Sorry I haven't updated in a while! Things are crazy! But I do hope people are still reading!
William stood frozen as he watched the EMTs bag his mother's body and load her into the back of the ambulance. Joy was shaking so badly she could barely hold the cup of water in her hand still enough to drink, and the EMTs that were exmining her had to hold her arms still forcefylly until she could even take sip.
William scrunched up his nose as the back of his eyes burned, watching somene he loved being put in what looked like an over sized trash bag and carried off to some cold morgue bothered him greatly, especially seeing as it was his mother. He took a deep breath and closed his eyes, frowning.
He tried to clear his mind, he tried to think about what they were going to do, he tried to think about what the future would hold, what it couldn't hold, but his mind wouldn't work. His thoughts were fuzzy and blurred, like a jumbled radio signle, he couldn't think, and if he opened his mouth at tried, he was sure he wouldn't be able to speak either.
William shook his head roughly and put his face in his hands, he sat on the couch and put his elbows on his knees and stayed there, trying to make sense of everything going on around him, of everything that was happening. But things wouldn't slow down, and they were already going to fast for him to comprehend, one minute he was talking with his sister about their infanent fear of their mother's death, the next, Lucy was taken from them, pulled roughly from their grasp as the cycle of Lucy's life was completed and she was taken from the world.
William looked up as someone ran into the room and grabbed him forcefully by the shoulders, he stared for a while then comprehension dawned on him as Carson's face came into view. He stared at her sadly, and she frowned at him worridly.
"She's gone." William said as Carson's eyes widened and she pulled him into a tight embrace.
William welcomed her affection and hugged her back, burying his face into her shoulder. He took a sharp intake of breath and squeezed his eyes shut tightly, trying not to cry, but before he could help it his tears started flowing freely and he couldn't control the sobs coming from him.
Carson hugged him, if possable, even tighter and rubbed the back of his head gently while he cried on her shoulder. She shooshed him quitly and rocked him softly, trying her hardest to portray to him that she was really and truely sorry for his loss. Becaus after all, who new better than her what it was like to loose a parent? She'd lost both of her parents, by death and. . .well, just plane misfortune on her part.
It hurt her to see him like this, him and his sister, she knew what they felt like, the hoplessness that came with having somone you loved float into the next life, the horrible idea of having to fend for yourself when you were so used to having somone to lean on, and the out right horror of watching the person that had been with you through thick and thin, through all of your life, being put into a dark hole in the ground. Yes. . .she knew what it felt like.
Carson sighed and kissed the top of William's head. "I'm so sorry, I wish there was something I could do."
William brought his head up to look her in the eye and shook his head. "You've already done something."
Carson brushed a stray tear from his face and smiled a small, sad smile which quickly turned into a frown. "What are you gonna do?"
William shrugged and sighed heavily. "I-I dunno. . .I don't know. It's g-gonna take a l-long time to get th-through this, and I don't know what we're gonna do. Sh-she was the only decant family we had and I don't what we're going to do without her."
Carson nodded and whiped at her own eyes, which had started producing tears as well. "Well, I'll be there for you, ok? You can count on me, if you need anything, anything at all, you know where to find me, and you know you can ask me."
"Thank-you. You r-really don't know what that means to me."
Carson nodded and again and glanced over at Joy, who was staring, transfixed at the floor. "You two will get through this, pain eases over time."
"Yeah," William agreed as he to looked at his sister. "But it never really goes away, does it?"
AAAAAAAAA! I forgot the second half of the chapter the first time I posted this! Grrr! So sorry for the mistake, I hope it makes more sense now! And thanks to LittleOneS2Sfor pointing it out, I really didn't notice that most of the chapter was missing!:)