Fawks tried not to fidget in her seat as she glanced around at the group of people she was now seated with. Most of them seemed normal enough, none of them overly insane, just a little fractured, like her.
Their stories were interesting, some of them had been raped like her, others had just been severely abused.
"Miyako-chan, you're next" Dr. Naruko called. Fawks jumped, she glanced over at the girl sitting beside her. She was rocking slightly, her brown hair hung in damp tendrils around her face.
"…My…my sister…she died when she was 12. She…was my dad's illegitimate child and…when her mom died, she was sent to live with us. When…when mom found out dad had…an affair…she left us…" Miyako began. Fawks suddenly felt queasy, she huddled in her chair.
"…dad blamed her for…everything. He…he…beat her…horribly…" hot tears ran down Miyako's face, she hugged herself, rocking harder. "…I…I tried to…to… stop him…to protect her…that's why I would…pick her up from school and…walk her home…"
Miyako began to sob, lowering her head. "…but…one day…I…I decided to…to hang out with…my…friends instead…When I got home…he…dad had…he had…!"
Fawks couldn't take it anymore, she abruptly rose from her seat, sending the chair clattering noisily to the floor. She ran from the room, bumping into Yasuke.
"Whoa, just where do you think you're going?" he asked.
"…I don't feel so well…please take me back to my room…"Fawks gasped, "…I think I'm gonna puke…"
"…Okay, okay, just hold it until we get there…" He comforted.
"Fawkeisha-san?" Naruko called. Yasuke waved him off, escorting her back to her room. Fawks spent the rest of the day bent over the toilet, throwing up what was left in her stomach.
"I take it therapy didn't go well…" Yasuke said, holding back her hair.
"…my life is a lie…" she gasped, tears running down her face. "…everything…I believed to be true is…is…
She began to sob.
"Don't do this to yourself…!" Yasuke's tone was fierce. "You're not alone, you have friends who care about you, you have my brother who loves you. We're not going anywhere, you can depend on us"
Fawks leaned her forehead against the porcelain, "…I know…"
Yasuke nodded, moments later Naruko burst through the door.
"Are you alright, Fawkeisha-san?"
"…yeah…just peachy…" Fawks spat the sour taste from her mouth.
"…I'm sorry to put so much on you all at once…"
"…How did I even know about her? How could I have…" Fawks gasped, retching into the toilet.
"…you two went to high school together. Miyako has been here much longer then you" He replied gently. Fawks glanced at him.
"She suffered her psychotic break after she returned home from shopping with her friends to find her father had killed her younger sister in a fit of rage. She blamed herself for not being there to protect her…" Naruko sighed. "She was girl tormented by an event that wasn't her fault. So what if she had walked her sister home and watched her the entire day, she couldn't remain vigilant forever, she couldn't protect her sister for the rest of her life. Sooner or later her father would have done something to her, and if Miyako had gotten in the way, he might have hurt her too. That is the reason why you were so drawn to her life as your delusion"
"What do you mean?" Fawks asked.
"Both of you felt guilty for events that were beyond your physical control. Several times in therapy you've stated that you feel responsible for your own rape" Naruko went on. Fawks' eyes went wide.
"At the trial, Christopher announced to the court that you 'seduced' him, that you were some kind of demonic succubus that had cast her spell upon him to make him want a little girl. That you had ruined his life with the want of you…"
"…stop…!" Fawks gasped, tears running down her face.
"…Sensei…" Yasuke began.
"…His words instilled doubt in you and no matter how many times you were told that it wasn't your fault, that he was a pervert, you couldn't help but feel that you did in fact do something that warranted his attack. A glance, a gesture, something that made him think you wanted him to touch you…"
"…please stop…!" Fawks begged.
"Sensei, that's enough!" Yasuke snapped.
"No it's not!" Naruko snapped back, Yasuke raised a dangerous eyebrow.
"She has to acknowledge this as her reality, she must know so that she can heal…" Naruko said in a softer voice.
"…I don't want to…I don't want to remember…" Fawks began to shake.
"That's enough for today, Sensei…" Yasuke said seriously.
Naruko looked like he was about to say more but kept his mouth shut instead, nodding. Yasuke watched him as he left the room, lifting Fawks to her feet.
"C'mon, Fawks-sama, let's get you cleaned up…" he sighed.
