Chapter 11

Today is the day of the party; Alice has been planning like crazy the last few days to make sure everything is perfect, she has been having planning nights every night where she would tell us what was going to happen and then give us jobs, she was being really bossy but that's just the way she is. Most, well actually all the night's turned into movie nights, we would all sit around and listen to Alice tell us what was going to happen and what are jobs where then we would move to the sofas me with Edward, Rosalie with Emmet and Alice with Jasper. Alice would get the snacks and drinks while Rosalie got the blankets and Jasper would put the film in. Every night i would end up falling asleep curled up in Edward's side with his arm resting over my shoulder. I think the planning and the movie nights had actually bought us all closer together because now I'm actually on speaking terms with Alice, Jasper and Rosalie.

I was brought out of my thoughts by a knocking on my door.

"Come in."I said, while searching through my draws for something to wear. I had just got out of the shower so i was only wrapped in my towel.

"Bella, you're supposed to be downstairs already and helping me put up the decorations for tonight." Alice said sounding annoyed. I turned around to look at her and sure enough she had a scowl on her face.

"Alice calm down we have got time, the party doesn't start for another nine hours." It didn't seem to calm her down so i said i would be down in a minute she just nodded and closed the door behind her on the way out.

I searched through my draws and decided to wear a skirt as i was only going to be walking around the house today, i put on my dark blue lacy thong and bra, i put on my tartan mini skirt and black tank top without a hoddie because everyone had seen my arms anyway so what was the point in covering them up, and put on my red canvas shoes.

I left my room and was about to go down stairs when i started to get muscle pain, i was really trying hard the past few days to cut back because Edward had help me realise that the drugs were controlling me not the other way around, i could see how bad the addiction had got but i didn't know how to stop taking them i didn't want to be in pain i didn't want to get sick but the thing i didn't want most was to see the disappointment in their eyes when i failed from not being able to cut back or when it would kill me, because i knew it would. I wouldn't have been able to realise it without Edwards help, but right now i needed the drugs to take away the pain. I turned back towards my room, and shut the door behind me. I took out my little baggie of pills and swallowed two but i knew that wouldn't be enough so i snorted two lines of blow as well. I don't know how long the high will last when the drugs take effect but i promised Edward that i would only take something if i started to get muscle pain.

I walked back out of the room and down the stairs, and walked into the living room it was already starting to look good, Rosalie was putting up streamers, the boys were sorting out the DJ area, by doing all the electrics and sorting out the decks, apparently we didn't need to hire a DJ because Rosalie knew how to spin, i just hoped she played decent music. Alice was standing watching the boys barking out orders, and i just leaned against the door frame and watched, it was really quite comical because Emmet kept getting caught up in the electrical wires, Edward didn't seem to know what he was doing and Jasper was just trying to do what Alice sais to make her happy but kept getting it wrong. I must have laughed a bit too loud because everyone stopped what they were doing and looked at me.

"Good, you finally graced us with your presence; i want you to put up these lights around the windows." Alice said handing me some hanging lights. I took the lights from her and put them by the window so i could get the step ladder. I got the ladder form under the stairs and went back into the living room and set the ladder in a safe spot by the window, i was suddenly over come with energy, i knew that the drugs were starting to take effect which was good because i would need all the energy i could get if i was spending the day with Alice shouting out orders sorting things out for tonight.

It had only taken me forty-five minutes to finish hanging the lights, i got off of the ladder and looked around the room, Emmet was moving all of the furniture around and had cleared a big space in the middle of the room for a dance floor, the couches and chairs now lined the walls. The room looked amazing and i couldn't wait for the party to start to get the full effect of the room. We continued decorating the rest of downstairs, upstairs was out of bounds tonight, it's a good thing that we have a downstairs toilet. The boys set up all the alcohol, and us girls set up the snacks, by the time we had finished everything we had three hours to get ready, the boys decided it wouldn't take them long to get ready so they headed to Emmet's room to play video games on the x-box 360. Alice and Rosalie went to Alice's room to start getting ready. I had been having bad muscle pain for about an hour now and was starting to feel nauseous so i went to my room i figured i may as well take so hard stuff to get me in the mood for a party so i injected heroin. I'm surprised that nobody noticed that i was shaking or sweating, they didn't even notice the quiet whimpers that escaped me. I decided to do a line of blow as well and then got in the shower.

The warm water flowing over my body felt heavenly, i washed my body with my freesia body wash and then washed my hair with my strawberry shampoo and conditioner. I shaved all over, i even made sure to shave down stairs. I got out of the shower and wrapped a towel around my body and y hair, i brushed my teeth before leaving the bathroom. I sat on my bed and took my make-up bag out of the top draw of my bed side table; i took out the small compact mirror and my tweezers, and plucked my eyebrows. I left my make-up bag on the bed and looked through my wardrobe for something to wear for tonight's party. I couldn't find anything in my wardrobe that i wanted to wear. I looked through my draws to see if anything was in there, but i couldn't find anything, i stopped looking when there was a knock on my door.

"Come in." I said exasperated because at this rate i would be going in my underwear.

"Oh good you're not ready yet." Alice said as she walked into my room. "Right where to start." She said while tapping her chin with her pointer finger.

"We need to pick her out an outfit first Alice." Rosalie said walking into my room and sitting on my bed.

"Erm guys? What do you want?" i asked while looking at them sceptically, they didn't look ready for the party at all, they both had wet hair so it was obvious they had showered they just needed to do their hair, make-up and get dressed.

"We have come to get you ready of course." Alice said like it was the most obvious thing in the world. "Oh i have the perfect outfit for you. Put some underwear on and meet us in my room in ten minutes." She said before dragging Rosalie out of my room. I quickly put on my matching black lacy thong and bra, and my dressing own and walked across the hall to Alice's room.

I knocked on the door and heard Rosalie call for me to come in. I walked in the room and looked around, it was the first time i had ever entered Alice's room and it was so bright with bright coloured walls and furniture to match.

"Come sit here Bella." Alice said politely pulling out the chair in front of her vanity mirror. I walked over and sat down in the chair.

"Rosalie can you do her hair while i do her make-up please?" Alice asked.

"Yeah, sure. How do you want it?" Rosalie asked while taking my hair out of the towel.

"Erm, i think loose curls will look good with the outfit i have picked out." Alice replied.

Rosalie got to work on my hair, putting in some sort of hair treatment and then blow drying my hair before curling it into loose curls. Alice did my make-up and gave me a Smokey eye look. I sat in the chair for one and a half hours, the drugs had worn off a while ago and the muscle pain was getting worse i tried not to show that i was in pain but i think they took my grimaces and whimpers as protest to how long they were taking.

"Ok you're done, put this dress on, and then you can look in the mirror and get a full effect of the whole look." Alice said handing me a black and blue dress, that didn't look like a dress at all but just a long t-shirt, it was that short, but i didn't protest because the quicker i had the dress on and was ready the quicker they left me alone and i could go to my room and take something, anything just to stop the pain i was in agony, my whole body hurt even the slightest movement would feel like i was being stabbed.

"You can change in here; i don't want you going in the bathroom because there is a mirror in there." Alice said. I took the dress from her and placed it on the bed. Alice then went back to the vanity mirror and blow dried her hair, while Rosalie was sat in the chair doing her make-up. I turned my back to them and quickly took of my dressing gown while they were facing away from me and slipped on the dress. I was right it barely covered anything but i couldn't complain even though it wasn't something i would have picked out myself i couldn't deny that it was a nice dress. I turned around to face them and they both looked at me in shock.

Alice turned the hairdryer off and said "Wow you look gorgeous." I just blushed nobody apart from my parents had ever given me a compliment of how i looked before, my parents were always telling me how pretty or beautiful i was.

"Alice is right, and you have curves, you should show them more often instead of hiding them under those hoodie's you wear." Rosalie said in what i guess was supposed to be a compliment.

"Here put these on." Alice said handing me a pair of black high heels.

"And this." Rosalie said holding a black belt.

I took the shoes from Alice while Rosalie put the belt around my waist. I had to get out of here fast because the pain was getting worse and i was starting to feel sick i really needed to take something. The pain was why i couldn't ever quit, i wouldn't be strong enough to go through so much pain it would literally break me. I had to get out of here fast, but without making them suspicious of me.

"Ok guys well if you're done with me, I'll go back to my room so you can finish getting ready." I said to them and got a nod from them both in reply as they continued getting ready.

I nearly sprinted back to my room, i was in desperate need, and I felt like if I didn't have it now I was going to explode. I ran to my draws and took out the blow i snorted two lines and waited for the shaking to stop before readying the needle to inject the heroin. It took half an hour for the pain and shaking to stop but eventually it did and i threw the used needle and cotton wool away and tidied up my room a bit. It wasn't long before i heard the music playing downstairs and people were arriving.

"Hey Bella, you coming down? People are arriving and the living room is filling up." Edward said as he poked his head around my door.

"Yeah ill be down in a minute." I replied.

"Ok see you down there." He said flashing me his crocked grin that made my heart skip a beat. I don't know what it is with Edward but whenever he is around i feel the need to touch him and be near him, i craved his company and when we did touch i could feel sparks like electricity running through my veins it was almost better than getting high. I made sure that my make-up wasn't smudged and that my dress wasn't creased before heading downstairs and closing the door behind me.

Let the party begin.

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