A/N: Will Logan remember? What's gonna happen between James and Kendall? Read/Review/Enjoy! :]

Kendall POV

My heart trembled as I sat lifelessly by the pool. I really screwed things up between me and James. And it's tearing me apart. Just to think of a sad, lonely life without James, the one I so desperately want to love, is eternally painful…its torture. Is this my punishment for what I did to Logan? Cause if it is, it's the worst kind of punishment anyone could ask for…this is hell, and I'm living in it.

I looked up at apartment 2J as James peered out the window with an eerie grimace on his face…his eyes were focused on me. I took a deep breath in as the sound of police sirens became prominent. I closed my eyes trying to get the image of James's face out of my head…it was evil.

A cluster of noises filled the Palm Woods, leaving the air heavy and cheerless. I opened my eyes and to my surprise the lobby was filled with police men.

James POV

I watched Kendall as his eyes widened with fear. He began to run away seeing that the police men were rapidly inching toward him. But Kendall was too slow. He was now stained in his own blood as his face was forcefully pressed against the unforgiving cement. He looked helpless…he looked miserable. He looked how he made me feel.
I glared down at him accomplished at what I have done. The bastard thought he could just hurt me and get away with it...he said I had no balls…I sure showed him. Now he has his entire life to think about what he did…now he can go crazy with thoughts and he can bask in his loneliness.

Narrator POV

Happiness is silly thing to expect when your world is crumbling right before your eyes. James seems to think he is at his high point in life. As if he were king. Seeing Kendall fighting the police made him powerful…it made him feel happy. He's turned into the one thing he despises he's turned into Kendall Knight and Kendall has turned into James, the victim. James blinded by arrogance can't see what is really happening. If only he knew what he had in store for him…he would take back all the bad he has done. But then again life doesn't work that way, there's no second chances, there's only one and James made all the wrong decisions. You might imagine him to have the perfect life, but how well do you really James Diamond. How well does he really know himself?

Logan POV

I smiled as Carlos took my hand and began to walk me to his car, "I'm really excited for this date."

"Me too Logie, it means everything to me."

I chuckled nervously, "Yeah?"

Carlos nodded and tried to fight back a grin, "Just think by the end of today you'll remember everything and I can call you mine again…all mine."

I bit my lip and said under my breath, "Hopefully."

Carlos let go of my hand and kindly opened the door to his car for me.

The car ride seemed to go on forever but I didn't mind, Carlos made it worth my while. He just kept talking and talking, it was just mesmerizing. There was something about him that I loved. I didn't know if was his chocolate brown eyes that glistened in the sunlight or if was the way his eyes would get small when he smiled. Maybe it was his helmet that always draped on top of his head covering his ebony hair that lay so beautifully across his caramel skin. Possibly it was everything about him…or nothing at all.

Carlos POV

As my car came to a stop, I grasped my wheel. A flurry of thoughts filled my mind, all positive…all were about Logan.

He doesn't realize how much I really love him…how much pain I would take for him. And after tonight everything will be back to normal, everything will be as it was. Love will fill the air again. The dark clouds above me will vanish, leaving only sunshine.

Logan and I will be a couple again and this time nothing will ever tear us apart…I won't allow it.

Narrator POV

Carlos Garcia is a confused young man. He'll say one thing and mean another. He plants an idea in his head and tries to convince himself that only good can come of it. He so desperately wants to live in a fairytale world. After all he's been through, why shouldn't he want to? There's only one explanation for why Carlos does what he does and that reason is fear. This fear lives deep in his heart, so many girls have you used him, tormented him, and broken his heart. Now he believes Logan's the one. Maybe Logan is the one for Carlos. But all I can say is Carlos is unstable and one more blow to his heart will send him through a pain unknown to him…depression. And the overly happy Carlos that the world knows will never smile again, not another laugh will pierce another's ears but many tears will cross his cheeks. He never love again and the dark cloud above will take over his life and trap him in a jail of sorrow.

James POV

I gleamed as Kendall struggled to get away from the police. Tears covered his face as he frighteningly screamed, "James, James, help me!" Kendall squirmed on the floor with the look of absolute defeat across his face. His eyes of sorrow became fixated on me. He was staring at me like a helpless child…like a scared puppy.

The police men were violent, they swung things at Kendall in attempt to fight back. Kendall's shrieks filled the air and sent unfriendly chills down my spine. What have I done? Why am I not happy?

Kendall POV
The pain was excruciating and I just kept making things worse for myself. They just kept beating me, leaving me praying for death…I couldn't take it anymore. Blow after blow, I felt the life leaving me. My head began to spin as my vision became blotchy. All I could see was my warm blood spilled across my face.

My nose throbbed as they continued to hit me viciously, I tasted the blood dripping from my nose to my mouth…they broke it, they broke my nose. And yet, they go on and torment me like I'm a threat to them…like I'm a threat to guys who are twice my weight and age…I'm only a kid.

I wish my mom was here to protect me, but she can't be…some asshole had to take her and Katie away from me. Without them, I turned into something I'm not…a criminal. I'm no longer Kendall Knight, one of the best teenage hockey players Minnesota has offer, or Kendall Knight, the talented young man from Big Time Rush. No, I'm not him anymore, at least not in the laws eyes. To them, I'm Kendall Knight, a danger to all citizens, someone who needs to be locked up.

I blinked once more and then everything went black.

Narrator POV

Kendall Knight. A menace to all or simply a young man lost in this world? Everyone fears him…he tried to murder his best friend, Logan Mitchell. And yet he could face Logan, like nothing ever happened. Some say he has no soul, but I say he lost it. He used to be the perfect son and the caring older brother. Kendall felt once his mom and sister were killed there was nothing to live for, that life was just some sick joke. But then he fell in love with one of his friends, Carlos Garcia. However, with Kendall's luck he discovered Carlos loved Logan. He couldn't take the heartbreak, Logan needed to be destroyed…but in searching for vengeance Kendall had fallen head over heels from James Diamond. But one again, life twisted its evil head and Kendall was left torn and destructive. Would you fear him?

Carlos POV

When we arrived, Logan gasped in amazement. "This is beautiful, Carlos. It's just…incredible." He smiled and ran from the car to the sand.

"Hey don't have too much fun without me!" I shouted playfully as I jogged towards him.

His beautiful eyes sparkled as he looked up at the sky full of wonder. "Sunset." He said under his voice, "Amazing."

His eyes then began to drift around the beach as he exclaimed, "There's no one here!"

I smiled, "Exactly, this our special beach…where I took you for our first date."

Logan ignored me as he tightly grasped my arm and dragged me over to the waves.

Logan POV

I threw Carlos into the waves as they pulled him in deeper. After struggling for several minutes, he managed to pull himself out of the water…he was soaked.

I began to laugh uncontrollably, his nice outfit and his perfect hair that he worked so hard to put together for this date, were ruined.

He shook his head with a smirk on his face, "You know you're lucky I love you, Logan."

I chuckled as I tried to push Carlos back into the waves, "I guess I am."

"Oh no you're not!" Carlos sneered as he grabbed hold of me, "If I'm going down so are you!"

I fell clumsily on top of Carlos, the waves trampled over us. I managed pull myself up but every time I did, the waves knocked me back down on top of Carlos…it was kinda fun!

Narrator POV

Logan Mitchell doesn't understand the seriousness of the situation he is in. If could only see it from another's perspective, he would understand. I'm not saying he isn't bright, he is just reluctant. Every second he spends with Carlos, make feel as if he is cheating. He is confused. Logan feels that his boyfriend before the accident is somewhere waiting for him. If could realize that the boy on the beach with him is boyfriend, there would be no conflict. But, it is just not as simple as that, Logan tends to overanalyze things…which is exactly what he is doing right now. Is Logan hopeless?

Kendall POV

My eyes were heavy and everything was a blur. I heard the echo of people's voices and a constant beeping sound. And to my surprise, I was in a little white room. Next to me I could hear a person weeping in pain. Around me were doctors and nurses…towards the back of the room were policemen. My hearing began to become clearer as did my vision.

Still at daze, I lifted my hand in the air trying to grasp onto a nurse, "Where am I?" I tried to belt out, but my body allowed it to come out as a faded whisper.

"You're in the hospital Mr. Knight." The nurse said as she backed away from me.

I moaned, "I hurt…help me…I hurt."

"Well that's no surprise, you took a pretty brutal beating." stated the doctor as he glanced at the policemen.

"Nooo…I huuurt!" I began to cry, "I want James…bring me James!"

James POV

My heart pounded anxiously as the doctor stared at me. I reached over to Kendall's bed with tears in my eyes. Kendall jumped, as if he didn't notice me in the room…did he not hear me crying?

I stood up to get closer to Kendall. "Hey baby, hanging in there?" I uttered as I ran my fingers through his gorgeous hair.

Kendall's emerald eyes grew wide as he gazed up at me with disbelief, "You're here…after all the pain I caused you…you're here."

I tightly took hold of his hand, "Of course I'm here...I'll always be here for you, Kendall…always."

"Oww!" Kendall cried, "Help me James, I'm in pain…take the pain away, please."

I furrowed my eyebrows, this was all because of me and my need for revenge, "I'm sorry Kendall, this is all my fault."

Kendall began to breathe profoundly as his crying grew heavier…he was scared, "I don't understand how any of this is your fault James! If it's anyone's fault it's mine…I got myself into this situation, I was just so mad at Logan."

My voice began to crack, my heart was twisting, "No, Kendall."

"Yes, James…It's my fault. Karma finally caught up with me…I feel I'm dying…like my insides are burning."

I felt to my knees as I began to cry uncontrollably, "No, you'll be alright…you're gonna be just fine."

"I'm never gonna be fine James, I rather die than go to prison."

I felt a stab to my heart…I really fucked up.

Carlos POV

The sun was now gone and the beach stood pitch black. I sat next to Logan as we ate under the pier because rain poured mockingly from the sky. Today was the best day of my life. To have Logan by my side, laughing and having a good time with me again was unbelievable…it was astounding. It made me almost want to burst out in tears.

"I had a really good time today, Carlos."Logan sighed, "It was just great."

"I'm glad you did."

Logan laid his head on me, "I missed coming to beach, I mean all I have are memories."

"I missed you coming with me, Logie." I gazed at Logan, "In fact, I was wondering if you wanted to be my," I fidgeted with my hands, "if you wanted to be my boyfriend again."

Logan got up from the blanket and groaned, "I don't know Carlos, I still don't remember." He kneeled down next to me, looking me in the eyes. "Don't get me wrong I like you, it's just it doesn't feel right…I don't know, I feel someone's waiting for me out there. You know?"

"No Logan, I don't know…In fact, you're the one I was waiting for and I'm fucking sick of this game!" I began to storm away.

"Wait, Carlos!" Logan shouted as he chased after me. "Where are you going?"

"Look Logan, since you're not my boyfriend or my friend, where I'm going is none of you business."

"Yes it is! Now come back here now!"

I walked back towards Logan the rage apparent in my eyes, "You know what, when you were in the hospital dying, I should have pulled the plug, because that would have made shit a whole lot easier."

"What are you talking about?" Logan cried as gripped my shoulder.

"Obviously us isn't ever going to happen again and I can't live with that for the rest of my life."

"So what are you gonna do about it?"

"End it."

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