Title: When Spring Rain turns to Summer Sky

Rating: M (change in rating)

Pairing: Tsukishima Shizuo x Hachimenroppi Izaya (DVD cover art characters. My profile has pictures of them)

Prompt from the Drrr Kink Meme: younger seme X older uke. Since Tsuki!Shizuo came out later (DVD 13), I'd like him to be younger and shorter than Roppi!Izaya, but still be the seme. XD Anon would like the story to revolve around the pains of pursuing somebody who's older and wiser (Roppi!Izaya).

Disclaimer: I own none of these characters!

THIS STORY CONTAINS MALExMALE RELATIONSHIPS. You have been warned.

It took awhile for Tsuki to clean up the paint and the mess. Hibiya and Psyche showed him where the tools were for cleaning and he scrubbed and scrubbed until there were no remnants of the spill. The two brothers had gone back to their rooms as the night came but Tsuki remained kneeling in front of Roppi's door in seiza position. He sat until his legs hurt. But he didn't have the heart to get up. He could hear Roppi sobbing through the door while he was cleaning. And even though hours had passed, he could still hear him sobbing quietly.

Several hours passed. The sobbing stopped but Tsuki could still feel Roppi's presence through the door.

"Roppi-san?" he spoke. There was no sound in the seemingly lifeless house, save for the sound of falling stars outside. The light shined through the living room window, the steady rain of silver stars streaming through.

"Roppi-san…"

Tsuki didn't even know where to start to ask for forgiveness. Or if he should even ask for forgiveness. He did not understand why Roppi was so … attached to this damaged room and the scars. Didn't he want to be healed? Wasn't it better to move on?

"You… don't have to forgive me… but I apologize that I did something you did not want… without your permission." Now the scar in the room was even larger, half painted and half ripped. It must look very ugly to Roppi… Tsuki bit his lower lips.

"I'm sorry." He managed to say.

Roppi on the other side did hear Tsuki. He heard his words and his apology. But he continued to stroke the burned mark on his wall. His fingertips felt raw, each touch felt like a knife to his skin. But he continued to touch the burned wall, his empty eyes boring into the black spot as he remembered his past and his…. attachment.

Unknowingly, Tsuki asked again, "Roppi-san… may I come in?" he grew worried at the silence. If Roppi was crying, at least Tsuki knew he was alive. But the silence…. and yet the feeling of his presence behind the door, made him worry. He couldn't have… committed suicide right? The way Psyche and Hibiya made sure that Roppi was not near knives and such made Tsuki wonder just a bit.

Growing anxious, Tsuki asked again, "Roppi-san. You haven't eaten anything all day. Shall I make something for you to eat?"

Again the silent treatment. Tsuki wondered if Roppi had fallen asleep… but deep inside, he knew that wasn't the case.

Should he… dare? To go against Roppi's wishes again for the sake of his health? Especially when he was seeking his forgiveness, was this wise?

Then suddenly he remembered Toki, the gatekeeper. How she had allowed him to pass. And the thousand birds who had helped him too.

'I can't let Roppi die like this.' Tsuki thought. 'What's the point of seeking forgiveness after he had dies? What's the point of trying to confess if I can't even protect him?'

Strangely feeling a surge of courage, Tsuki got up. He felt his legs tingle as the blood rushed through them like being prickled by a hundred thousand needles. Gritting his teeth, he told himself, this pain was nothing. He knocked on the door. "Roppi-san, please excuse me." and he pushed the door open.

Inside he found Roppi sitting next to the door. He was stroking the wall again and again, staring blankly. It looked… wrong. And creepy. A shiver went through Tsuki's spine as he knew right away, something wasn't right.

He sat down next to Roppi and hugged him.

"Everything will be alright, Roppi-san." Tsuki spoke softly, smiling at the man who looked as if his heart was so shattered, nothing could mend him back. "Everything will be alright. I'm so sorry Roppi-san. Please forgive me. Please… come back."

"Everything will be alright, Roppi-san." He says.

I stare at him in disbelief. No, everything will not be alright.

I tug at the bonds, but they are tight. He has made sure that this time the tape and ropes are stronger. I am securely tied to the bedpost. The bed doesn't budge at all no matter how much I struggle.

"Mmmhmm!" I look at him desperately. But he smiles back at me gently.

"Don't worry. It'll be over soon. Soon, I'll be just like you. Shining bright like a star."

I shake my head. This isn't what I wanted. This isn't what I…!

I'm scared. The bruises on my ribs from his punches a few days ago haven't healed yet. The marks he left on my inner thighs are still red. And my neck and chest are still covered with his angry bites.

I watch in horror as he locks the room. Then he starts pouring gasoline on the floor, splashing it on the walls and the ceiling.

The room reeks.

The smell makes me want to puke but the tape on my mouth prevents me from even screaming.

"Roppi-san? Roppi-san, can you hear me? Roppi-san?" Tsuki tried shaking Roppi's shoulders. But the raven looked as if he was in a trance. He was trembling and muttering something. Tsuki tried to listen. Roppi looked as if… his body was a shell and his mind had gone somewhere else. Trapped inside him.

"You main branch people think you're such hot shots. I resent it. Just because you were born into aristocracy, you guys are always above us. Special privilege this, special privilege that. Always in the spotlight."

He throws the can of gasoline against the wall angrily; I cringe at the loud sound it makes as the empty jug dents inward before clattering to the floor.

"Ah but don't worry Roppi-san. I love you. I love you very much. I love you so much. Even if I'm not one of the brightest stars, you love me back. You said you love me back."

I breathe harshly, panting through my nose in shallow puffs of air. My heart beats wildly against my chest. It hurts.

It hurts.

The hatred that runs so deeply inside his soul…. hurts.

"Roppi-san? Please snap out of it!" Tsuki shouted a bit louder, getting scared as Roppi leaned on him limply. He was breathing. His eyes blinked as tears gathered around his eyes. But he wasn't there. He was somewhere else. Somewhere far away.

"But don't worry Roppi-san. I'll be joining you. Today, I'll burn bright just like how a true star should burn."

He pours the last can of gasoline on himself, dumping it on his head.

My heart wants to burst out of my chest.

My hair stands on end as my mind screams to be released.

No, please!

Don't do this!

"I love you Roppi-san. And you said you love me too… so, will you please burn with me? Let's show those main house bastards how bright our love can burn."

With a smile filled with insanity, he strikes the match.

"Roppi-san! Please talk to me! Please! Look at me!" Tsuki wrapped both of his hands around Roppi's cheeks and held him close. Tears were streaming down the raven's face as Roppi started to cry uncontrollably for no reason. It was as if to Tsuki, Roppi was trapped in a nightmare he couldn't get out of.

As soon as the match drops, everything burns.

The light consumes the room,

instantly burning the walls, the ceilings, the furniture…

And him.

He screams.

And he screams.

The sound of his scream never leaves my mind as he dances in the fire like a devil who just signed a contract with a human for a soul.

I hear his laughter between the screams. His laughter filled with hatred and vengeance.

I close my eyes and cry, unable to tune out his screams.

It's too bright for me.

He's too bright for me.

The image and his screams burn into my mind forever.

"Roppi-san!"

Roppi stared up at Tsuki, finally his eyes focused. Tsuki sighed in relief and hugged him. He was yelling for awhile now. Enough that Psyche and Hibiya had came by and pretended not to see them as they walked back to their room. Tsuki was shocked by the apathy, it was as if the two brothers only cared to make sure that Roppi's body was alright and had given up on his mind.

"It's alright Roppi-san. I'm here. I'm here with you." Tsuki felt relieved as he was able to say words that could reach this man. He couldn't blame Hibiya or Psyche though. He had a feeling they too had tried everything until they were too exhausted to try anymore. But Tsuki was here now. And he wanted to stay with Roppi as long as he could.

"I didn't want him to die..." Roppi finally spoke, sobbing into Tsuki's chest. "I... I didn't want him to die..."

Tsuki didn't understand, but he just nodded. "I know. It's alright. It's alright now."