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Chapter 11
Critical Results
(Seth's P.O.V.)
October 1st, 2012
Three days...and she won't answer any of my phone calls...she won't even answer any of my text messages.
I feel completely useless.
Almost like half of me just got thrown in the trash.
She doesn't wanna see me.
What was I thinking?
I shouldn't have kept that secret from her...not this long.
She hates me...
The love of my life hates me.
And there's nothing I can do about it.
Will we still be together?
Is Ella gonna break up with me?
I can't stop thinking about what she might do.
"OKAY! I'm done!" My sister yelled barging into my room.
"Leah go away." I moaned into my pillow.
"Do you even know what today is?" She asked me.
I didn't answer, I just pulled the covers over my head.
"It's monday. You have school. Mom said you better get up and out of this house. You've done absolutely NOTHING but stay inside this room for the past 3 days. So get your lazy ass up out of bed." Leah snapped while yanking the covers off my bed.
The lights turned on and I squinted my eyes.
"Get out off my room!" I spat.
"Not until you get up..." Leah folded her arms.
I wasn't in the mood to be messed with.
Especially at 6:30 in the morning.
"Screw you." I muttered.
"Fine then...be that way..." Leah said before walking out of the room.
I got up to close the door and turn off the lights.
Finally...now I can back to sleep.
A few short minuted later, she comes back into the room.
The lights came back on.
I growled.
Then a very cool splash of water hit me and got all over my face and my chest.
"What the FUCK!" I jumped out of bed.
"Quit being such a loner, face the music and go to school!" Leah slammed the door before walking out of my room.
Now I'm just angry about this whole situation.
I'm angry at myself.
I'm angry with Sasha.
I'm angry with everyone...all except Ella...she was the victim.
This is all my fault.
How am I supposed to fix this when our anniversary is in 24 days.
All of a sudden the world seems to be a lot less brighter than I always thought it was.
The only thing that matters is her.
But right she wants nothing...nothing from me.
Damn it I found her drunk in her car on the side of the rode...
Chloe started freaking out because Ella didn't come home yet so she called me and asked me to go find her.
It didn't take me long at all...
She was in her car on the side of the road blasting her music with the windows down.
Ring a ding ding.
~Saturday {Day 2} 9/29/12 at 5:30pm~
Never in my life did I ever think I would see her like this...
Ever.
Her feet are sticking out the window, her hair is down, he head is layed back on the passengers seat.
Her eyes are closed and she's humming to herself.
Not to mention the empty bottle in her left hand...3 more were on the floor.
"Ella?" I said.
She opened her eyes and just stared at me.
"Heeelloooo" Ella slurred with a smile on her face.
"What are you doing?" I asked her.
"Enjoying my Saturday...care to join me?" She said trying to sit up.
That didn't work out so well...she just hit her head on the floor.
"Ow." She whined.
"Okay." I quickly opened the door and helped her up.
"My head hurts." Ella slurred.
"I can imagine...just wait till you wake up in the morning." I told her.
"You wanna something funny?...I've never drank before...I've only had 4 beers and I'm not even drunk yet." She said.
"Where the hell did you get beer from?"
"Oh this new guy I met at ballet. He's kinda hot...kinda of annoying...he's my dance partner...but he said they would help relieve stress...hey did you know that my older sister is a vampire?" Ella told me.
Great...
I strapped her into the passengers seat and then got into the driver's seat.
Good thing Ella didn't do anything reckless to her car...or lose her keys.
I'm definitley not taking her home...Lord knows what could easily come out of her mouth.
"Are you taking me home?" She asked me.
"Like that...hell no?" I said turning the car around.
Ella's phone started ringing.
"Hey Chloe!" Ella yelled into her home. It was more like a scream.
"What the hell? Where are you?" I heard Chloe yell.'
I took the phone from Ella.
"I found her...she's drunk—"
"What!"Chloe shrieked.
"I know...it's a mess—"
"You better not bring her home. Not now and not like that. Just take her someplace where she won't get caught. Her parents would effing kill her...and then probably hunt you down thinking it was all your fault...I'll try and stall if I have too." Chloe said all too quickly.
Technically it is partially my fault.
But Chloe doesn't need to know why.
"Kay thanks...bye." I hung up the phone.
"I never said you could use my phone! Ella said.
"I can't believe this." I said to myself outloud.
"Hahaha... You know what? I can't believe you still kept my sister a secret from me." Ella giggled in a very childish tone.
My God this is horrible.
I don't think what she said was suppost to be funny...but she wouldn't stop laughing.
My girlfriend is very interesting when she's drunk...and I don't mean that in a good way.
"Wait till I tell my family...they're gonna be so excited—"
"Ohhh noooo...I'm not gonna let that happen." I said immeadiatley.
I couldn't really think of any good place to take her.
I decided to take her to the Cullens' at the last minute.
They would help...
But for my sake, maybe Sasha won't be there...
Rosalie was sitting out on the porch when I drove up.
"Whose been drinking?" She asked me.
"Rosalie!" Ella yelled as she opened the door to get out...she fell out of the car face first.
Half of her body was on the ground while her legs still managed to stay inside the car.
Rosalie was right by her in a short second.
"Jesus Ella what have you been doing—"
"Rosalie...you'll never guess what I found out Friday..." Ella cut her off.
"What?" Rosalie snapped her head up at me.
"My sister is a vampire...and this guy...is a werewolf...isn't that gre—" Ella lost her balanced and ended up hitting her head on side mirror.
She's a dancer...isn't she suppost to have good balance?
"I keep hitting my head." Ella said cluelessly.
"Help me." I begged.
"Take her inside." Rosalie said.
I scooped Ella up into my arms.
"Hey Rosalie...you have a bunch of glitter all over your face!" Ella said noticing the glimmer Rosalie had when the sunlight hit her.
"Do you know how much she drank?" Rosalie asked me in concern.
"When I found her, she had an empty bottle in her hand and 3 on the floor right next to her." I explained.
"Alice! Get out here...NOW!" Rosalie yelled.
"So you finally told her...what a lovely result." Alice said standing right in front of me.
"Seth take me home." Ella demanded trying to wiggle out of my arms and sat on the steps.
"Not like this." I said.
"No...Take me home..I want to go home...NOW!" Ella protested and it didn't sound convincing at all.
"No. We're gonna stay here until you're sober. Unless you wanna remain grounded for the rest of your life."
"Seth. Take. Me. Home." Ella said coldly.
"Suit yourself." I said before picking her up again. This time I just used one arms and threw her over my shoulder.
"Put me down!"
"Nope." I said.
She tried kicking but it wasn't working...it just resulted in her hitting her head on the wall as we walked in.
"Cooperate with me here and you won't get in trouble." I said.
"I'm getting dizzy...put me down." Ella said to me.
I just ignored her as I carried her up the stairs.
"The bathroom's right there." Alice said pointing down the hall.
"What the hell happened to her?" I heard Emmett say from behind me.
"Long story." I mumbled.
"Seth—" Ella began to say before I put her down.
"OKAY!" I yelled placing Ella down on the bathroom floor.
Before I could even walk in, Ella slammed the door in my face.
It got quiet for a minute...then the sound of what I think is Ella vomitting came from inside the bathroom.
"How much did she drink?" Emmett asked me.
"About 4 beers...I found her car parked on the side of the road with her feet sticking out of the window and the music blasting. It wasn't that hard finding her." I told him.
"Was someone looking for her in the first place?"
"Her friend started freaking out. Ella was supposed to be home almost 2 hours ago...so I phased and went looking for her...and there she was." I shrugged.
"Did ya tell her about her sister?"
I just nodded. The look on my face was pretty obvious.
"That bad?" Emmett asked.
"Don't get me started on that one—"
"You told her?" Sasha came out of no where.
"You happy now?" I snarled.
"To be honest...not really...especially witht this outcome." Sasha gestured towards the bathroom door.
"Well that's just great. Go ahead. Go! Talk to her. See her. Hug her. Whatever ya want. She hates me." I snapped.
"No she doesn't." Sasha said right away.
"That's bull shi—"
"It's true...she's in more of state of shock then in a state of hating you...okay well sort of."
"Thank you Sasha." I started walking away.
"Seth. I've known that girl alot longer than you have...there are some things you just have to learn the hard way with her. Trust me. My family's been through that. Mom always said Ella and I were way too much alike." She told me.
"No shit sherlock." I mumbled.
"Lighten up!" She punched my arm.
"Okay so I admit some...okay so most of my actions were a little bitchy on my part because right when I found out that I could still have a close relationship with atleast someone in my family that would coincidentaly know about vampires and you dogs—I mean wolves at some point...I got excited...too excited...and it became my main priority. I got my hopes way too high and way too soon before considering the fact that this was gonna take time. I was impatient—which is what made me a little repulsive when came to seeing my sister."
"A little?" I wanted to be sure I heard her right.
"A lot...from what my sister's mind tells me...she's a little angry and shocked right now. But she doesn't regret saying any of things she said to you. They were half true...you never know what her reaction might have been. She actually wouldn't have freaked out on you as much if you just told her alot sooner...like when you told her that you were a wolf."
"I'll keep that in mind if I ever come across a time machine." I said sarcastically.
"If it makes you feel any better, she doesn't wanna see me yet. She knows she's not ready. Then there's you...you're on her mind 99.9% of the time as always and right now she—ewwww." Sasha got a disguste look on her face.
"What?" I was a little confused.
"My gum!" We all heard Ella say.
"Ella don't. Please don't it's gross!" Sasha whispered to herself.
"Ella what are you doing?" I said knocking on the door hoping she would open it.
"My gum...the toilet." Ella slurred.
It took me a second really figure that all out.
"Don't grab it. That's bad." I said to her in a tone that sounded like an adult talking to a child.
"It taste funny." Ella said.
"That's it—" I kicked the door opened.
Ella was lying down on her back...chewing the gum that fell in toilet...and I know for fact she didn't flush it yet.
My girlfriend was chewing on A.B.C gum that fell in a vomit infested toilet.
"Humans these days." I heard Emmett mumble.
"Spit the gum out..." I said making her sit up and holding my hand in front of her mouth while using my other hand to hit her cheek urging to spit it out.
She just gave me a blank stare.
"Gum. Out. Now!" I said.
"Fine." Ella spit her gum out in my hand and I threw it in the trash.
"Why did you have to take this all the hard way?" I said holding her in my arms.
"I'm still mad at y..." The last part of Ella's sentence ended up being cut short. Either I way I have pretty good idea what she was going to say.
She pretty much passed out in my arms.
"A drunk teenager at our house...well that's a first." Alice chuckled to herself.
"I'm guessing this means you could take her home now—"
Sasha's cut off mid sentence.
Ella's phone started ringing.
"That's probably Chloe...hey um—Ella's out—"
"I'm gonna guess that she's out by now soooooo...Her parents just went out to run some errands. Bring her home now. Go through the back door of her room. I'll leave the door open." Chloe hung up before I could reply.
"Poor girl...she's had a lot of stuff happen to her in the past couple years." Sasha said.
I scrunched my eyebrows together in confusion.
"You're talking about Ella? Right?" I asked her.
"No...Chloe."
"What happened to her—"
"You'll find out soon enough. It's not really my business to share. That's all I'm gonna say." Sasha shrugged.
For once I'm kinda glad to see that Sasha and I aren't screaming at each other for once.
"I'm with you on that one." She mumbled.
Dang mind readers...there are times when I wish my thoughts could just stay in my head.
I was able to carry Ella out with out her trying to fight this time.
"Take this with you. I will help her with that nasty headache she's gonna wake up with later." Carlisle handing me a little bottle of asprin before I put Ella in the back seat of her car.
"Thanks—"
"Seth?" Sasha called out.
I turned around.
"When she's ready...bring her here."
I just nodded.
8:30pm
She hasn't woken up once since she passed out.
But I know she's okay...the somewhat steady beat of her heart is what's assuring that she's alright.
Her parents are home and Chloe is the only one who knows that I'm here in her room...watching her sleep.
I've done nothing but sit here and hold her in my arms for about the past hour or so.
Lucky for me her parents haven't come in to check on her once, but they know that she's home...Chloe's been stalling for me...telling Ella's parents that she didn't want to be bothered.
If that wasn't obvious.
I got up and gentley placed Ella back down.
I had to give her a break from the heat.
That's when I noticed a bunch of crumpled pieces of paper all over the desk...there were even more scattered on the floor.
Being curious. I picked one up and unfolded it up.
I almost choked after reading what it said.
The words had lines going through all of them like they were scribbled out.
Ella's handwritting for sure.
Seth, I think we should take a break...
Take a break?
That hit me hard.
Maybe she was just messing around.
I threw the paper back on the ground and picked up another one.
Seth, I don't really know what to say write now. This is too much for me to handle.
I'm starting to think that "us" being together isn't such a good idea right now...especially
after what's been shared yesterday. Try to understand...
This one had a few smudges in some places.
Her tears stained the page.
This is what she's been doing ever since she got home that day?
I kept looking through all of them
#3-
I love you, and I know you know that...but right now my gaurd is being
put up and I can't handle this right now...being with you is what I think
I need to take a break from
#4-
I'm sick of this. No more secrets. You lied. I'm done with you
#8-
Seth, I'm breaking up with you. End of discusion. Just leave me alone
#13-
I can't believe you. All this time. I love you Seth. I really do.
But now those 3 words that I always say to you are different now...
"I loved you"
#18-
I need time...do me a favor and just give me some space.
I just have to think this all over.
#29-
I loved you
#33-
I don't want to be with you anymore.
#34-
This isn't working. It's not you it's me.
#43-
I guess this changes things. Completely.
This is a bit of a shock for me. You don't know
how hard it's gonna be to keep this from my family.
I wish you never told me in the first place...Then I would feel less guilty.
Damn it Seth! Why did you have ruin everything? Huh?
For once I felt as if my life was almost perfect
#50-
I've decided I want nothing. ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to do with you anymore.
Don't call me. Don't look at me. Don't bother asking me for a damn pencil in class.
I can't handle this. Not now. I'm breaking up with you and that's final. Do what you
want. Enjoy your life...and stay the hell out of mine. We're done.
~Ella May
That one really plunged the knife into my heart.
I had this gut feeling that she was gonna give me this one.
#50
It's still in the notebook.
It was written in her best handwritting. I could tell by how there wasn't a single flaw on any of the words. She signed her name at the bottom.
Finished.
It wasn't torn out yet...but I have this feeling...she's gonna give this to me...and I wasn't suppost to see this yet.
It's over.
Ella is breaking up with me.
Simple as that.
How the hell am I suppost to react to this.
"What the hell are you doing here?" Her voice was very harsh...but still soft.
I turned around.
"I just wanted to make sure you're okay." I said.
"Do I look okay to you? Huh?" Ella snapped.
She looked really tired.
I don't really know what to say.
"I was trying to help you." I said trying to be resonable.
Ella tried to get up but quickly sat back down after managing to stand for a good second or two.
"Fother Mucker my head hurts like a bitch." Ella said placing her hands on her face.
"Congratulations...you're in the middle of a hangover." I muttered.
Her head snapped up and narrowed her eyes.
"What were you thinking? Drinking in the first place and getting yourself drunk? You could have gotten severely hurt. I practically saved you from getting into a lot of trouble from your parents." I said.
"Well pin a rose on your nose Seth. That can be your little good deed for the day. I was having a bad day—gee I wonder why—and a friend was simply trying to help me out. Don't worry about it Seth. I'm still trying to get over this here. I never asked you to help me. I could have handle this on my own...regardless if I don't remember much...I can take care of myself ya know."
"What's this then?" I asked holding the notebook up in the air.
"That's none of your business. Put that back!" Ella snarled.
"Are you gonna break up with me?" I had to get that out before she could say anything else.
"Leave...now." Ella snarled.
"You've asked me alot of questions and I've answered every single one...just this once...answer mine...are gonna break up with me?" I asked her.
She closed her eyes.
Unsure of what she felt was necessary.
Tears rolled down her face.
"I don't know." She trembled.
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"Well that changes things then." I didn't want to say anything else.
I didn't want to look her in the eye.
"I only did this to protect you." I said for the millionth time.
Ella shook her head and wiped the tears from her eyes.
"I don't wanna go through this with you agai—"
The door swung open and there stood Chloe and Ella's sister Megan...both of them had curious looks on their face wondering what was going on in here.
"Is everything okay in here?" Chloe asked in a very nervous tone.
"OUT! NOW!" Ella yelled.
They jumped at the sound of her voice.
Ella can be very loud, only when she chooses to.
Chloe and Megan seemed more afraid now after hearing the tone ofher voice and seeing the look on her face.
The door closed.
"Just go now...that's all I want from you right now...please."
Ella just broke down in tears sitting on the edge of her bed.
I let out a heavy sigh.
There wasn't much to say after that.
"You can have your promise ring back." Ella placed it on her night stand waiting for me grab it.
"No it's yours..." I corrected her.
This is what she wants.
I don't want to upset her anymore than I already have.
As much as I want to hold her my arms and tell her everything is okay...it would make things worse.
It's breaking her.
I can see in her eyes.
It hurts to see her like this.
I left out the back door of her room with out saying a sinlge word.
What she posted on Facebook nearly 30 minutes later really started to worry me.
Ella changed her relationship status
Ella May just changed her relationship status from "in a relationship" to "it's complicated"
Now what?
~ END Saturday 9/29/12 8:53 pm~
The way my Saturday ended, put me in a horrible mood for Sunday.
So here I am.
It's the first day of October 2012.
A Monday.
I don't want to go to school.
But I think it would be best that I do go before my sister comes back into my room and I end up punching her in the face.
I'll be lucky if she even talks to me today.
To be honest I don't think it's gonna happen.
I didn't have to give Kyle Avanaco a ride today because he's taking the bus...I drove straight to school.
She's already here.
Ella always parks towards the back since it's easier to get out faster. Usually I park right next to her...but not today.
I feel like everyone is looking at me different.
Usually Ella is the first person I spot on campus.
She would always run up to me and give me a quick good morning kiss, then we'd walk to class together.
Now I really know how feels when she doesn't want me around.
Better start getting used to it now.
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