Oliver's Journal

Dear diary,

God damn it. Lily's avoiding me. She won't talk to me, and it's all my fault. I think I might have hurt her, and if I have then I think I might actually have to kick my own butt. It's funny, I've protected Lily from getting hurt all her life, and then ended up hurting her myself. Hold on a sec, my phone's ringing. It's Cooper.

"Hey Coop," I said.

"Hey man, I was just wondering, isn't it supposed to be best friend time with you and Lily?" Cooper asked.

"Yah, your point is?"

"Well I just saw her sitting at the parking lot of the old mall. She looked kind of down and I was just wondering why you weren't with her," Coop asked.

"It's a long story man. I'll tell you later," Oliver answered.

"All right. See you later," Coop said, hanging up. Oliver walked over to his bed and started to dream about a certain pop star, that is, until his dreams were invaded by blue eyes. Her deep blue eyes were always what got him.

Well, here I am again. Good old mall parking lot. Why am I so attracted to this place? There's nothing special about it, not really. No cars, just a run down old building on the verge of falling down. I see a couple pidgeons and two boys. Wait, that's strange. What are those boys doing? They're snickering and leaning over something. I'm really curious what's so funny. I could use a good laugh. I started walking over, and I'm about two feet away when they both suddenly take off in my direction.

"Hey I'm Li-" I began,watching them rush right past me. I turn around and stare at them as they run off.

How strange…

Suddenly, I feel the ground shake, but only for a second before I's flying forward, the last sound I hear was that of 500 fireworks going off simultaneously. I feel heat on my back for a second before I hit the ground and it all stops, everything goes away. I no longer feel the pain in my heart caused by Oliver or the pain in my head caused by my date with the parking lot asphault (or what was left of it). Everything is black and I feel like I am far away from my body, completely detached from everybody and everything. I'm scared because I don't what's going on and like a 5 year old I want my mom. I can't figure out where I am, or even if I'm still alive. I can't help but think that I'm dead, because if I wasn't, wouldn't I be able to feel the pain? If I wasn't dead, then why would I be floating. Wait, am I floating, or does it just feel that way? I'm so confused and I want to cry but I can't because I no longer seem to have control over my body.



Cry God Damn it Lily! Why can't you cry? Is it because you're dead?

I feet myself drifting away. Not only can I no longer feel my body, but I'm beginning to lose feeling to myself. Everything is slowly fading to black, as if I'm falling asleep. I'm almost gone, almost…and all I can think is Oliver. Oliver where are you? Be my knight in shining armor and save me. Save me from this black hell with no feelings. Please, I want to feel myself again…I want to feel you again, to remember what your wet hair felt like on my blushing face. Oliv-

Then all consciousness left me.