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Chapter 11
The nights grew colder and longer as October drew to a close. Sitting on a tree stump near The Black Lake on a late Friday afternoon, was the wizarding worlds' beloved boy-hero.
The ebony haired boy had a troubled expression on his face as he gazed absent-mindedly at the miles of swaying water in front of him. Harry Potter's brain had been plagued by a certain blonde haired Slytherin for 2 weeks now. Unhealthily so.
His thought patterns were beginning to form a trend that consisted of waking up. Draco. Breakfast. Draco. Class. Draco. Quidditch. Draco. Hermione and Ron. Draco, Draco, Draco... until he'd fall asleep and inevitably dream of said boy.
Harry lost count of the dreams he had about Draco where he'd wake up making out with his pillow and rutting against his mattress. It was beginning to become most unsatisfying -not to mention embarrassing- to the youth, knowing he didn't have Draco like he did in his dreams. That and waking up uncomfortably hard.
Having these kind of feelings for Draco gave Harry such a thrill too. It seemed so forbidden. Everything about them was forbidden, they were like polar opposites of one another in looks, personality, houses, friends, beliefs... They sort of complemented each other because of it in an opposites attract sort of way. Harry had imagined a few times people's reaction to such relationship; pure shock and disbelief. After all, not many people go from high school rivals to lovers do they? Harry would even say at one point they were bordering enemies at one point more than rivals.
The bad thing was that Draco had been acting weirdly recently. In a bad way. For one, he hadn't showed up for the last 2 weeks for their study session, the only time where Draco would act himself around him. Harry was mildly offended by this...
Okay he was severely hurt by the action and it confused Harry to no end. He knew Draco couldn't have forgotten because it had happened consecutively twice and the blonde isn't one to forget things. At least, that was the impression Harry got.
Then there was the fact that the blonde was blatantly ignoring him. They never really talked outside of their study sessions but there would still be an acknowledgement there. They'd nod at each other and even share a secret smile if they knew no one was watching. Draco now however, was making a point to avoid even looking anywhere near where Harry was. At first, the Gryffindor hadn't even noticed. It was only when him and Draco were in the same corridor last week before the blonde promptly went the opposite direction once he had seen Harry.
He actually went in the opposite direction just because Harry had to be in the same corridor!
Concerned by this, Harry had sent Draco owls as he began nearing desperation to know that the blonde still knew he existed. He received no reply no matter how many he sent.
If Harry weren't the masculine, brave boy he was he'd have cried several times over Draco out of longing and rejection. However boys don't do that, only lovesick girls do, not boys who have came face to face with one of the most darkest wizards of all time and been inches away from death.
He craved any form of communication with him though. Harry couldn't bear the thought of being ignored by Draco any longer, he'd even go as far to say that he'd rather Draco be insulting and hexing him than ignoring him. It was as if he didn't exist in the blonde's life anymore, as if Draco had blocked Harry out completely. How cruel it was to get the chance to get close to Draco, get to know him and learn he had unconditional feelings for the boy only to have it all taken away from him. It was too much on Harry, who found it hard enough to deal with these kind of things as it is. It was no secret that he was by any means no expert with such feelings.
Funnily enough, it took Draco to ignore him to really understand the depth of his feelings. The expression 'Distance makes the heart grow fonder' was really fitting in this case. He'd shrugged off his feelings as a crush at first, thinking nothing of it. Now though, each time Harry looked back to when he had spent time studying with Draco, he felt hadn't appreciated it as much as he should have. He had Draco there giving him his undying attention, not fully understanding what it meant to have Draco's attention at the time.
It was so hard to watch the grey-eyed boy in classes and around the school too, so beautiful and lithe, carrying himself with all the effortless grace of a swan and just living his life. He seemed so unfazed, so unaffected unlike Harry was feeling pining after the other boy like a lovesick fool. It broke Harry's heart when he wouldn't even spare a glance at him. Not one. His heart would shatter even more before he would become over come violently by anger and jelousy when he'd see the vile bastard Blaise Zabini touching Draco with his dirty hands.
The slime ball.
Harry'd watch the smarmy arsehole caress Draco's perfect hand in his own filthy, perverted ones. He'd watch Zabini taint and violate the blonde's natural beauty with his repulsive presence. Harry lost count on the amount of times he wanted to seriously hurt the dark Slytherin and pummel him into an oblivion each time he saw those corrupted black eyes rest on Draco's attractive body.
The worst feeling of all was when Harry would witness Draco returning the small touches, return the looks and gestures to that wretched Zabini. He just couldn't handle seeing that. It made Harry learn not to look at the pair lest he wanted to be over come with rage, desire and possessiveness.
Harry was beginning to wonder if he had done something to the boy. He'd think back to his last conversation with him, searching his memory for any inclination that Draco had been upset or offended by something that Harry had done or said. He couldn't think of anything.
Fed up of these thoughts, Harry let out an antagonized sigh and ran a hand through his wind-swept hair. He didn't like dealing with such foreign emotions, give him Voldemort any day over this. That he could manage, this he couldn't.
"Harry." He flinched as a timid voice came from behind and a hand unexpectedly landed on his shoulder. "Whoa, chill out it's just me."
Ginny.
The sight of the girl made Harry uncomfortable, he wasn't in the mood to put up with the girl and he turned away from her.
"Hear me out, please!" Ginny pleaded, her hazel eyes wide with misery. Harry shrugged off the pity that was threatening to overcome him.
"I'm sorry Gin, I have nothing to say to you. Neither do I want to hear you out." Harry said coolly in a dull monotone, refusing to meet her distressed gaze because he knew he would cave.
"Please, Harry! It's taken me days just to pluck up the courage to approach you-" Her eyes shifted wildly in desperation as she tried to get Harry to meet her gaze. Damn... he could sort of relate to her.
"And you just expect me to listen to you?" He hated how cold he sounded but it had to be done, he didn't want to be a pushover considering what she had done in the common room in front of people. Harry shuddered just thinking about it, his dorm mates still mercilessly teased him about it.
"I understand how you must feel." She rationalized, and touched his shoulder once more. Harry reacted as if he had been burnt and shifted away from her.
"No, you clearly don't otherwise you wouldn't be here talking to me!"
It wasn't that he was still bothered by what had happened, in fact he'd forgotten about it completely after everything Draco had chosen to give him the cold-shoulder. He just didn't want to talk to Ginny at the moment, especially while he wasn't in the best of moods and kept snapping at her. She didn't know when to give people a bit of space.
"I'm sorry Gin, that was uncalled for. I'm just not having a very good week." Harry explained and offered her a small smile hoping that she would understand.
"Oh?" Ginny said sounding concerned. She sat down next to him on the on the massive stump Harry was sitting on and he allowed it. "Care to share?" She offered sincerely.
"Not really." Harry replied, running a hand through his hair. "Thanks anyway though, it's nice to know that someone was wiling to listen at least."
"It's okay, Harry. I'm always here to listen to you if you want me to." She nodded towards him before looking down at her milky hands. "Harry, I'm really sorry about what happened in the common room the other day. It was really inappropriate of me and... I'm sorry, okay?"
"Well... apology accepted." He nodded his head at Ginny and squeezed her arm before removing it. "Just don't do it again," He nudged slightly bemused yet very serious in his words.
"Whatever you want Harry. I just want us to be friends again." A subtle expression of pain crossed her face and Harry didn't miss it. "Even if that's all we can be."
"Yeah, friends sounds good." He smiled at her and she returned it with a tight lipped one of her own. "Thanks for apologising Gin, I don't want to lose any friends. Especially with Voldemort around and everything, I don't want to be falling out with anyone."
"Oh good Harry!" She beamed, and went approached him with her arms open before hesitating. "Can I have a hug?"
"Hmmm." Jokingly, Harry placed a finger to his chin in mock-thought before turning to Ginny and taking the girl into his arms. "'Course you can Gin." Harry let go of her once he felt Ginny relax too much against him in his arms, not wanting to even imply anything. "Say, you wouldn't know where Ron and Hermione would be do you?"
"Last time I saw them they were attached to the mouth in the Gryffindor common room."
"Oh." Harry grimaced before chuckling slightly. "Guess I'll be avoiding that place for a while then."
"Me too." She then did a retching sound at the back of her throat and the two shared a laugh.
As it was Friday, Harry thought he'd give Draco the benefit of the doubt just in case the boy did turn up and it was all a misunderstanding. He was overcome with slight nervousness at the thought of seeing Draco and talking to him. He hadn't in almost 3 weeks now. He'd definitely want an explanation from the boy for ignoring his letters and avoiding him in general but he'd bring it up at an appropriate time.
Harry leant against the wall just outside the library waiting patiently for any sign of the androgynous blonde. It was kind of pointless really; he knew deep down that Draco wouldn't turn up so why was he torturing himself by bringing his hopes up?
As soon as that thought left his head, he almost choked on air as the blonde rounded the corner and headed towards the library, where Harry was standing. Harry truly wasn't expecting him to come.
Draco looked as radiant as always; blonde hair perfectly styled, lustrous alabaster skin glowing under the dim candles that lit the corridor and those spellbinding eyes that Harry found increasingly hypnotizing. Harry thought his legs were about to give way at the unbelievable velocity his heart was beating against his chest and the dizziness that was caused by a sudden onset of nerves.
Harry contemplated bolting like any rational boy his age would do once such a wave of emotions were thrust upon and the source was heading his direction. He however prided himself on being headstrong and prepared to face his fears. Even if that fear was Draco Malfoy.
Before he knew it the blonde was in front of him, gazing at him with a look of indifference. The coldness of his stare made Harry shiver inwardly as he looked down into the smaller boy's eyes.
"Potter." His face was the epitome of model-esque androgyny and as void of emotion as ever. His eyes however seemed to look slightly... tired close up and was that pain he saw swirling in those irises? The look was gone before he could even blink; nothing could take away the tired look from his eyes though. Draco's stare all of a sudden hardened on him.
Harry felt his mouth dry in panic, what had he done that had drove the blonde back to his old icy behaviour towards him? He thought he'd play the blonde at his own game.
"Malfoy." Harry returned calmly, pulse jittering on the inside.
There was a brief moment of silence where the two just stared almost challengingly into each other's eyes. Harry would not let any affection he had for the blonde seep through because he was pretty sure that it would only end badly if he did.
Draco's blank expression, although beautiful, was distant and impersonal. Harry hated it. Why did he have to act this way? Why? What had changed between them or changed Draco's mind? Draco obviously had no idea the effect he had on Harry and how much it was hurting him. That was definitely a good thing though. The blonde would have teased him mercilessly if he'd have knwon.
"We need to talk, come." Malfoy beckoned before turning on his heels and into the library, knowing Harry would follow.
Draco led Harry to a secluded corner of the library where many bookshelves surrounded them.
"What's this about Draco? One minute you're joking with me then the next your avoiding me as if I have the plague! Not to mention you haven't answered any of my owls neither have you actually had the decency to turn up for the last 2 weeks. What the fuck? I mean-" Harry's tirade and pent up frustration was cut off by Draco raising a hand in silence.
"Potter, stop. Now." He had his fingers pressed at his temples as if he had some sort of pain in his head. The blonde was just about to say something else when Harry beat him to it.
"No, I'm really wound up! What gives? You can't just treat people that way!"
"Potter! Keep your bloody voice down will y-!"
"I just want you to hear me out-" Harry said ignoring Draco's last comment, he didn't give a shit about how loud he was
"We can't study anymore."
Silence.
No, Harry couldn't let the only connection he had with Draco just go like that.
"What? But w-what about the potion?" Harry spluttered, tripping over his own words as his eyes stared in apprehension at Draco. He didn't give two hoots about the damn potion; he did however care about never being on friendly terms with the boy again.
"I can do that myself." He said with a wave of his hand, looking nonchalantly out of the near-by window.
"Bu- but." Harry was speechless. Draco slowly turned his eyes back at the taller boy and raised an eyebrow. "What the hell, Draco!" Harry spat, he noted with slight pleasure that Draco had broke their eye connection and downcast his eyes to the floor. He could have sworn to have spotted hesitance within them. "Why?"
"Well-" Draco started uncertainly after a good few seconds.
"What did I say." It was a blunt statement that came from Harry's mouth.
"What?" Malfoy said puzzled.
"Well I've obviously said something to you to make you go all weird on me." Harry frowned at the other boy who's whole body seemed to stiffen.
"Potter, we aren't friends. I don't see why you're making out we are!"
Harry stared at Draco, hoping that no amount of disappointment was etched in his face for the blonde to notice. Draco, however, couldn't maintain eye connection for very long and glared unseeingly at his hands before swallowing and his face softening as he looked away.
"Well I'm sorry that I was enough of an idiot to think we were." Harry saw a hint of emotion in Draco's eyes as the boy looked up but couldn't be bothered with trying to figure out what it was. Harry couldn't look at him any longer. "See you Malfoy." He said in the coldest voice he could muster, hefting his book bag back on his shoulder and walking out of the room in a mixture of heartbreak and anger. Anger at Malfoy for being a prat and anger at himself for letting himself fall for said prat in the first place.
He was unknown to the fact that the blonde had remained in that very same place for fifteen staring vacantly at where Harry had previously stood.
(A week later)
The Hogsmeade weekend that Harry had been anticipating for weeks had finally arrived the following Saturday. He'd finally get to see Sirius after god knows how many weeks.
Harry was on his own when he made his way to Hogsmeade village. The sun's heat was meagre behind thick clouds of rain, giving a crisp feel to the autumn air. It wasn't often he was on his own because there was usually always someone with him, he had left Ron and Hermione to their own devices today though as they were a couple and he knew Ron had plans with Hermione today.
It was at the Shrieking Shack where Harry and Sirius had agreed on meeting that day. They both came to the conclusion that it would be easier if they hadn't met in a public place. Harry of course used the short cut under the Womping Willow to get there quicker.
After walking upon the rickety floorboards of the dust ridden shack, Harry came across Sirius lounging in a tired looking plush arm chair with the smell of old pungent in the air. Harry bet that the room itself was at one point very luxurious and extravagant. The diamond encrusted chandelier and carefully crafted mantelpiece were enough to prove that, even if they were smothered in layer upon layers of dirt.
Sirius turned as Harry's footsteps approached and he surged to his feet to envelope his godson into a hug.
"Hey junior! How've you been! You missed me?" Sirius added playfully.
"Missed you? You?" Harry joked, screwing up his face in mock-disgust.
"Hey! Watch it Harry otherwise you'll be on the other end of a sucker punch!" Sirius all but lunged at Harry and caught him in a headlock. Harry swore that deep down; Sirius was still an unruly teenager like himself.
"Sirius! Get off me will you!" Harry said through breathless laughter, dragging his godfathers' arms from around his neck and pounding at whatever part of his body he could reach.
"Meh, you're no fun." Sirius said pushing Harry away so that he landed with a grunt on the age old sofa where he was greeted with a mouthful of dust and god knows what else.
"I'll have you know that I'm very fun and you know it!" Harry shot back, picking himself up from the sofa and dusting the dirt from off his clothes.
"Suppose I do, kiddo. You inherited that from me." Sirius winked at Harry and nudged him in the ribs.
"Yeah, yeah, whatever you say. Even though it's impossible for me to have inherited it from you since we aren't related Siri. Jeez, you've lost some brain cells since I last saw you."
"That's enough, you." He said in a voice that he probably thought was quite authorative whilst pointing a finger at Harry. "Now shut up you delinquent and respect those who are older and wiser than yourself."
Harry snorted. "Yes Siri." and rolled his eyes heartily as he approached his godfather.
"You've grown! I swear we weren't eye level last time I saw you."
"We weren't." Harry shrugged lazily "Thank god I've grown. Didn't fancy being a short arse for the rest of my life and I don't look so short when I stand next to Ron anymore either he's only... 4 inches taller than me? Something like that!"
The two shared more idle prattle for the next fifteen minutes where Sirius asked him about school, his classes and his love life... or lack thereof. He hadn't mentioned the two disasters that were Ginny and Draco. Especially Draco. How would Sirius take it if he told him he had a massive soft spot for Draco Malfoy who was a boy? Not to mention a boy of Malfoy/Black heritage. He wondered if Sirius would have a problem with him being not being straight. Harry was certain that he was only bisexual at the most, Draco being the only boy he has ever been attracted to, he even doubted he'd find another boy who he'd be attracted to anyway. The whole idea of liking another boy seemed bizarre to Harry.
That idea could be scrapped anyway, Draco made it quite clear that he wanted nothing more to do with Harry and hadn't even given him an explanation like a respectable person would do. Harry was disappointed and angry after growing to like Draco as a person and actually enjoying his company, only to be let down by him. He supposed there were plenty more fish in the sea, as they say. Draco could fuck off, no matter how much it pained him to admit it.
Harry watched with fascination as Sirius drank a small vile of a thick potion that looked and smelt of vomit. Lovely. Harry held his nose at the awful smell of it and even pitied Sirius for having to drink it.
Because Sirius' case from 16 years ago still hadn't bee officially cleared, he still had to keep on the down low in public places. After all, imagine the reactions of people if a one-time convicted 'mass murderer' waltzed through the streets. Too much hassle when it could be avoided was how Harry and the rest of the Order of the Phoenix looked at it.
Sirius morphed into a greying middle-aged man with receding dark hair and of average height. He had quite a cheery and approachable exterior to him with bright eyes, a whiskered chin and slightly sagging skin. Sirius couldn't have chosen someone slightly more pleasant looking could he? Harry noted with glee that he was taller than Sirius like this and didn't refrain from pointing it out. Both agreed that they would refer to this person as 'Bob'.
Harry and 'Bob' walked through the heavily crowded -mainly with kids and teenagers- village until they reached The Three Broomsticks. Some of his schoolmates even gave him odd looks; Harry gathered that this was because of his 'company'.
"I hate talking to you like this." Harry said referring to his disguise as the two took their seats at the well-knwon pub.
"Ahh, don't worry about it Harry. Hopefully it won't be like this for long."
"If the Fudge manages to pull that pole from his arse that is, which isn't likely to happen any time soon." Harry replied grudgingly, sitting back against the wooden chair.
Sirius ordered them both butter beers and even volunteered to pay for them, to which Harry complained about claiming he had plenty of money and should be the one buying Sirius a drink not the other way around.
As the little bell sounded from above the door as it opened, Harry spotted Hermione and Ron walking in hand-in-hand and waved the pair over. Sirius was the first one to get a word in.
"Ron, Hermione! Good to see you!" He greeted with the psuedo-husky voice of 'Bob'.
Ron and Hermione shared a look, wondering why a stranger would be calling them over and even sitting with Harry. Almost as soon as they reached the table, a knowing look crossed Hermione's face and she laughed out loud at Ron's still befuddled expression. The intelligent girl must have figured out that it was Sirius.
"Hello Si-" Hermione carefully corrected herself. "Padfoot."
Harry almost burst out laughing when he saw an exaggerated expression of understanding cross Ron's face. He was a bit on the slow side.
"It's Bob actually, for today." Sirius answered her with a wicked grin.
"Taking her out on a date are you Ron?" Harry tilted his head subtly in Hermione's direction where she was chatting happily and getting re-acquainted with Sirius.
Harry watched with great interest as Ron's face went from a paper white to an unflattering shade of puce. He really couldn't understand why the gangly teen was so embarrassed about the whole situation it was only a bloody date with Hermione! Oh well, It was amusing all the same!
"W-well... err I wouldn't exactly call it a date exactly..."
"Ron, mate, you're too funny." He clapped the redheaded boy on the shoulder boyishly. "Don't ever change." Ron scowled briefly at Harry before shaking his head.
"Shut up, Harry." He said before a silly grin threatening to break across his freckled face.
After the 4 had shared a small conversation, Ron and Hermione bid farewell to the two and left to grab a table of their own in the far corner.
"Took them long enough!"
"Yeah well, you didn't have to deal with the awkward sexual frustration that was between them for years unlike I did!"
They both laughed at the stubborn couple.
"Now onto more serious issue's, Harry." Harry sobered up as Sirius said this, after seeing a grave look cross his face. "We've been talking, the Order of the Phoenix that is... and we don't think it would be wise if you stayed at the headquarters this Christmas." Sirius said each word carefully as to keep Harry as calm as possible, knowing he wouldn't be at all happy with this idea.
"What?" Harry would sooner kill himself than spend another Christmas alone. No he wasn't going to let anyone stop him from spending Christmas with the people he loved. "Why the hell not?"
"Maybe this isn't the best place to talk about this." Harry agreed internally but didn't say anything, only followed Sirius out of the pub and into the now quieter streets of Hogsmeade. Harry sat on a bench that Sirius had ushered him to, near a run-down potions shop.
"We've all agreed it's safer for you at Hogwarts." Sirius said finally, still standing looking down at the seated Harry.
"What?" Harry shouted a bit too loudly and rose to his feet. "The hell it is! Snape will be there! Snape's a fucking death eater! So please tell me where is the logic in that?"
"I know, pronglet, and I loath to admit it but Snape is a trusted member of the Order of the Phoenix and there's nothing either of us can do about that. He's a spy for us after all, you know that." Sirius explained, trying to calm the boy down by placing a supportive hand on his shoulder.
"Well, at least give me an explanation then!" Harry thinks he deserves that at the very least.
"Ah." Sirius seemed to be debating internally, scratching at the whiskers on his chin. "I don't know whether I'm allowed to tell you, Harry. " A staranged look crossed Sirius' face, in fact, he looked as if he was about to be ill.
"What is it? Tell me! I'm sick of being in the dark all the time! I have a right to know!" He sat back down on the bench stroppily. "And I'm fed up how everyone always treats me like a fucking hopeless kid!"
"No one is treating you like a kid, Harry. Please see it from our point of view, we want to protect you the best we can." He crouched down and placed both his arms on Harry's shoulders, forcing Harry to look him in the green eyes of 'Bob'.
"Protect me from what? Voldemort? Well I'm sorry to say this but eventually it's going to be life or death between me and that psychopath so whether you like it or not, I'm going to be in danger anyway so you may as well bloody involve me!"
Harry knew he would eventually get Sirius to cave if he played the 'woe is me' game.
"Something was sent to Remus by an unknown raven a few weeks ago." Harry's mouth clamped shut in shock from the tone of Sirius' voice, he knew it must be bad.
"A raven? I didn't know people used those." Of all the things to mention first, and Harry asks about the raven.
"They don't. They are exceptionally hard to train."
"What did it send him?" Harry asked with concern laced in his agitated voice.
Sirius seemed hesitating on telling Harry.
"What was it Sirius?" Harry repeated as Sirius moved to sit down next to him on the park bench.
"It was a strange looking pendant. A watch even, circular and gold. In a box. It was clearly cursed so no one made sure to touch it. A message came with it too."
"What did it say?" Harry said alarmed, desperation laced in his voice.
"You're time is running out."
"What the fuck! He's so weak! What's he doing with his time while he's sending us stupid riddles?"
"That's not all."
"What? There's more?"
Sirius nodded his head, looking to the side. His complexion had turned slightly green which made Harry worry even more. He wasn't letting this go.
"Tell me Sirius! I have to know!" Harry said wildly, rising from his seat and unconsciously fisting his wand that was in his pocket.
"A few days later he sent us something else..." Sirius looked as if he had a hard time saying these words without throwing up but Harry couldn't handle the suspense, he would not leave until Sirius told him. "It was... It was Percy Weasley's head."
Harry promptly vomited on the floor.
It was just gone 6 when Harry had returned from Hogsmeade that day. As it was almost winter, the sun had begun to set across the grounds of Hogwarts as Harry begun making his way back to the castle. The temperature was still quite mild, surprisingly and Harry didn't feel the need to rush back just yet.
Harry felt ill after his last conversation with Sirius. Apparently, Percy Weasley had been lured to become a Death Eater just because he was connected to Harry. They must have been watching him for a while to have figured out he would have been an easy target who knew things about Harry but wouldn't have been suspected by them. The traitorous scum that Percy was... No he couldn't say that now, out of respect... But he still took the mark anyhow. He had never really liked Percy but he hadn't desrved that! Even if he did turn his back on his family. The Order of the Phoenix suspect that Voldemort only recruited Percy so that he could use him in a twisted fashion like this.
Molly and Arthur were still beside themselves, Sirius had said and were not allowed to see... the head. Needless to say, Moody was the one to have received the package. It had been sitting on his desk in the ministry apparently one morning. He told no one at the ministry about it and headed straight to Grimmauld Place, thinking it looked slightly suspicious. Sirius said it was lucky it got sent to Moody, being the assertive and strong character he was. It wasn't the first time he'd seen such thing apparently.
It made Harry worry though, was Voldemort building up to do something even worse? He wished he knew where he was so he could hex the shit out of him. He didn't want to bring any more danger to anyone. And the poor Weasley's. They had yet to tell their children about it... how on earth would they go about doing that? He was sworn to secrecy not to tell Ron or Ginny, not that he would want to anyway.
Disgusting.
Harry had to clear his mind from... the thought he just couldn't bear thinking about it any longer. So he thought back to the time he spent with Sirius before... being told that. No he couldn't think about Sirius at all now.
Draco maybe? That could work...
It was strange to think that he'd been doing his very best to keep Draco out of his head now he's doing the exact opposite.
Maybe he should think of words to describe Draco...? Well beautiful was one. Cunning was another. Witty and talkative (when he's in the right mood). Intelligent, attractive, sexy, devious, bitchy, catty, playful, arrogant, delicate... There were far too many, he'd be all day listing them. Everything about Draco gave Harry the urge to protect the boy from everything harmful in the world... It was strange and Harry would even admit that it humiliated him to no end even if he, Harry, was the only person who knew of this fact.
Harry tried very hard to keep Draco out of his head and it would work until he would see the blonde in the corridor or Great Hall. The awkwardness was almost unbearable between them, especially in potions class where they were still paired. Barely any talk was held between them, only speaking what needed to be spoken. It pained Harry each time but he was learning to get over it. It wasn't like he ever had a chance with Draco before; let's not forget that Draco was in a relationship and who he was in a relationship with. Still, even friendship was better than nothing. Now he didn't have a chance for that either.
As Harry made his way inside the courtyard, he was met with another sight that made him want to vomit, a sight that seeing even that one time was too much.
Zabini kissing the life out of Draco. Practically eating his face, from the looks of it.
Wait.
Draco's hair wasn't that long... neither does Draco wear a skirt wha-
That was not Draco.
What the fuck.
Harry stood there gaping behind a large pillar, watching Blaise Zabini kiss the life out of another blonde. As Harry looked closer, he recognized the fake-blonde girl to be a Ravenclaw who was renowned for being a bit... loose. Chastity or something? If that was her name, there was nothing chaste about her. Harry scowled in disgust before being overcome with a sudden surge of rage that he swallowed to control.
That rat bastard was cheating on Draco.
How fucking dare he.
The dark haired boy set his jaw and couldn't control the growl from escaping. Luckily for Harry, can't-keep-it-in-my-pants and princess prostitute over there were too far away to have heard him, although the same couldn't be said for them. The blonde whench was moaning like a bitch in heat... Dirty cunt. If there was anything he hated more than infidelity it was slutty girls.
He was yet again overcome with the urge to let his anger out on something, mostly Zabini's smug face. Draco did not deserve that. He was far too beautiful, intelligent and... And perfect. Why would someone want to cheat on Draco? Zabini should be kissing the ground he walks on if anything! But this... this is disgusting.
He wanted to fuck up Zabini so badly.
Harry lifted his wand, a stinging hex on his lips when he spotted a familiar natural blonde coming into view.
Draco.
Harry watched with horror as Draco came into view, a pleasant look on his face, only to be greeted with the same sight that Harry was subjected to. Draco's face rapidly dropped, his eyes widened, mouth slightly agape and complexion paler than Harry could think to imagine. Harry had never seen anything so captivating yet heart wrenching in all his life.
"Blaise?" The two detached, both jumping out of their skin. Harry noted the panic in Zabini's expression. Good. He was pretty dumb to have been kissing her so publicly anyway, not that he should have done it anyway. "What the hell is going on?" Draco was obviously trying his best to put a brave face on but Harry heard the stutter in his voice.
Zabini uncaringly pushed the girl away from him harshly making her fall to the floor with a disgruntled shriek. She didn't look happy. "Draco wait I can explain-"
"W-what? What's there to explain, Blaise? You had your tongue inside someone else's mouth, a fucking whore at that!" Oh no, please don't cry Draco... Harry couldn't handle seeing the blonde if he broke down right here right now. He'd have to reveal himself and take Draco into his arms, never letting go and mutter sweet nothings about murdering Blaise Zabini with his bare hands.
"Fuck you, Draco Malfoy! Just because your boyfriend wants me!" The blonde tart retorted, shouting commonly in her London accent. She deserved a slap across her make-up caked face.
"GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE YOU BITCH. I DON'T FUCKING WANT A DIRTY CUNT LIKE YOU." Zabini bellowed in her face from above her threateningly. He looked about ready to kill her.
She looked close to tears at this, got up hastily from the floor and ran into the castle crying, fat tears cascading down her face leaving a trail of black across her cheeks from her heavily applied eye-liner.
Draco turned to leave but not without glaring and giving a hurt expression to Zabini. Harry felt his heart being ripped in two as he saw Draco's eyes start to fill with tears.
"Wait Draco-" but Draco ran back inside the doors of the castle, ignoring the boy completely. Harry didn't miss the muffled sob that had escaped from him, clearly trying to hide his pain.
Zabini looked as if he was just about to run after him but Harry had other ideas.
Not on my watch.
"Stupefy," He muttered quietly and watched with triumph as Zabini's body fell heavily to the ground.
Stepping from outside the pillar, Harry walked slowly to Zabini's body and looked down at him in disgust. The boy had hurt Draco badly, Harry could tell from the anguish that was present in the blonde's face.
Unable to rein his temper, Harry spat on Zabini's face and kicked him harshly in the stomach. The unconscious body rolled over sluggishly at the force.
"That was for Draco you spineless piece of shit!" Harry seethed.
Harry was tempted to beat the life out of him but figured it would be cowardly to beat up an unconscious body and that if he got carried away he could damn well kill the boy. He felt he had enough anger in him to do so. Still, he'd rather pummel him when Zabini was conscious so he could take full credit for it.
Losing interest at the sight of Zabni's abhorrent body, Harry turned away from it and followed the path that the blonde had ran to the castle.
He had to find Draco. It was times like this, now more than ever, where he was so thankful he had the marauders map.
BETABETA I NEED A BETA :) if you're interested let me know.
So... what did you think? Was it a bit too much of an overload? A lot went on in that one chapter... sometimes too much going on isn't a good thing but I want to know whether you agree?
Sorry it took long, I had huge writers block... HUGE. starts and ends with ex-boyfriend, need I go on? Lol.
I also apologize if the beginning of the chapter was really boring/dissapointing... I couldn't find the right words to describe Harry's feelings for Draco. It got a bit out of hand because I couldn't summarise it the way I wanted to... hence the long essay lol.
Oh god, you have no idea how hard it was to write this chapter I'm a bit out of sync with this fic... took me ages just to get started with it.
I know what you're thinking too, using Percy's head wtf... I know but I couldn't actually think of anything better... it's lame (and mingin :S) I know but bare with me. If you don't like it or think it just ruins the fic... let me know and I'll change it.
One more thing... Draco. Am i losing grip on his character? I think I'm doing Harry okay but I think Draco's getting a bit too off-track... is his character still alright?
I thought I'd answer the reviews in this too, ALL OF THEM. I thought I owed everyone that for making them wait so long... gahh... hear it goes (I'm a bloody saint for doing this :) ) :
BlackAsDay - Wow, epic... Cheers hunnii. I'm glad you liked Blaise's point of view... I could have added more but I thought naaa keeep it short and sweet as just a lil bit of insight to his bastard mind. Sorry about the slow update... next chapter won't be long.
crazylove4MCR - I'm beginning to adore you, your always reviewing my fic ^-^ THANKYOU! I know you and me both, we'll both have a hit at him ;D. Hope you haven't given up on this fic :)
LawliettLover8 - Thanks hunniii, I love it when people actually go through the bother of reviewing my fic just to say how much they love it ^-^ I don't remember seeing your username before so you must be a new reader/reviewer (forgive me if I'm wrong!). Aww yay thaaanks! I'm glad the abuse is good and believable. Sorry for the wait... the next chapter will be up soon.
Setsuko Teshiba - Tell me about it... full of sh*te. Hope you haven't forgotten bout this fic ^-^
HazelWolf1111 - It's coming up :D not in the next chapter no... but soon!
CisaraAmel - New reviewer :D Heyy! Yes I made this fic especially for Draco to be bottom... I couldn't write him any other way heck I can't even read him any other way. Lol. I'm glad we share that same opinion. Yes when I change the summary I will make a note that the summary has been changed :) So I won't confuse my readers. Aww thank you! No ones mentioned Pansy before, I'm glad you like her! I know what you mean, It's hard to find a good read these days. Sigh. The best fics were the ones made before 2006 in my opinion, so you could do it like that? Sadly I can't think of any from the top of my head but if you search 'bottom draco' under communities on this website, you mite find something! Hope this helps!
PteraWaters- When you post a Drarry fic you'll get plenty of reviews, there are plenty of fans that's why ^^ if you do write one, let me know okay! Don't be discouraged if you don't get much attention at first... I think I had like 3 or 2 reviews a day after I posted the first chapter of this and like 70 views... I was like -_- it's shit. You just gotta stick with it tis all! I'm glad you liked my Blaise POV ^^ makes me happy.
Gac - I know! squee! I totally agree! I especially like Harry posessive over Draco! Thanks for reading!
SilverKit'sFire- You and me both! I'm glad you think I'm doing the abuse well... I don't think I'm doing a good job at all... I think I'm doing more of a cheating!rat!boyfriend more tha abuser... Lol noo I haven't been in such relationship lol xD so I know just as much about them as anyone else... which is probably why it kinda sucks a bit. Yes I know, what's the point in switching their gender when the whole point of reading harry/draco is because they are both fucking boys! I bet it's like the hermione/draco or harry/ginny fans who are like OOOO LETS MAKE A HET RELATIONSHIP OUT OF HARRY/DRACO -_- as if there wasn't enough of that as it is. Hope you liked this suckish chapter.
Clover-night- Thanks for your reply to my authors note :) I'm glad you still keep up with this fic ^-^ Now to answer your other review; Yes, as much as I like a completley bottom!Draco, I prefer him as in character as the fic allows it, he of course has to be bottom in every other way of course =) I totally agree, it's not just weaklings who get into abuse it can happen to anyone... differet people have different weaknesses so if you crack that weakness then... voila. Yeah hopefully we will have some harry/draco in the next chapter :D :D . Yepp, Harry pwns Blaise forever, he's this close to seriously hurting blaise for what he did to Draco! He's practically a dead man! Ha! hope you like this chapter hun!
Cherokee - Harry just isn't the type to go ditching his friends for someone he has a crush on (especially if that someone is Draco, his supposed rival) I just don't see it happening for ginny, cho anyone so I don't think Draco would be any different in that case seeing as they aren't in a relationship or anything. Yeah he shouldn't have subjected Draco to boredome! Boo! Thanks for letting me know :). Thanks for offering =) that's okay though, I'm sure I could find someone else to do it. There is going to be a major fight between harry and Blaise at somepoint AND I CAN'T WAIT TO WRITE IT! :D thanks for your review hun.
SerpentsRose- hey *waves back* :D, oo new reader, great! Thank you :D Yes I tried to create the abuse but... it's not working... I'll try my best to get back on track with that next chapter. It might be easier if it's in Draco's POV for me to write it. Harry and Draco are both idiots who are mad about eachother but wouldn't even think it possible that the other liked them back. Cute. Hope you liked this chapter! Thanks for the fav story add too ;D
reicherucheran - Harry will do something about Blaise... wait and see ;) sorry about the long wait for this chapter.
Gino Santangelo - I'm glad you like it :) and im glad you think im doing a good job too. Thanks for the ideas =) I'm just going with the flow for this fics so I really don't know how it's going to happen! ideas are much appreciated. nonononononooooo never adamant about Draco toppinng . he bottoms in this fic, bottoms and only bottoms, he may aswell not have a dick :L lol, sorry bout that im weird. I hope you'll carry on reading this fic ^^
3Taz2 - I'm glad you do! i cant wait to see where it ends up either :L enjoy the chapter :)
Dark Oracle - Ooo spot on :O THANKS! Yes it was a bit quick... wasn't really the pace I wanted that scene to go either but I couldn't figure out how I would be able to change it so i just left it. that makes both of us, if blaise was my boyfriend id be running to harry and not taking my sweet time like draco is! Thanks for reviewing sweet :)
lisacreature - Thank you :D haha uke!draco FTW. I know stupid Daniel radcliffe, why couldnt he have grown : we'd have more bottom draco fics then ! hehe : L ill answer your questions 1) yes i do, I don't think it could fit in in this story line to be honest but id consider it if i did a sequel :) oh and that answers quesiotn 2 aswell. Depending on how this fic finishes depends on whether i do a sequel or not :) I can deffo see myself doing one though. thanks for the fic recs :) and i will get to reading yours once i finish replying to these reviews, itll take me ages I bet :P thank you for your review and hope you like this chapter! :D
Sara - good! :) thanks for your review
Silver Eyes - You've got to be one of my favourite reviewers! Don't ever stop reading my fic okay? or reviewing for that matter :D. I know last chapter was reaallly angsty wasnt it. But check out this one if this aint angst i dont know what is! ha! Hehe I don't want to give away whether harry is a cuddly person or not... ;) you can probably guess ho (ILUVCUDDLYTOPHARRY^-^), him and draco will be having good times at some point with cuddling and more D. I know Draco needs some kind of epiphay where he realises that Blaise is the dickhead and it's blaise who doesnt deserve him! yep im trying to make draco vulnerable, blaise is more powerful the more vulnerable draco is. the more powerful blaise is the more angry harry gets :D. HAHAHA omg ur a mind reader xD yeah, this is harry we are talking about since when did he concerntrate on potions? more like using potions to not concerntrate on draco! tehe. A surprising amount of people didn't see blaise becoming a death eater... i thought id be getting flames saying how cliche it was more than anything else xD. thanks hun ^^ you motivate me every time i read your reviews :) i promise i wont abandon this fic, i hate it when people do that so i wouldnt do it to other people! okay i;ll keep writing my reiviews on the chapter. I need some sort of system though! Thanks for reading, tell me your thoughts on the this chapter! Also, thank you for replying to my a/n hun! it's nice to hear that people care that i'm going through a rough time and are willing to wait for my next chapter :) lol, ill forever remember those words of wisdom ;D
Namelesslittlegirl - yay! thanks for reading ^^
mayajayne - thanks hunni :) hope you liked this chapter
Y-dO-u-Cry - Harry had a little beating of Blaise at this chapter ;D hope you liked this chapter my 100th reviewer :D:D (Y) weeeey!
JohnysGotanAddiction - ohh good! :D im glad you thought that the blaise/draco in the last chapter was a success! that makes me all the more confident about it! yay! :D I know its awful that people actually feel that way because of a lame ass fucker is putting them down! exactly what blaise is doing to draco! they need a smack the lot of them! He will do something extreme in the inner circle knowing blaise ;D. yes i think i will be keeping my reviews at the end of the chapter (but jeez its torture for my eyes! and braincells xD). oh wow, thats a good suggestion. i honestly had no plans with the potion itself but now youve planted a seed in my head ^^ ahh thats good! thanks! hope you liked this chapter!
orion- Thank you hun :)
kukuacho - Thanks :) hope you enjoyed it. thanks for your review on my authors note aswell :')
phantasmagoricalhour - Im sorry that you thought blaise's pov was shit but ahhh ... what can you do i suppose, i can only write what my brain can give me : L it wasnt meant to be a big pov of him just a little snippet like, maybe in the future I can write a whole chapter in his POV. Tell me about ! Lol! Hope you like this chapter! there was some violence in it :D
kalista jia - ooo thanks, first time my fic has been called cool :P I know what you mean, i love a good harry - draco - blaise triangle :D my fave. someone needs to write more though i agree! same, i CANNOT read any other type of fic ;D hope you like this chapter
Kira1525 - Thanks! Sorry for the long wait for this fic! It's been hard time for me :/ hopefully ill have the next chapter up within the week too! Thanks for reading
Analei - Okay :) thank you for the boost :) , haha hunnie the war for draco has barely begun ;D can't wait to get more into that! Sorry my update has been slow :( hope you read (and like) this chapter though! thanks hun :)
dress up romance xxx - woohoo thanks ^^ i know, blaise is a little monster : he'll get his dont worry ;) he's already had a taste of it from harry in this chapter :P. They will, all in good time ;) hope you liked it!
kawaii little necko-girl - as weren't a lot of people lol ^^, draco will come to his senses sooner or later... probably later rather than sooner i dunno xD could be next chapter lets wait and see eh! he does, blaise loves draco he just doesnt know how to treat somone he loves correctly which isn't good at all. sometimes it isnt enough. haha good for you ;P . hope you like this chapter! please say you do! :P
Emeralden Rapley - I will continue not to worry! :) it;s just been abit slow from the last chapter but im back on track now! yay! ahaha please dont cry :P oh same im the biggest sucker for one which is why I juat had to write my own! yeah i think people write harry a bit thicker than he actually is, sure he can be a bit slow with like crushes and stuff but honestly hes not that slow... ooo blaise the time bomb... thats so true xD I know i pity draco too cuz im gunna be writing his torture :) hope you liked this chapter! Also thank you so much for replying to my authors note :) it's nice knowing that there are people patiently waiting for my slow update! they will be quicker next time!
AnimeMerodi - I knwo, i know, im sorry :( hope it was okay! :) thanks for reading!
disession - aww im sorry xD, hope the chapter wasn't disapointing. quicker updates will be next so there wont be such a wait next time! thanks for your review
kinsey - Its not forgotten, i could never forget this fic! please keep reading it :)
niki - thanks! :D
Necko4 - guess you'll have to keep reading to find out eh? ;)
wow that took me about... 40mins :O so looong lol ahh well enjoyed everyminuite of it
WinonaRose
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ps any bottom!draco fic suggestions are much appreciated! :) thank you
pss do you think this fic needs to be dated? as in, do you want me to put dates during the fic because i realise it might be a tad confusing for you readers otherwise, heck, its a tad confusing for me! just lemme know