Soul Searching Through Time

A/N: I do not own anything Twilight, that honor belongs to S.M.

Special thanks to Untamed Loner

Chapter 10

Jacob Black and Isabella Swan

Leah and Seth…

They both phased at the same time. Why this happened will be quite obvious as the story comes to light. Leah as a human is described as beautiful in an exotic way. She has perfect copper skin, eyelashes like feather dusters, and stands around 5'10" tall. She wears her sleek black hair in a short pixie cut after phasing, for the same reasons that we males shave our heads: long hair means longer fur.

This brings us back once again to the phasing point of the families involved. We all thought that with the gene being handed down through the daughter's of the great Taha Aki, it wouldn't have the potency to cause the woman to phase, only the men. With Leah being a woman and transforming into a wolf, it gives us reason to rethink what we once thought. It also shows our ignorance in thinking women aren't our equals and brings our tribe into the twentieth century.

In her wolf form, she's a smallish gray wolf. She is physically the smallest in our pack, possibly due to her gender. Phasing has stopped Leah's menstrual cycle and she gets bitter over it because she fears it may prevent her from having children or imprinting on someone. Leah is known as the fastest wolf in the pack. She is so fast that she can outrun anyone in her pack. This is the only part that she enjoys about being a wolf. She enjoys taking patrols and beating her companions at the same time.

Leah is portrayed as angry and bitter as a result of her broken heart. She has a short temper, and often uses the pack's mental connection to remind the others of things they would rather forget; presumably to vent her pain at being connected to Sam. However, she also demonstrates considerable loyalty to them and protectiveness of her brother. Leah has matured remarkably after I took over the pack. I think it's mostly due to getting away from Sam.

She mentioned to me once that she had considered going to community college and possibly taking a class in meditation and yoga to help with her temper issues. She also implies that she intends to quit phasing as soon as she is able to control her phasing. She is quite competitive in racing and would willingly accept any challenge, though she dislikes being a wolf and being around vampires.

Leah was loyal to me after I took over the pack, even going as far as to confront Bella about her unintentionally tormenting of me. Bella was very hurt by this incident and I commanded Leah to stop, though I did not enforce it in my unbreakable Alpha-voice.

I think that subconsciously I let it slide to a point, hoping that something would snap in Bella, making her see that she didn't belong with the leech. Leah greatly disliked Bella in the beginning, mainly because of her idea that Bella was torturing me.

Leah could see how I felt for Bella and when Bella came to the reservation on visits it would make it that more distressing for me, knowing she was going to leave here and run back to her Leah and Seth phase at the same time it was more like one after the other in their case, with Leah being first. After she walked in on Emily and Sam kissing, she stormed time passed, Leah found herself growing angrier and began to fly into a rage over the smallest irritations.

Her body begins to change without her awareness, and when she got into an argument with her mother about her mood swings, her anger causes her to phase for the first time and she destroys a couch in the process. Seeing their daughter phase rather than their son, Seth, her father suffers a fatal heart attack. Seth witnesses the incident and the shock causes him to phase as well.

Leah's transformation causes her further pain because she holds herself responsible for her father's death. Furthermore, she is forced to join Sam's pack and their mental link reminds her that he abandoned her for her cousin, Emily Young. She deliberately uses this connection to punish Sam and the pack, both with her memories and by bringing up uncomfortable subjects such as Embry Call's parentage, all things the pack would rather forget.

She has also tried to go solo, but it did not work… However, she did come to forgive Emily and Sam after learning the truth and agreed to be her cousin's bridesmaid.

Leah came to idolize Seth, for being more understanding and friendly than she was. They seem to have a loving, normal brother-sister relationship where they tease each other.

Leah, did leave the pack later on in life, she met a man named Michael Adair, they married and moved to Port Angeles.
Seth is much younger than Leah. Seth was born and grew up in La Push with his family. As a child, he had always been happy, optimistic and purely kind. His parents has always known that he had werewolf genes of the Black, Ateara and Uley family lines, and would someday become a shape-shifter to protect their tribe from vampires.

As a human Seth has a tall, gangly build, with a youthful face and a huge, happy grin, with brown eyes. He stands around 6 feet tall. His skin is russet colored as the rest of us and his hair is black, worn short like we all do in the pack. Bella told me once that he reminds her of a younger me. As a wolf, Seth remains tall and gangly, and has sandy colored fur. His build takes on the appearance of a Mexican wolf, smaller and rangier than those of the older shape-shifters.

Seth is immature, childish, but cheerful, optimistic and exceptionally kind. Seth is known to have the best hearing among all the other pack brothers. When he listens he can decipher the number of wolves or vampires coming our way. Although physically smaller than most wolves in the pack, he can still take down a lone vampire without help. Despite this, the pack still thinks of him more as a kid even as a grown man.

Seth apparently looks up to me and it was made known to me that he "hung on my every word with idolizing eyes", making me realize that I had to watch what I said and did around him. Seth would interrupt me whenever it seemed like I might have forgotten him.

Although Seth was deeply saddened by his father's death, he accepted his transformation far better than Leah did hers. He didn't have the same challenges to deal with. After meeting Bella, Seth grew to love her and they became instant friends.

I find that Seth has one of the purest, kindest, sincerest minds I have ever heard. He can also be depicted as forceful and independent when he wants to do something important.

Although he is repelled by vampires' smell just like all of us shape-shifters, he doesn't mind it. He also has an energetic and self-assured attitude. Whenever, I give him an order, he obeys without question or hesitation. He sees his powers as a gift instead of a curse and enjoys them more than most of his pack brothers. Seth hasn't imprinted as of yet, although he dates, he never settles down with one certain woman. He fears that he will do to another as Leah had done to her.

I was born Jacob Ephraim Black.

I find it amusing now, that I was named after my great-grandfather, when once my spirit lived in his body. I was told that I looked fourteen maybe fifteen before I phased. I had long, glossy black hair and I used to pull back with a rubber band at the nape of his neck. My skin is the same russet-color as my brothers. My eyes are dark, set deep above the high planes of my cheekbones. I had just a hint of childish roundness left around my chin. Without being self absorbed, I was told that I was and still am a handsome sort of man.

I grew from the height of 5'10 to 6'7 within one year. I am the tallest in the pack. Bella said one time, that I would surely hit my head on the beams of our new cottage while it was being built. I am, of course, of Native American descent.

Around the time I started to phase, my body grew tremendously thick, toned and muscular, similar to that of a serious bodybuilder, though balanced by my tremendous height so I didn't look out of proportion.

After my transformation into the Quileute pack, my hair had to go. Its length it made it impossible to manage in wolf form. So I cut it. In wolf form the color of my coat is reddish brown or russet color. Also in wolf form we keep our eye shape and tone, making it easy to see which wolf we are by just looking into our eyes. I am ten foot from the end of my snout to the tip of my tail and I stand at a height of seven foot tall. After I took over the alpha roll I gained more stability in my appearance, I became the tallest and largest of any of the pack.

We are not like wild wolves that live in the forests. We are intelligent creatures and work in a joint pack mind. I am also the fastest runner next to Leah Clearwater. I am also the best fighter of the pack with Paul Lahote next under me.

When I first transformed into a wolf, I hated it. I rebelled. I felt as though it destroyed my life, took away my decisions. It didn't help that Sam kept me away from Bella for fear I would become agitated and phase. He feared I would hurt her unintentionally, but what he didn't understand was I couldn't hurt Bella even if I tried. I found a loop hole in his injunction, or maybe it was just the fact that she was my soul mate and no one anywhere would keep me from her.

After Bella started seeing the Cullen boy and I found out what he was, I was determined to get her away from him anyway I could. I couldn't tell her what I was or what they were, but it dawned on me that Bella and I talked once of our legends.

This was long ago before I knew they were true. I told her of how we descended from wolves and defended our tribe against the Cold One's. I went to Bella and maneuvered my way around the truth, trying to get her to remember that time when we talk about the legends.

Finally, she understood what I was and what I was trying to tell her. She was very smart, my Bella, and still is to this day.

Sam was surprised that Bella knew of the wolves, that she had figured it out with a little help from me. After that, she was welcome to our meetings and bonfires. She was welcome to the telling of our legends, by the elders, but mostly from my dad, Billy. She actually enjoyed hearing the tales of old. I watched as her eyes shined while Billy told our stories. The smile that swept across her lips was mesmerizing. She captivated my soul all over again.

I knew Bella was mine, she would always be mine. If only I could make her see what I see and get her away from that bloodsucker. I didn't understand what she saw in him. He was cold and hard to the touch. He was dead, what did he know of love. Couldn't she see they only wanted her as a pet? Or maybe something worse, like her blood? I had to make her understand that they had a way of captivating their prey. How can someone so smart fall into their trap?

I remember the day that I found out she was friendly with the family of leeches, but at the time I didn't know what they were. I knew the tribe didn't like them, especially dad. The only thing at the time I worried about was Bella and how I was going to win her heart over that male model looking guy.

I decided just to be her friend as always, stay as close to her as I could without chasing her off. There were a few times I invited her down to have dinner with me and dad, and watch a movie after. But she was usually going to the Cullen's to do the exact same thing and I was too late once again. The guys tried to cheer me up a few times and it was fun, but I missed my Bella.

But there were times she would come down and hang out on the weekends or after school. We would sometimes do homework together or watch a movie. We also would go to the beach and walk around or share a piece of drift wood and just talk.

I always let her know how much I missed her, showing my puppy dog eyes, wanting her to take the hint and come down more.

One day I went to visit Bella Friday after school. When I got there I put my hand up to knock on the door. I could hear Bella talking to someone on the other side. I dropped my hand and listened to their conversation. I knew it was wrong, but I had to know what was going on with them.

"Isabella, I don't want you going down there to that reservation. It's not safe," the male voice said.

"But, Jake's my friend. He's been my friend for as long as I can remember, Edward," Bella whined.

"Bella, this is not debatable. I think it best if you stay away from there. If you need to get out of the house for awhile, you can come over to our house or Alice can take you shopping. I mean it, Isabella. I don't want you going down there," Edward said sternly.

So this was the famous Edward Cullen, my competition. Why would he make her stay away from me? What was his problem?

"But Edward, I've known him all my life. He would never hurt me," she whined yet again.

"Isabella, look into my eyes," he said. "You don't want to go down to the reservation. You don't want to visit with anyone unless it's me or my family. Is that understood, Isabella?" he said almost hypnotically.

"Yes, Edward, I understand," she said as it got quiet and I wondered what they were doing in there, so I knocked…loudly.

So…what did you think? Let me know…huggs