Subconscious Addison

Addie

(Addie)

"Brother what's gonna happen to doctor Marco are you worried?" Al asked.

"The Fuhrer said that he's gonna protect him now not much we can do unless start a new war,"Ed answered looking at the piece of paper Marco had given him.

They talked about it but I was wondering what happened to me when I was fighting truth. Don't worry all the answers will come soon enough. The voice said. Wow I was going crazy I was hearing voices. Should I tell Ed? No you can't tell Ed! The voice screamed. Armstrong was being crazy and he somehow was not wearing a shirt. "Bonding a soul to steal is no walk in the park Fullmetal is the only one who can fix Al now go ahead ask him" Mustang said from the door.

"Thats right it's my burden but before I do anything I need to get my other arm back," Ed said. "Well that is an interesting fix isn't it, the great Edward can't use his alchemy," Riza said.

"He's just a useless teen with a grumpy ass attitude," some guy said I think his last name was Havoc. I rolled over to Ed with a rueful look on my face. "Ed," I said.

"Yes," he squeaked when he saw my expression.

"DON'T YOU DARE CALL AL A BURDEN YOU HEAR ME!" I yelled.

"Yes ma'am," he said. "Good," I said back to normal.

"Anyway I'm going to have to take some leave I have to go to my mechanic, you know the one," Ed said looking at Mustang.

I shot a pointed look at Ed. "Sure Ed how could I forget I saw you in her house unconscious with that same stump of an arm you have now balling in your sleep IT HURTS I'M GONNA PEE MY PANT'S, so tuff," Mustang said.

I couldn't help but snicker, it was Ed's turn to shoot a pointed look at me.

"So where ya gonna go once your fixed?" Hughes asked. "Central I've got something to look up in the library there," Ed answered. "Thats a heck of a trip you'll need some protection I would volunteer but since the Fuhrer is going back to central and I'm part of his escort I can't go," Hughes said.

"They just put me back in charge and I've got to take care of this place," Mustang said.

"And I've got to look after the colonel," Hawkeye said.

"You could send me but I don't know how much help I'd be up against a psychotic alchemist serial killer," Havoc said.

"SAME HERE" The rest of the group said. "That settles it, send me I'll protect the boys and girl on their journey and investigation!" Armstrong said.

"We don't need an escort!" Ed yelled.

"Ok Ed what are we gonna do if Scar show up am I supposed to run him over," I said even if I didn't particularly like having Armstrong as an escort.

"Can't fight and can't exactly carry you hobbled brother to safety either," someone said I think it was Havoc.

"Children should listen to adults," Armstrong said. "We aren't children Al why won't you stick up for us here!" Ed yelled.

"Thats the first time anyone's treated me like a kid since I've been in this armor thank you!" Al said in such a kid like way.

"Ok I take back what I said lets get out of here!" I said trying to wheel away but Al grabbed the handle.

(in the train)

"Spacious," Ed said because Al was in the cargo place or whatever that was called.

Someone knocked on the window, it turned out to be Hughes. I was reading another alchemy book. Later I went into the cargo hold or whatever it was called with Ed to find that Al. We looked around the small space and he wasn't there. We went back to Armstrong.

"Very very big problem" I told Armstrong.

"They mistook Al for someone else's luggage and dropped him off at the last stop" Ed said looking out the window.

"We'll turn around at the next station," Armstrong said.

"Are you crazy I can't wait that long," Ed said.

"Yes you can," Armstrong said ripping Ed's pants so we could see his automail leg.

"Get off my back!" Ed yelled.

"It is important that you calm down Edward Elric," Armstrong said. I looked at Armstrong with a pretty freaking scary expression on.

"Ok Armstrong if Al has even one more scratch on him I will personally torcher you," He gulped and nodded.

(Some random train station)

"What do you mean he ran off!" I heard Ed yell from inside.

I looked around the box where Al was supposed to be. Some mumbling and "How can you act so casual!" and "We know what you did in Ishbal!" signaled Ed running out.

"Ed slow down!" I yelled at him.

He slowed a little and I caught up with him. "What was that all about?" I asked him. He just kept on running.

We saw a girl and ran up to her Ed saying "About time we found someone here I'm looking for a suit of armor left by the train it's really big and dark grey! Wait did you see it?" Ed yelled as the little girl threw a box on top of his head.

"What the hell is your problem girl!" I yelled as one came down on me too. I blacked out. I was hovering above me about 12 years old. I was looking at a black coffin and I had a white rose in my hand, 12 year old me set the flower on the casket. The white petals beautifully matched the coffin. That's our mother and down there is us.

I looked over to see me hovering besides me, what do you mean? Our mother is in the casket and the 12 year old is us.

I don't understand?

I can't tell you right now, go back to Ed.

Wait I don't understand! I blacked out again I was in a cottage place and Ed was besides me with a towel on his head. "Oh look who woke up," Ed told me.

"I can't help it bean sprout that girl has some serious aim," I told him.

"I'm sorry about this, It's been tough on her living out here with and old broken man like me, watching me hobble along, it's funny how a child's logic can work," The guy said.

"Just trying to make life easier for her grandpa you got a good eye, but I can't give it to you, I've got my own needs for it, if you want I can point you towards the engineer who designed it for me she's got a sharp tongue but decent skills," Ed told them.

The little girl looked hopeful. "I appreciate the offer but I don't need a fake leg," The guy said.

"Finally someone who understands!" I said cheerfully.

"Don't listen to her she's crazy, it's fine once you get use to it," Ed said.

"Probably so but that's not the point there are more useful things then walking I'd rather keep my leg the way it is, it was a saber wound and it got infected, by the time they had carried me from the front line all they could do is saw it off," the guy explained.

"Front line then you were a soldier?" I asked.

He nodded.

"So which war did you fight in the north one or wait you mean you went to Ishbal?" Ed asked.

"Men are not men on the battlefield we turn into some other creature you can do the cruelest things it doesn't even matter if it's an order or not, to protect yourself your mind shuts out your emotions it's like a metal door once the wars over you can't keep it closed anymore. I can never let myself forget what I saw there what I did, this leg is my constant reminder and the whole thing comes rushing back" the guy said.

"That's your reason? you don't want automail just so you can wallow in your guilt?" Ed asked.

"That's not my reason it's true I've lost my leg but I've gained something in return something much more important quiet peace of mind the chance to life with my grandchildren watch them grow it's only after we've given something up that we can obtain the thing we really want isn't that the way of the alchemist?" He said.

"Yeah that's right but what about all those men that came out in one piece isn't that the whole dream of a soldier right?" Ed asked.

"Those people who came back without a scratch lost something just as real even if it's something you can't see on their skin," the guy said.

"That's the opposite reason why I don't want automail, I have a metal door that won't open and if I get automail I think it will never open ever," I said to Ed.

"Looks like you've had some losses yourself have you gained something back? you do believe in equivalent exchange" The guy asked Ed.

"But how can that be? I've spent years devoted to alchemy that damned principle getting my arm and leg back and my brothers body that's our dream to keep looking for something to balance the equation to earn it back but I've never turned it around the other way where was the equivalency then! What have we ever gained for our losses it's always been a one way current just a series of us giving to the void everythings been taken from us," Ed said his eyes filled with tears.

"Calm down Ed!" I yelled at him.

"A dream to get everything back the way it was but once you have it what will you do with your life? The pleasure of a dream is that it is a fantasy if it happens it was never a dream" The guy said to Ed.

We were silent until I said "but what if it was never a dream, what if it is a goal, a goal to be better to get things normal, dreams are fantasy's but goals they are the real thing that gets things moving, Ed what I believe you got was determination and courage, thank you sir for the tea even if Ed did break your cup, let's go bean sprout."

When we got outside the sun was up. "Well at least the storm stopped," Ed said.

A guy came running up the hill and into the house a muffled "brother? Grandpa brother's back!" came from inside. We looked at each other "Oh crap!" We ran down the path yelling "AL!"

"YES" Al's perky voice said.

We stopped and fell over. "Yay! we found Al! what is that thing besides you?" I asked.

The sun was going down and we had found a wagon thing and Ed was pulling it and I was rolling besides it. "You're aware you reek of sheep you know," Ed said.

"Well excuse me for being cargo I'll wash up at Pinako's house you happy?" Al asked sarcastically.

"Listen Al do you remember when the colonel showed up at Risembool at the Rockbells he came in response to one of the letters we sent," Ed said.

"What letters?" I asked.

"Oh that's right you don't know, well we sent a bunch of letters out to find our dad because our mom died," Ed said.

"Yeah I remember he said he was looking for dad," Al said.

"Do you think that was his actual reason or was he coming for something else," Ed said.

Armstrong arrived, picked up A,l and said "I was worried about you."

"No it was my fault," Al said.

"What's the matter?" he asked.

"Major about earlier what I said," a train whistle sounded and Armstrong said "That's our train if we don't catch it we will have to wait till noon tomorrow!" I was wheeling quite fast when he said "that's our train" Armstrong picked up Ed and ran to catch up.

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