When the Dark and Light Collide

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Chapter 10:

Say Okay

"Absolutely not!"

"I knew you wouldn't understand," Sarah-Anna cried quietly, putting her face in her hands. "That's why I came to Carlisle."

"Well guess what? Since I am your legal mother I say what goes. And no, no, NO!" I didn't care about the tears running down my daughter's cheek. I wouldn't let her do it.

"But- but… it's not your choice!" Sarah sobbed harder; it felt like a long time since I saw her cry, it felt like a long time since I saw her at all.

"And it's not yours either," I stated, turning away from my daughter. I was embarrassed at her behavior and my cold dead heart. But it was my heart that wouldn't let that happen- not to my daughter.

We were settled in the Cullen's living room, it was beautiful and slick. Sarah and I sat on a black leather couch, across from a blazing fireplace. Carlisle sat on a hard chair to my right and Esme and Jasper were settled on a two-seater to Sarah's left. Alice sat on the ground, in front of Jasper's feet. They were all starring at my daughter and I, watching us argue. I felt like a horrible mother, my daughter had run away to seek help from a family that I hadn't seen in twenty long years and who she herself had never met.

"Bella, you always wanted too," Jasper pointed out.

Sarah-Anna looked up hopefully.

"And that was the worse mistake of my life," I replied bitterly, glaring at Jasper through my golden eyes.

Alice bowed her head, her eyes cast down at the ground. My eyes flickered from Jasper's to her's. "I'm sorry Alice," I whispered sadly. "It was the wrong choice for me, for my life. At the time it was all I wanted, but now… I think it would be better if I had never wanted it."

"Never wanted us either," Alice said quietly.

My eyes clouded over and I bent down to stare at her in the eyes. "That's just not true. I love you Alice." I turned to look at all the Cullen's. "I love you all."

"My life has changed," I continued, slumping down to sit beside Alice. "I moved on since Edward, I started a new life. Not by choice, but because I had too. Because of me, my own husband and his father don't talk. Because of me, the pack doesn't look me in the eye. Because of me, my own human daughter has run across the world to be more like me."

I starred up at Sarah who had her hands out of her face, listening to my speech. "Yes Sarah, I know that's why. I know that if you weren't in our family, if your Grandfather had never died, you would have grown up normal. And I'm not saying that I don't regret having you in my life, you're the best part of it. And I don't regret you knowing about what I am, but I regret being what I am. I don't wish this faith on anyone except someone who doesn't have a chance. I realized then that I knew how Rosalie longed to be human.

"Sarah you have a chance, you can go on and be normal, be human."

"Mom, I don't want to be human."

Suddenly I realized how Edward felt when he didn't want me to change, when he wanted me the way I was. So filled with warmth I used to be, his body pressed up against mine, her hands on my face… it felt so long ago since I had felt warm myself. Oh yes, Jacob made me feel warm- too warm. So hot it burnt my skin. I wanted to be normal, to be human. I wish I had never chosen a side.

"You're father will get worried Sarah-Anna. I think it is time for us to go." I stood up and Carlisle did as well.

"If that is your choice," he nodded, accepting it. "But if you ever want to come by, it's always opened."

"I think it is time that you get down to Norway, Edward will be curious," I said, my eyes getting hard. My stomach hurt just saying his name. It twisted more as I remembered how my heart used to clench by saying his name, when I was human- when my heart still beat on.

Carlisle's eyes widen slightly, he didn't know that I knew Edward had been in England. "My power," I stated simply.

"Like Alice?" Esme asked, just as curious as her husband.

"Something like that… it's a mixture. I see the present in my mind whether how far away someone is. But then I see the future, I see their mind, I feel as they do… I don't quite understand it."

Carlisle's beautiful compassionate eyes shone with wonder. "Fascinating. I wonder if that's the only thing you can do."

"What?" I blinked a few times. "It's the only thing."

"I see," he said simply, and turned away to look at Sarah-Anna. "I am sad to say that I won't get in the way of your mother, if there was no other way I would in a heart beat. But for now, I think it will be her decision."

Sarah nodded without arguing. You could not be mad with such a beautiful face.

"It is time to leave now Sarah-Anna."

She nodded without taking her eyes off of Carlisle. I grabbed her arm and we headed back to the hotel.

My daughter would never become a vampire.

"Do you think it was wrong of me to deny our daughter of her wish?" I turned over on the bed and starred at Jacob's face. He was very stiff with me when we arrived back at the hotel, but his face lightened when he saw Sarah-Anna whole, healthy, and human.

"No, of course not," Jacob stated clearly, with his teeth clenched. "She is staying as she is."

"I know…" I hesitated, it wasn't easy to talk to Jacob about these things. He didn't understand the want to be something. His path was chosen for him before he was even born. A vampire's life was optional. "But… there is already two vampires in this family."

"And that is enough," Jacob growled firmly.

"I'm sure you wouldn't mind if we had another werewolf in the family."

"No werewolf would stay with a vampire."

"I guess your right," I said, turning to my other side to no longer stare at his face. He knew why I was mad, he had said it himself. No werewolf could stand living with a family of vampires- it was just incorrect.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean it like that," Jacob apologized after a long while of silence. "I love you Bella."

"So you say," I grumbled, still not turning to face him.

I felt two very warm arms encircle my waist and Jacob pulled me closer until his chest was warm against my back. "So I know," he stated clearly. He kissed the top of my head and grasped my hands with his and laid them on my stomach. "You believe me don't you?" Jake asked with some surprise, as I didn't respond to his soft flirting.

"Yes," I replied quietly. So to prove it, I brought our linked hands to my lips to kiss lightly.

We lay there as I marveled in his extremely warm hands and felt myself become drowsy. "Aren't you going to say something back to me?" Jake whispered, tickling my ear with his flaming breath.

"I love you too," I muttered, my eyelids closing slowly.

"By the way, where did you go at first at the airport?" My stomach tightened in worry before I fell into unconsciousness.

"Edward! It's so good to see you!" Rosalie greeted, opening the front door with a big smile on her face.

Edward just looked at her with a blank face, confused by his sister's enthusiasm. "Oh hello brother! Nice to see you… act normal, act normal. How's life been Edward? No, no… How's the search? Heard it was bad… Nice weather we got today, don't you agree?… normal, normal," he heard her thoughts say.

"Why normal?" he asked, stepping out of the pouring rain. Emmett appeared with a big cheesy grin on his face. "No change there," Edward mind read.

"Hello Emmett," Edward greeted. Something about the house irked him, it seemed different. "Have you renovated the house? The atmosphere has almost changed." But as he looked around, the furniture was all the same, just how he remembered it.

"Nothin at all mate," Emmett answered, a smile still on his face. Rosalie stood behind him, almost hiding behind his large frame. "That's Mom's job."

"Well… sit down!" Rosalie almost ordered, pushing her brother to the couch. "You've had a long trip."

"Rose, vampires don't get tired," Edward replied, rolling his eyes so Emmett could see. But he sat down as he saw Rosalie's mind frantically saying 'sit down' over and over. "She's probably keeping something from me," Edward thought, almost bored at his sister's attempt at closing her mind.

"How about we go out of the house?" Emmett suggested, after Edward noticed Rosalie jab her husband in the side. "A nice ride on the new jag? Gift I gave to Rosalie."

Edward nodded and stood back up. "I suppose a nice speed would be nice. I haven't rode for a while."

Emmett smiled grinned all to happily. "Could give me some time to talk to him, explain things," Emmett's mind spoke.

Edward stopped. "Explain what?"

Rosalie froze, and starred up at Emmett. "Oh no, he let something slip didn't he? Alice is going to freak."

"Explain how to work the new jag," Emmett said, holding his grin in place. "Let's go."

"Wait… wait…" Edward had just noticed the smell in the air. Usually no one was in the house besides their family. "A human," he thought surprised at the lingering smell. "And… cold… bittersweet smell… two. Two vampires."

Edward looked up at his sister and brother in mild shock. "Visitors lately?"

Emmett smiled sheepishly, Rosalie just sighed in defeat. "A few," she said simply.

"The scent… is new. I have never met these vampires, who are they? And why was there a human here… at the same time?"

Rosalie shook her head. "No, they weren't here at the same time." Edward heard her thoughts, "Just barely."

"Just some curious vampires in the neighborhood," Emmett lied through his teeth.

"Have you alerted Carlisle? He would find this information worthwhile."

"I'm sure he knows now." Rosalie didn't speak out loud.

"The scent. It almost smells familiar. I don't understand, how don't I remember?" "Vampires never forget," Edward reminded himself.

"Ugh, if only she didn't have to ruin everything," Rosalie hissed in her mind. Edward listened intently. "Had to let her stupid daughter mess with our family. How could she? She had no respect for his feelings. It's gonna break him again."

Edward's stomach tightened as he sniffed the air, breathing in deeply. It had a scent like no one else's combined with the vampire smell. Someone's scent he'd never forget. A scent that made him crazy for her blood and her body.

Edward gasped. "Bella."