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Alex's P.O.V

I was awake. In pain, but awake. And I had been for the last half hour. I was officially an idiot. How didn't I know that, that tree wouldn't last forever. And I always jumped on it, and swung off it. Like, duh it would break soon enough. I sighed. I could barely move since I was in too much pain. All I could do was cry. And I did. Well, I could barely do that either, but still. I just had to wait for the doctors to come back and tell me what the heck was going on. They said I had tons of people outside waiting for me. I knew the Grays were there. Hopefully Demi. And of course my family was there. I just wanted to see them so badly. I tried moving, but nothing. It was too hard. It seriously felt like I weighed a tonne or something. It was purely horrible.

A few moments later, the door burst open and in ran the crowd of people. My parents ran over and tackled me with hugs and kisses, and asking if I was okay. I could barely move my legs, so I sat still. I looked over and saw Mitchie. I smiled, and motioned for her to come over. She looked really upset. Probably just scared. She smiled a sad smile, when she saw me telling her to come over. She ran over and wrapped her arms around me, as I did to her. She had gotten up before seven o'clock for me. True friend she is. When we called apart, and motioned for Max and Justin to come over. And they did. First I wrapped my arms tightly around Max, in almost a deathly embrace.

"I'm so glad you're okay." He whispered. I smiled and nodded, and then we pulled apart. I looked over to Justin, and opened up my arms and he ran into them. Gah, he was such a baby. I laughed. Even though Justin and I fight like, all the time. He's my brother. And I love him so much, even if I don't show it. When we pulled apart, I looked slowly up to lock eyes with Nate. It was awkward, that's for sure. I smiled with my eyes, and then used my hand to motion for him to come over. He smiled and walked over and half-sat on the bed so he was facing me. I smiled at him.

"OKAY, maybe we should all go, for just a minute." Justin yelled. Everybody laughed and walked out of the room. Mitchie winked and then Shane wrapped his arm around her shoulder and they walked out with the rest of the pack. Nate turned back around to face me. We didn't say anything. We just sat in pure silence. Finally, he reached over and grabbed my hand and took it in his. I looked up from the hand to his face. I did a small smile. It looked like he was about to say something, but stopped. I flinched at the pain that soared up from my back to my neck. I squirmed as much as I could in pain. Nate noticed.

"Whoa, Alex, you okay?" He asked gripping my hand a bit tighter. I sighed and nodded.

"I-I I'm fine, just sore." I said. He stood up and let go of my hand.

"Oh well, uh, I'll go then." He said. I quickly grabbed his hand and pulled him over.

"No." I said almost too quickly. He looked back. "Please… just say whatever you were going to say." I pleaded. He smiled, shrugged and sat back down. I waited for him to speak. But he didn't. Instead, he pulled something out of his back pocket.

"I, uh, found this," He said and handed me a piece of white paper. I unfolded it and gasped quietly when I saw what was written. It was that stupid note I had written when I felt bad for leaving Nate on the beach. I was tired and didn't know any better… I shouldn't have written it. I closed my mouth, and folded back up the note placing it on the table beside me.

"I'm s-sorry," I began.

"Don't be!" He begged. "Look, Alex. I can't hide my feelings for you anymore… I like you, more then a friend. And even if you don't," He looked at the note "or do like me in that same way, I can't change the way I feel about you." He said placing his hand on my leg. I stared at his hand, long and hard.

"Nate…" I began.

"Yeah?" He asked looking up.

"Why can't I feel your hand on my leg?"

- x -

1 week later

It had been a week, I was home, and I hadn't stopped crying since I found out. I was paralyzed. That meant 'for life' not just a few months or years. It's for the rest of my whole freakin' life. It had hit me really hard. I knew from now on my life was going to change. Dramatically. And every time I saw Nate, he always blames himself for what happened. And I always have to tell him the same thing, over and over again, 'Nate it's not your fault. I was stupid enough to climb a tree on a windy night. Nothing or nobody can change what happened.'

- x -

2 Freakin' Months Later

It was pouring with rain; my parents were at work, brothers and friends at school. I was home alone. I assured my parents I would be okay by myself. I had everything I need upstairs which included food. My brother Justin had a mini fridge in his room… so I stocked it up this morning. He actually can be an okay brother. I'm guessing it's the whole 'paralyzation' thing. That can change people. Oh and by the way, I made that word up. Oh yeah.

I watched as the little drops of water ran down the window of my bedroom. I had a great view outside now. They cut the tree down… as much as I hated the idea of getting rid of the beautiful tree, I knew we had to. I had put my family through hell… the least I could do was allow the tree to be cut down. The good thing was, was that I could see right into the Gray's house... more like, right into Nate's room. When it's not raining he'll sit in his room, and me in mine, and we'll throw a ball to each other. It's great cause if I through it to the side that means Nate would have to run outside and get it, since… you know. Anyways, speaking of Nate. You're probably all wondering, what the heck is going on between us, eh? Well to tell the truth… nothing. We decided to stay friends. Things got weird. Weird is not good. And he and I were doing great as friends. I think he finds it awkward that I can't walk. It's understandable I guess. Mitchie and Shane however, were now officially boyfriend and girlfriend. I gave her snaps for, for snagging an older guy. She kicked me in the shin. This was just plan rude, since I couldn't feel it. I was really happy for her and Shane. They were really great together. And they best thing was, was that she didn't forget about me. We were still best friends. And she and Shane always hung out with Nate and I. Jason hung out with us a lot too, but since we were younger he liked to hang out with people his own age. This was understandable.

I noticed the rain had stopped. I removed my hand from underneath my chin, and unlatched my window. I leaned out a bit, and looked off towards the road. Across the road was the beach. I missed it. I always went there Summer or Winter, whenever I felt like it. Now, I just couldn't. Nate had piggy-backed me down a few times… but I would just kill to be able to feel the sand between my toes.

Yeah being a cripple bites.

I leaned back in and shut the window. I slid over onto my wheelchair and made my way over to my bed. I grabbed onto the bed, with my arms and with all my strength did my best to pull myself up. The only good thing about not being able to use my legs was it made my arms really strong.

I got comfortable onto the bed and sighed. I looked around my room, which was decorated by moi. Suddenly, I spotted something. A book. A Spell book. Why hadn't I thought of this before…? I knew it would be wrong if I found a healing spell, and used it and became fine. I mean what about all the other cripples out there in the world? Would it be unfair?

Oh my!

- x -

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