A/N: Ok Jazz is back! I know you probably don't care but I am super happy and I have to share this with you… I passed Bio with a B! Yay me! Also, I'm officially done for the semester and though I will be going to school during the summer I don't think posting will be an issue. I hope… Also guys please don't forget to comment… you have no idea how much your thoughts can influence a writer… Thanks and enjoy!
Disclaimer: All characters belong to Stephenie Meyer… not me.
Chapter song: Bring Me to Life – Evanescence
Bring Me To Life
Wake me up
(Wake me up inside)
I can't wake up
(Wake me up inside)
Save me
(Call my name and save me from the dark)
Wake me up
(Bid my blood to run)
I can't wake up
(Before I come undone)
Save me
(Save me from the nothing I've become)
EPOV
The next day I was anxious to get to school.
When I went downstairs I found my mom barely making her way into the kitchen to start breakfast. She was still wearing her robe and her house shoes, it made her look huggable.
When she heard me entering the kitchen she gave me a puzzled look. "Did I wake up late or are you up earlier? She asked while starting the coffee machine.
I opened the fridge and took out the bottle of orange juice. "No you didn't wake up late" I said.
She was looking at me with a puzzled face still and honestly it was making me uncomfortable.
"Mom, why are you staring at me like I grew a third eye?" I asked with a little bit of humor in my voice.
Her eyes widened and then she turned around and went back to twiddle with the coffee maker. "What are you talking about? I'm not staring at you weird" she said with a tone that sounded guilty… what's on your mind mom?
"Ok" I said and then my dad walked in.
"Good morning everyone" he said, going immediately to hug my mom. They started talking among themselves and I ignored them… I was daydreaming.
I was drinking orange juice and when I finished I put the cup on the sink.
I looked towards my parents and Carlisle was looking at me weird also. Did I have a booger stuck on my face or something?
"So Edward…" he started talking. "How's school going so far?" he asked.
"So far so good" I answered shortly. I wanted to get going… the faster I got to school, the faster I would see her.
"That's good" my dad answered slowly.
"Ok, well I got to go, I'll see you guys later" I said starting to walk out of the kitchen.
"Wait a minute, you're not going to eat breakfast?" my mom asked. I love how she's always so concerned about me. It makes me feel like a little kid.
"No mom, I have to get going already" I answered. I walked toward her and gave her a kiss on her forehead. "I'll see you later" I said, turning to walk out of the kitchen. "Bye dad" I said as I was walking out.
I bumped into Alice who was walking into the kitchen. She looked hilarious. She had hair rollers all over her head and it made her looked like an old housewife.
When I saw her and we made eye contact I playfully shuddered to make her think she grossed me out. She quickly slapped my shoulder and I just laughed and walked out. "Bye little troll!" I called as I walked out of the house.
When I got to the car my stomach made a funny noise… I was definitely going to get hungry quick. I got out and went back to get an apple and a snack bar. When I walked into the kitchen everyone stopped talking and they were all staring at me.
"Ok what the heck? Do I have boogers on my face or something?" I asked, because seriously my family is starting to freak me out.
"It's nothing Edward, you're just being weird, but then again that doesn't surprise me. You've always been a weirdo" Alice answered simply while she was pouring herself some milk in a cup.
I went and grabbed and apple and a snack bar from the box that was in the pantry. Then I started walking out of the kitchen again.
"Alright then… I'll see y'all later" I said, a little mystified.
With that I got back in the car and finally took off.
For some reason I had the feeling that today was going to be a good day. Maybe it had something to do with the fact that Bella reached out to me when she needed to feel better.
That made ME, feel better.
As I was driving I was wondering if maybe Bella had broken up with her boyfriend and that is why she needed comfort. I also wondered if she loved him. Maybe that was the reason why she needed comfort in the first place. I hope not.
When I got to school I went to my Intro to Law class. As I sat there I found myself growing anxious to see Bella. She always managed to have me intrigued with her. It's almost as if she has awakened the guy that has been dead for a while now.
When class was finally over I started walking faster towards history class.
I was so anxious to see Bella but at the same time, I was scared.
I shouldn't be getting so attached to this girl who already has a boyfriend. But then again… she called me when she needed comfort. That right there says a lot.
Bella needed comfort and instead of going to the obvious person for it, she ran to me. Or more like she called me but whatever… same difference. She didn't go to him. She came to me.
Maybe Bella was letting go. Maybe she decided that she could get closer to me.
I am not going to sit here and ignore the fact that there is definitely something going on in between us.
Has it been said aloud? No, but it doesn't have to be.
I know that deep within me Bella revived a spark of life that has been dead. Now, it was my turn to do the same for her.
It's time to let go.
I had to repeat that thought in my head a couple of times.
Let go Edward… It's time.
When I walked to the hallway in which my history class is, I saw her there sitting on the floor, totally engrossed in whatever she was reading. As I got closer to her, I hoped that she would notice me but she didn't so I stood in front of her.
She looked adorable reading. I wonder what kind of books she likes to read… or if she even likes to read… well she is an English person… so I'm sure she enjoys reading.
She finally noticed that someone was standing in front of her.
She looked up and immediately I saw shock cross her face. I smiled at her and the fact that she was still in shock amused me. I then noticed that she was listening to music when she removed her earphones from her ears and smiled at me.
I swear that smile takes my breath away.
"Hey" she said with a sweet and happy voice.
"Hello Bella" I said. I was trying not to sound to overexcited but the fact that she was talking to me made me want to do flips.
I realized that I was still towering over her, and I was hoping she didn't find it uncomfortable. But right when I was about to move, Bella surprised me yet again.
"So what's up?" she asked me. She looked like she was having a good day. She looked relaxed, happy, and carefree. I realized that I had never seen her like this before, so I might as well enjoy this good day.
She was looking at me and she looked so beautiful so I decided to be honest. "Nothing just admiring the view" I told her. I gauged her reaction… and loved it. Her eyes popped open and then she started laughing. The fact that she was laughing made me laugh too. Oh man I haven't laughed like this in a while.
I then noticed that she was holding the paper she was reading when I got there in her hands. "What's that?" I asked her, genuinely curious.
She looked down at her hand "Oh this is the notes that will be on the quiz today" she said.
Huh? What is she talking about? I don't remember Black ever mentioning a quiz… or did he?
"What's wrong?" she asked me. Then it sort of came back to me. Black did mention something about a quiz but I was too busy focusing on Bella to even remember or write it down. Ok… there goes my grade.
"We have a quiz today?" I asked just to make sure.
Bella was still staring at me and I felt like a moron being so clueless about a damn quiz.
Then I saw a brightness in her eyes that was almost mischievous. "Yeah but it's a small quiz" she replied.
"Do you want to use my notes to study? We still have like 10 minutes before class?" she asked me.
Whoa! This girl's contagious smile is driving me crazy. She extended her hand to me with the paper that she was reading. I finally snapped out of my trance and was about to take the paper but then a better idea crossed my mind.
Instead of taking the paper from her hand, I sat next to Bella. I looked at her and grinned, hoping that this didn't bother her.
"That's ok, I'll share with you. You have to study too, I wouldn't want you to do badly on the quiz" I said to her.
Bella didn't say anything. She just looked at me and then moved the paper in front of us and got back to reading.
It's funny because I wasn't really studying. How could I? I was so entertained by the fact that Bella was fucking sitting right next to me.
I could smell her hair… it smelled like strawberries, and wild flowers. I could also feel her body heat and holy cow… it's making me hot.
And when our arms accidently touched I could feel shocks of electricity on my skin. But they weren't painful at all… instead… I was now craving those shocks. It was an amazing experience.
I then took it one step further and asked her to quiz me. Of course being the nice girl that she is, she agreed. Little did she know that that was my excuse to hear her beautiful, sweet, and caring voice.
We were quizzing each other and it sort of turned into a little competition. It didn't come as a surprise that Bella was super smart and really good at history.
She's perfect.
As we kept on quizzing each other we were smiling and laughing and proving that each of us knew the material.
I was amazed at how confident Bella could be. I had never seen this side of her. She was always so shy and quiet, but now she was all smiles and confidence. She could definitely hurt somebody's ego with so much confidence parading around.
When Black got there we started heading into the classroom. But this time I did something different.
I sat next to Bella.
She looked at me and I just smiled and shrugged my shoulder. I told her that my contacts had broken and for some reason I saw disappointment wash over her face. How weird…
Bella then went back to looking at the front and I was left a little confused but decided to shrug it off.
After that, we took the quiz and Black started the lecture.
I was trying my hardest to focus but it was impossible. Bella sitting next to me is impossible to ignore. I could literary feel the electricity passing between us and that only aided to my distraction.
Bella on the other hand looked like she was so focused and on track. It made her look… dare I say… sexy? Yeah, definitely.
Bella had this innocent look but at times it was her innocence that made her look amazing. Also the confidence that she was displaying today… yeah, don't even get me started on how sexy that is.
I then decided to mess with her and started drawing on her paper but she then did the same and called me a loser.
I knew she was playing but I still pouted and asked her why she was calling me a loser.
She said it was because she said so and that made my heart soar. Don't ask why? I have definitely turned into a fucking girl looking for signs of flirting. Yup that's life for you!
When I told her that it wasn't fair that she was calling me a loser she told me that life was not fair and I immediately told myself that she was right.
Life was never fair.
I had this beautiful girl sitting next to me and yet she was so far away because she was taken.
What' worse, I realized that she was dating a guy who not only was a jerk but didn't care much for her. Obviously Bella was a different girl when she wasn't with him.
I remembered the time when I saw her at the movies and she looked so serious when she was walking with that asshole. She looked sad and oh so broken.
Yeah… life is definitely not fair.
After class ended, Bella started putting her things away and I did the same. A new thought came to my mind. But I was scared to follow through… come on Edward… man up!
I decided to start by asking her the obvious even though I already knew the answer to it.
"So what class do you have next?" I asked.
"Oh, I have a break right now until 11: 30 and then I have Biology" She told me confidently once again standing in front on me, looking at me straight in the eye.
I decided to play stupid.
"Oh really? Me too! Well duh, we have biology together". I said. She probably does think that I'm stupid.
"Yeah, I noticed" was all she said with an amused face. I wonder what's going through her mind.
I decided that I needed to focus… I was getting nervous and scared that she would reject me.
Suck it up Cullen! I kept on telling myself over and over again.
With that I took a deep breath and asked her "Hey do you want to go eat somewhere?" I said.
I immediately saw surprise run across Bella's face. She so didn't see this one coming. Well good for me.
She looked at me and then at her hands and then back at me.
"Oh… hmm… wh… what?" she stuttered. How cute!
"I said do you want to go eat somewhere since we have the same break and the same class together after this, I thought that maybe you would want to go eat somewhere, unless you're not hungry, in that case it's ok, I don't want to force you" oh I am so rambling now!
"It's ok Edward, I don't mind, but how about we just eat here at the school cafeteria?" she answered shyly.
Oh fuck yeah… "Ok let's go" I said.
When we got to the cafeteria we grabbed our food and I paid for her and me. She put up a fight but I won. Maybe she wasn't used to it… but she was going to have to get used to it.
Wow… Slow down a little Cullen!
We walked to a table nearby and sat opposite of each other. We were silent for a couple of minutes but then I decided to voice my curiosity for this amazing girl.
I asked her about high school and her life in general. She answered my questions but asked hers in return.
She asked how come she hadn't seen me in high school if we lived in the same town. I told her that I had recently moved to Forks.
Everything was going fine until she asked me why we had moved to Forks. All the memories of that terrible night came back rushing to me. And with all the memories, came all the pain.
I could see that Bella was regretting asking me the question because she immediately turned into that shy, unconfident girl.
"You don't have to answer Edward, I'm sorry if my question made you uncomfortable" she said with an apologetic voice.
I just kept on staring at my food.
I was trying to rein in all of my thoughts. I tried to block all the pain or at least put it away until later.
After a while I got myself together. "It's ok Bella" I told her.
"My family and I moved here because my mom likes small towns and because we had some family issues back in California" I told her with a voice that rang with finality.
I didn't want to talk about that with her. It just hurt too much.
She told me she understood and then we moved on to lighter topics.
At times while we were sitting there talking, I would notice that Bella was staring at my lips. Hmm interesting…
And then I decided to mess with her a little… when I noticed she was distracted I would ask her a question with a low voice and then I would catch her daydreaming.
She would quickly snap out of it and it was freaking hilarious to watch her blush. She is so adorable!
During the whole break we learned about each other. We talked about our families and stuff like that, but we never talked about my past or about relationships.
Those topics that I felt were the most relevant, we ignored.
We then walked together to Biology class.
I cannot begin to describe how amazing it feels walking next to this beautiful girl. Not just because she is beautiful but because in there, lies a beauty that I'm sure not many have seen before.
Bella possesses qualities that not many can pull off. And that is why walking next to her feels amazing.
When we got inside the classroom I sat next to her again and tried my best to focus. I had the feeling I was going to have to study double at home in order to make up for all that I didn't catch here at school.
And that is how the rest of the day played off. We sat next to each other in all the classes. We talked almost as easily as if we had known each other our whole lives. It wasn't awkward or complicated… it just happened.
For the very first time in a long time… I felt normal.
There was no numbness, no pain, and no guilt. Especially no damn guilt.
It seems as if Bella brought back in me that person who I thought I had lost that horrible night. She revived the old Edward.
After English class I gave Bella my address and then we started walking towards the parking lot. We were so engrossed in conversation that I hadn't noticed we were at the parking lot and we had to go our separate ways. But I wasn't ready to part from her yet.
"Let me walk you to your car Bella" I told her.
Bella looked at me and nodded. A small blush appearing on her face, as usual.
As we were walking toward her car, we were both suddenly out of things to say. We were just quiet. It was almost eerie. So I decided to speak first.
"Hey Bella, I already fixed my phone number. So let me give it to you that way you can call me tomorrow in case you get lost or something" I said to her.
"Oh ok" she responded. She took out her cellphone and handed it to me. I was almost scared that I would see a picture of her and her boyfriend in the background, but instead she had a quote.
I read it quickly not wanting to look like I was invading her privacy.
"And the scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to fail"
I quickly recognized the quote as the words in one of my favorite songs. Scars by Papa Roach. I would definitely ask her about that some other time.
I quickly put in my number in Bella's cellphone and handed it back to her.
We were now just standing there, face to face, just looking at each other. I wanted to be closer to her, but I knew it was wrong. Yet it felt so right. I craved Bella's company but not just because she brought the old me back, but because she made me happy. And not to mention that those lips will be the death of me.
She then decided to break the silence.
"Well I'll see you tomorrow Edward" she told me
I looked at her straight in the eye with the hope that I might convey just how much I wanted to be closer to her, and how much I was hoping on tomorrow.
"Alright Bella, drive safely and I'll see you tomorrow" I answered.
With that I turned around and started walking towards my car without looking back.
When I got back in the car and started driving home I thought about how today had been the perfect day…
I talked to Bella and I got to know her better. It turns out that she was even more beautiful once she lets you in. Bella doesn't just possess physical beauty… she has the whole package.
When I got home Alice was already there and as I passed her I thought how she might start getting curious and asking me about my day. I didn't think I was ready for that but surprisingly she just said "Hey Edward" when she saw me, and that was it. Well… she is weird….
Later at dinner I decided that I had to tell mom and dad that Bella would be coming over tomorrow. Yeah hopefully mom doesn't have a heart attack.
She always wanted me to move on and talk to other girls. Hopefully she doesn't make a big deal out of this.
I was nervous to let them know that Bella would be here tomorrow. She might not know it, but Bella was already special to me and I didn't want to mess this up.
I cleared my throat and spoke up. "Mom… hmm a friend of mine from college is coming over tomorrow to work on a project" I told them.
Everyone in the table was looking at me. "That's ok sweetheart" my mom said.
"I'll come home early from work tomorrow that way I can make y'all kids some snacks" my mom continued as she was cutting her steak.
"Ok" I said, trying to avoid telling them it was girl who would be here tomorrow… Alice on the other hand, had other plans.
"Oh what's his name Edward?" she asked… damn troll! Like she didn't know who that hell it was.
"It's a girl and her name is Isabella" I answered and looked down at my food.
I immediately felt three sets of eyes staring at me and I could practically feel my mom and dad burning a hole on my face with theirs.
"Oh really? That's cool!" Alice said. I swear I'm going to burn her purses… better yet… her shoes! That'll set her straight.
I'm sure Alice knew I was choking her to death with my eyes but she clearly didn't care. She looked at me and smiled.
"So who is she Edward? My mom asked… oh God, here we go.
"Remember the project I told you I was doing for English mom?" I asked her, my dad was still looking at me, while he chewed his food.
"Of course I remember honey" she said with her loving voice.
"Well, we have to work in partners, and Bella is my partner" I said hoping that they would all drop it.
My father finally spoke up. "I thought you said her name was Isabella" my father stated…. Gee thanks everyone… Shit you would think I've never brought a damn girl home!
"Yes it is, but she prefers Bella, she's the chief's daughter, she lives here in Forks" I told my parents.
I literary saw their jaws drop… oh well might as well spill!
"Oh… Bella Swan" my dad said serenely. This surprised me….
"Do you know her?" I asked my dad.
He chuckled and looked down at his food, cut a piece of steak, and started chewing. Then he cleared his throat and looked at me. Come on done… spill.
"Yeah I know her… she's very… prone to accidents, so she visits the hospital often" my dad said with a coy voice.
We all started laughing, and I am sure that Bella was a klutz. I had seen her more than once trip on her own feet.
"Well honey I can't wait to meet her" my mom said.
I could tell that she was happy, and so was Alice, she was almost bouncing on her seat. My dad just had a small smile on his face.
I could tell that tomorrow would change everything.
That night I went to sleep peacefully and content. I replayed the events that took place throughout my day, and the more I thought about them, the more I was determined to be close to Bella.
She had such an effect without even knowing it and for that I was grateful. Bella had brought me back to life and I was finally feeling alive.
A/N: Ok so they are definitely getting closer to each other… but they're ignoring James… what did you guys think? Don't forget to comment!
Oh by the way… what do you guys think about the bands that will be on the Eclipse soundtrack? I personally don't know many of the bands but I'm just hoping that the songs will fit in with the movie.
Also… I am recommending "Innocence Lost" by Cullen818. If you're into a dark Edward and caring Jasper… you'll love this one.