Can't you see that when I find you, I'll find me When I Find You - Joshua Radin
Oh I need you to know today I'll wait for you always
Oh I need you to know today I'll wait for you always
EPOV
Bella looked completely taken aback, even though I had told her I loved her twice in the past twenty four hours. "Listen Edward…" she began to say as I swiftly interrupted her, not wanting to hear her reject me, again. I wasn't ready to give up yet, I still had some fight left in me and she was definitely worth fighting for.
"I know you think we won't work out and that your hectic touring schedule will throw a wrench into a potential relationship," I muttered awkwardly as Bella let out a small sigh and fidgeted nervously with her hands. "But, you need to know I would do anything for you. I may not have shown it very well when we were together because I was an inconsiderate asshole who didn't want to lose you but ended up doing just that, but I've changed. I need to show you that I've changed."
"That's the problem, Edward. I've changed too. I'm not the same girl you think you fell in love with. I just don't see how you think this is possible," she finished as she motioned with her hand between us, my gut clenching at the thought that reuniting with her was completely impossible.
I was about to respond when our waitress arrived with our dinner, sliding them in front of us as an awkward silence fell between us. I watched intently as Bella took a small spoonful of her soup and smiled genuinely. Apparently, it was pretty good. Her smile fell immediately as she looked back at me. "Since you Edward, I have been completely guarded with my friends, family… hell, everyone. I don't trust easily, I don't sleep around and I certainly am not looking for a relationship. I don't think I ever will. I have my career and my music, and that's all I need."
"Being alone makes you happy?" I questioned anxiously as I pushed my food away, no longer interested in the soup and salad I had ordered. My appetite was completely ruined by our conversation which was clearly not going my way. I quickly realized that I should never have gotten my hopes up like I had the past few days. Bells shrugged her shoulders, not answering my question as I came to the conclusion that being alone made me miserable. In fact, I couldn't see how it could make anyone happy, unless they were the Unabomber or something.
"Are you happy?" Bella asked, avoiding my question.
"I'm content, but I wouldn't say I was truly happy."
"What's the difference?"
"I'm comfortable with the life I am leading and I know I'm making a difference. However, I know there is something… or someone missing from my life. I'm trying to rectify that and I won't be happy until I do," I said simply as Bella's eyes remained trained on mine. I found myself fiddling with the spoon in front of me to pass the time as Bella didn't respond for a bit, choosing instead to focus on her dinner and her tea. "So what about you, Bella? Are you happy?"
"If I go by your example, I guess I am just content, Edward."
"Don't you want more? Don't you think you deserve to be happy?"
"I don't know what I deserve," Bella declared stoically. I opened my mouth to respond as Bella's cell phone began going off and she quickly reached for it, letting out a sigh when she saw who was calling.
"What do you need Jared... no, they said they were coming at seven… can't you distract them or something? I'm kind of in the middle of… fuck, fine. I'll be back in less than ten minutes," Bella uttered angrily as she tossed her phone down on the table and my heart sank in my chest. She had to go and this was ending much sooner than I thought it would. "I'm really sorry about this but the radio station who is interviewing me has apparently shown up earlier than expected and I need to run."
Bella looked at me with a small hint of sadness as she stood up and began to rummage through her purse and pulling out her wallet. "Don't worry about the money. I think I can afford a twenty dollar dinner," I said quietly, my voice full of hurt that I wasn't going to get the time to finish talking to her. I stood up beside her and Bella looked at me as I held out her coat, helping her slip it on. Before I realized it, she was kissing my cheek softly and giving me this awkward hug that I wished could have lasted forever. However, when she let go, she muttered a quick goodbye and was out the door like a flash as I was left wondering what the hell to do next. This certainly couldn't be the end of things and Bella was still in town until tomorrow night; I had to do something.
I tossed some cash onto the table and stepped out into the early evening, heading in the direction of the nearest train station, so I could take it back to my condo. As I sat on the train, staring out the window, my cell phone buzzed in my pocket and I was surprised to see it was Kate calling me.
"Did you have the baby yet?" I asked with a snicker as I heard Kate grumble on the other end of the phone.
"No, not yet. Soon though, cause either I'm going to the hospital and just telling them I'm in labor when I'm not or this little thing is gonna kick his way out of my stomach. Marcus says he will be a soccer player, whereas I joke he will be a prima ballerina," Kate said with a laugh as I smiled in response. Here was someone who was joyful and I was extremely envious. Kate had what I wanted so desperately; a family and real love.
"I'm so happy for you, if I hadn't mentioned it sooner. You and Marcus will make great parents," I said honestly as my voice faltered slightly. I'd be lying if I never thought of the possibility of Bella and I having children and had even had a few dreams in the past. Of course, my mind often ran away with errant thoughts of us during the past four years. Some of my dreams were so random as I pictured us as free-spirited backpackers, the president and first lady and fuck, even vampires. That one was the by far the oddest.
"What's wrong with you by the way, you sound depressed again. I thought you worked through that shit?" Kate could always tell instantly how I was feeling, like she was my own personal mood ring. It was starting to get annoying though. However, she really was my closest confidante, so I told her everything. About seeing Bella last night and today, and I even went so far as to pick her brain as to how she thought I could win her back. Thankfully, Kate was full of bright ideas on this particular afternoon.
"What about that box you have?"
"What box? I have dozens of boxes in my apartment."
"The box under your bed that you think no one knows about."
"How the fuck do you know about it?" I asked with surprise in my voice. I didn't think anyone knew about that. Lord knows I hadn't even touched it in months.
"I saw it when you moved in. I think I could figure out what it was, and if I was Bella… I think that box may make me change my mind."
"Seriously?" I asked, my voice coming across as a yell in the small train car. "Just that box would make you reconsider?"
"Well, the box itself is a hideous eyesore, but it's the contents of the box that are more important. Just get it to her." I leaned my head against the window and sighed, thinking that it certainly couldn't hurt to send her the box and see what happens. "Oh and Edward, if it works… I want to meet the girl who has captured your heart and soul."
"If it works, I promise you will meet her, Kate," I replied solemnly as the announcement system in the train announced we were at my stop, so I proceeded to get off the phone and then the train. I ran across the street towards my building, excitement in my steps as I then hopped on the elevator up to my floor. Just as I was about to get off, Emmett and Rosalie stood in front of the doors, about to get in.
"Rosalie, do you have any ribbon?" I asked simply as they both looked at me in shock. Who the hell was I kidding, I knew she had ribbon. Rosalie had turned their second bedroom in to a veritable gift wrapping room because she had such an extended family it seemed like she was handing out gifts once a week.
"Ribbon won't work if you are about to try and hang yourself. It's not strong enough. I do however have some extension cords that could work like Locke on Lost," Emmett joked as I punched him in the shoulder. However, Rosalie turned on her heel and walked back towards their apartment, with me and Emmett following closely behind. "How did the meeting with Bella go?"
"Like shit. We talked some more, but then in the middle of it she was called back to give a radio interview. However, Kate gave me a great idea, thus my need for ribbon."
"What kind of ribbon?" Rosalie asked intently, as I looked at her with confusion clear on my face. How the hell was I supposed to know there were different kinds of ribbon? I really just wanted something that looked pretty. "Well come on, Edward, I don't have all night. We're going to be late as it is. Did you picture checks, polka dots, shiny ribbon, grosgrain, velvet, something with stripes or saddle stitching."
"What the fuck is saddle stitching?"
"Fuck, we don't have time for this shit," Emmett stammered as he reached into a drawer in Rosalie's craft desk and pulled out a dark blue ribbon that had a slight sheen to it. It was actually exactly what I had envisioned. "You said she looked good in blue. This will do." Emmett shoved the ribbon at me as Rosalie simply shrugged her shoulders. "Okay, we are going now. Keep us posted, man." And with that, Emmett and Rosalie bounded out their door in a hurry as I locked up behind me and crossed the hallway to my apartment.
I stepped into my small condo and immediately went to my bedroom to find the box. I quickly ran through the contents, deciding to leave everything in it and just see what happened. After all, this was a sort of fly by the seat of my pants type of idea and if I was going down, I might as well do it thoroughly right? I wrapped the ribbon around the ugly brown box and then headed down the street to the florist, looking for a few flowers to put with it. I ended up picking out a small arrangement of blue roses, which the florist explained to me signified the impossible or unattainable. It was oddly perfect, but I just wanted them for the color, because they matched the ribbon Emmett had given me. She also included some white flowers and the whole thing cost me more than I could have ever guessed. However, I also paid extra to make sure that they were delivered before her show started at nine thirty.
When I walked out of the store, I desperately wanted to go back to the Back Door to see her next show, but I knew in my gut that it wasn't the right thing to do. Surely the note I had included with the box and flowers said exactly what I haven't been able to say for the past twenty four hours. At least I hope it did. So instead of coming across like even more of a stalker, I went home and made myself some grilled cheese, finally feeling hungry for the first time in hours. When I was done, I sat by my window and stared out into the Chicago night, hoping like hell that this plan worked. Otherwise I was left with nothing, not even the box.
Shortly after midnight, loud obnoxious banging on my door woke me from my sleep. I had passed out on the couch, waiting in vain for Bella to call me, show up or something. I stood up and the knocking continued and as I strolled over to the door while I tried to figure out what insults to hurl at Emmett for waking me up so late. Someone better have died or gone into labor to justify this fuckery, I groaned to myself in frustration. However, when I looked out the peephole, I was shocked by who greeted me and I opened the door eagerly.
"You can't just send me this shit and expect everything to be fine," Bella said angrily as she barged in, the old brown shoe box in hand. She had specks of snow covering her hair and her coat was wrapped tightly around her; she looked cold. "That's not how shit works anymore."
"How does shit work? I'm trying here Bella, I really am."
"I don't know how it works, Edward, but this," she says as she moved her hands erratically in the air, still clutching the shoe box. "This is not it."
"I'm glad you got it though. Did you get the flowers too?" I questioned stupidly as Bella quirked her eye brow at me and groaned loudly.
"If I got the box, don't you think I got the flowers? I also obviously got your note; otherwise I wouldn't be here right now." Bella tossed the box onto my coffee table and then pulled her coat off, tossing it onto a chair in my dining room. I took it as a positive sign that she was willing to talk to me and watched as she walked around my apartment dressed in the same outfit from earlier in the day. "You can't keep doing this. This isn't how it was supposed to turn out. You were supposed to go away."
"I just want a chance at happiness, Bella. Is that too much to ask?"
"I'm not responsible for your happiness, Edward. You need to leave me be. I was happier before I knew everything. Before I knew you were pining away for me, looking for me, waiting to live your life with me. You need to move on Edward."
"I can't do that. I haven't been happy since we were together, so I need to try." Bella shook her head slowly and continued to walk around my small condo. She took my breath away and I couldn't imagine how great it would feel to have her in my place, but it did. It was awesome. "Just talk to me, alright? That's all I am asking for tonight."
"This is a nice place… very… clean," Bella said simply as her fingers ran along my mantle, which didn't even have anything on it. She was attempting to change the topic and I couldn't understand why she bothered, we had to hash this shit out now. We had no other chance. "Very non-descript."
"Says the girl that lives out of her suitcase," I joked as Bella offered me a small smile. "Yeah well, I still need to decorate," I said with a small laugh as Bella sat down on my couch and crossed her legs in front of her. Fuck, her legs looked good. I shook the thought from my head, realizing that I needed to win her back before I tried anything else. "Did you want something to drink? I have water, Gatorade, milk, ginger ale and I think Kate may have stashed some tea around here somewhere. She loves her tea."
"I'm not thirsty, Edward. You wanted to talk, so let's talk. I want to discuss the box."
I leaned against my kitchen counter and looked at her, unsure of how she truly felt about what I had given her. Was she happy? Furious? Murderous? Annoyed? I couldn't tell. "What do you want to discuss," I said simply, trying to hide my nervousness, as I grabbed a bottle of water from the fridge and headed over to sit on the couch beside her. She was so close I could literally smell her intoxicating scent and I reveled in it, even for just a brief moment.
"Where did you get it all?"
"I've been collecting it since the first time I met you."
"But why Edward?" Bella asked simply, her eyes filled with sadness. "I was nothing to you. You would fuck me and then ignore me. I was just glutton for punishment and kept coming back for more because I thought… well, it doesn't matter what I thought."
"I took me a while to realize it Bella, but you were everything to me, even if I didn't show you or tell you. I was just a product of my upbringing and my entire thought process surrounding you was completely fucked up. We were so much more important to me than I ever told you, and I'm sorry about that. You are here now and I refuse to let you go until you know how I feel, even if you don't feel the same."
"I think I know how you feel, Edward," Bella said with a sigh as she picked up the box and tossed it towards me. "I can't believe you had all of this or kept any of it. It's just junk."
I looked at her incredulously and tossed the top of the box off as I laughed loudly. "Just junk? You seriously can't claim that this matchbook from the Italian restaurant in Oak Park where we went on our first official date is junk? This is useful to me. One day I may need a match." Bella gave me a gentle smile and I took it as a sign and kept going as I pulled a small blue booklet out of the box. "What about this program from your first Guitar Ensemble show? Now that you are famous, this is gonna be worth big bucks one day."
"You were there?" Bella asked quietly, though the surprise was evident in her voice.
"Of course I was there. I couldn't miss you perform, even if it was your only show with them. You were too good for them anyways. It's not like any of them did anything worth a damn, right?" I said with a grin as Bella let out a laugh.
"Actually, one of the guys plays in Miley Cyrus' tour band, so that's something right?"
"No, not really," I laughed loudly as Bella joined me and I was relieved. I couldn't help but think that this might work after all. "And you can't believe that this coaster from Bellismia, our first coffee date is garbage, can you?"
"Edward…" Bella said quietly as she grabbed the box from between us and moved it onto the table. "Why are you doing this?"
"Because I am in love with you and have been since the first moment I saw you sitting in the music room, clutching your guitar. From the first chords of 'I've Got a Woman' you've owned me, Bella. My life won't be complete without you in it. In fact," I said with a grin as I fumbled around in the shoe box looking for my favorite memory, finding it and showing it to Bella eagerly. "I still have the guitar pick you used that very first day. I may have swiped it when you weren't looking."
Bella suddenly grinned from ear to ear at my excitement over the items in the box and reached her hand up to my forehead, touching it gently as the spark ignited between us again. "Are you sure you are feeling alright?" she asked quietly as I did the only thing I could think of at the time. I wrapped my hand gently around her wrist, pulling her closer to me as my lips descended on hers. She didn't fight me as my hand threaded its way through her soft silken dark brown hair, urging her lips closer and as I licked her bottom lip. I was shocked when her mouth opened, and I darted my tongue inside, desperate to feel her against me.
Even more shocking was when Bella suddenly pulled away from me, my breathing labored as I thought she was going to slap me again, but instead she suddenly adjusted herself on the couch and leaned forward, pushing me back onto the couch till we were laying down, as she pressed her chest against mine and continued kissing me again. It was frantic, passionate and desperate, but I was in heaven.
The feeling of her hands working through my hair, tugging gently as her mouth bit on my bottom lip before I covered her lips entirely with mine, was like something from another world. Bella swept her hair to the side and I pressed my lips forward against her neck, sucking on her soft tender skin as she moaned above me and then clutched my face in her hands, kissing me intensely again.
She was the aggressor, which had been rare in our previous relationship, and I reveled in it. My unsteady hands went to her hips and as she ground herself against my aching hard cock, I pushed the soft fabric of her dress further up on her hips; the skin of her thighs feeling like silk beneath my fingers. It had been so long since I had been with her like this, with anyone like this that I had begun to think it would never happen. Now that she was here, I never wanted her to leave. I wanted her always. However, I also wanted her beneath me so I attempted to roll her over onto her back. I wanted to stare into her eyes and reassure her that I would never leave her. I would follow her to the ends of the earth if she would let me.
Just as I wrapped my arm around her waist to reposition us, Bella jumped up from the couch and stood up, looking around the room frantically. "I shouldn't be here," she stammered as she pulled her dress back down, smoothing the soft knit fabric as she noticed her coat on a chair by the door. "This wasn't supposed to happen. I was supposed to tell you goodbye and you were supposed to tell me you had your closure and we were going to move on."
Bella began mumbling other things that I couldn't quite make out, but based on the tone of her voice it wasn't good. She was upset with herself that was clear. I was upset with her too though, for thinking that I actually didn't want her anymore because that was the farthest thing from the truth.
"I don't fucking want closure."
"What the hell do you want Edward?" she yelled as tears fell down her face and she grasped her coat in her hands and was trying to slip it on, fumbling in her efforts. "What do you expect from me? Do you think I should just forget what happened in the past and how you treated me because your family treated you like shit? Do you think I should just pretend you never ignored me and only wanted me for sex, because you should admit to yourself that I was nothing more than that to you."
"All I ever wanted was you and you were so much more to me than mere words could ever describe." I stalked towards her and Bella's coat hung partially off her shoulders as she backed into my front door and I stopped in front of her, leaving virtually no space. "I don't get how you can stand there and claim I only wanted you for sex. How many nights did we sit in my apartment and just do homework? I would watch you write songs in that ratty old notebook as I twirled your hair in between my fingers, desperate to touch you. How many times did I sit in that music room and listen to you practice just because I wanted to be near you? How many fucking times did I hold you as you fell asleep in my arms, your soft breathing lulling me into my own restless sleep as I dreaded you leaving me? Listening to you breathe was literally the most important sound in my world then, Bella. It still is."
"You can't just say all this shit now. You needed to have said it four years ago when I was an insecure girl who only wanted to be loved by you, but was clearly getting mixed signals because I never saw things the same way you did Edward." My eyes remained trained on Bella as she began to sob quietly, tears falling from her eyes as my stomach clenched in anxiety. "I thought you were just using me."
"I would have said this sooner if I had gotten the chance. I can't go back in time and change what happened or how I treated you, but I can make amends for all of it now. You can give me a second chance and I can prove to you that I have changed and I am worthy of you. You have my heart, Bella. It's yours to do with as you wish, but fuck how many times do I have to tell you that I love you before you will believe me?"
"Just once more?" Bella said softly, as her words came out sounding like both a statement and a question.
I looked at her darkened eyes and moved my leg in between hers before pressing my entire body against her, my lips desperate for hers once again. I reached my hands up and cupped her face tenderly as I leaned in and kissed her gently on her mouth. I then began kissing across her tear stained cheek to her ear lobe, which I sucked into my mouth as she let out a moan of arousal. I knew that moan so fucking well, because it had haunted me for years, but it sounded a million times better now.
"I'm so fucking in love with you. I need you. I desire you. Being without you has been killing me slowly and I refuse to do it anymore. You fucking own me… heart, body and soul, Bella. Tell me I have a chance," I said solemnly as I pulled my face away from hers for just a moment, my breath caught in my throat as I waited for her to respond. The tension was thick as I watched her eyes stare into mine, as though she was searching for something.
Suddenly, her small hands were around my neck as she stood on her tip toes and pushed her lips hard against mine. I didn't over think anything, I just let my entire soul feel her kissing me as I reached my hands around her waist and pulled her closer to me and she jumped slightly, wanting to wrap herself around me. Who was I to deny her? I grasped her hips and lifted her against the door, my hands moving to clutch her thighs as I ground my hard cock against her, our lips frantically moving against each other as her hands ran down the expanse of my back.
"Take me to your bed, Edward," Bella said breathily into my ear as my heart ached in my chest and I pulled her back slightly. She had been sucking on my neck as I literally dry humped her against my door, but I felt a twinge of uncertainty run through me.
"I didn't do any of this so I could get you into my bed."
"Do you love me?"
"Without a doubt."
"Then show me," Bella declared firmly as she wriggled out of my grasp and stepped onto the floor. She moved into the living room and perched her foot on the arm of my couch and slowly unzipped her left boot, before doing the same with her right, revealing a pair of dark blue knee high socks. She tossed the boots casually on the floor and then grasped at the hem of her sweater dress. She was about to pull it over her head when I stepped forward and stilled her hands.
"Let me," I said lowly as she nodded her head, taking her bottom lip between her teeth as I kneeled down before her and my hands skimmed the top of her socks before ghosting slowly up her legs, feeling her silky soft skin to her thighs. The further my hands moved up her gorgeous body, the more I pushed her dress up her stunning body. I reluctantly stood and pulled the dress off of her, dropping it onto the floor beside us as I moved to kneel back down, kissing across her body as I went.
Starting at her collarbones, I licked gently and kissed the soft skin as I began peppering kisses across the swell of her breasts, which I massaged gently. My thumbs moved reverently over her hard peaks, pinching them through the lace of her bra before I wrapped my mouth over one, sucking and tugging it between my teeth as Bella groaned loudly and her hands threaded between my hair, my body shuddering in excitement as she touched me. This was something I had been hoping and praying for, and now that it happening, I wasn't going to rush worshipping her.
After I sucked her other peak into my mouth, giving it equal attention, I continued kissing down her slender body, until I was kneeling before her. The cream lace of her panties literally calling out to me as Bella leaned her hands back on the arm of the couch and I lightly ghosted my hands down her inner thigh, past her calve until I found her foot and lifted it gently onto my shoulder. I was desperate to taste her.
"Edward," Bella said softly as I leaned in and skimmed my nose along the seam of her panties, which I couldn't even be bothered to take off at that moment. I grasped the fabric between my fingers and pushed it roughly to the side as my tongue darted out and began encircling her clit, teasing her. "Oh fuck."
I looked up at Bella, who was focused on me, watching as I ravished her with my tongue. One hand remained in my hair, pulling me closer to her wet pussy which I was lapping at intensely while my fingers flicked and rubbed at her hard clit. Bella's sweet moans, sighs and continued tugging on my hair spurred me on as I eased two fingers inside of her, pumping them furiously as I latched my mouth around her clit, sucking as though my life depended on it.
I could feel her legs shaking around me as Bella's back arched and she let go of my hair, her fingers gripping the couch tightly as she called out my name over and over again as she came violently around me. My tongue eagerly licked around my lips, tasting more of her as I eased her leg back onto the ground and stood up, my cock practically fighting to get out of my jeans. Bella opened her eyes and smirked at me as she grasped the back of my head and pulled me against, her kissing me wildly. "I've missed you," she said genuinely as I lifted her up and she wrapped her legs around my waist as I walked us into my bedroom.
"I've missed you so fucking much," I admitted without shame as I laid her down across my bed and Bella sat back on her elbows, watching me as I yanked my shirt off and threw it across the room. My hands went to my jeans and I began to unbuckle them, but my eyes were firmly focused on the woman in front of me, who had clearly changed since I saw her last. She was sexier, more confident and unafraid, which was also very appealing. As I pushed my jeans and boxers down, my cock springing free happily, Bella sat up and lifted her legs, beginning to pull down her socks. I immediately reached my hands up and stilled her. "Those are staying on."
Bella nodded her head in acquiescence as I kneeled on the bed before her and reached my hands up to hook into the waistband of her panties, yanking them off in one quick movement. Bella parted her legs and I may have stared for a moment at her glistening wet slit, before moving forward on the bed to hover over her almost naked body. "The bra has to go," I said sternly as Bella just smiled at me, expecting me to do it for her. I pushed the straps down her shoulders and then pulled the lace away from her peaks, to cup her ample breasts. "Fucking gorgeous," I whispered as I bent my head down and sucked one of her firm pink nipples into my mouth, biting it as I felt her hand wrap around my throbbing cock, causing me to hiss.
It had been so fucking long since someone other than me has touched my cock that it almost made me cum immediately. However, thankfully, Bella had different ideas and after stroking me for a moment, she reached up and unclasped her bra, dropping it onto the floor. "Condom?" she questioned in a whisper as I quickly realized I didn't have any. Of course I didn't fucking have any! The last girl I slept with was the next girl I was going to sleep with and hopefully the last girl I would ever sleep with.
I let out a groan of frustration as I sat back, Bella's hand releasing me. "I don't," I replied as I grasped at my hair and Bella's hands covered mine, pulling them loose.
"It's ok."
"No, it's not ok. You have no idea how much I have wanted this… wanted you. Fuck, I went four years without sex; of course I don't have any condoms here. I would go check with Emmett, but he and Rosalie are trying for kids, so there's a big no."
"Edward," Bella said as she sat up and kissed my lips soundly. "Just love me." I looked at her with wide eyes, knowing full well what she was saying and before I could reply, she grasped my cock again and lowered herself onto me, my entire body shaking in excitement as I felt her hot tight pussy encompass my cock. "By the way," she whispered into my ear as her hands found purchase on my shoulders and mine grasped her small waist tightly. "I haven't been with anyone else in four years either."
I growled as I moved her lithe body up and down on my aching shaft. I was trying to be gentle, but knowing that she had waited, although not necessarily for me, made it hard for me to focus. Being inside her without any barrier also made it difficult for me to think because it felt like Bella was made just for me. She was tight, hot and so perfect wrapped around me.
"I love you," I whispered without remorse as her hands wrapped around my neck and she clung tightly to me as I slowed my movements slightly. It didn't escape me that Bella hadn't said it back, and it might be years until she was ready, but I knew I would wait. I wrapped my arm around her and laid her on my bed, under me, kissing her passionately as I thrust in and out of her. "You are so fucking perfect for me. I don't know what I would do without you."
"Fuck, I've wanted you so much," Bella said with a groan as I lifted one of her hands above her head, pressing it into my pillows. "You haunted my dreams."
"I would do anything for you," I growled as her legs entwined around my waist, pushing me into her deeper. "Oh fuck… I almost forgot how fucking good you felt. Unbelievable. Beautiful. Stunning." I suddenly stopped as I moved my hand between us, and stroked Bella's clit, before picking up the pace and moving in her harder. "My dreams did not do you justice."
Bella arched her back under me and began chanting my name as she came, bringing about my own release which overwhelmed me. Then again, it had been four years in the making. I fell back on my bed, my heart beat erratic and my mind completely mixed up because I had just made love to the girl of my dreams, the love of my existence, but I had no idea what it meant for us.
I reached over and pulled Bella into my side, her head resting on my chest, as we both struggled to calm down. I was about to speak when Bella said the very thing that was on my mind.
"Now what do we do?"
A/N: Did you miss me? LOL. I'm back again with another update and a reminder that I am currently up for auction in the Eclipse Edition of the Fandom Gives Back Auction. I already sold all my one-shots/outtakes, but you can sill buy chapters of Room 15 if you are so inclined. An outtake from Maybe I'm Falling For You is also up for auction, but that is under the profile of my collaborator Flightlessbird11. The next chapter of Sundrenched World will be the last chapter. I know, I can't believe it's over. Unless someone wants me to write an outtake from SW as part of FGB Eclipse, I will not be expanding it. I'd like to think I can wrap everything up with a nice bow in the final chapter. Now show me some love and maybe I will update faster. LOL