So this might be a little fluff with a touch of smut filler chapter. Mostly because the beginning of pregnancy is crying and yelling and craving.. I mean those never go away but that basically the first part so I had to add that and how they are handling it. Then we can move into the life changing things, I mean she is a diva right? lol anyways I have been on a writing roll lately and I added a new story.. so now I'm writing this story, Heres to us and MAYBE Keep Fighting, haven't decided if I should continue with it or not. Anywho I am rambling once again..sorry about the wait and thanks for the reviews it means a lot.

Its been a month since we started working through everything and things have gotten better, sometimes I work to long and sometimes I bring up the past and vice verse but at the end of the night we talk it out and fall asleep in each others arms. The only thing that is different is that pregnant Rachel doesn't have a filter so she pretty much says whatever she's thinking and I've pretty much heard everything mean and nice in a course of a month, but this is new, usually Rachel likes the way I smell.

"Uh.. I'm sorry? I don't know what to say to that Rach."

"You smell like a girl… that's gross and I don't want it in our bed."

I would correct her and tell her I smell like that weird ass shampoo she accidently bought yesterday and I was forced to use this morning before I went to the store after work.

"I'll go shower."

"Thanks baby."

We had our first sonogram a week after I came back and that's when I knew that dramatic Rachel was replaced with 'crazy sobbing at a drop of a dime' Rachel. She cried harder then I've ever seen her,just when they told her to undress and get in the gown and to be honest I don't think she ever stopped. Between hearing the baby and seeing the little peanut, she pretty much spent the day crying and then the next day because she said her face was swollen and she looks like a hamster because her cheeks were huge so for those two days she just cried. I didn't say anything that whole day, it was scary so I did the only thing I could think of and called my mother.

"She's going crazy mom and she isn't even out of the first trimester, like what if she actually goes insane?"

"she won't Finn, she's just trying to get used to the hormones."

"I don't believe you."

"It's okay Finn, I was the same way."

"that doesn't make me feel better."

Needless to say my mother wasn't that much help, sometimes \though Rachel is soft and nice and moments like that I enjoy the most we sit around and talk about baby names and what she wants to do with the nursery. I told her she could have whatever she felt was necessary.

"Is that better Rachel?" I ask getting out the shower and walking over to kiss her on the cheek.

"Yes, now what are we going to eat tonight?" By far the best thing about this is the food, we have gotten to eat everything unhealthy on earth in the past month then we have gotten to eat the whole time we've stayed in New York .

She tells me she's in the mood for chicken parm and loaded potato skins and I think I fall in love with her a little more.

I think we should move out of this house it has bad memories, and I think I want my child to be raised in a smaller house. This is too big and when I tell Finn he just laughs like I'm being unreasonable. I don't know if you can love and hate someone at the same time but I do. Finn sucks, he's never there when I want him and when I don't want him he's right there. Pregnancy is horrible, my boobs are so sore that showering actually hurts, and sleeping on my stomach feels weird. But it's the morning sickness and the smells that I cant handle. I mean has New York always smelt like that?

"Finn." I also whine a lot now and I never did that before- well not much, it's like I don't know what I want anymore. Do I want him around or do I want him to go to work and be far far away from me because I think everyday he smells different.

"Yes Rachel?"

"Where are you?"

"About to turn into the driveway…why?"

"I want a kit kat."

He moans. "Ok baby."

He's good with the cravings, even though he knows I'll end of throwing up. He's been good with work too sometimes he's gone longer then I would hope but I know things won't be perfect I might be at home but he runs a company that employees millions of people so they can go home and support their families. I've see things differently since everything has happened, I think we both do.

It's an amazing feeling waking up next to him, euphoric honestly, when he wakes me up with kisses down my back and his hands sliding down my stomach. It's likes everything bad that has happened it washed away and it's us, like always. When he walks in the door I cant help but feel relieved I know it's the hormornes but when he's gone it's like I missing my better half and it hurts. "I got your Kit Kat Rach" he says walking over placing a light kiss on my lips before moving to my stomach and whispering to the baby and adding a kiss to my still flat stomach, it's cute and it's so Finn. I watch him run around the room jumping in the shower and changing into his clothes all while telling me about his day. His phone starts to vibrate "Finn Puck just texted you..he said..' Call when you can its about the assignment' what do you want me to say back to him?" I ask, because seriously is work the only thing they talk about? "Don't worry about it, I'll call him tomorrow or later tonight." He climbs into the bed and pulls me towards him," I just want to lay with my favorite people right now, ok?" It's nothing in this world I rather him be doing then laying with me, "Of course baby, but I'm going to sleep I'm exhausted from all the baby making I'm doing right now."

"Your not baby making right now, but we could be." And I know that voice it's dripping with lust as his hands start to lighting trace over my body and with the simplest touch it set my body on fire and a overwhelming feeling between my legs, "Finn, we shouldn't!" I say it almost a whisper because since being pregnant sex hasn't been the first thing on my mind since I'm usually crying or yelling and on worst days throwing up. " But I need you, and from what I feel, you need me too." He lightly runs his fingers over my now soaked panties before slipping one under and running it up and down my folds, " Well don't tease Finn its not nice." I can feel his smirk against my neck as he sucks and licks over the sure mark he has left, he lefts my leg and places it over his while using his other hands to press me harder into his chest, " I know you're tired, but I'm going to get you off first so you sleep better." And with that I couldn't help but let a moan escape my lips as he positions himself before slowly pushing into me and filling me completely, I've missed this, I've missed him. We haven't had sex since before he left and though every time with him means something, this is the first time we have made love in awhile and I want to relish in every moment, the feeling my body gets every time he pushes deeper into me while taking his time to kiss and love every available part of my body, " I love you more than you'll ever know Rach." He whispers and all I think about is how I know exactly what he means, "I love you so much Finn." As the feeling in my stomach and my body starts to tremble I know I'm close as his thrust become frantic and uneven I know he'll be following after me, as he snaps his hips and hit the spot that I so badly needed him to hit to give me the release I desired as his name rips through my throat and I feel his spill into me with my name flowing through his lips as the attach to mine and we whisper our last goodnights and drift into the best sleep I've had in a long time.

Yeah see filler chapter but I hope you guys like it!

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