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WARNING: MORE ANGST!

Jade hasn't been answering my calls. I've just been sitting here for hours feeling so horrible, just waiting for her to come back, so I can apologize. I never really considered how hard this must be on her. I feel beyond selfish now.

I know she's with him. I know he opened the door, and saw her crying. I know he wrapped his arms around her, and whispered comforting words in her ear. I know he pushed her hair out of her face, and wiped away her tears. And I know she enjoyed it. She felt comfort in the calming sound of his hushed whispers in her ear. She loved how safe she felt in his arms. She fell in love with him all over again when she looked into his eyes, and he assured her everything would be ok. And then they kissed.

I break from my paranoid thoughts, when a sharp pain gnaws at my heart. Just thinking like this is killing me, and the worst part is, that's probably exactly what happened. Now she's remembering why she's with him in the first place, and what a great boyfriend he is. She's probably feeling beyond guilty for cheating on him, and any minute now she's going to walk through that door, and call off the trial run.

You've screwed up royally this time Tori. Good job.

I try calling her again, but she doesn't pick up, which only confirms my suspicions. I've pretty much blown my chances with Jade.

-8 o'clock-

Jade never came back to the hotel room. I decided to go on to the show without her. As I suspected, she showed up with Beck.

What am I supposed to do? I can't just go up to her, and apologize in front of Beck, and the entire class. I can't just ask to talk to her in private either, because everyone will be suspicious. Then, I get an idea.

Before the show starts, I pull cat out of the theater, and ask her to come with me to the bathroom.

When we arrive, I put my hands on her shoulders, and look into her eyes with the most serious face I can muster up. She looks up at me quizzically, with a raised eyebrow.

"Cat, I need you to do me a favor, okay? Even if it doesn't make sense, I just need you to do it. Okay?" I say slowly, trying to be as clear as possible.

"Kk," she says simply with a smile. I can't help but smile back, relieved that I don't have to give her a further explanation.

"I need you to text Jade, and tell her you got lost on your way to the bathroom, and to come find you, and help you to the bathroom. Then I need you to go out there, and wait for Jade to bring you back to the bathroom. Can you do that?" I say with pleading eyes.

"Why would I do that if I'm already in the bathroom?" she says, with her often used confused look.

"Cat, if you can do this now, I'll explain later. I just need you to trust me," I plead desperately.

"Okay," she says finally, after a pause. My face lights up, and I immediately pull her into a hug.

"Thank you so much Cat!"

"Um.. Sure Tori.. I guess," she says, still acting skeptical. I rush her out of the bathroom. The sooner Jade gets here the better. Now I've just got to play the waiting game.

Minutes pass, and finally, the door opens. Just as I hoped, Jade and Cat walk through the door.

As soon as Jade sees me, her face hardens, and her eyes narrow.

"Caaaat!" Jade turns, giving Cat the same glare.

"Uhhh... bye!" cat says awkwardly, and leaves the bathroom. Jade immediately turns to follow her, but I grab her arm, and pull her back. She shakes off my arm, takes a defensive step back, and crosses her arms.

"Jade, I.." she raises her hand to silence me.

"Spare me the lame apology Vega!" Jade says in the cruel tone I thought she was no longer going to use on me. At hearing my old nickname, and her harsh tone of voice, my heart sinks into my chest. I quickly change my hurt expression into anger.

"So we're back to that? You can't even spare me the fucking decency to call me by my first name?" I say furiously.

"Oh, little miss perfect learned a bad word," Jade spits back, laughs and rolls her eyes. A sharp pain gnaws at my heart. I knew Jade was mad, but I didn't know she was so mad that she had forgotten everything we shared during our trial run. She's treating me like it never happened. Like she never loved me. She's treating me like a nothing. Like one of her punching bags, and it hurts. It really hurts.

"Fuck you Jade!" I spit venomously. Jade laughs again, unfazed by my anger.

"In case you've forgotten, that's what got us into this mess."

"Oh, so it's a mess now? And to think I was about to apologize to you!"

"I don't want or need your apology. And yeah. It is a mess! What the fuck else would I call it? I stepped into princess perfect's fairytale world, and guess what? It turned out you're no princess after all." She says the last words in a cruel matter of fact tone. The sharp pain in my chest intensifies.

"You wanna hurt me? Go ahead. What else have you got? Huh? Lay it on me!"

"Don't you fuckin' turn this around on me like you're so innocent! You're the one who talked me into this crazy mess! What did you expect? A fairytale ending? Did you really think I would pick you?" she says cruelly. I fight back the tears welling up in my eyes with every ounce of strength in me.

"Oh, and I'm the bad guy for saying you were leading me on?"

"Whatever Tori. Yeah, I lead you on. Ok? I got you drunk, fucked you, and begged for more," she says sarcastically, "Wait, no, you were the one begging. I didn't want this stupid trial run. You did! If I wanted to lead you on, I would have been the one insisting we give this a try. But did I? No! That was you. I agreed because I actually thought we could make this work. I actually thought there was something between us. I was just giving into delusions. Clearly. My mistake."

So this is what it feels like to have your heart broken. All the movies I've watched, and books I've read couldn't have prepared me for this. I want to crawl into a hole and die. All because of Jade. The person who made me feel on top of the world yesterday has now made me feel lower than I've ever felt.

I take a deep breath.

"So it's over?" I ask, feeling defeated.

"Give me one good reason to stay."

I don't know what to say. Do I fight anymore? Is she still worth it? Is she still worth the effort? Was it ever real love, or was I just giving into delusions, like she said. Maybe it was all an impossible fantasy. How could I ever think me and Jade could be a couple, when we're so used to being enemies. So used to fighting. Will we ever be able to put down the swords? Is it even worth the effort to find out?

"Just go," I say in defeat, and within seconds, she's gone. I just broke my promise. I let her slip away, but as of right now. I couldn't care less.

It kills me to have to post this, but after all, the genre isn't just romance, it's angst. Please stick with me through the angst. I can't spoil the ending, but I can assure you it gets better.