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"True love has a habit of coming back, usually in the most unexpected ways."
Chapter 11
Goodbye, Apathy
Previously on Secrets…
"Would you fucking let me finish, for once," Jason yelled and he saw Carly flinch at his tone. She promptly closes her mouth, finally realizing how serious he was. Satisfied that he had finally gotten her attention and silence, he continued, "I love Elizabeth, and deep down I always have. Maybe I didn't feel it or maybe I tried to ignore it, but it was always there. It took us thirteen years to finally realize that we have isn't something that can be thrown away or ignored. So yes, I married Elizabeth. You can assume it's because of my trial, but it does not matter to me what you think. What matters is that Elizabeth knows what she means to me, and I know what I mean to her. She is my soul mate, no matter how many people try to tell me different. I am tired of defending and trying to explain my connection and love for Elizabeth. If anyone has a problem with it, they can take it to someone who actually cared, and that's certainly not me," Jason stated.
There weren't just two gaping mouths stunned at what he said; Elizabeth was also astonished at his confessions. Taking her hand in his, briefly checking to make sure she was okay, Jason turned around to walk away.
"Jason, I know you're angry and upset, but you can't make these kind of decisions right now," Carly said. Jason goes to turn around to say something back, but Elizabeth touches his arm. She nods to him, and she walks back to Carly.
"Carly, I'm not sure if you're in denial because your 'Jase' isn't here to fix every menial problem in your life or if you're just plain stupid, but I swear to God I am done with your shit. I would think that you could at least be civil with me after all that my son has done to save your daughter. But then I remember that you can't be civil. Everything has to be your way, or no one is happy. You ruin other people's lives by making sure yours is perfect. Jason is done with you, as he has often told you, so I don't understand why you keep coming back to him. I'm only going to say this once, and maybe you should take notes so you don't forget. Stay the fuck away from my husband and my family, or I promise you, I will get a restraining order on your ass. Go be with your family and leave mine alone. It's what everyone wants," Elizabeth stated, never once breaking eye contact with Carly.
Carly stood there in shock. Elizabeth had stood up to her before, but she had never been this honest and menacing. Elizabeth smirked and walked away. Jason took her hand in his, kissing her on the forehead.
"Remind me to never get on your bad side," he whispered as he wrapped an arm around her waist. Elizabeth grinned, feeling better than she had gotten that off her chest. "Trust me, that's been a long time coming. Thirteen years, to be exact," Elizabeth murmured.
Jason chuckled and opened her car door for her, and got into the driver's side. Starting up the car, he pulls out of the parking lot and to the start of his new life with his soul mate.
He didn't look in the rearview mirror to the problems that had been plaguing his life for over a decade.
~October 23rd, 2012~
Jason Morgan was rarely nervous. But it was his first night at Elizabeth's house as her husband. Traditionally, as her husband and as his wife, he would make love to his wife on their wedding night, but instead he was trying to fall asleep on the couch downstairs.
I can't sleep now, no, not like I used to
I can't breathe in and out like I need to
They had both agreed that they would take things slow, and getting married was overwhelming enough for the day. Even if they had admitted to their feelings, Jason knew that it would be moving too fast if he had spent the night in her bed. Also, they didn't want to confuse Cameron and Aiden too much, it was tough enough trying to explain why Jason was staying at their house.
"Mama, is Jason sleeping over," Cameron asked after Elizabeth had picked him and Aiden up from daycare and Jason was waiting for them at home.
"Cam, Jason and I have something to tell you," Elizabeth said as she put Aiden down with his toys on the floor.
Cameron nodded his head and sat down on the couch. Elizabeth sat down beside him, and Jason remained standing, not quite sure what to do. "Cam, Jason is going to be staying here now. Is that okay," she tentatively asked him.
"Is Jason going to be my new Daddy," Cameron whispered, looking up at the blonde. Jason opened his mouth to say something, but no words came out. Elizabeth noticed his hesitation and stepped up.
"You know your Daddy loves you, right," Elizabeth smiled as she said this, trying to reassure her confused eight year old son. Cameron frowned, "Daddy doesn't love me. If he did, he wouldn't have left us."
Jason was shocked at Cameron's words; not quite knowing how hard Lucky's leaving was for Cameron. A tear slid down Elizabeth's cheek as she realized her son was still hurting after a year.
"Cameron Lewis Webber, your Daddy loves you the most in this world. Daddy had a really hard time with Jakey's accident and he…"
Elizabeth had no idea how to explain her first love's abandonment to her son. Cameron looked to his mother, and gently touched her hand.
"It's okay Mama. I forgive Daddy for leaving, but I'm not going to leave you. I love you Mommy," Cameron whispered and Elizabeth felt the tears rolling down her cheeks.
Cameron reached over and she wrapped her arms around her son, who was wiser beyond his years. "I love you too Cam, and I'm not going anywhere either. I'm always going to be here for you and Aiden," Elizabeth confessed as she kissed her son's cheek. Cameron nodded his head and held onto his mother a little it tighter.
Jason watched the heartbreaking scene in front of him, and finally sat down beside the two people he love the most in this world.
"Jason is here to stay too, right," Cameron asked as he pulled away from Elizabeth. Cameron looked over at Jason, looking for him to say something.
"Cameron, I will always be here for you, your mother and your brother. I won't leave you. I promise," Jason comforted him, and his mother. "So why is Jason living with us," Cameron asked, still not quite sure of the situation.
"Well, when two people are married, they live together," Elizabeth explained and Cameron nodded his head in understanding. "Hey Mama, can I have two Daddies," Cameron enthusiastically asked.
Elizabeth laughed, along with Jason, "You sure can Cameron, as long as it's okay with Jason." She looked over at him, knowing how he would feel. She watched as he looked at Cameron, and saw the unconditional love shining in his eyes for the little boy.
"Cam, I know I'm not going to replace the space in your heart for your Daddy, but maybe you can make a new place in your heart for me," Jason asked and Cameron pondered this.
"I can do that," Cameron said. Jason smiled, and Cameron hugged his father. "All right Cam, I think it's time for bed. You had a long day," Elizabeth announced.
"But Mama, I'm not tired," Cameron complained as he yawned. Both parents laughed at their son's antics. "Can Jason tuck me in," Cameron asked and Elizabeth looked over at Jason.
"I sure can, buddy. I'll race you upstairs," Jason said quickly before jumping off the couch. He let Cameron beat him up the steps and followed him to his room.
"Okay Cam, you're too fast for me," Jason said as he held in side and Cameron leaped into his bed. Tucking the blankets around the small boy, Jason kneeled down beside him.
"Good night Cam," Jason whispered and placed a kiss on his forehead. "Jason, can we go to the park tomorrow," Cameron asked as Jason went to leave the room. "I think that sounds like a great idea," Jason mused.
"Sleep tight," Jason said as he turned off the light. "Don't let the bed bugs bite," Cameron retorted and Jason smiled as he closed the door behind him.
Jason shook himself out of his recent memories, and checked the clock on the wall. It was three in the morning and he had yet to fall asleep. His mind was running at a million miles per minute and thousands of thoughts were flooding his head.
It's breaking ice now to make any movement
What's your vice? You know that mine's the illusion
Throwing off his blanket, Jason got up and walked upstairs. Not bothering to pull on a shirt, he moved down the hallway in nothing but his navy blue cotton shorts.
So don't sit still, don't you move away from here
So goodbye apathy, so long fancy free
Peering into Cameron's room, he could see the little boy tucked underneath a mountain of covers. He could hear the steady breaths of Cameron sleeping and Jason smiled as he closed the door behind him.
Goodbye apathy
I don't wanna be you
Jason looked into the room opposite of Cameron's to see Aiden sound asleep in his crib. Looking around his room, Jason noticed the mural of an African plain on the walls. He touched the figure of a giraffe and a zebra. Jason smiled at the memory of when he told Elizabeth about Africa and how he read to Michael about the animals in Africa.
He stoops over the crib, seeing Aide sprawled out, clutching a small teddy bear in his arms. Jason tucked a blanket around Aiden, and gently touched his cheek.
Jason smiled, as he remembered watching Aiden sleep in his stroller while he had breakfast with Elizabeth at Kelly's a couple of months ago. He had finally reached the last room, and carefully opened the door. Jason could make out Elizabeth buried underneath a mound of blankets, similar sleep patterns to her eldest son.
I don't walk right, not like I used to
There's a jump in my step as I rush to see you
He listened to her soft snores. Smiling to himself, Jason makes his way back downstairs, and sits back down on the couch.
Jason lay back down, but still, his body refused him to fall asleep. Hearing a creak on the stairs, Jason quickly snapped to attention, only to see Elizabeth standing on the landing.
She was wearing an old grey PCU sweatshirt and red flannel pajama pants. She quickly took his form, noticing that he was wearing slightly less clothes.
"I hope I didn't wake you up," he whispered as she sat down on the couch beside him. "No, I just heard you on Aiden's baby monitor. I'm a light sleeper, and with two young children, I'm used to it," Elizabeth murmured.
"I'm sorry," Jason apologized, but Elizabeth waved off it off. "Jason, it's okay, really. I should be the one apologizing for making you sleep on this lumpy couch," Elizabeth said.
Jason grinned, "Well, it's not your studio's couch, but it's close enough." He heard her chuckle in the dark. "You should be sleeping in a bed, not on a couch," Elizabeth mused and he heard the tone in her voice.
Looking up from the couch, Jason sees the invitation in her eyes. "Elizabeth, I don't want to move too fast for you, it's not fair-"
Elizabeth grinned, "It's just sleep, Jason. Nothing else. I'm your wife now; I should be taking care of you."
Jason nodded his head, and Elizabeth got up. He followed her upstairs and towards her room. He closed the door behind him and stood near the door. He watched as she took off her sweatshirt, wearing a black tank top underneath.
She slid underneath the covers, and he hesitated. "C'mon, it's not like we haven't shared a bed before," she teased him and he rolled his eyes.
Jason moved over to the other side of the bed and gently slid in. He stayed on his side of the bed, tempted to move closer, but not wanting to break her trust.
I could be happy here as long as you're near to me
As long as you're close to me
He knew how much trust she placed in him by sharing a bed with him. Regardless of sex, she trusted him to respect her and her body, as well as to protect her. It was a feeling he had never felt before, and would never forget.
Now that I'm alright I can help you out
I'll be what you need
Goodbye apathy, goodbye apathy
She turned on her side, facing him. They stared at each other for a while, until she smiled and he smiled back.
"Good night," she sighed, and Jason nodded his head. He watched her for a little while longer before finally closing his eyes.
Goodbye apathy, goodbye apathy
His mind finally allowed him rest, for his family was safe and asleep.
A/N: Hopefully you guys loved that chapter. I had a lot of fun writing Cameron and Elizabeth's talk in this chapter. Lyrics to 'Goodbye, Apathy' by OneRepublic. Let me know what you thought in a review, and what you would like to happen. Until next time!