Sorry it's been awhile, a lot of things have happened including the suicide of one of my best friends. But here is the next chapter and the next one will be up tomorrow because I have already written it :) enjoy

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A Love of a different Kind

Epic Confusion

Bella's Point of View

We ran side by side down the huge driveway towards the Cullen's mansion home in Forks, Jasper was still holding my hand lightly in his own, and I couldn't help but feel elated that we would be staying together, though I had only known the Cullen's a short time, and I had never really known Jasper well, returning to this home, with him by my side, felt like returning home.

We ran up to the front of the house, where I stopped for a moment to take in the beauty I had never fully recognised until I had changed into the creature that I was now, I couldn't believe this would be my home from now on, mine and Jasper's.

I sucked in a deep breath and turned to glance at Jasper, he was staring at the house as well with a pained look on his face, I couldn't help but think he was remembering the last time he was at this house without me, when him and Alice were here together, when they were happy.

I cringed at the thought of what I had done to Jasper's relationship with Alice, they had always been so close, like the perfect couple, and me with my clumsiness and bad luck had managed to tear apart a match made in heaven, wow I really was a magnet for bad luck.

I pulled my hand away from Jasper gently without meeting his eyes, with this new range of guilt that I was feeling for what had happened, I didn't feel right standing there and holding his hand. I didn't look at him as I walked away, walking through the front door into the house that would be mine for however long we chose to stay here.

I could sense that Jasper was following me into the house, but I didn't want to talk to him right now, I didn't want to explain how guilty I was feeling for what had happened with Alice. Instead I decided to go to Edward's room, it would be my room from now on, his was the only stuff I wouldn't feel bad for throwing out the window, except for Alice's, but Jasper would be sleeping in there as it was his room as well.

With that in mind I headed up the stairs to destroy every memory this house held of Edward, to get rid of his clothes and personal belongings, I would make his room into my own and then I would be able to forget how much he hurt me, and remember nothing but how I was strong enough to pull through.

Jasper's point of View

I was really confused right now, me and Bella had been getting along really well, I knew this would be hard from the beginning we are both really hurt over the losses that we have sustained from the ones we thought loved us more than anything, but I had thought that we would have each other through the hardest parts, that thought was what had made the road ahead seem easy.

But now as we stood in front of our house, where I was waiting for the bombarding of the memories of time spent with Alice, and waiting for Bella to break down over her memories with Edward, I was hit with a different memory, a memory that hurt me more than any of the memories of Alice ever could.

I was standing in the lounge room with the family, Bella was opening her presents for her 18th birthday, without warning she sliced her finger on the wrapping of the present, and the scent of her blood filled my nose, filled my very being, intoxicating, it was like a drug and I could resist.

I closed my eyes and looked down in shame as I remembered the feeling of slamming into Edward as he threw himself in front of Bella to protect her from me, I remember snapping at her and fighting my family to let me have her. It was too much to bear, how could I have hurt Bella in that way? And how could she be by my side now?

Apparently Bella was having the same thoughts as I was, she dropped my hand and walked away from me, without a backwards glance she silently walked into the house that we would now share, I tried to shrug off the depressing memories of my biggest mistake and followed Bella slowly into the house.

When I walked in Bella was still looking around, paused at the base of the giant staircase, she ignored me walking into the house and looked upstairs instead. That hurt a lot, I know what I had done had hurt her, and it was so wrong, but I didn't want her to hate me for my mistakes.

Still without looking at me I felt Bella's emotions change, she became sad and then determined and yet again without a backwards glance she walked up the stairs onto the second level of the house, I heard her continue up onto the third level and heard her footsteps as she walked into Edward's room.

I couldn't help but wonder if Bella was afraid of me, she was hiding out in Edward's room, trying to get closer to him again, I felt so horrible for everything that I had done, I closed my eyes in defeat and walked to the room that I had shared with Alice, I was waiting yet again for the painful memories, but instead all my mind showed me was pictures of Bella.

I made my decision quickly, if Bella was afraid of me then I would give her some space, hopefully she will choose to stay with me, but it is her choice if she wishes to return to Edward, I am sure she will be offered another chance with him. I could only hope she chose to remain here with me instead.

Bella's Point of View

Okay, I was confused to put it mildly, if I was telling the truth I would say I was epically confused, I had cleaned out all of the old furniture and clothes from Edward's room, bouncing in and out through the window and down to his Volvo which he had left behind, I had now chosen to take all his old things and donate them to charity.

I had walked down the stairs feeling much lighter now and looking for Jasper to see if he would like to join me in removing Edward from our house, I liked the sound of that. When I found Jasper he was sitting in his and Alice's room, laying on the bed staring at the ceiling in silence, I knew he heard me arrive and would have felt my emotions as well, however he gave no sign saying he knew I was there.

"Hey Jasper, I am going to take a few of Edward's things that he won't need anymore and donate them to charity, would you like to come along?" I kept my voice light and playful, he didn't need to know we were taking the whole room, just yet.

Instead of looking at me though Jasper rolled his head in the other direction and looked out his window into the forest.

"No Bella, not today I need to hunt, it's been a while." I was stunned at the cold tone of his voice, he leapt of the bed in a smooth and fluid motion and was out the window in another second, I was shocked that he had left so quickly and that he had invited me to join him, we had been hunting together, therefore I would need to hunt soon as well.

After considering for a second chasing Jasper and asking him what was wrong, I decided against it, maybe it was just the memories, he was probably missing Alice and his old family, and he would need time alone to cope with the grief, I only hoped that when he was ready he would come to me.

But what if that wasn't really the reason? I had always known that I was never good enough for Edward, with his god like looks and intelligence I couldn't ever compare to, so what had made me think in a million years that I would be good enough for Jasper?

A god in looks in his own right, maybe not as book smart as Edward as he hasn't had as much free time for studying however he was by all means still a intelligent person, and he had the kindest heart I could ever imagine, he wouldn't hurt anyone if he could help it. How could I possibly think that I was good enough for Jasper?

He must have realised how boring I can get, that was the reason Edward left after all, he got bored and tired of saving me all the time, for all I knew Jasper wouldn't ever come back, he would leave me to live this life that I chose without the reasons for choosing it.

I stood dead still for about an hour, just staring at the window that Jasper had disappeared through, wondering if I would be able to stay like this for the rest of eternity. How could I survive living a life of solitude? Sure I had never been a person who wanted to talk to anyone and everyone, I was shy and nervous around people, but I didn't want to live the life of a recluse.

I wanted to have friends, and people to talk to, I wanted to know that I was loved and wanted and welcome in some places, I wanted more than anything right now to be able to have someone tell me that they wanted me in this world, and I had no one I could turn to.

There was only one option that I could see who would willingly spend time with me now, Charlie couldn't know I was alive, I wouldn't be alive if the werewolves knew, I was there natural enemy, and Jasper didn't want to be around me, sure I didn't know that for definite, but it was obvious, in my mind at least.

I turned to where I had left my phone, deciding that I wasn't strong enough to live my life alone, and if living a lie with Edward and knowing I would get hurt again was what it took, I would rather know I have pain coming to me, then to be alone.

I felt so weak as I picked up the phone and dialled the familiar number, raising the phone to my ear I heard it begin to ring, but my other senses kicked in at they picked up something much stronger and more threatening than my psychotic ex.

I could hear something moving towards the house at very quick speeds, one taste of the air around me told me it wasn't Jasper returning from his hunt, this wasn't a smell I recognised, yet it wasn't a human. I could hear the thumping of a wet heart pumping blood around a large body, yet it wasn't remotely appetising.

In a second I dropped the phone, hanging up on Edward who was still yet to answer, no doubt he was off distracting himself with Alice. I raced to the front door and peered out onto the front lawn where I saw the pack, but this wasn't the pack as I remembered them.

There were eight werewolves here, some I recognised, but some I didn't. I recognised the gigantic black wolf, which I knew was Sam, who was facing off with the wolf I recognised as Jacob. Besides Sam was Paul and Jarred, and one new wolf I didn't recognise, this wolf was stone grey and very shaggy.

On Jacob's side there was Quil and Embry, and another unrecognisable wolf, this one was sandy brown and gangly. The wolves were facing off as though ready to fight, however only Sam and Jacob looked as though they were willing to allow this to become a fight. The other wolves looked apprehensive about fighting there brothers.

I raced down the stairs towards Jacob, Jake swung his huge head towards me and I instantly recognised fear in his eyes, a moment to late I turned and realised the cause of their fight, me. Sam wanted to get me, and Jacob was here to protect me.

What made me realise this was the massive black wolf that was in the middle of a jump that was going to bring him down on top of me, where he would then proceed to destroy me. I knew I couldn't fight the werewolves, I couldn't hurt my friends, even though they now saw me as an enemy.

I felt my body tense as I waited for impact and surely the death that would follow.

Sooo that was it... what did you think? Review please, Danii xx.