of magic. I can actually create a physical shield and expand it around things, pretty cool, huh? I remembered the spell and muttered it, waving my hand over the fire. Immediately, a faint blue ring surrounded the fire, stopping it from spreading any further.

The ring looked as if it was made of smoke, though i knew that it was strong enough to keep the fire at bay. My magic, as you may have guessed is blue. A nice, baby blue. It was one of my favourite colours (sorry EllE, but it fitted ) so it was nice.

I didn't glance at the Cullens, who undoubtedly were staring at me right now. Ignoring them, i bent down and hovered my hand over the flames. I was now, very aware that i was doing this in plain sight, and they could see everything i was doing. Maybe i should move so i am infront of the fire to block their view? But the fire was reaching new heights, and it needed to be dealt with now.

I muttered the spell for water, one that i was happy i had been practicing recently. I loved the way the water just appeared and came out of your hand, it felt wierd, in a good way though. I moved my hand around the fire, making sure i had extinguished it all. Muttering the words for the water to stop, i tried to remember the spell for growth.

Yes, the fire had now , in it's place was a large patch of black, charred earth. I smiled a little as i muttered the spell. I loved this spell. You could grow any plant or tree, just by thinking about it. The feel of making a life feels amazing, and i often wondered if this was how mothers felt. The grass grew in a matter of seconds, lush and green, blending in with the rest of the field.

Happy with my work, and totally forgetting the Cullens presence, i straightened out again. Smiling to myself, i picked out my bag that i had let slip of my shoulder when i crouched down. I suddenly heard my grandmas voice in my head.

Oh my god, Bella? Are you okay? Can you hear me now? I couldn't get through to you, though i sensed your anger. It woke me up. Are you okay? Her voice rang urgantly in my head, bringing me back to the situation at hand.

I glanced at the Cullens to find them staring at me, again, with their mouths gaping open, i smiled at the image.

Sighing i replied Yeah, i can hear you, sorry about that. These vamps don't know when to leave an aggrivated witch alone. Sorry to wake you up I said, not letting her see how angry i am, though she could probably feel it.

Yeah i can. Are they still there with you? She was on the defensive now, she hated them as much as i did.

Yeah, i'm on the field, right next to the gate. Er.... i might have lost my temper a bit I added a little guilty.

She sighed mentally Thats okay, it happens to all of us. I am coming out there, if you can leave, do so now

I didn't reply, but heard her shuffling around in the house way too fast for an OAP. I heard her mental retort as i called her an OAP.

I must have looked crazy, standing there smiling and laughing to myself. I turned without a word, and, once again was stopped. This time, by a very confused looking Jasper.

"Bella, what was-------. How did you........ What........" He gulped, as he tried to actually speak. I savoured this moment, i had never seen a speechless vampire. I smirked, but it slid off my face with his next question.

"Wh...what are you?" I knew he didn't mean it as an insult, he was only curious, anyone would be. But i heard Edward growl at him anyway. I smirked as i thought of something.

"Oh calm down!" I rolled my eyes in his general direction, since he was still hidden behind Emmett. Jasper had since moved and was stood a few feet in front of me. He must have sensed my drastic change in mood, since i no longer wanted to dismember them. Using magic always cheered me up.

I reminded myself that i still had not answered Jaspers question. Hmmm...... maybe a little revenge.

"What am i?" I teased as i put on a thinking face. What? I was in a good mood.

"Yeah, i mean, how.......what....." Jasper looked utterly lost. I had to giggle at him, i couldn't keep it in. What could i say, i have been hanging out with Becky and Jess too much.

All of their eyes widened as they heard and saw me laughing. Jasper cracked a smile, no doubt infulenced by my emotions.

"Well, i can tell you that i aren't normal" I said mysteriously. Okay, i aren't a very good riddle- maker, so kill me already.

"Will you tell us?" Said Alice shyly, probably afraid i would shout at her again.

I sighed as i thought about it. I heard the stairs creak as my gran made her way downstairs. I hurried.

"Nope. You will have to work it out for yourselves" I smirked evilly.

"What! How are we supposed to do that?!" Exclaimed Emmett looking rather flustered.

"Well, i figured out what you are didn't i? Now, i was one little human girl. I am sure that seven vampires could figure it out" I smiled as i saw their incredulous faces.

"Please Bella" Pleaded Alice, i only smirked at her.

I knew that vampires are naturally curious. And these vampires are used to getting everything they want because of their looks or their bank accounts, well, heres a change. I loved to watch them squirm as they tried to prize the answer from me.

"Nope, you will have to use your noggins this time" I said smiling at them before walking over to the gate and undoing it. wow, i finally made it to the gate after, forty five minutes of trying. I heard no footsteps, so whispered words, so i went through the gate, a smug smile plastered on my face. I met my gran on my way in, just as she was going out.

It's alright gran, i sorted it I thought still smiling.

Are they still there? She thought, not smiling like she usually does.

Er... yeah. Gran are you okay? I was a little nervous about her behaviour. But she didn't reply, she just carried on walking towards the gate.

I sighed, confused. She was going to confront them, no doubts there. I let myself in and sat myself down on the sofa, and began watching 90210. If i was human i would have been worried about my gran confronting a group of five vampires, but i wasn't. I knew that my gran could take them all doen if necessary. I smirked as i imagined her beating up Emmett.

Now that would be fun heard her say, giggling a little in her head.

I settle back into the sofa, and watched my program. Gran came in about half way through it, a huge smile on her face. A smile that i didn't trust at all. She was up to something, and it had something to do with the Cullens.

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