=Brittany=
Five hours in the car with Santana and her mini me can give anyone a headache. "Lucas stop it. Mami, Lucas won't keep his gross fake snake off of me"
"Lucas stop pestering you sister." Santana says firmly. Lucas sits in his booster like he did nothing but the big grin on his face says something different. I was supposed to be getting some sleep but while I was driving everyone else was sleeping so now they're getting cranky from being in the car so long.
"It's not touching you." he says holding the snake to the side of her face annoyingly close. Lucky we were only about two hours away from home.
"So are you excited that Sasha just volunteered you to be his partner for the ballroom dancing class." I rolled my eyes, I didn't mind, but teaching grown ups was just out of my comfort zone. Sasha did need a female partner though because our students ranged from age 14 to 82 and Mike can't keep a straight face when he tried to dance with him and I get the giggles when it's Mike and I, mostly just because we've known each other so long. I just hope that we don't get any very old fashion elderly because Sasha couldn't act straight if his life depended on it. It was funny to see him try. It's as bad as when parents try to act hip but their hip was 20 years ago.
He also booked us at the theater barely running it by me first. Sasha was annoying in that since. Assuming that I had nothing better going on than to be his female dancing partner to appel better to a wider audience and Patrick wasn't the best dancer. I did want to dance the higher level dances than my kids. I stilled show my most advanced things at the very beginning of the program but most of the time they just scared the preschoolers. The point of it was to show them what they could be doing with years of practice if they really wanted it.
It was easier to focus on Sasha and dance than what really was going on in my head. Everything I learned from Mr. Opel was still loud and up front. I couldn't the the images out of my head and it made me nauseous thinking about the things grown men did to a child. 'Something should have been done earlier because she went through so much; she could have been spared all the pain. You may not be able to change the past but you can prevent it from happening again; Kill your children to spare them that pain. Kill them before a bad guy hurts them.' Cricket whispers in ear.
I tense up trying to avoid a meltdown in front of the kids. He continued grumbling in my ear. I didn't realize I was mumbling until I felt Santana's hand on my knee. " Do we need to stop?" I couldn't answer luckily my pumpkins came to the rescue.
"Mami, I need to go pee" Sadie says through grogginess from another nap.
"I do too." Lucas adds.
"Well looks like we're stopping." Santana says taking the next exit. We stood outside the bathrooms, while our babies were doing their business. "So quickly sum up what's going on." She says, I knew she didn't want the kids to find out that I'm crazier than they already knew.
"He's telling me to kill them so they don't have to go through what you did. He's scaring me San and what if 'that one' comes back. I don't know if I can fight them both. Cricket is easy but the things he's saying make sense and that's what scares me." By the end of the rant my voice was cracking.
"Shh...it's ok you're not going to hurt them for one we are both really light sleepers for two I don't think you can, manipulating voices or not." She hugs me for a minute rubbing small circles on my back. "Better?" I nod and wipe my tears in time for Lucas to skip out of the mens room. Then Santana and I went in turns as she didn't want to leave either of the kids unattended. They were asking for sweets and I broke saying they each can pick something.
The voices were gone for now but I knew they would be back. Maybe not anytime soon but there was no avoiding it they always came back. Each time with better arguments for me to kill my family. It was really scary.
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AN: Just another short chapter still trying to work on getting back to the one shots as I have a few ideas for those. I'm working on my proofreading but I know there will probably still be mistakes that I have missed. Please Review and I'll get the next chapter out as soon as I can.