Lexie hurried to scrub out of surgery. She had this craving she couldn't wait to get. This time, it wasn't food. It was sex. She had entered her second trimester a week ago and her morning sickness had stopped gradually, leaving all the place for this new craving.

The one thing she hated about this new part of her pregnancy was that she needed Mark for it. She needed him because it was easier and less complicated than beginning to sleep with someone else while she was pregnant. She had less things to explain.

Lexie walked as fast as she could without running to get to Mark. She knew he would be making his rounds right now. She was right, the plastic surgeon was walking out of one of his patients room. The woman laying in the bed kept making goggly eyes at him, expecting him to fall for it.

"Mark." Lexie said.

The man searched for the source of the voice. The first thing that came through his mind was the baby. Did something happen? He rushed to her side to make sure she and his unborn child were both fine.

"Hey, is everything okay?"

"Yeah, everything is fine." She told him. "I just really need to talk to you. Maybe somewhere private."

Mark followed her to an empty on-call room. She opened up the door and let him enter first ne then she came in and immediately locked the door.

"What's going on?" The man asked.

"Just shut up." She said as she pushed him against the wall.

He didn't move. He looked straight into her eyes, trying to understand what was happening.

"Lexie... Lex." He said in a whisper. "What are you doing?"

"I need you."

"What?!"

"Okay, not you particularly but I've been wanting this so hard. This baby is making me go insane and you're the one to blame for that so you have to pay." She rambled.

She took off her scrub top in a hurry, and Mark followed. Their lips searched each other, his going from her breast to her jaw and her hands playing in his hair as she got aroused. As their lips locked, he lifted her up and lay her down on the metallic bed. He carefully pulled her pants off. He looked at her body. God had he missed the feeling of his skin touching hers.

~ 45 minutes later ~

They were both laying down on the mattress, in each other's arms. Mark was playing with her hair and she was staring at the door.

"I like this. I like just being with you here." He said.

Lexie moved around to face him. And looked at him for a moment. He was still at the top of his game. Sexy as ever. This was good.

"Hum."

She got back on her feet and started putting back her close on.

"Just to be clear, this is not a relationship." Lexie started as she passed her head through the whole of her top. "This is purely sexual and only so I don't go insane." She finished as she tied back her blond curls.

"Okay." He responded. "So this will happen more often?"

"Heck yeah." She said as she opened the door and went back to the reality.

~ one month later ~

For the past month, Lexie had called Mark every time her craving had become unbearable to ignore which was more often then she would've like. Sex had become her heroin, every time she had a taste of it, she needed more.

This new addiction of hers had now an impact on her work. Mark was now so used to her paging him for sex that once, he showed up almost topless in a patient's room.

An other thing people were gossiping about now, that and Lexie's pregnancy. Everyone was now aware of her little human because of one of Mark's intervention while in surgery. He had dropped the b bomb when they had to do an X-ray on a patient and he demanded that Lexie be thrown out of the OR for that part of the surgery.

But she didn't mind their gossip. She had her kids to worry about and since that now they knew about Mark and spent time with him, she worried more and more. She was mostly worried when they weren't with her as they had been most of their lives.

Lexie was trying to get all of her hair into braids as she was about to go into surgery and she didn't want them falling on the patient. And it was giving her a hard time. Even since she had ha long hair, she had hated this part of it. She just couldn't wait until she was done with all of that.

"I still have the twins tonight?" Mark asked as he gave his patient's chart to a nurse, interrupting Lexie's thoughts.

"Yeah. Will you bring them back or will they stay with you the whole night?"

"I think I can manage having them for the night. Plus Sofia is staying over."

"Okay. That's perfect." Lexie lied. She was anxious when the kids weren't home for bed time. She felt alone and she hates the feeling of the empty house without them and the sounds they made sleeping. "I've got things to do anyway."

~lunch break~

Lexie and Mark were laying on top of the mattress, Mark rubbing Lexie's baby bump as she kissed his neck.

Over the past month they had to adjust their activity as the bump grew.

Mark moved his hand up to her face and cupped her chin into his palms as he kissed her. Their lips were fighting to find each other's. Lexie's hair had gotten out of her ponytail and now her blond locks were all over her face, keeping Mark from properly kissing the mother of his children.

He pulled away for a minute and contemplated her face for a moment, a smile of pure joy appeared on his face as he did so. He lifted one hand and pulled her hair back.

Just as thing seemed to get more interesting Mark's pager went off.

He ignored it for a couple of seconds before reading the message.

"Shit!" He said, as it revealed one of his patient had crashed. "I gotta go."

"Okay." Lexie said.

Mark got off of on top of her and helped her get back up, crashing his lips against hers one last time. His hand on the back of her neck, his fingers lost in her tangled hair.

Before getting out he said one last thing, thinking something had changed about her appearance.

"Your hair is blonder, right?" He asked before continuing without the answer to his first question. "I like it."

He closed the door on that last word and Lexie was left there alone in the cold almost dark on-call room. Her bare chest against the sheets. Lexie couldn't help but bring up her hand and touch the lips he had kissed less than a minute ago. She felt her heart beat faster and she had to remind herself of the hurt she had had to stop her emotions.

~that evening~

Lexie opened the door to a small salon and a bell rang as she entered the room.

"Hi, how may I help you?" A perky young blond asked her.

"Alexandra Grey, I booked an appointment for today."

The woman tapped a few butons on the computer's board and lifted her head up, smiling.

"Yes, you'll be with Sasha. She's chair 3. You can go sit down right now, she'll be there in a couple of minutes."

"Thank you." Lexie said.

She got to the chair and settled in. Lexie stared at herself in the mirror. She could see her dark roots and the mismatch of her blond hair that were tied in a loose messy bun. It had been a long time since she had done anything different to her hair, and now was the time.

A red head came up behind her all smile. "Hi, I'm Sasha. What can I do for you today?"

Lexie explained to the woman what she wanted and next they went to wash her hair. As her hair got wet, Lexie relaxed. She had needed this since she had came back. She had needed to find herself and a new look was exactly how she would start.

They went back to the chair and she put a robe on. The hairdresser started working and Lexie smiled as she saw her blond locks fell on the ground. They were long chunks of hair all around the floor and even on her robe. She hold one of them in her hand.She could now finally feel the fresh air on her neck. Somehow, getting rid of her long hair rimed with freedom for her.

{a picture of what her hair looks like will be at the end of the chapter, but it's the same haircut Chyler has in Supergirl}

Up next was the hair dye. Her roots were difficult to manage with her schedule and with being pregnant, certain chemicals couldn't be put into her hair.

One hour later, she looked herself in the mirror and for the first time in a long time, she could see herself.

~the next morning~

The doorbell rang and Lexie rushed downstairs to open the door. She was off work that day, and she wanted to spend every time she had with her kids.

"Mama!" Her little ones said as they ran into her arms.

"I missed you so much." She told them as she hugged them. "Why won't you go play in the living room for a minute, hum, I'm gonna talk to your dad."

"Okay." Brian said, running down the hallway mimicking a car.

"Fine." Leslie said, less enthusiastic.

Mark was staring at Lexie. She had change so much over night. He hadn't seen her like that in real life before but he had once seen her in a picture with a short haircut resembling this one. He know knew that the picture was when the twins were around 1.

He moved his hand a little bit, in a motion to go and touch her, but he stopped remembering that they weren't an item and that he couldn't do that.

"You changed your hair." Mark remarked. "I like it. It looks good."

"Yeah, well I needed a change. Plus with the baby and all, let's just say that bleaching my hair wasn't the best thing to keep doing."

They stared at each other for a moment before Mark continued.

"I talked to Callie and Arizona and they'd like to host a family dinner tonight."

"You can take the kids, I bet they'd like to spend more time with their sister."

"Actually, they asked me to invite you too."

"Oh, well that's nice of them. But I don't want to cause any problem."

"You won't." He insisted. "Please come."

"Okay, I'll see you tonight." She said.

He went back to his car and she closed the door, she moved away from the door and looked out the window. She looked at him drive off and she thought about what she had wanted to do, what she had wanted to say. But she had no rights to do any of those things or tell him any of her thoughts and so she went to see her kids.

~4:56 pm~

"Hurry up!" She said to her kids who were still getting ready. "We dont want to be late."

She looked at the oven clock and back to the stairs. How much time could it take them to put shoes on? She decided that she would go help them and walked upstairs. There, she found her kids on their respective beds, doing nothing.

"Seriously? Les, Brian?" She said, unhappy of their temperament. "What are you doing?"

"We don't want to go." Leslie said, crossing her arms. "We already have a mom. We dont need two more."

"Plus Sofia is mean." The little boy said to help his sister's argument.

"You dont even know them that well and Callie and Arizona won't try to be you moms. They just want us to have a nice family dinner."

"But we're not family." The little girl pouted.

"Yes we are. Mark is Sofia's father and yours. This makes us family."

"I dont want to have a new family. I'm happy with aunt Meredith and Grandpa." Brian said, throwing the pillow on his head.

"This is not a choice. We are going to that dinner. You need to get to know them before judging them." She said. "Come on, you're getting up and you are getting into the car."

Both kids looked at their mom. They were about to reply but they knew better.

"Yes mama." They said as they walked down the stairs.

It wasn't like Lexie absolutely wanted to go there either. She knew she would be judged and that they would probably share their opinions about her pregnancy which she hadn't announced to the twins yet.

"Im in for a treat." She said under her breath so her kids wouldn't hear.

She drove 15 minutes before arriving to the couple's house. They had moved out of the condo and were now further away from the hospital. She got out of the car as Mark walked out of the back yard.

"Hey." He said.

"Hey." She responded. "Will you help me with the kids? It's gonna take less time if we do this at the same time."

"Sure." He said.

Then they entered threw the backyard where Callie and Arizona already were. They got up to great their guests. Arizona got down to the twins level.

"If you want to got play with Sofia, she's in her tree house." She said, pointing to the big tree where a little house was sitting in between two huge branches.

The kids looked at their mother who smiled at them and they ran toward the little house. Lexie looked at her two kids, regretting that they had to leave so soon. She felt the awkwardness in the atmosphere and couldn't help but think that with the kids it wouldn't be there.

"I like your hair." Arizona said. "It looks great."

"Thanks."

"Do you want anything? Water, juice, soda?"

"I would like a water, please." She answered Callie's question.

Callie smiled at her and went inside, dragging her wife along with her.

"I shouldn't have come." Lexie told Mark.

"No, it's fine. Callie is just being, you know, Callie."

"I know."

Lexie and Mark just stood there awkwardly.

Soon enough the two wives came back with a glass of water and handed it to Lexie. Well, Arizona had brought it to Lexie and Callie had fetch herself a glass of red wine.

"So how has your pregnancy been so far?" Arizona asked.

"It's been good." Lexie said thinking about all her on-call room hookup. "It's was hard for the first trimester but since then I've been fine."

"That's great!" Arizona said.

Lexie appreciated the other surgeon effort at making conversation but she knew that wasn't the only question in their mind. She just didn't want to answer any of them.

"So, hum, did you date anyone when you were in Boston?" Callie asked.

"Callie, come on." Mark said reprimanding his friend. "She doesn't need to answer that."

"No, it's fine Mark. I did date a guy, but he wasn't a great match. He kind of became obsessed with being the twins father and I broke things off when he asked if he could have the twins for the weekend."

"And when was that exactly?" Callie asked.

"I started dating the guy when the twins were 3 and we broke things off a little before they turned 5. He's part of the reason why I decided to come back. He wanted to be so many things for me and the twins, but I didn't love him like he loved me and it would've been unfair to the kids to act like he was their father when, well, he wasn't."

"And yet you still chose to hide the twins from Mark when you came back."

"Callie, don't." Mark said defending Lexie.

"But it's true. If you hadn't found out, she never would've told you. And she probably would've hid the pregnancy from you too." She told her friend. "I dont understand why you put up with her shit. She took so much from you already and you're ready to give her more and more. Hell, if she'd make you chose between her kids and Sofia you'd probably choose her."

"That's not..."

"Oh, don't talk to me." She said interrupting Lexie. "We're not friends and I don't like you so I won't pretend that I do. I honestly don't think you're here for the sake of your kids and that this whole new baby thing is probably a scam. If Mark is stupid enough to fall for it and not have a paternity test done then it's his fault but I won't act like everything is okay."

"She's not scamming me." Mark almost yelled.

"How do you know, you're still sleeping with her?"

Both Mark and Lexie's faces went white and Callie's turned red with rage. But before any of them could place an other word, the kids ran to their parents as they got bored of their game and wished to eat .

"Mama." Leslie said as she came up to Lexie. "I'm so hungry. I could eat a whole cow."

"Me too, mama." Brian told his mom. "Look, my stomach is empty."

"Sweethearts, you have to wait until our host are ready to serve, okay?" Lexie said to her kids. She didn't want to look like an unfit parent in front of Callie, specially after all the crap she said about her not long before.

"Come on kids, come with me." Mark said as he took Brian's and Leslie's hands. "I'll show you how to properly grill a steak."

"Cool!" The little boy said in excitement.

~10 p.m.~

Mark got out of his car and took out a sleepy Leslie. He was at Lexie's house and he had followed her after the dinner had ended, his daughter refusing to leave his side he had drove her here.

Lexie was already inside as Brian hadn't fell asleep and had walked all by himself to the house. She was in the door frame, waiting for him to get up the few stairs.

He was about to give his daughter back to her mother when Lexie instead of keeping him from entering let him in.

"Come. Just get follow me, I'll show you where her room is." She said.

They got up the stairs and followed a sleepy Brian. Leslie's bedroom was right accros the hall from her brother's and it was butterfly teamed. Mark held her up as Lexie took of her daughter's shoes and pulled back the bed's covers. Mark put her down and Lexie put the covers on her.

"Goodnight sweetie." Lexie said as she kissed her daughter's forehead. "Sleep well."

Mark looked at her from the corridor and couldn't help but smile. That was what his life would've been like if he had just waited a couple more days to tell her about Callie's pregnancy.

They repeated the process with Brian, but added his little teddy bear to his routine.

Mark walked down the stairs and Lexie followed him. He was about to walk out the door when she stopped him.

"Wait." She said as she touched his back to hold him back. "Thank you. You didn't have to do all this."

"I wanted to. They're my children too."

Lexie and Mark looked elsewhere for a while, not knowing how to end that brief conversation they just had.

"I'm sorry." She said.

"Why?"

"I never ment to hurt you by not telling you about the twins."

"I forgive you. It's better late than never and I'll get my chance with this one." He said as he touched her bump

Surprised by his sudden movement, she took a step back and moved closer to him almost a moment after. Her hands joined his on her belly.

"Mark."She said.

"What?" Mark said surprised by her request.

She hadn't thought it trough. What should she say? She couldn't ask him what she really wanted because that would be unfair to him.

"Thanks for tonight." She told him.

Lexie new haircut: