Chapter 11
Hey guys first of all I would like to say that I know the last chapter was very unlike Michael but I wanted to do something drastic and out of character to show how much his fathers death has hurt him and show that his head isn't in the right place however that will be the only chapter like that with a one night.
Michael pov.
I open my eyes and groan as the light makes my head throb even more, I really shouldn't drink alcohol, what even happened last night, I can't remember a thing, I frown as I try to force my thoughts back to last night, buts it's all a big blur, I'm not accustomed to being drunk and really shouldn't let myself get in that state, but it took the pain away and for that I was grateful, I feel something move behind me and I turn around gently, the memories from last night come flying back to me as I see Kai lying sound asleep next to me, oh crap, no what have I done, and to do it that way, I think as I remember how we were intimate, I had always vowed to love and cherish a women in bed, make sure she felt loved, but I treated Kai like a whore, even though from what I remember she didn't seem to mind, but that's not the point, I have never felt that way about Kai and I never will, even looking at her now I feel none of the sexual attraction I had for her last night and know it was just the alcohol controlling my actions and the desperate need to feel something other than the numbness or dull pain.
I sigh deeply as I know I need to wake her and apologise for last night and tell her that it can't ever happen again, it will complicate things to much, as she is a member of my staff, and I don't like to have one night stands or sex like that, sure last night was nice don't get me wrong, but I always find I feel dirty after having sex like that and I don't like it, I think it's because of the way my mother brought me up, to be a man of god and a Jehovah's witness, its just not how I like to make love and even then there was no love at all last night.
I'm about to wake Kai when I remember that since we did that last night I'm probably not clothed, after a quick look under the covers I see I'm right, getting up I quickly grab some clean clothes and head to my adjoined bathroom.
After taking a quick shower and dressing I go back into my bedroom to see Kai is still asleep, I grab a bath robe so she can wear it back to her own bedroom so she can get clean clothes.
I sit on the edge of the bed and gently shake her awake, her eyes flutter open and she looks at me confused, I wonder if she doesn't remember it either.
"Morning Kai" I say to test the water.
"Mr Jackson, what are you doing at my house" she asks puzzled.
"You don't remember last night" I ask her.
"No what happened" she asks.
"You came over after I told you I was lonely over email, we had a couple bottles of wine together" I fill some blanks in hoping to jog her memory.
"Did I pass out or something" she asks.
"No but we did get pretty drunk, the alcohol took over us and we ended up in bed together" I finally tell her the main thing that happened.
"You mean we fell asleep in the same bed" she asks and I can hear the caution in her voice.
"No Kai, we had sex last night, I'm very sorry" I say.
As expected she jumps up and looks at me horrified.
"No, no, no, you're my boss this can't be happening, and oh no what have I done to Brandon, I've cheated on him, he'll never forgive me" she yells and I can hear the panic in her voice, what she just said finally sinks in, uh oh, she cheated on Brandon, she has a partner, I mentally slap my hand against my forehead, now some guy is probably going to want to kill me for sleeping with his girl.
"Kai I'm sorry I didn't realise you had a partner" I say.
"It was my fault, last night had nothing to do with you, you were desperate to feel something, drunk and your head is all over the place, I on the other hand had no other excuse, its me who should apologise in my drunken state I took advantage of you sir, I am ashamed and understand if you want to fire me" she says sadly and hangs her head.
"Kai, it's ok, you can have the day off today and go sort things out with your partner if you want, it takes two people to do what we did last night, I should have said no and stopped you, I won't fire you but I would understand if you wanted to quit since it will be awkward for us and your partner if he forgives you" I tell her.
"Thank you sir" she says, she looks down and realises she's only standing with the duvet wrapped round her since she jumped out of bed in shock.
I hand her the bath robe that I still have in my hands, when she takes I turn my back to her to give her privacy, I hear the duvet fall to the floor, and a few seconds her voice.
"I'm decent" she says.
I turn back around to see she is indeed now wearing the robe and is now gathering up the clothes she was wearing last night, when she picks her panties I notice a white stain on them and something clicks into place, if we were in the living at the start I wouldn't have had access to protection, and I don't remember putting any on when we came up here, I look at Kai's face to see it has drained of all colour, her eyes are on her underwear as well and I know that she has realised the same thing I just did, her eyes snap to mine and I feel ashamed that I forgot such an important thing.
"Kai, I'm sorry I should have worn protection, are you on the pill since you have a partner" I ask hoping she will say she is.
"I've been on it for a while, I only just came of, my doctor did say it could take some time before I could have a baby we might be ok" she says.
That brings some relief to me, we stand there for a few moments in silence not knowing what to say to each other, finally she speaks.
"I'll just go back to my own room to get dressed and freshened up" she says, I move so she can get past me.
"See you downstairs" I say and she nods closing the door behind her.
I sit down on my bed to think for a moment, Kai is an amazing chef and the kids love her, se understands what we like and what we don't like, she's also very patient, which is the main thing a person needs when they cook for me, I'm a bit of a fussy eater, but she never minded, she was always patient with me, she was an amazing friend and would make a perfect partner, I just didn't see her like that, she was like a sister to me, my mobile starts to ring and I look to see its my mother, I answer it.
"Hello mum" I say.
"What's wrong" she asks immediately.
I swear sometimes it's a curse when your mother knows you better than you know yourself, I can never lie to her, and I don't even attempt to because I hate lying anyway.
"I slept with Kai" I say.
"You mean you shared a bed, well that's ok if persons tired then it's natural to fall asleep next to each other" she says not understanding what I told her.
"Mum I mean I had sex with her, we had sex last night" I say.
"As in you're together, you decided to be in a relationship with her" she asks.
"No mum, we drank to much wine last night and we had a one night stand" I say slowly preparing for the yelling.
"YOU DID WHAT, MICHAEL JOSEPH JACKSON I RAISED YOU BETTER THAN THAT, A MAN OF THE LORD DOES NOT ENTER INTIMATE SITUATIONS WITH A WOMEN WHO HE ISN'T MARRIED TO" she yells at me very loudy and I hold the phone away from my ear slightly to protect my ear drum.
"I know mum, it was a stupid mistake, we had a talk this morning and we've agreed to put it behind us and move on" I say when she finally stops yelling.
"Well at least you're being adults about it, but I'm warning you now if she gets pregnant from this you will accept responsibility, help and look after her" she says.
"You know I would do that anyway mum, I thought you knew me better to know I would" I say shocked that she felt she had to remind me.
"I know you would son, I'm sorry for yelling at you I shouldn't have, I'm just so shocked, this just isn't like you" she says.
"I know I was shocked this morning when I woke up, my heads all over the place, I think it finally hit home that he's gone" I say and my voice cracks at the end.
"Oh Michael my son don't upset yourself now, it's alright" she says soothingly and her voice calms me down.
I hear a voice calling me in the house, listening more closely I recognise that it's Paris.
"Mum I'm going to have to let you go, Paris is calling for me" I explain.
"Ok son, see you soon" she says
I agree and we end the call, just as I'm about to stand I hear a knock on my door.
"Come in Paris" I call.
She walks in and smiles when she sees me.
"Hey daddy, why haven't you come down for breakfast yet, Kai already got your granola ready you" she says.
"I was talking to grandma on the phone" I explain.
"Oh ok is she ok" she asks.
"Yes she's fine" I say.
"That's good, Prince was looking for you" she says.
"He is, I'll go see him now" I say and go to stand, but stop myself when I notice her head hang sadly.
"Hey princess, just because I'm focusing more on Prince doesn't mean I will stop loving you, but he's very upset about grandpa Joe, I know its hard to share when you love something so much but sometimes we have to make sacrifices" I explain.
"I know, maybe it will be good for me, help me branch out a bit and be more independent" she says and I'm slightly surprised when she says that.
"That's my girl, I'm glad you're try that, the world is a scary, but just because your being independent doesn't mean you're standing alone, I will always be there to help you when you need it, but some day it will be through the memories you have of me" I say, a look of sadness crosses her features.
"I know, its not something you want to think about, and hopefully it won't happen for a while yet, but I just want to make sure you know that it will happen" I say and she nods her head.
"Daddy promise" she says.
"Promise what" I ask confused.
"That it won't happen for a while, promise" she says and she looks at me with the biggest puppy dog eyes ever.
I know I shouldn't since it's a promise I can't keep but I can't say no to those eyes and I don't want her upset.
"I promise I will not leave and go to heaven for a long time" I say.
She smiles satisfied with my answer and hops of the bed, I stand as well and walk down the stairs, I find Blanket and Prince in the kitchen as I'm approaching I hear the sound of flesh slapping flesh and Kai saying no that that wasn't a very nice thing to do, I run into the room and don't even have to ask what's happened, one look at Prince's guilty face and Blanket rubbing his cheek I know he's hit him, I'm shocked, they've never been violent towards each other, they say a few bad words every now and again because they pick it up from the guests I have over but that's it, I look at Prince and he looks away refusing to make eye contact with me.
"Prince look at me" I say sternly.
He turns his eyes back to mine.
"Go to your room and calm down right now please I will be up in a minute to speak to you" I tell him.
He gets up and disappears out the room, I kneel down in front of Blanket and he moves his hand so I can have a look at where Prince slapped him, it's already turning red and angry, I lift him off the stool and place him on the worktop, grabbing ice from the fridge I go back to him.
"This might sting a little bit ok" I warn him so he knows to expect it.
Gently as I can I press the cold ice against his sore cheek, he whimpers and pulls away.
"I know it hurts just now son but this will make it feel better I promise" I tell him.
He lets me hold the ice against his cheek while I ask Kai what happened.
"Blanket was trying to mess around with him like they normally do, but Prince was being himself, I think he's upset and he just snapped and hit him" she explains.
"Ok thank you Kai, could you watch over him while I go talk to Prince" I ask her.
"Yes of course" she says and takes over holding the ice against his face, I turn to Paris.
"Stay here with Kai ok, I'm going to have a talk with your brother" I explain and exit the room.
It turns out Kai was right, when I reach his door I can hear him sobbing, I enter the room and see him cuddled up to the Kenya the brown Labrador I got him when he was younger.
She is very loyal and protective over him, even as I move closer I make sure to be slow as I notice her watching me closely looking for any signs I'm a threat to her master.
As I try to sit on the bed her lip curls and she growls, I understand why and to be honest I'm grateful, I know she will protect him no matter what.
"Prince, son its dad, can you tell Kenya I come in peace before she eats me" I say.
"Kenya heal" he sniffles.
The dog stops growling but stll watches me carefully, I sit on the bed and pull Prince into my arms and rock him back and forth in an attempt to soothe him, I knew it would be a while before I could talk to him but I didn't mind, soothing my children when they are sad comes before everything else, I continue to soothe him and when he calms down I notice his breathing even out and know he's asleep, I feel silly but I can't help but whisper to Kenya.
"You're a good dog Kenya, I know you will keep him safe when I can't, and I thank you for that" I say.
She tilts her head and perks her ears, it looks as though she understood me, but that would be impossible, she gently nudges my hand and taking the hint I scratch her behind the ear, she soon also falls asleep with her head on Prince's knee.