Shattered Ice
Disclaimer: Do I really have to repeat it?
A/n: Hello minna-san! I'm still alive, don't worry, just been really busy with end of the school year projects, exams, and the best excuse in the world….yep, it's the 2002 Fifa World Cup!!! Yay! Go Ireland! Gomen, not to offend anyone, that's just my background so naturally I want them to win, go Ireland! Okay I'm done, just had to get that out of my system, and once again thanks so much for everyone's support, you guys rock! Now on with the next chapter!
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After a moment or two, Ruki had got the idea that Jenrya hadn't heard what she'd said, but not having any desire whatsoever to repeat it needlessly, she kept head dropped to her knees, not allowing Jenrya to see into her pain-filled eyes. Ruki overlooked one minor thing though, Jenrya had the intuitive senses, and therefore was able to sense her emotions and thoughts. Jenrya, feeling the negative emotions and slight resentment, raidiating from the auburn-haired tamer, tentively sat up and crawled slowly over to her. Sitting quietly, sympathy setting in on his gentle features, he placed his hands on Ruki's shoulders, at that simple touch she snapped her head up, staring straight into his gentle, pure, grey eyes. Feeling an assuring warmth fill her, she allowed the wise tamer to pull her into a warm hug, she snuggled into his chest comfortably. Jenrya turned his body around to lean against the smooth-trunked, cherry blossom tree, Ruki remained in his arms resting against his strong form.
Ruki so overcome, and emotionally strained, felt her breathing becoming ragged and short, suddenly her eyes seemed to be leaking, was she * gasp * crying? She didn't know, her heart and emotions had never allowed out so freely before, at least not that she could remember. A sudden thought struck her, she wondered to herself, 'Wait! I do remember the last time I cryed, it was when Dad left. I was glad but, Mom became so much more involved in her work after that … Since that day, when I was merely five years old, I vowed never to get close to anyone, never to care for anyone again, and never to cry or act emotionally; afterall nobody cared anyways. Keeping emotions blocked was the only way to live, to become the best meant having no attachments, afterall when Dad left, I wasn't being physically abused anymore, but Mom became cold and uncaring, and was only concerned about her job. I hardly got anything accomplished for a short time, then I decided emotions were of no use, they were irrelevant. They still are. But what is this I'm feeling towards Jenrya, I don't understand.'
She blinked realizing her cold tears were soaking Jenrya's shirt, but what really captured her curiousity was that her tears were cold, as far as she knew from learning in biology, tears leak from the eyeducts as a warm, salty substance. Breathing in and out deeply a couple of times, faintly noticing the autumn-fresh scent as she breathed into his shirt, the scent of him filled her senses. Jenrya peered down at the crying girl in his arms, stroking her soft locks gently, he felt her pull away and turn away from him. He looked down and noticed his shirt was damp from her tears, they were cold, he found that quite unusal as well; perhaps it was due to her emotions being locked up for so long.
After a few moments Ruki turned to face the tanned boy, gulping anxiously she began, "I was five. My father and I did spend some time together, well more than my mom ever did, he was the closest I've ever been to anyone, even though he would go to bars sometimes, come home drunk, and physically abuse my mom and me." She grimanced at the memory, sure the beatings hurt, but that was more or less the only attention she really got from either of her parents. Though it wasn't as if she'd gotten beatings all the time, just every once in a while, her father was a bit of an alcoholic, but he did have to work, so the abuse didn't happen all the time. Overall, her father was the most important person, because he was the only one out of either of her parents that spent any time with her, the times he wasn't drunk were always the most memorable.
She breathed quietly, reminscing the painful, yet only happy memories when both her parents were together. Recalling a violent memory caused her breathing to speed up, there was now a long, thin scar that ran across her back from being thrown into the corner of a table, while her father was in a bit of a rage after he lost his job. She sighed as she ran her hands over her back where the scar ran across, and sighed a little. Jenrya, watching and listening intently to the emotionalless girl spill out her emotions, but realizing she had never done this before waited patiently. Tilting her head forward a little, she felt a strong, protective hand lean on her shoulder gently, she turned around to peer into sympathetic grey eyes, and also noticed the resentment that rested there towards her father. Jenrya thought silently, 'I can't believe that is what she had to live through all her life, here I've been given a wonderful, loving family, with both parents, and three siblings!' Feeling sore feeling crawl up her throat, Ruki felt her face heat up and tears well up in her eyes again, it was relentless. 'Why am I being so weak?! Weakness gets one nowhere in life, why can't I control myself? Why am I feeling like this?' She thought, confused and frightened. Before she could collect anymore doubts, a pair of grey eyes reading her emotions like street signs, pulled the girl into a gentle embrace.
"I'm sorry I can't do more. I don't really know what it's like to go through your whole life knowing that nobody cares about you, especially parents. I've always had my parents' support, and siblings to lean on, and I realize I am very lucky. One thing I do know though is that I care about you so much and would never let anything bad happen to you again. I promise I will always be there for you, don't ever be afraid to talk to me about anything, I want to be your friend, if that's okay with you. Please let me be your friend?" He spoke quiet and sincerely. She blinked a few times before nodding slowly, curiously gazing into his eyes, and for the first time, she had a real friend, and perhaps more in the future to come. Still holding her close, Jenrya played with her soft auburn locks and never left her curious gaze.
After some time, on top of the emotional strain, they both nodded off, but not before Jenrya gave her a peck on the cheek. Ruki's eyes flew open, she placed her hand on her cool cheek, where Jenrya's gentle touch had landed; she smiled a little, as a faint blush spread across her cheeks. Leaning back into his arms, she fell into a peaceful sleep.
It seemed as though an eternity had flown by, before Jenrya felt a tap that threw him back into reality.
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A/n: Yay! Finally I've returned to updating, been having a bit of writers' block lately, on top of everything else, * sigh * I don't know where to even begin. Anyways I won't go into detail on my social life, but I will say I'm very sorry to all those who have been waiting for like two weeks on this, so there ya go, a new chapter! Well gotta get going, will update next week (hopefully), ja for now!^_^
Keisan
Disclaimer: Do I really have to repeat it?
A/n: Hello minna-san! I'm still alive, don't worry, just been really busy with end of the school year projects, exams, and the best excuse in the world….yep, it's the 2002 Fifa World Cup!!! Yay! Go Ireland! Gomen, not to offend anyone, that's just my background so naturally I want them to win, go Ireland! Okay I'm done, just had to get that out of my system, and once again thanks so much for everyone's support, you guys rock! Now on with the next chapter!
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After a moment or two, Ruki had got the idea that Jenrya hadn't heard what she'd said, but not having any desire whatsoever to repeat it needlessly, she kept head dropped to her knees, not allowing Jenrya to see into her pain-filled eyes. Ruki overlooked one minor thing though, Jenrya had the intuitive senses, and therefore was able to sense her emotions and thoughts. Jenrya, feeling the negative emotions and slight resentment, raidiating from the auburn-haired tamer, tentively sat up and crawled slowly over to her. Sitting quietly, sympathy setting in on his gentle features, he placed his hands on Ruki's shoulders, at that simple touch she snapped her head up, staring straight into his gentle, pure, grey eyes. Feeling an assuring warmth fill her, she allowed the wise tamer to pull her into a warm hug, she snuggled into his chest comfortably. Jenrya turned his body around to lean against the smooth-trunked, cherry blossom tree, Ruki remained in his arms resting against his strong form.
Ruki so overcome, and emotionally strained, felt her breathing becoming ragged and short, suddenly her eyes seemed to be leaking, was she * gasp * crying? She didn't know, her heart and emotions had never allowed out so freely before, at least not that she could remember. A sudden thought struck her, she wondered to herself, 'Wait! I do remember the last time I cryed, it was when Dad left. I was glad but, Mom became so much more involved in her work after that … Since that day, when I was merely five years old, I vowed never to get close to anyone, never to care for anyone again, and never to cry or act emotionally; afterall nobody cared anyways. Keeping emotions blocked was the only way to live, to become the best meant having no attachments, afterall when Dad left, I wasn't being physically abused anymore, but Mom became cold and uncaring, and was only concerned about her job. I hardly got anything accomplished for a short time, then I decided emotions were of no use, they were irrelevant. They still are. But what is this I'm feeling towards Jenrya, I don't understand.'
She blinked realizing her cold tears were soaking Jenrya's shirt, but what really captured her curiousity was that her tears were cold, as far as she knew from learning in biology, tears leak from the eyeducts as a warm, salty substance. Breathing in and out deeply a couple of times, faintly noticing the autumn-fresh scent as she breathed into his shirt, the scent of him filled her senses. Jenrya peered down at the crying girl in his arms, stroking her soft locks gently, he felt her pull away and turn away from him. He looked down and noticed his shirt was damp from her tears, they were cold, he found that quite unusal as well; perhaps it was due to her emotions being locked up for so long.
After a few moments Ruki turned to face the tanned boy, gulping anxiously she began, "I was five. My father and I did spend some time together, well more than my mom ever did, he was the closest I've ever been to anyone, even though he would go to bars sometimes, come home drunk, and physically abuse my mom and me." She grimanced at the memory, sure the beatings hurt, but that was more or less the only attention she really got from either of her parents. Though it wasn't as if she'd gotten beatings all the time, just every once in a while, her father was a bit of an alcoholic, but he did have to work, so the abuse didn't happen all the time. Overall, her father was the most important person, because he was the only one out of either of her parents that spent any time with her, the times he wasn't drunk were always the most memorable.
She breathed quietly, reminscing the painful, yet only happy memories when both her parents were together. Recalling a violent memory caused her breathing to speed up, there was now a long, thin scar that ran across her back from being thrown into the corner of a table, while her father was in a bit of a rage after he lost his job. She sighed as she ran her hands over her back where the scar ran across, and sighed a little. Jenrya, watching and listening intently to the emotionalless girl spill out her emotions, but realizing she had never done this before waited patiently. Tilting her head forward a little, she felt a strong, protective hand lean on her shoulder gently, she turned around to peer into sympathetic grey eyes, and also noticed the resentment that rested there towards her father. Jenrya thought silently, 'I can't believe that is what she had to live through all her life, here I've been given a wonderful, loving family, with both parents, and three siblings!' Feeling sore feeling crawl up her throat, Ruki felt her face heat up and tears well up in her eyes again, it was relentless. 'Why am I being so weak?! Weakness gets one nowhere in life, why can't I control myself? Why am I feeling like this?' She thought, confused and frightened. Before she could collect anymore doubts, a pair of grey eyes reading her emotions like street signs, pulled the girl into a gentle embrace.
"I'm sorry I can't do more. I don't really know what it's like to go through your whole life knowing that nobody cares about you, especially parents. I've always had my parents' support, and siblings to lean on, and I realize I am very lucky. One thing I do know though is that I care about you so much and would never let anything bad happen to you again. I promise I will always be there for you, don't ever be afraid to talk to me about anything, I want to be your friend, if that's okay with you. Please let me be your friend?" He spoke quiet and sincerely. She blinked a few times before nodding slowly, curiously gazing into his eyes, and for the first time, she had a real friend, and perhaps more in the future to come. Still holding her close, Jenrya played with her soft auburn locks and never left her curious gaze.
After some time, on top of the emotional strain, they both nodded off, but not before Jenrya gave her a peck on the cheek. Ruki's eyes flew open, she placed her hand on her cool cheek, where Jenrya's gentle touch had landed; she smiled a little, as a faint blush spread across her cheeks. Leaning back into his arms, she fell into a peaceful sleep.
It seemed as though an eternity had flown by, before Jenrya felt a tap that threw him back into reality.
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A/n: Yay! Finally I've returned to updating, been having a bit of writers' block lately, on top of everything else, * sigh * I don't know where to even begin. Anyways I won't go into detail on my social life, but I will say I'm very sorry to all those who have been waiting for like two weeks on this, so there ya go, a new chapter! Well gotta get going, will update next week (hopefully), ja for now!^_^
Keisan