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Chapter 11: a not so happy ending
Blaine
" we really need to talk" i sighed taking my world history book from my locker. " and this time its not about Ryder, well it sort of is but I'm not digging or anything okay?" i turned around and looked at Marley.
" what is it?" i asked impatiently this was the last class of the day and Ryder and i where going to the movies after school.
" its the glee club" she said i could see the stress in her eyes. " nationals are in less than a week we have no numbers and we are down two members, what are we going to do?"
" yeah that's kind of a new directions thing" i said biting my lip. " its fucked i know but trust me everything will be alright in the end"
" this isn't a television show Blaine" she dead panned.
" so what is your plan because we will never have Brittney back" i said " and Ryder... i don't know"
She sighed and leaned against the locker beside mine. " look if you are worried about unique, i put her in her place last night" i was completely surprised that Marley had found the courage to talk back to unique. She had always seemed like the type to crumble under pressure. " I'm sort of pissed of actually she has been really mean lately and if you even mention Ryder..."
" yeah i learned that" i said " look i know your intentions are good but i just don't see anyone convincing Ryder to come back least of all anyone in the club" i shrugged and began walking to my last class of the day.
" what about you?" she asked i raised an eyebrow and she rolled her eyes. " don't give me that look Blaine, we all know you are the only person he talks too these days, well you and Quinn i guess" i wanted to silence the rumours that he and Quinn had hooked up but it didn't really help our relationship , of which Ryder avoided talking about at all costs. If i said anything it would solidify myself as someone he trusted with that sort of info and thus breeding rumours he was gay. I never thought i would be in a closet relationship considering Kurt and i had been the out and proud poster children, but in Ryder's situation it could well end his life to come out of the closet.
" i don't know Marley, i don't want to step on his toes" i confessed. She groaned irritated.
" Blaine" she said exhausted with my evasiveness. " do you even care about the glee club anymore, we need help and no one seems to care to do anything, even Mr. schue is relaxing as if there is no problem at all, and have you even scene Finn since that party?"
" i do care" i said thinking about Ryder's mother standing in my door glaring at my mother with an accusing finger and bit my lip. " some thins are just more important"
" well i hope you remember that when we get disqualified for the second time this year!" she moaned i let out a small scoff.
" wasn't that your fault?" i asked " the first one i mean?"
" kitty took in my dresses to convince me to think i was fat" she said. " that was serious!"
i turned around to look at her. " so lets get this right, kitty's manipulating you into anorexia was a bad thing to do...?"
" i see where this is going" she said.
" , and it must have hurt after everyone practically blamed you, so why should i convince Ryder to come back to a club where he feels unwanted and uncomfortable?" i said defending him " the glee club is not what it used to be and even what it used to be was sometimes unbearable"
" i just want us all to come together" she said.
" i think that ship has sailed Marley" i walked away.
Ryder
English was a lot easier when i didn't feel like i sucked at it. When we discussed books we where meant to read i never joined in in the discussion i was always afraid someone would think i was stupid but the confidence Mr Rodgers had in me was a boost. And since Blaine and i had dare i say ... did all of our home work on a Friday night and there for shocked all of my teachers. I had a feeling that Blaine was going to make me better in every single way, which only made the reality of him leaving all to real. I hated thinking about it , especially now that we had finally come to terms with our feelings.
" Ryder come here a second" Mr Rodgers said from his seat at the front, everyone else was reading their novel studies. I pulled myself up and walked down the row of desks
" yeah?' i asked.
" so listen" he said with a confident smile. " i pulled a couple of strings and it was a late entry but your story qualified"
" already?" i asked surprised that it had been less than a week. He shrugged.
" like i said , it was late, but i have some pull and it is a great story after all" he said, i could tell he was proud to say the least, not that i had ever had anything of a relationship with my English teacher before he found out i was a good writer.
" so what does that mean?" i asked.
" well it means that you and ten others will be celebrated at a banquet for young writers" i felt a strange sort of pride inside of me when he said that, only ten others in the whole of Ohio and i was one of them, i felt like i had gotten a golden ticket. " the judges will be handing out honers too all of the writers but the winning story wins the check and qualify's to the national writing competition"
" the national writing competition" i mumbled to myself.
" looks like i don't need to do much convincing" he laughed.
" i don't have to read it like out loud do i?"
" no" he said " its just about the writing there will be a program filled with every entry that anyone can buy, so tell your parents, its a whole dress up thing" i frowned at those words, i was not sure this was something i wanted my parents to come too. I'm not sure i could trust them to say sober. I'm not sure i could even trust them to show up, but maybe Blaine would want to go, maybe the Anderson's would all like to go.
" yeah, that would be great" the bell rang shortly after i got back to my desk and i packed up my things once again feeling good about my life.
Blaine was once again outside waiting for me when i left and i couldn't help but smile as we walked together down the hall towards the door to the school, but i could sense the apprehension off of him. " whats up?" i asked he squinted with a shrug.
" i just, i talked to Marley today" i dead panned. " glee club only has ten members, nationals are this weekend in Cincinnati, means we probably will have to forfeit because of lack of members..."
" i get it" i said suddenly feeling the happiness of my success with my story crumble around me. I was still an ass hole to everyone else.
" look..."
" if you are going to ask me to come back don't waste your breath" i said walking towards my locker, he sighed heavy and i rolled my eyes.
" Ryder you have friends in the club, me Sam kitty..." he argued but i was hearing none of it, i didn't want to be in glee.
" that still wouldn't solve your problem, you would still need one more person to make twelve" i pointed out. He shook his head.
" don't mock our failure" he said i rolled my eyes scoffing. I didn't realize he was going to fight with me about this. " I'm still a part of that group even if you aren't"
" so?" i asked.
" so don't you care about me?" the fact that he would ask such a thing was insulting. I didn't understand why he had to just create more drama. " i don't know why i even asked" he rubbed his brow and i frowned. Is that how Blaine truly felt, like he cared about me more then i cared about him? Even if those aren't the words he used what he said displays his feelings. I did care about Blaine a lot, but i have not shown him enough.
" you're right" i said realizing i was being selfish. His head snapped towards me.
" i am?"
" you are" i confirmed he was excited with a mixture of unease.
" so what does that mean?" he asked
" it means I'm going back to glee" i said before my mind caught up with my mouth.
Kitty
i had noticed something about Ryder since that party, but mostly about Ryder and Blaine. It was Wednesday afternoon and in the three days since the weekend their demeanour towards each other had changed completely. They where hooking up, finally, and now as if the heavens above where granting one wish they where walking together into the choir room. I caught a sneer from unique as they walked towards the rest of the group, others looked confused to see Ryder here but i revealed in knowing it was all a matter of time before Blaine had him wrapped around his finger.
" what is that doing here?" unique
" guys Ryder came to my office today and asked if he could rejoin" Mr schue said coming right before the paranas started nipping.
" and you said yes?" Jake protested.
" well considering we are still down one member for nationals we could use all of the good voices we can get" Mr Schue said . " i thought you would be happy Jake" Jake sat there arms crossed.
" but Mr Schue" unique said demanding.
" pipe down wade" i said " we need him more than we need to listen to your drama"
" its unique" she said with a snarl.
" that can easily change, you are still a boy dressed up as a girl" i challenged.
" kitty" Mr Schue warned, i rolled my eyes.
Ryder and Blaine sat beside each other closer to the back and i got up from my chair to join them, Sam i noticed stayed planted amongst Joe and Artie not giving either of them a second glance. I thinned my lip, he had been giving me the same treatment all week.
" so who is preforming first?" Mr Schue asked a very divided group of teenagers. When we all left i had to nearly run to catch up to Sam's speed walk.
" um hello?" i asked feeling i was coming on a little too eager by following him at all, usually i didn't have to work hard to get what i wanted but with Sam its like i didn't even exists. " i was trying to get your attention during that horrendous rendition of criss cross will make you jump jump, all it made me want to do was jump off of a cliff." he smiled trying not to show his amusement at my comment.
" is there something you wanted?" he asked
" um yeah, like why have you been ignoring me all week?" i asked, he stopped and turned.
" look kitty, i don't want you to think, what we did" he stammered, i felt the strangle of humiliation coming on so i frosted over my feelings quickly.
" obviously i would never tell a soul that i had sex with someone as stupid as you" i said carefully like i was talking to a child, he cringed with insult.
" right" he said moving on. I felt like such a bitch but better the bitch then the loser. I left the school heading towards my car, i felt the sting of Sam's rejection and wished i had never gone up to him in the first place.
" kitty" an annoying squeak behind me called, i rolled my eyes and turned towards Marley as she ran towards me. " kitty..."
" i already heard you" i said said plainly. " what is it forest gump"
" I'm going to ignore that" she said exasperated " and say thank you fort stinking up for Ryder today" i wanted to punch her in the face. I didn't do it for her, i did it for him.
" yeah that's great and all but i was thinking i could go back to having a life" i said cutting her off. " seeing as how its after school"
" right well..." she said offended " clearly you would go and shatter any illusion that you might actually be nice"
" trust me when i say..." i said " i truly don't care if you think i am nice or not" she looked at me as if she wanted to say more but decided better of it and walked away.
Marley
" guys we really need to get these dance numbers down if we want to even place a nationals " Mr Schue said standing in front of the group of us. It was Tina in front with me and kitty at her left and right and unique and sugar behind us. We where rehearsing the girls ensemble for c'mon by ke$ha, it was Friday and we had already gone threw the choreography for change your life the finally group number but the solo was still up in the air.
You could cut the tension with air amongst the group but for the sake of glee most of us just dealt with our aggression. Whispers where one of the many things i had had to deal with the last few days no thanks to unique Tina and sugar, we still lacked a 12th member but Mr. Schue as usual didn't care, we would have someone by last period for sure.
Saw you leaning against that old record machine
saw the name of your band written on the marquee
its a full moon tonight so we getting rowdy yeah we gettin rowdy get get getting rowdy
unique took the next part of the song spinning to the front of the pyramid as we all did our dance behind her
c'mon cause i know what i like
and your looking just like my type
lets go for it just for tonight
c'mon c'mon c'mon
It was all going to well, we had it down pat and it had only been three days since we had gotten the songs , i found myself looking around at the other girls who all looked to be having as much fun as i was, i noticed Tina and unique sharing look's and found it almost suspicious. We where coming to the bridge of the song where it was my turn to sing. I belted one last c'mon and then turned to take my place behind the front row and the last thing i remember before excruciating pain was the sneer unique gave me as she passed me,the next thing i knew i was on the ground taking a sharp intake of breath and groaning in pain.
" Marley!" i heard Blaine call but i was in a cocoon of pain, did wade push me , was that why he looked so angry? I had no idea all i knew was that my hip was hurting so badly and i couldn't move for fear that it would hurt me more that it already was.
"Marley are you okay?" Mr. Schue asked rushing threw the girls towards me.
" clumsy" Tina chimed
" hardly" kitty said. " you pushed her"
" excuse me?" i heard unique ask , so she did push me then, why would wade do that?
" you where supposed to walk threw me and Marley but you walked right into her" kitty said " i watched you do it , you where smiling"
" its not my fault the bitch walked right into me!" unique said " and I'm preforming you bet your ass i am smiling"
" marley are you going to be okay, do you need an ambulance?" Mr Schue asked concerned, weather that concern was for me or for the clubs national chances was a mystery. My heart was saying i was going to just get up and walk it off but the pain was urging me otherwise.
" yes" i caved. I knew this was serious.
" what if she is seriously injured unique?" Sam asked " then we can kiss nationals goodbye"
" good, that will just mean your glee club days are over" she said with sass " i still have two years honey"
" so do i" kitty challenged.
" then you better watch your back" Blaine clearly having Huguenot decided to stand as well.
" Mr Schue how are you standing for this?" he asked outraged. " this group is divided down the middle and you don't even care!"
" how much longer are you going to let this bullying last?" kitty yelled
" that's rich coming from you" Tina accused.
" shut it Tina Cohen Chang" she spat back
" all of you stop it now" Mr Schue said mortified. " the glee club has always been able to come together and ..."
" another glee club" Joe said randomly " another time" . Mr Schue paged for the nurse to call an ambulance and the club sat there in silence waiting to find out the fate of myself and the fate of the club.
Blaine
Marley left on a stretcher, not without a few wales of pain, the rest of us dwindled until there was only myself, Ryder, sugar, kitty, and Sam sitting there with Mr Schue leaning against the piano with his hand firmly covering his mouth and jaw, thinking.
" Mr Schue... what happens now?" sugar asked, clearly of the three conspirators Sugar was the only one who felt genuinely bad, it was a shame though that between her unique and Tina she was remarkably the worst singer of the three by a long shot.
" i don't know sugar" he said " most times... I'm just not sure, you guys should go home, don't worry about the club" i felt defeated.
" but what about the ones who don't have a club to come back to next year?" i asked getting emotional. " what about Sam and myself and Joe and Artie and even Tina?"
" what do you want me to do Blaine?" he asked spiteful. " if Marley has a broken hip she cant preform we where already down a guy there is no way we can replace one of our strongest singers, new directions is over for 2013 I'm sorry..."
It was like my world was shattering all around me, new directions failed, the glee club had failed like it never had before and we where not going to get the happy ending that we had before. I felt the tears nipping at my eyes and stood running from the room. I heard the squeak of sneakers behind me and found both Sam and Ryder.
" dude" Sam said " its all good"
" nothings good!" i yelled " we tried to fix it, Ryder tired" i looked at the boy i admired so much, the boy that put aside his differences, the boy who stands strong against his demons.
" some people are better then other people" Sam said honestly " it might sound rude but its true, some people just have better hears then others"
Ryder nodded and i smiled sadly biting my lip. " i just wish... i don't know" i truly didn't know , did i wish we could all be friends? No , honestly i don't want to be friends with some of the people in glee and that's just the way it is, but i do wish we could have come together for the greater good. That was something Finn Hudson had inspired more than once in his glee career and it made me sad that i was a part of a group that could not see past their own selfish needs, that it took me so long to see the good in people like Ryder and even kitty who was stalking towards us. It was endearing that she was never overly excited or angry or sad but just in a constant state of nonchalance , she had no one to impress and cared nothing for other peoples opinions and for some reason she reminded me of my cat.
" for what its worth, i don't think it would feel right winning next to someone like unique" she said as if she had heard the conversation from all the way down the hall. " she is a wolf in sheep's clothing and that will eventually reveal its self"
I shared a deep intense look with Ryder and sam looked oddly at us back and fourth. "okay so I've gotta say something" he said breathing deeply. " i saw you guys like sleeping Sunday morning and i know you are together because its kind of obvious so i would like it if you could at least not pretend around me because i think its just awkward whenever you look lustfully into each others eyes while still trying to keep the illusion that you are just friends and it would be less awkward if you just came out with it..."
" is that it?' kitty chirped.
" pretty much" he said " I'm glad i got that off of my chest"
Ryder blushed profusely looking rather turned off about the idea that other people besides me knew he was gay kitty looked uninterested and shrugged. " I've been convinced since last Friday..."
i grabbed his hand in mine and he looked at me as if to scold me and then looked around the empty hallways, it was almost five so no one was around and i felt his hand loosen comfortably and he relaxed into the grip
" so that wasn't so bad" Sam said " wanna go get some dinner or something?"
" do you ever stop thinking about food?" kitty asked
" not when its so close to one of the for daily meals" he said
" four?' Ryder asked
" breakfast lunch dinner and the midnight munchies" we all started walking threw the halls towards the exit once we walked outside though Ryder took his hand from mine, it felt a little soar but i understood.
" i could go for some bread-sticks" i said. It was a little odd that this was my new group. I never envisioned myself ever spending this much time with kitty or Ryder at the beginning of this school year yet here i was about to go to dinner with them on a Friday night.
" cool so you and Ryder in your car and I'll ride with kitty?"Sam asked it was clear he had a bit of a crush on kitty, clearly he liked girls who made fun of him kind heatedly, he told me once that Santana had not been that bad of a girlfriend for the time they where together and that after he found out that she was only dating Dave Karofsky as his beard he had even considered getting back with her but then he found Mercedes and she found the closet door.
" you've been quiet" i said, Ryder shrugged buckling his seat belt.
" I'm not elated about the rapid speed in which i am coming out to people" he said i frowned, i know this is new for him but it was just kitty and Sam whom i felt i could trust, Sam because he was my best friend and kitty for other reasons i couldn't quite put my finger on.
" i get that" i said understanding. " but i don't think we have anything to worry s about with them"
" that i can deal with, i guess..." he said " its something else, i cant help but feel like all of this is my fault" i touched his hand and he sighed.
" its not your fault Ryder" i said pulling his hand to my lips.
" well i know you would say that" he said still in doubt.
" no, I'm not just saying it because i like you better then any of them or any of that" i said " unique was the ice berg that sank the glee ship, you where just her point of contact" i assured him.
" that was a ridiculous metaphor" he said widening his eyes, i kissed his cheek starting the car.
" Ryder you didn't screw up anything" i said " in fact you are the best person in the glee club that there ever was"
" now i know you are just saying that..." he said
" yeah now i am just saying that" i gushed.
Ryder and i got to the restaurant a full forty minutes before kitty and Sam leaving us to make up all sorts of hilarious stories as we made out in the back seat of my car. It was kitty lightly tapping on the widow that made us realize how easily we could have gotten caught but the flirting was at a high and we realized some kissing had to be done. Sam moaned that it was time better spent waiting for a table but the fifteen minute wait was not so bad and kitty managed to order alcohol with a fake id. " you are my favourite person to do anything with" Sam said to her.
afterwards we went bowling where me and Ryder beat kitty and Sam despite Sam's bragging that he was the best bowler at McKinley.
" 242" i said loudly upon getting out of my car. Sam rolled his eyes walking from kitty's car.
" next time" Sam warned. I had invited the group back to my house under the pretences that it was a Friday night.
" your mom is adorable" kitty said in that way where you couldn't tell if she was being serious sitting down at the foot of my bed. " and i have to say, you have a nice digs"
" thank you?" i said she looked at me for a cold second and then grinned.
" you're welcome"
Sam spotted my guitar and started playing and the rest of the night we jammed singing our favourite songs and encoring our favourite glee performances, Ryder confessed he wanted to hear me sing against all odds again granted the words meant so much more now that i was singing it to him. Sam and kitty left together some time around 1 my mother gushed seeing Sam back at the house, she always thought he was good looking. When it was just Ryder and i sitting on the end of my bed i feared he would leave next. " do you have to go?"
" i don't want to" i couldn't help my excitement, he had stayed home all week i knew his mother was being a little more lenient on Ryder now that people may suspect her husband and her are abusive towards him, but still knowing that he is always at risk of getting hurt didn't help my sleep, i had noticed i had gotten my most comfortable sleeps when he was lying next to me, safe.
" good" i said, i didn't want to dig , i didn't want to ask what his excuse was i was content just knowing he was going to be here with me.
" your mom is asleep right?" he asked with a evil grin i nodded. " why don't we go swimming?" the idea was good because it was so hot getting closer to the end of the school year.
" but you don't have a bathing suit" i pointed out wondering if the alternative was what he had in mind.
" do i actually need one?" he said crossing the room and beginning to climb the stairs i blushed and followed slowly, i was thanking god my parents bedroom faced the street. When we reached the yard it was dark enough for us to slip out of our cloths and slip into the pool quietly. At first i couldn't see Ryder in the darkness but my eyes eventually adjusted and i could see his silhouette lined by the stars. I walked over to him he was leaning against the side looking up into the stars. " you know for the first time... its like my life feels good" it was happy to hear and sad all the same. I wrapped my arms around him from behind and leaned in his shoulder.
" I'm happy you're happy" i said.
"... its because of you" he said " you are the reason i am still here" i felt my heart clench i didn't like hearing him say things like that.
" what does that mean?" i asked he raised an eye brow.
" what?" i knew he wasn't confused.
" you wouldn't be here?" i asked " what does that mean?" he just looked up and then shrank under water coming back up his hair wet and sticking to his forehead. Was he evading the truth of his statement?
" i wouldn't be here in this place" he said " with you" i felt the heat of humiliation at knowing he was not being entirely honest. It was something i felt wrong about letting go but here and now there was not much i could say based on one sentence.
" here we are" i said with a forced smile, i really couldn't put anything into words without my true feelings showing so i just decided to float out to the deeper end of the pool. He stood at the end of the shallow end like a lost puppy. " come here" i said he shrugged standing there " what are you waiting for?" i asked confused as to why he was just standing there.
He turned away. " i... i cant swim" i looked at him like he couldn't be serious.
" yes you can" i said " just..." i swam to the far wall all the way at the end of the deep end. " swim to me, I'm not going to let you drown Ryder" he looked at me unsure and i dead panned. " you can swim Ryder" i encouraged from the other end of the pool. he walked deeper and deeper until it was too deep to stand and he went under, i could see his legs violently kicking and he was treading making sure his head stayed above the water, he was struggling for sure but he was making his way closer to me none the less.
" Blaine... i... i cant... i need you" he said panicked i could see his momentum was fading and his head was getting closer to the surface of the water. I decided he had swam far enough and went out to bring him back to the wall with me, when he clung to me i felt his penis brush against mine which only caused me to grow hard slowly. " thank you" he said holding my shoulders desperately. He closed the gap joining our lips.
Saturday morning i woke happily in Ryder's protective aquatically inept arms and yawned stretching against his chest, his breathing was still steady as he lay there. As usual i walked up the stairs to find my mother hidden behind the news paper " morning mom"
" now Blaine just because i was in Thailand doesn't mean i have gotten anything changes done to my body" i heard a male voice say. My eyes widened in excitement and awe.
" dad?" the newspaper came down and i came face to face with my father who looked both happy to see me and amused to punish me no doubt.
" yes it is me" he said " i know i feel like a stranger being gone for the last three weeks but i am still alive and still your father... so i know you would never break any of my rules" clearly he had come down stairs before i had woken up and i was in deep shit.
" how long have you been home anyway?" i asked nervous with a grin of optimism.
" long enough to see my son stuck to the chest of one of the boys from your glee club" he said.
" i don't suppose you could just let it slide this time only?" i asked " i mean i am turning 18 soon"
" but how old is Ryder?" he asked catching me in a situation. He was 16 but he had just turned 16 in April i said nothing. " i rest my case."
" okay how do you even know his name anyway?" i asked incredulously. I was not the type of kid who got into a lot of trouble.
" i forced details from your mom" he said " frankly i think your mother is to soft"
" cant you just be happy i have moved on from Kurt and found someone i really like?" i asked hoping he would just let it go.
" i am happy you have moved on" he said " but that doesn't change the talk i am going to be having with both of you after you wake him him up in about five minutes.
" dad is that really necessary?" i asked . " you never did this with Kurt"
" that's because when i first met Kurt he made us home made pot stickers and lettuce wraps" he justified. " the first time i am going to be meeting Ryder will be after he slept next to you in your bed... topless... doing god knows what"
" we haven't had sex" i confessed.
" well that is reassuring, considering i have only been gone for three weeks and before that i wouldn't have known him from any other generic named boy from your school." It was hard to think of Ryder as just another generic person. " but that's enough, go wake him up now" i sulked dreading the next few minutes i got to the top of the basement stairs and stopped turning around.
" why did you come down to my room in the first place?" i asked he frowned but i wanted to know.
" to give you the rain stick i got you that i am not sure i want to give to you now" he said. I smirked continuing down the stairs.
" fair enough" i said preparing myself for the most awkward conversation of my entire life.
A/N: okay you got me, its not the end of the story, but it is the end of the glee club, i hope you enjoyed this speedy update and one of my longer chapters too, as i said before this story is going to start taking a much darker turn, Unique's assault on Marley is just the beginning of it, Ryder and Blaine are going to have a rocky summer. Also Finns death in the chapters to come. Please review and follow.